Getting rid of my notions by truly practicing
墨尔本：王鹏; Melbourne：Paul Wang
Greetings revered Master!
Greetings fellow practitioners!
I feel ashamed that it was only through hints from Master and the encouragement of fellow practitioners that I began to write a sharing article.
I was moved deeply by Master’s three new articles. I gained a deeper understanding of the seriousness of cultivation, and particularly the harm that can be caused if we treat cultivation with human attachments, notions and emotions.I was determined to catch up with the process of Fa-rectification.
Part1. Finding Human Attachments through Sickness Karma
On September 15 this year, I flew to Toowoomba, Queensland with the members of the Celestial Band to participate in the Carnival of Flowers Parade.
Before we left, I offered incense to Master and asked him to strengthen my righteous thoughts to fulfill my mission. Although there were a few twists and turns, everything went smoothly with our righteous thoughts.
I got home that night and went to work on Monday and everything was normal. However, after I went to bed on Monday night, I suddenly woke up with severe abdominal pain. I ran to the toilet, thinking maybe I had eaten something bad and a trip to the toilet would solve the problem, but the pain just got worse and worse. I screamed in the toilet and my wife got up and asked me to send righteous thoughts. I kept reciting the Fa-rectification verses and thinking: I am a disciple of Master Li Hongzhi and won’t accept any other being’s arrangements.
Time passed by, but the pain didn’t go away. It got more and more painful, and my clothes were drenched in sweat. Then, after about 30 minutes, the pain began to ease. I knew it was only due to Master’s protection that I was able to pass this test. Because I didn’t get much rest that night, I asked for sick leave from work the next day and planned to take a day off.
However, the abdominal pain came back. Although it was not as bad as the night before, I noticed I had blood in my stool. This happened twice. My fear and human notions surfaced and my righteous thoughts started to crumble. I thought to myself that I used to get through sickness karma very quickly in the past but this time was different. I thought I should go to a doctor. When I was waiting at the clinic, when it was my turn to see the doctor, he just skipped right over me and called the next patient instead. I realised that this was Master’s way of enlightening me, and my enlightenment quality was really poor. So, I left the clinic immediately, and went back home to study the Fa and do the exercises.
While doing the exercises, Master’s Fa from Zhuan Falun came to my mind: “The cultivation practice in our Falun Dafa avoids using this method of one energy channel bringing hundreds of energy channels into motion. From the very beginning, we require that hundreds of energy channels be opened up and make simultaneous rotations.”
How can I be sick if hundreds of energy channels are opened up? Didn’t I treat myself as an everyday person? Isn’t Dafa supernormal? Do I really believe from the depths of my heart that Dafa and Master are omnipotent? Have I really let go of life and death and left things up to Master? Is my cultivation still at the surface level? If I don’t change my heart, then everything I do is just for others to see, but can I fool the gods? How can I attain a True Fruition if I don’t eliminate my human notions and thoughts? Even though I studied Master’s Fa every day, when I ran into xinxing tests and problems, I kept treating them with human attachments and thoughts.
When I understood the whole thing based on the Fa and put down all my worries and concerns, I felt really light and peaceful. The next day the symptoms of blood in my stool completely disappeared. I deeply feel that Master is right beside us and watches over us. We stumble along the path of validating the Fa because we don’t have 100 percent faith in Master and Dafa and we trip over all kinds of human attachments.
Although I passed the test under Master’s protection, I knew as a Dafa disciple in the Fa-rectification period, I must have had some loopholes that were exploited by the evil, because nothing happens by chance.
Master said in Expounding on the Fa (Essentials for Further Advancement): “When a tribulation arrives, if you, a disciple, can truly maintain an unshakable calm or be determined to meet different requirements at different levels, this should be sufficient for you to pass the test. If it continues endlessly and if there do not exist other problems in your xinxing or conduct, it must be that the evil demons are capitalizing on the weak spots caused by your lack of control. After all, a cultivator is not an ordinary human. So why doesn’t the side of you that is your original nature rectify the Fa?”
Master’s new article came to my mind.
Master said in the article Cultivation in Dafa Is Serious : “When some people first began practicing cultivation, their hearts were very steadfast. However, there are some who, in the course of their cultivation, still have trouble letting go of the various kinds of attachments they formed over the long term, and as time goes on, some people have started slacking off; and on top of that, they get busy with work and haven’t managed their home environments well, so they have even less time to study the Fa and do the exercises; and although they occasionally participate in some group activities, they’re not able to be diligent. Over time, they are no longer like a cultivator at all and even start doing things practitioners shouldn’t do. If it continues like this, it will be very dangerous!”
When I looked at myself, wasn’t Master’s Fa pointing out my problems?
I obtained the Fa at the beginning of the persecution, so my personal cultivation was mixed with clarifying the truth and validating the Fa. Although I have cultivated under pressure for more than 20 years, a lot of my human attachments have not been eliminated. They were suppressed due to the pressure of the external environment and my preoccupation with Fa-validation projects. As the environment became more relaxed, I slacked off in my cultivation and allowed all kinds of attachments to grow, for example, the attachments to fame, personal gain, jealousy and lust.
In His Fa teachings, Master has spoken many times about the impact that the decline of human moral standards has on the salvation of sentient beings at the final stage. As practitioners cultivating among everyday people, we are soaked in feelings and emotions and are constantly exposed to all kinds of tangible and intangible pollution. Although Master has separated the side we have cultivated well, our un-cultivated side is still exposed to the corrupting influence of this world. If we fail to recognize the great responsibility and be strict with ourselves, we will drift with the flow of everyday people and could be dragged down.
Master said in Zhuan Falun : “And as a higher being you should go by a higher logic; you mustn’t always look at things with an ordinary lens. You are apt to mishandle things if you intervene, since you may not know the underlying reasons for them.”
When I read the above Fa once again, I asked myself if I had ever thought about the seriousness of Dafa cultivation. While cultivating in this beguiling place, we can create great sinful karma because of the slightest carelessness. In the eyes of all beings in the cosmos, once a Dafa disciple with the mission of assisting Master in Fa-rectification relaxes his cultivation, he will undoubtedly be committing a crime.
Part2. Renewed Understanding of “Cultivating as if You Were Just Starting”
Master mentioned many times in Fa teachings that “Cultivate as you did in the beginning, and you are sure to succeed.” I found it very hard to return to that state and it really bothered me. After reading Mater’s three new articles, I was awakened and realized that the reason I wasn’t cultivating as I did in the beginning was because my understanding about cultivation and its seriousness has changed dramatically.
Looking back at my cultivation path, when I first obtained the Fa, I was so excited after reading Zhuan Falun three times. I was so happy that I jumped on the bed. I felt that this was what I had been waiting for, and I was determined to cultivate diligently in this lifetime. I was determined to return home with Master.
I felt I was different from others when walking in the university campus. When I encountered problems, I always tried to remember what Master said about this situation in Zhuan Falun. I couldn’t put the book down. Studying Zhuan Falun everyday was not enough for me, so I transcribed the book several times. I used Dafa to evaluate my behaviour and worried that I would do something wrong and dishonour Dafa and Master.
However, with the passage of time and the relaxation of the environment, the kind of eagerness to cultivate well slowly faded. I didn’t seem to care that much about eliminating human attachments when facing tests, and I kept finding excuses for the remaining attachments. When I started to take cultivation seriously, I once again felt the magic of Dafa.
While helping to promote Shen Yun in Adelaide this year, I accidentally sprained my right wrist when carrying Shen Yun’s luggage into the theatre. I didn’t think about it much at the time. After the performances I still had dull pain in my wrist from time to time, especially when I held heavy objects. One night, in a dream, a person appeared in front of me, suddenly grabbed my right hand, and then yanked it. I clearly heard a click sound and my right wrist felt very comfortable. When I woke up, my right wrist was still warm, and I once again understood that Master has been taking care of disciples all the time.
Part3. Letting Go of Human Notions Brings Miraculous Results
For some time now, I haven’t been able to truly cultivate myself, so I found my human notions have gotten stronger and stronger. From the illusion of sickness karma to difficulties in Fa-validation projects, every tribulation seemed so real to my human side. I was accustomed to using human notions to try to solve problems in cultivation. I evaluated everything I faced with human notions and measured right and wrong on the human level, instead of evaluating things with Fa and finding my attachments in conflicts to improve myself. In the long run, it will affect my ability to save sentient beings and the advancement of my cultivation.
We are cultivating in human society, and how to balance work, Dafa projects as well as Fa-study and exercises is a challenge which we have to face every day. Sometimes, after finishing taking care of the family and studying the Fa, it was already very late. At those times, my human notions would tell me that if I got up too early the next day to do the exercises, it may affect my work and life that day. When I let human notions dominate my life, the law of the human level would take effect, and the manifestation was that I still felt tired even if I had enough sleep.
Sometimes, when I had to take care of the family as well as finish Dafa projects in a short period of time, human notions would tell me it was impossible to do both and it would be better to postpone the projects. Upon realizing that those are acquired human notions, I began to let go of them. When I encountered a problem, I would not rush to say “no”, but tried to balance everything as best as I could. After I changed myself, I found that I could finish everyday tasks quickly and had enough time to complete Dafa projects.
Master said in Zhuan Falun: “Let me give you an example. In Buddhism, it is said that every phenomenon in human society is illusory and unreal. How are they illusions? Real and concrete physical objects are placed right here, so who would claim that they are false? A physical object’s form of existence appears like this, but the way it actually manifests is not. Our eyes, nonetheless, have the capability to stabilize physical objects in our physical dimension to the state that we can see now. The objects are not actually in this state, and they are not in this state even in our dimension.”
I realized that when a project encountered difficulties, it was time for me to improve my enlightenment quality and let go of more human attachments. It was also the time to test whether I can truly believe in Dafa and Master.
Part4. Understanding Writing Sharing Articles Based on the Fa
I haven’t been able to understand the matter of writing Fahui sharing articles based on the Fa. I felt that I didn’t cultivate diligently and didn’t do the three things well, so I was too ashamed to write a sharing. Only diligent practitioners should share their experiences. In essence, I was still treating cultivation with human attachments, with a deeply hidden attachment to fame. I thought that doing things well gave you the right to brag about your cultivation and understanding of the Fa in front of other practitioners.
One night when I was ready to go to bed, I saw my wife typing on the computer at the end of the bed. I asked her what she was doing and why she wasn’t asleep at this late hour. She replied that she was writing a sharing article. A thought flashed through my mind at the time: “Forget about it. I am busy every day and I don’t know what to write.” It was only after Master hinted to me in a dream that made me realize the importance of writing sharing articles.
In a dream, I went to a Fahui with a lot of fellow practitioners. We boarded a bus which would take us to the venue. There were many empty seats on the bus and a lot of practitioners didn’t get on. Then a practitioner asked me if I would get on the bus. I replied that I didn’t buy a ticket and it was not nice to occupy other people’s seats. I said I would drive to the venue. The bus drove away in front of my eyes.
When I was ready to drive my car, I couldn’t find the keys. I had to run back to the dormitory to get them. However, when I got the keys, I couldn’t find the Fahui ticket. I was agitated like an ant on a hot pan.
When I woke up, I was very upset because I felt that I had missed the Fahui. Then I suddenly realized that Fahui tickets are issued to genuine practitioners and our sharing articles are like the completed exam papers we submit to Master, aren’t they? Thinking about this, I no longer dared to use all kinds of excuses to shirk the task of writing an article.
Thank you Master!
Thank you, fellow practitioners!