師父在講法中開示：“自己也在修，也捨不下大法，確實在修。但是，並沒有那麼用心，也就是說不精進，這不行呀！” “因為這是大法，大家要知道珍惜他。他給予你的是小道所無法給予你的，所以你就應該相應的用同等心去對待他。” 
English translation of the sharing:
Keeping the Fa in My Heart, Putting the Fa First
By Young Chinese practitioner in Melbourne
Greetings revered Master!
Greetings fellow practitioners!
In Teaching the Fa at the Conference in New Zealand (May, 1999), Master said:
“Although you are cultivating and you can’t leave Dafa, you haven’t really devoted yourself. In other words, you are not advancing with diligence. That’s not going to work!”“ Since this is Dafa you should know to cherish it. What it gives you are things that minor paths could never give you, so you should in turn treat it with due care.”
Upon reading this, I felt ashamed when I thought about my own practice. For a long time, I hid my attachment to comfort and thought a lot about an everyday person’s life. Today, I still haven’t been able to remove it.
No.1: Treat Fa “With Due Care”, Overcome the Attachment to Comfort
I am a person who is afraid of “pain”. Since I was a child, I’ve been regarded as a hard-working student. However, only I know that deep down I was afraid that if I didn’t work hard when I was little, I would be an old beggar when I grew up. I was willing to eat less and sleep less to finish my homework, or work overtime, so that later I could enjoy the peace and no disturbance on my days off. The joys of a materialistic life became a stumbling block in my journey to becoming a solid cultivator.
After I had formally started practicing in Dafa, I was still reluctant to change some of my ways, such as seeking free time for recreational activities and enjoying a stable life. Sometimes, certain thoughts would come up in my mind, like “what would I like to do today? What shall I have for dinner?”
Driven by my pursuit of aesthetic beauty, my human side would also worry: “what if I became overweight by eating too much? Shall I workout then?” Hence, I planned an “ideal” life for myself.
When I meditated in the double-lotus position, my legs would go numb at around forty minutes. I would usually end my meditation at this point. I found that this was the result of having a lack of patience, and in seeking quick success and instant benefits. One day, just as I was about to give up again, I suddenly thought to myself, “when I went to the gym, I was determined to push on, even though I struggled, but now I’m giving up so easily with the practice.” I felt guilty after reflecting on my attitude.
That day, I endured the pain until the end and finished the one-hour meditation together with my family member. Master’s words were spoken to me through my family member:
“Think about it, when you cultivate well few beings in the gigantic cosmos turn bad and few of them get weeded out. And when you return, they will truly regard you as their Lord, their King, and have boundless reverence for you, because you saved them, you sacrificed for them, and you gave them everything they have.” (Touring North America to Teach the Fa, March 2002).
The weakness that came with my attachment to comfort was frightening. While it is Master’s compassion and mercy that has allowed me to cultivate during this precious time, by failing to treasure this opportunity could lead to the disintegration of myself and to a certain segment of the cosmos.
Master said, “But the explosion in the cosmos is such that in an instant, everything disintegrates, and nothing is left. That’s of course terrifying. It’s extremely terrifying.” (Teaching the Fa at the Conference in New Zealand, May 1999).
I felt ashamed upon reading this. Only then did I truly realise that Dafa cultivation is serious, and so is the mission of a Fa-rectification disciple. A slight deviation alters the final destination. A careless misstep of one’s will can bring irreparable mistakes. I enlightened that those so-called wishes, such as what I want to wear, or what I don’t like to eat, are not what my true being wants. Now, whenever I struggle with weight gain and ask myself whether I should be dieting or exercising, I ask myself “have I been pursuing comfort again recently? Am I obsessed with material enjoyment?”
At this critical stage of Fa-rectification cultivation, Master granted me a precious opportunity by arranging for me to join Melbourne’s newspaper project. Since then, I was granted the skills to help the world make the right choice between Dafa and evil communism. However, I was still prone to comfort and wanted to take a vacation after completing the work allocated by the coordinator.
Last August, I was assigned to report on a Hong Kong rally in Melbourne. The story was published in the Chinese language website later that day. The story was well-received and got more than 106,000 page views in just over a day. When I heard about this, I was delighted. I was not only surprised, but I had a sense of self-satisfaction. Over the following days, I re-read the article over and over again, to remind myself of my achievement. I was always wondering if there was anything new in the comments section.
As a result, I was more confident in myself and relaxed. Just like the proud hare in the story of “The Tortoise and the Hare”, I often approached projects with the idea of “just do this one thing well” rather than “how can I do more and better work”. I would also be satisfied with this so-called “relaxed” life, and often “comforted” myself and I would think “I have done well, this is enough.”
I did not realise at that time that the attachment of comfort needs to be removed. An incorrect notion, when not removed, can stir a peaceful heart and end up controlling the mind. It can become harder to remove if one does not want to part with it. This has been reflected in my daily activities, such as watching online videos during breaks or shopping online. In fact, the real “peace” and “beauty” would be for purity, non-blockage, and naturally ease. This belongs to my original nature, which I once had and should really be searching for now.
Also, I often had the idea that, as long as I take cultivation “seriously”, study the Fa, do the exercises, and cultivate my inner nature, Master will make the best arrangements for me, such as: wealth, good life, good luck, etc. I seemed to be asking for what I want, without openly asking for it. On the surface, I tried my best in everything I did, not focussing on what I gained or what I lost. But deep down inside, I still had some expectations of “gaining something naturally”. This is disrespectful to the Fa and makes it difficult for me to free myself from this low level, material world. Practitioners are naturally rich in wisdom, virtue, and good fortune, but these are far from the fundamental purpose of cultivation.
As I gradually looked deeper into this incorrect thought, I saw an inappropriate attitude towards Fa study. I found that I tended to concentrate during Fa study only when I was suffering through Xinxing tests, as if I had to learn the Fa to give myself a “reassurance pill”, untie the knot in my heart, and find the answer that everyday people and society could not give me.
Master said, “The fact that nothing in ordinary society is attractive to cultivators is because a cultivator’s realm is higher than that of an ordinary person.” (Teaching the Fa at the Conference in New Zealand, May 1999)
So, am I not asking for it, wanting it, and pursuing an everyday life? Then what is my purpose of practising? Where did I place Dafa in my heart?
Dafa has given me a lot, but have I treated my practice and Fa-rectification “with due care”?
What I truly appreciate is that since I joined the media after graduation, Master arranged for fellow practitioners to facilitate my daily Fa study and exercises. In the past year and a half, I have continued to memorise the Fa every day. I have come to feel that carrying the Fa in my heart, and always putting the Fa first has helped me to choose wisely and easily.
In the following, I would like to share with my fellow practitioners my understandings and improvements regarding to “fame” and sentimentality.
No.2: Sentimentality and Pre-destiny
When I was a student, I seemed more mature than most of my classmates, I wasn’t too keen on chasing movie stars, watching dramas or variety shows. After I started practicing in Dafa, I thought I wouldn’t have a strong feeling about love between a man and a woman.
However, overlooking my attachment to comfort nurtured my sexual attraction and desire.
Sometimes, when I come across stimulating information from the outside world, I would have a vision in my mind of what kind of person I will meet in the future, and how I should behave when I meet him.
When mentioning the word “Yuan” in “Pre-destined relationship” (yuan fen), Master said,
“Yet if you treated him very well in the previous life, and he swore to do whatever it takes, even becoming your beast of burden, in order to repay you in the next life, he will then perhaps become your beast of burden in the next life. She might become your wife, or he might become your husband. Or perhaps he becomes the person who helps you greatly.”
“In my view, everything has been predetermined. Human beings are only carrying out their responsibilities according to what was predetermined.” (Teaching the Fa at the Conference in Canada, May 1999)
One day, a young fellow practitioner casually mentioned the tale of the “Cold Cave” (It is the name of a cave where a young woman once waited nearly two decades for her husband to return). Later I read it on the pureinsight website and was deeply impressed by the phrase “the propitious star moves, and the moon god governing marriages”. I thought that this is the magic on Reincarnation and predestiny. As I read through the story, I was impressed by the kindness and loyalty between husband and wife, a praiseworthy traditional relationship. Am I over-complicating a journey of life that is naturally determined by predestiny?
Through Fa study, I understood that the reason a couple live together was to let them support each other and go forward. Just like for a pretty porcelain bowl, it was invented for human use. As long as it meets my need, why should I struggle a lot with a little crack, giving it excessive attention?
It occurred to me that “qing” originated from the “selfishness” of the old universe, which made people stray further and further from their original nature.
Nowadays, TV dramas and movies are filled with political tactics and emotional confrontation.
Isn’t the so-called passionate love, jealous love triangle, and bitter love dramas of modern society brought about by the warped concepts of ordinary people?
Aren’t people trapped in Qing while enjoying themselves in it? From the perspective of a practitioner, shouldn’t we put aside our “selfishness” and treat everyone around us with the same kindness?
However, I don’t think young practitioners should deliberately resist finding a life partner. As long as one puts the Fa first in one’s heart, and follows the path arranged by the Master, how can the arrangement not be best?
As for what is best, I don’t need to judge it based on my preconceived notions.
What I’ve learned is that if I treasure myself and my cultivation and the starting point is right, the path will be right.
No.3 About Fame
Before I began to practise, I was brought up with expectations from people around me. As a result, I grew up obsessed with pursuing fame. In the eyes of ordinary people, I was a “self-respecting ” and “competitive” person. I grew up believing that human efforts can achieve anything. On the surface, that’s mostly true. “The divine help those who help themselves” became the words I wrote down for myself when I was preparing for high school entrance examination in 3rd year of middle school.
Looking back, I can’t deny that my all-out struggle mindset could have brought about seemingly different results. But I did waste a lot of time trying to prove myself among everyday people. In terms of cultivation and Fa-rectification, the loss is not worth the gain.
For example, the current Australian immigration policy is tightening, and many classmates around me have chosen to give up applying for skilled migration. At this time, I was extremely determined to take the path and prove to my family and friends that others could not do it because they are not capable, but I could because I was better. My notions controlled my behaviour. I didn’t even have time to consider if this was the best choice for me or not. On one hand, the preparation for my visa application took up a lot of time and energy. But on the other hand, I enjoyed it, thinking that I was smart, capable and respectable in front of others. My obsession with “fame” also blinded me to my own attachments to vanity, competition and comparison.
Master said, “When a person knows how to use his brain and solve the problems that come up, that is what everyday people call smarts; it’s not wisdom.” (Teaching the Fa at the Conference in Canada, May 1999)
I gradually realised that a practitioner should not pursue meeting the standards of everyday people as the goal. Isn’t being a practitioner in an open and dignified way the best way to prove myself to everyday people?
In the past, I have always put the standards of everyday people first. I would imagine that once I became famous one day, I could openly and honestly tell those around me who didn’t agree with me on Dafa, “See, I’m such a good person who still practices Falun Gong, how can you still disagree with me on it?” What I didn’t think about was why I couldn’t put Dafa first and tell them frankly, right here and right now, “You see, the reason I’m different to others. Having such good fortune and wisdom is because I believe in Falun Dafa.”
Although I can’t say that common people’s recognition is insignificant at all, I have come to understand that a practitioner does not need to pursue recognition too much. Being lucky enough to be a Dafa disciple is already my greatest honour. Targeting my every effort to reach Master’s expectations is what I will aim for in the future.
When talking about the cosmos, Master said,
“Your mind can’t fathom just how big the cosmos really is, so you wouldn’t know how immense the cosmos you are referring to is. That is to say, no matter how you expand your mind, the immenseness that you can imagine will still be extremely microscopic.” (Teaching the Fa at the Conference in New Zealand, May 1999)
Sometimes, when I’m experiencing a challenging Xinxing test, I’ll look into the cosmic galaxies.
Compared to the vastness of our known, or even unknown universe, I see humanity and the Earth as a dust in the dust. I then remind myself what is most important to me right now.
Compared to Dafa and Fa-rectification, whatever troubled me would seem insignificant and caused by my own attachment to fame and desire.
Master said, “because your goal is extremely long-term and far-reaching. You will live as long as this universe. Then think about those things again: It doesn’t matter if you have them or not. You can put them all aside when you think from a broader perspective.” (Falun Gong)
However, I was always trapped in “qing” and failed to see the truth of the whole. When I prioritise, it’s easy to see what’s primary and what’s not. If one day I can really get out of “qing”, I will probably wake up from the maze.
Conclusion: Always Put the Fa First
One day, during a meeting with coordinators from the media editorial department, I was shocked and impressed by the words, “the world (is) choosing between Dafa and the evil communism”. In the past, I used to talk about “saving people”, but I had a superficial understanding of “saving people”.
The cause of the problem was that although I had the Fa in my heart, I was not putting the Fa first at any time and everywhere.
The future of one’s life depends on his choices, and what I must do in the final stage of Fa-rectification is to help the everyday people recognise the nature of evil so that they can clearly distinguish it.
The most precious life-saving Fa tool has been given to me by Master, and I have every reason to treasure it.
Lastly, I’d like to conclude this sharing by quoting Master’s words in Teaching the Fa at the Conference in New Zealand,
“You can’t lessen your diligence in cultivation. Remember that! Make sure to cultivate to the end! With such an immense Fa to empower people to cultivate, it absolutely won’t drag on too long. So you must progress with diligence.”
Above are some of my recent cultivation experiences. Please kindly point out anything that is inappropriate.
Thank you Master!
Thank you fellow practitioners.