文：墨尔本青年大法弟子
尊敬的师父好！
各位同修大家好！
回想自己在一年多的担任本地年轻同修协调人的过程，真是感到既惭愧又感恩。因为我知道自己的修炼状态还需要不断提高，离师尊要求的标准还是远远不够的，但同时也感谢师父给了弟子这样一个修炼的好机会，让我找到自己的执着，与同修共同提高。
一、在协调工作中归正自己
二零一八年底，协调人告诉我，让我和另一位年轻同修担任年轻同修协调人，初聼这个消息我很惊讶，为什么会选我呢？那时我的内心既忐忑又矛盾，忐忑的是我并不知道怎么做协调工作，也不知道自己要做什么，墨尔本的年轻同修也越来越多，我们要怎么协调起来呢？
矛盾的是，我深知自己的修炼状态，时而精進时而人心重重。我也知道有很多年轻同修的修炼状态比我要精進很多，我真的配做这个协调人吗？但是我也悟到，也许这是师父为我安排的一个千载难逢的修炼机会，我应该珍惜并且努力做好，而且这其中一定有我要修的东西。
年轻同修要想在这个“娱乐至死”的社会不随波逐流，唯一的办法就是多学法，学好法，当自己的思想在法上时，就能明辨来自常人的诱惑。所以我们在网上成立了一个学法小组，希望大家能在一起学法交流。刚开始参加的人数并不很多，随着时间的拉长，能坚持下来的同修更是寥寥无几。有时只剩我们两个协调人在线上相望。那时我的内心很矛盾，不知道这个线上学法组要不要坚持下去。有一次我去大组学法，一位和我不太相熟的阿姨同修走过来对我说：你们年轻人学法小组一定要坚持下去！当时我真的很感动，我想，也许这是师父借同修的口在鼓励我。随后，我和另一位协调同修开始分别联系同修，鼓励他们能上线学法。
我知道，既然我作为这个组的负责人，那大家都不来学法，肯定是我哪里出了问题。在向内找的过程中，我找到了证实自我的心。
这个学法小组刚刚成立的时候，我每次上线都会查看一下今天有多少同修参与学法，参与的人数多了，我就会很开心，上线的人数少了，我就很沮丧，因为我有一个观念：如果我们这个学法小组开展的不好，那我潜意识中就认为大家肯定会觉得我的协调有问题。我意识到，这是多么严重的证实自我的心啊！
师父在讲法中开示：“大法弟子的负责人哪，其实只是一个协调人、联系人、一个传达人，你们不要把他们当作像师父一样，寄予那么大的希望，成了你们修炼的依靠，什么事情他都必须做的最好。” [1]
我悟到师父所讲的负责人其实只是一个协调人、联系人、一个传达人，其实师父是在告诉我，要把自己的心态放平和，把姿态放低，这完全和常人中的官职是不一样的，我在其中所做的好与坏，完全是与我的修炼息息相关的。
师尊在法中也一再告诫我们：“法轮大法是修炼，不是工作，我们的一切工作人员首先是个心性高的实修者，修炼心性的表帅，不需要常人式的领导。” [2]
当我归正自己的心态时，我的内心不再为来的人多人少所带动。我把自己定位在为同修服务，而不是为了自己。只要有同修想上线和大家学法，我们这里就有一个平台为同修服务，我渐渐了解到，有些年轻同修有的在自己所在项目中学法，有的和自己的家人一起学法，其实只要大家都在学，都在修，那么是不是在我这个学法小组学，或有多少人来学，对我来说还是那么头痛的一件事吗？答案当然是否定的。
当我和同修接触时，也会继续邀请同修能来上线学法，但那时，我并不是为了人数的多少，而是真心希望能与更多的同修形成一个好的学法环境，大家都能在法中熔炼自己。
二、一思一念修在其中
在做协调的过程中总是会暴露出我许多的人心，例如怕麻烦的心，抱怨心，显示心，求名的心等等。
在做协调的过程中，我发现同修经常忽略协调人发出的一些通知短信。记得有一次，在总协调人发出讲真相活动的相关信息后我转发给了我们群组的同修。没想到第二天就有同修打电话问我相关的活动信息，我很惊奇的问：“我昨天发的信息你没看吗？”他说：“还真没有！”
无独有偶，我也聼到了其他小组的协调人也反映了相同的情况。类似这样的事情发生了几次后，我觉得无奈又好笑，心想：我们又不是发无聊短信，那肯定是佛学会有什么通知才会转发给大家，为什么就不能看一看呢？如果同修间都不相互配合，那怎么能把事情开展好呢？
我和同修交流这件事，同修却说：那么多短信谁看的过来啊？大家又不是每天没别的事做了！同修的话无疑是火上浇油，让我心里愤愤不平又百思不得其解，为什么同修对待这些短信表现得这么麻木呢?
师父开示：“碰到矛盾了，不管我对我错，会想自己：这件事情我有什么不对的地方？是不是真的我出现什么不对了？都在这样思考，第一念思考自己、想问题，谁不是这样你就不是一个真正的大法修炼人。” [3]
虽然师父讲了向内找，可我找半天都找不到我哪里有问题：同修不看信息，和我有关系吗？直到有一次，我又一次转发佛学会通知时，因为当时手上有很多工作要忙，但通知的事情又很紧急，需要及时发出去，由于发送的信息字数多，传送的人数又很多，我就想速战速决，抱着“快点发出去我的任务就完成了”的想法。导致一条信息传了很多次都不成功，当我心烦意乱的传送时，我忽然意识到，是不是我的态度也会决定同修收到信息时对待这条短信的态度呢？当我的态度不是抱着正念，而是抱着一种尽快完成任务的敷衍态度，那么这条信息出去时会有正面的能量吗？收到信息的同修会不会也同时接收到了我这种负面的信息呢？
事情虽小，但修在其中。
师父在法中开示：“你想过你所有生活的一切都在修炼当中吗？你的一言一行，你所做的那一切，你都是在修炼中，你知道吗？” [4]
当读到这段法时，我的内心一震，一思一念，一言一行都是在修炼中，所以师父告诉弟子：“世间上任何事情都没有比修炼这件事情再严肃不过的了。” [5]
从此，对待再小的事情，我都尽量做到认真、不糊弄事。
三.、从妒嫉到相互配合
在做协调人之前，我从来没有发现自己的某些执着心会如此严重，例如妒嫉心。
今年，为了配合讲真相的形式，佛学会组织了社交媒体讲真相小组。当时协调人问我，让谁来协调比较好？我向他推荐了同修甲，随后同修A和同修B便开始筹备该项目，初期也取得了不错的效果。
一次在开会时，协调人说同修A和B这个项目做得很好，能力很好。协调人一句话却让我起了妒嫉之心，我觉得好像言外之意就是我的协调能力不行，说来好笑，也许同修A和B到现在都不知道她们曾经是我妒嫉的对象。
那时我清楚的认识到了这是自己的妒嫉心，但就是排不掉也压不住。总想着我需要做点什么事情来证实自己，因为妒嫉心的驱使，让我都不太想和同修讲话。现在回想起来感到很可笑，但却是我那时的真实想法。我对母亲同修说：“我从来都没有想到我原来有这么强烈的妒嫉心。”
我那时也意识到，为什么会安排我做这个协调人，也许就是师父为了让我在这过程中暴露出这些肮脏的人心，从而去掉它。
师父在法中开示：“有人和我讲是不是工作能力不行，我说这是常人的讲法。关键原因是你们站长、副站长也是修炼的人，也有放不下的执着心，需要有一个去你们那心的环境。而站长与站长之间矛盾出现的时候，往往你们都用“不配合工作啦”等等，用大法的工作来当借口，推开矛盾，而不是利用这好机会向内找，提高上来。” [2]
其实同修有好的协调能力，能在讲真相中发挥更大的作用，这不是一件大好事吗？那么我们在大法中熔炼的生命就是要去掉私，去掉妒嫉。
想通这些道理后，我主动给同修B打电话，希望同修B加入到年轻同修学法小组来。最后我们在相互配合下，组成了两个时间段的学法小组。同修B负责早晨时段的学法组，我负责晚上时段的学法组，因为学法的时间更加灵活，也有更多的年轻同修加入了学法小组。
同时我们商量建立一个年轻人群组，由于疫情的封锁，同修间很难见面，如果有想交流的话题大家可以在网上畅所欲言。群组建立后，同修们在网上交流自己的修炼体会，分享讲真相的方式做法，或者有好的交流文章也会贴到网上，虽然不能见面，但我却觉得和同修离得并不遥远。
四、年轻大法弟子参与讲真相
今年初，我地一华人聚集区的真相点遭到不明真相的常人割断真相条幅的绳子抢走条幅，后来条幅被同修找回。事情发生后，我和另一位年轻同修C就此事交流，同修C觉得，当时真相点上只有两位年岁大的同修，不会讲英文，不会用手机录像，如果当时有多一些的同修在场，邪恶也不会这么猖狂，她当时提议，我们年轻同修应该多去真相点。
当时我们在群组里呼吁年轻同修多参与真相点的讲真相活动，也得到同修的回应，我们当下决定，从当周开始就去真相点。作为协调人，我觉得我有责任起带头作用，可是我的怕心却时时在往外冒，因为这个真相点是我最惧怕去的。因为我觉得那里华人众多，有很多不明真相的众生，会不会有人过来骂我？或者有特务怎么办？
然而师父的法却时时在耳边敲打我：“什么叫“正法时期弟子”啊？你证实法了吗？大法给你好处你来了，大法蒙难你却躲起来不敢为大法说句公道话，你连一个普通的人都不如，还谈什么在家学法？迫害中众生都被毒害着，你还躲的住？大法弟子为什么要去讲清真相、为什么要救度众生？因为这就是大法弟子的责任，我李洪志要的就是这样的生命，大法弟子就是这样的修炼人。” [6]
我发着正念，一面清除着破坏真相点的邪恶因素，一面清除着来自我自身空间场的邪恶因素。去真相点的那天，我感到内心异常平静。我和同修C发完正念便开始炼功，那天下午我感觉整个真相点的空间场特别舒服祥和。
因为我们闭着眼睛什么都看不见，炼完功后聼同修阿姨讲，有很多人给我们拍照，也有很多人驻足观看，有一个年轻小伙子在我们身边站了很长时间，看着我和同修C炼功。由此我想到：其实我们年轻同修站在真相点上，我们自身就是一个真相。中共造谣说法轮功只有老年人炼，那我们就用行动告诉世人，年轻人也炼法轮功；中共造谣说炼功是封建迷信，那我们年轻人站在那里就会让人思考，为什么接受过中共无神论教育的年轻人也炼法轮功？
师父曾开示：“我一算这个年龄啊，从我传法到现在，二十五岁左右这些年轻人，真的还有很多人没有得救，都是神来的，他们下到地上来，散布在全世界各地，有的当人当不了，没有那么多人身，那就当动物，当植物，为什么当今社会对这个动植物保护的要求那么高，这些年，都是有原因的，是神在安排，在带动，没人看的清楚这些事情，但是都不简单。”
师父的这段讲法使我感慨万分：作为我们年轻同修，能够在这万古不遇的机缘下成为大法弟子，我们是何其的幸运。可是常人中和我们一样的同龄人却没有我们如此幸运，那我们怎么不应该去救度他们呢？[7]
疫情期间，我们开始派发大纪元特刊，很多年轻同修都参与了進来，大家背着报纸，开始走街串巷。看到周末时分，本该热闹的街市却家家大门紧闭，我更觉得救人的紧迫性，每塞進邮箱一份特刊，我都在心底对着这户家人说：快来看真相吧！这真的是瘟疫中的救命良方！那时一边发着特刊，脑海中不停的回荡着神韵的歌曲《静心瞅一瞅》。
不为回报没有求
大难一到把你留
别忘来世为何事
千年轮回有因由
在这正法的最后时刻，我希望能与同修在修炼中互相提醒，互相鼓励，不错过这万古机缘！
以上是我在修炼过程中的一点浅悟，如有不正之处，敬请同修慈悲指正。
谢谢师父！
谢谢同修！
注：
[1] 李洪志师父著作：《各地讲法六》〈亚太地区学员会议讲法〉
[2] 李洪志师父著作：《精進要旨》
[3] 李洪志师父著作：《各地讲法十一》〈什么是大法弟子〉
[4] 李洪志师父著作：《世界法轮大法日讲法》
[5] 李洪志师父著作：《澳大利亚法会讲法》
[6] 李洪志师父著作：《二零零四年纽约国际法会讲法》
[7] 李洪志师父著作：《二零一六年纽约法会讲法》
——— English version of the sharing —-
My Cultivation Experience As a Coordinator
By Melbourne Young Chinese Practitioner
Greetings Master!
Greetings Fellow Practitioners!
I have been a coordinator for the local young practitioners for more than a year. I was grateful to have this opportunity, yet I feel I haven’t done the job well. My cultivation state has not improved yet and is not up to the requirements set by Master. But I thank Master for giving me this opportunity so that I can discover my attachments and improve with the help of other practitioners.
- Rectifying Myself in the Role of Coordinator
I was asked to coordinate the local young practitioners alongside another practitioner at the end of 2018, much to my surprise. Why would they ask me? I became afraid and hesitant. I didn’t know how to coordinate the group or what kind of work I should do. More and more young practitioners were coming to Melbourne. How should I coordinate them?
I was hesitating because my cultivation state was not good. Sometimes I cultivated diligently while other times I was filled with attachments. I knew many young practitioners were far better cultivators than me. Was I worthy of being a coordinator? I realised that this precious opportunity might have been arranged by Master, and I should treasure it and do the work well. There must be attachments for me to get rid of.
The only way for young practitioners to not follow along current trends and entertainment-filled lifestyles, was to study the Fa more and study the Fa well. When our thoughts are in the Fa, we can resist the temptations from ordinary human society. We established an online Fa study group so that young practitioners could study the Fa and share cultivation experiences together. There were not many young practitioners taking part in the beginning and this became even fewer as time went on. One day an elderly practitioner at the big Fa study group said to me that young practitioners must continue the group Fa study together. I was very thankful to her. Maybe Master was encouraging me through her. Myself and another coordinator then contacted young practitioners and encouraged them to join the online Fa study.
As a cultivator, I must have problems if so few practitioners came online studying the Fa. I looked within and found that I had the attachment of validating myself.
When the Fa study group was just set up, I looked at the number of practitioners online every time. I felt happy when I saw many practitioners attending and felt sad when only a few were there. I had a notion that if a Fa study group didn’t do well, it must be the problem of the coordinator. I realised that it was an attachment to validating myself.
Master said:
“The coordinators among Dafa disciples are in fact just coordinators, points of contact, and people who relay information. Don’t think of them as Master, and don’t have such high expectations that you rely on them as you cultivate and expect them to handle everything just right.” (“Teaching the Fa at the Meeting with Asia-Pacific Students”, Collected Fa Teachings, Vol. VI)
So Master said, “The coordinators among Dafa disciples are in fact just coordinators, points of contact, and people who relay information.” My understanding was that I should have a peaceful mind and become humble. The coordinator in a Dafa project is not the same as a coordinator in ordinary society. Whether I did well or not was closely related to my cultivation state.
Master said: “Falun Dafa is for cultivation practice—it is not a job. All of our volunteer workers must first be genuine cultivators with high-level xinxing, as they are role models for xinxing cultivation. We do not need the types of leaders like those among everyday people.” (“It is not a Job, but Cultivation Practice”, Essentials for Further Advancement)
When I changed my mentality, I was no longer moved by the number of practitioners who came online to study the Fa. This wasn’t set up for me, I was helping other people. We provided a platform for those young practitioners who wanted to study the Fa with other practitioners. I learnt later on that some young practitioners studied the Fa with practitioners in their own projects. Some studied the Fa with their practitioner family members. As long as they study the Fa and cultivate, it doesn’t matter whether they join our Fa study group or how many practitioners are online with us.
I will continue inviting young practitioners to join our Fa study group. That’s not merely for numbers. I sincerely hope that we can create a better Fa study environment by having more practitioners with us so that we can encourage each other and cultivate ourselves in the Fa.
- Cultivating Every Thought
Many of my attachments were exposed in the process of coordination. Those attachments include fear of trouble, complaints, showing off mentality and seeking fame.
I found that some practitioners often ignored the text message notifications I sent. One day I forwarded a message sent by the main coordinator about a truth-clarification activity to the group. The next day, a practitioner called me asking for this information. I was surprised and asked him if he had read the message I sent out. He said, “No, I haven’t read it.”
Coincidently, the same thing also happened to other coordinators. It happened to me several other times too. Although I could see the funny side, I didn’t know what to do. We didn’t send the message out just because we were bored, we forwarded the message because the Association needed to notify each practitioner. Why did some practitioners not read it? If practitioners don’t cooperate, how can we get the job done?
I shared my thoughts with the practitioners who didn’t read the messages. They said that there were too many messages for them to read and that they had other things to do. Their indifference angered me. I was puzzled and didn’t understand why those practitioners paid no attention to the messages.
Master said: “When you meet with a conflict, it doesn’t matter whether you are in the right. You should be asking yourself, “What on my part isn’t right in this situation? Might it really be that there is something wrong on my part?” You should all be thinking this way, with your first thought being to scrutinize yourself to try to find the problem. Whoever is not like this is not in fact a true cultivator of Dafa.” (“What is a Dafa Disciple”, Collected Fa Teachings, Vol. XI)
Though Master asked us to look within, I couldn’t find where my problem was. The practitioners didn’t read the message. Was this something to do with me? One day a message from the Association had to be forwarded to practitioners. I was very busy. But the message was urgent and needed to be sent out immediately. Because this message was long and needed to be sent to many practitioners, I wanted to finish the task straight away. But the message failed to send several times from my phone and I became impatient. Then I realised that my attitude might impact the attitude of the practitioners who were receiving this message. When I failed to have righteous thoughts and had the mentality of completing a task as soon as possible, then this message might not have positive energy. Would the practitioners receiving the message also receive the negative energy I was emitting?
Though it was a trivial thing, I must cultivate my every thought.
Master said: “That’s notably so for some veteran Dafa disciples. Has it occurred to you that everything in your daily life is part of cultivation? Your every word and action, and everything you do—all of it is part of your cultivation. Do you realize that?” (Fa Teaching on World Falun Dafa Day)
My heart was touched when I read this Fa. Every word and every action was part of cultivation.
Master also said: “Nothing in the world is more solemn than cultivation.” (Teaching the Fa at the Fa Conference in Australia)
Since then I have tried to do everything, even the tiniest thing seriously.
- From Jealousy to Cooperation
Before being a coordinator, I was not aware that some of my attachments such as jealousy were so severe.
The Association organised a Social Media project group this year so we have a greater reach in clarifying the truth. The main coordinator asked me to recommend a practitioner to help coordinate. I recommended Practitioner A to him, and Practitioners A and B started to plan and set up the project. They achieved great results in the first stages.
In one meeting, the main coordinator praised Practitioners A and B and said that they were very capable. Upon hearing his words, I became jealous. I felt like that he was inferring that I was not capable in a hidden way. It sounds laughable to me now. I don’t think Practitioners A or B knew that I was once jealous of them.
But I clearly knew that I had the attachment of jealousy. I tried to suppress it or let it go but I couldn’t. I thought about doing something to show off my capabilities. Because of my jealousy, I didn’t even want to talk to them. Although laughable, that was my reaction at that time. I said to my mum who is also a practitioner, “I never knew I had such a strong attachment of jealousy.”
I realised that the reason for me becoming a coordinator was that Master might let me expose my dirty human attachments in the process and get rid of them.
Master said: “Some have asked me “Is this because those persons are incapable of doing the work?” I say that’s how an ordinary human would put it. The crucial reason is that you, as coordinators and assistant coordinators of the centers, are cultivators who also have attachments that you can’t abandon, and you need an environment to get rid of them. But when tensions arise among those in charge, you usually use the excuse of “not cooperating in the work” or “working for Dafa” to push it aside, instead of seizing this good opportunity to search within and improve yourself.” (“A Person in Charge is Also a Cultivator”, Essentials for Further Advancement)
Actually those practitioners are capable and can do a better job in the project. Isn’t this a good thing? Practitioners, however, cultivate in Dafa and must get rid of selfishness and jealousy.
After I became clear on the Fa principles, I rang practitioner B and invited her to join the young practitioners’ Fa study group. We cooperated with each other and set up two sessions for Fa study. She was in charge of the morning session and I was in charge of the evening session. More young practitioners joined in the group Fa study because of the flexible time schedule.
We also set up a discussion group. Because of the pandemic lockdown, it was hard for practitioners to see each other. Young practitioners share their cultivation experiences and the truth-clarification experiences in the group. They can also post good sharing articles there. Though we cannot meet in person, I don’t feel separated from them.
- Young Practitioners Joining Face-to-Face Truth-Clarification Activities
Earlier this year, a man cut our rope and stole our banner at a truth-clarification site in a suburb where many Chinese people live. The banner was later found and returned to the site. I shared my understanding on the incident with young practitioner C. She understood that if we had more practitioners at the site, the evil would not have gone so crazy. Only two elderly practitioners were there at the time. They didn’t speak English and didn’t know how to film the incident from their phone. She suggested that young practitioners go to the site to clarify the truth.
On the sharing list, we suggested the young practitioners join the truth-clarification activities at the site, and received some responses. We decided to start that same week. As a coordinator, I felt that I should take the lead. But my fear kept coming out. I was afraid to go to this site because there were many Chinese people there. Would some of them curse me? Were there any Chinese agents?
Master’s Fa, however, came into my mind: “What is a “Fa-Rectification Period Dafa Disciple”? Have you validated the Fa? You came when Dafa benefited you, yet you hid out and didn’t dare to speak up for Dafa when it faced danger. You have shown yourself to be less worthy than an ordinary person, so what’s the point of “studying the Fa at home”? All beings are being poisoned in the persecution, so how could you feel at ease being in hiding? Why are Dafa disciples clarifying the truth and saving beings? Because that is Dafa disciples’ duty. That is the kind of being that I, Li Hongzhi, want, and a Dafa disciple is that kind of cultivator.” (Teaching the Fa at the 2004 International Fa Conference in New York)
I sent forth righteous thoughts to clear the evil factors that damaged our truth-clarification site and also to clear the demon from my heart. I felt calm when I arrived at the site. After we finished sending righteous thoughts, Practitioner C and I started to practise the exercises. I felt serene and comfortable at the site that afternoon.
When we were doing the exercises, our eyes were closed and we didn’t see the surroundings. Other practitioners told us that many people took photos of us and many stopped to watch. One young man stayed at the site for a long period of time, watching us do the exercises. I realised that even if we young practitioners didn’t say anything, by physically being at the truth-clarification site, we were showing the truth to people. The CCP said that only old people practise Falun Gong. We were showing people that young people also practise Falun Gong. The CCP said that believing in Falun Gong is believing in the “feudal superstition”. With young practitioners standing before them, people will be intrigued as to why those young people that were brought up with atheist education, now believe in Falun Gong.
Master said:“I was thinking about these people’s ages, how long it’s been since I began teaching the Fa, and there are really many young people around twenty-five years old who have yet to be saved. They are divine beings who descended to this earth, and are spread throughout the world. Since there aren’t that many human bodies, some of them couldn’t become human beings and so they became animals or plants. So there’s a reason why in recent years regulations protecting animals and the environment have been quite stringent; it was arranged as such by divine beings, who have been driving those things. No one can see these things for what they are. They are not simple matters, though.” (Fa Teaching Given at the 2016 New York Fa Conference)
As young practitioners, we are so lucky that we have come across this precious opportunity and become Dafa practitioners. Ordinary people at our age are not as lucky. So why don’t we step out to save them?
During the pandemic, we started to distribute The Epoch Times special editions. Many young practitioners took part. They carried the papers and walked around delivering them. On the weekends, the normally busier streets are quiet and the shops are closed. I felt the urgency of saving sentient beings. After I put a copy in the mailboxes, I would say in my heart to every household, “Please read this paper. It will save you from the disaster.” While I was distributing the papers, the Hong Yin III verse, “Calmly Take A Look” resonated in my mind:
“We ask for nothing in return and have no pursuit
It’s to save you once the disaster arrives
Don’t forget why you came to this world
There are reasons for ages of reincarnation”
I hope that in the last leg of Fa-rectification, fellow practitioners will remind each other and encourage each other to cultivate diligently. Don’t miss this precious opportunity!
The above is just my shallow understanding. Please kindly point out anything inappropriate.
Thank you Master!
Thank you fellow practitioners!