在助师正法的同时修炼自己
Cultivate Myself While Assisting Master in the Fa-Rectification
悉尼 友来
Youlai from Sydney
尊敬的师父好！同修们好!
Greetings to revered Master!
Greetings to fellow practitioners!
从今年开始，自己有幸在大纪元做全职工作。从工作到现在，一晃已经有八个月了。这段时间不算短了，但是在时间飞快的今天，却真的是一瞬间。不过八个月下来，在修炼方面还是有一些体会的。在这里与同修分享。
I was fortunate enough to start full time at the Epochtimes this year and it’s been eight months already. In such short time, I have some cultivation experience to share with you all.
当我刚刚接到通知到大纪元上班时，自己是非常高兴的。因为，一直以来，自己都是一边做着常人的工作，一边做着大纪元的编辑。今天，能有机会使自己能直接将自己的工作与讲真相联系在一起，将自己更多的时间用于助师正法，讲清真相，真的是幸运的，这也是师父所要的。
I was so pleased since I received the notification to start working for the Epochtimes. In fact, I have been working as Epochtimes editor while I was doing my own job in the ordinary society, except now I am so happy that I can link the job and truth clarification together because I can really spend more time on Fa-rectification which is exactly what our Master wants us to do.
但是由于自己修炼得不好，所以对于在新的环境下如何修炼，自己在心理上准备不足，想得也很少。
However, because of my lack of practising, I didn’t prepare well enough to know how to cultivate in the new environment.
当自己开始工作后，许多的问题接踵而来时，我才发现工作的难度远比自己想像的要大得多。首先，编辑部是一个工作节奏很快的整体，工作一环套一环。这与自己过去随意的个体做事是截然不同的。再有就是自己在业务上与编辑部的要求也有很大的差距，技术上的不过硬和业务以及流程上的不熟悉也一下子突显了出来。由于差距的存在，也时常拖了整个工作进程的进度，其实，那时真的已经是在尽自己最大的努力了，但是还是会受到批评的。说心里话，真的感到了很大的压力，有着一种压抑感。
As soon as I started the job, many problems popped up, till then I realised the difficulty was far more than I initially expected. The first requirement of the job is the fast pace, every step links to another which is totally different to when I was working at my casual time. Secondly, I couldn’t meet with the working standards as an editor, as well as my insufficient processing skills all became big obstacles. I often delayed the project as a whole. I thought I have given my best effort yet the criticism didn’t stop. At that time I really felt the heavy load was suffocating.
其实，压力的本身并不重要，因为在任何新的环境下，都会多多少少的有一些压力的，因为它是需要一个过程的。但心态的不稳，主要还是来自于自己对工作中有一个修炼的因素在里面的忽视。因为来之前，只是想着来做大纪元，忽视了修炼，当问题来时，也就达不到修炼的状态，达不到静的状态。这样，自己的心也常常被人心带动着在上下浮动着：在被批评时有过不服气和怨气；在问题不能很快解决时有过焦燥，也产生过情绪；总之，人心浮动，静不下来。
In fact, I understood that there would be pressure when starting in a new environment and it only needs time to make us fit in, however I did notice this was something to do with my cultivation. Before I came to Epochtimes, I didn’t cultivate well which means when the problem turns up, I lost the ability to treat it as cultivation process, and then I would easily be stirred up by the ordinary people’s mentality. I felt being wronged and treated unfairly, and got worked up and couldn’t keep calm.
就这样，过了一段时间，我开始意识到了我的这种状态是不对的，是不符合一个修炼人的的要求的。我想起了刚刚参与做大纪元的时候，那时是顶着巨大的邪恶的压力在做，但是心态却是很纯净的。到了晚上，夜深人静，将普渡，济世的音乐打开，敲击着键盘，心里有着一种信念。可眼下的这种状态，带着不服气和怨气，带着一种焦燥浮动的心，怎末能编排出纯净的报纸。
After a period of time I started to feel my status wasn’t right and I wasn’t behaving like a practitioner. Thinking back when the evil persecution started I joined the Epochtimes work, and under such tremendous pressure, I could keep calm. At that time I would listen to “Pu Du” music while I was working and enjoyed every strike on the keyboard while I was working. And looking at myself now – I was getting worked up easily with a complaining mind – how could I help to produce a pure and powerful newspaper?
师父说：“可是你要真正能够达到思想清静的时候，或者你执著心越来越少，思想杂念越少的时候，你发现你讲的话就有力量了。为什么讲无为的时候我谈到大家不要随便去管不应该管的事呢？就是因为你讲的话已经开始有力量了，有力量的话就能改变别人………那么到了更高层次上的时候，你的思想就越来越纯净，你思想所带出来的东西，讲出的话，非常的干净。越干净，越单一，越符合宇宙这层的理。讲出的话一下子就能穿透人心，打到人思想的深处去，打到他生命更微观中去，你说它有多大的力量哪？！所以能静下来这是一个境界的体现。”(《瑞士法会讲法》)。我知道我需要调整自己的状态了。
In the Teaching the Fa at the Conference in Switzerland, Master said: “But when your mind can truly become tranquil, when your attachments get less and less, or when the distracting thoughts get less and less, then you’ll find that your words have power. Why was it that when I spoke about non-action I mentioned that you shouldn’t interfere with things that shouldn’t be interfered with? That’s because your words already have power, and words with power can change people. It doesn’t matter if your changing someone seems right, you might be doing something wrong. You don’t know the truth since what your eyes see is superficial, and since you can’t perceive karmic[3] reasons from the past. Your mind will become increasingly pure as you reach higher levels. What your thinking brings forth then, and what you say, will be extremely pure. The purer and simpler they are, the more they conform to the principles of that level of the universe. The words you speak then can instantly pierce people’s hearts, strike the depths of people’s thoughts, and strike the more microscopic part of their existences. Now isn’t that going to be powerful?! So if you can become tranquil, that ability signifies that you have reached a certain realm.”
Then I knew that I needed to adjust my cultivation status.
如何调整自己？就是先静下心来，然后找自己，同时多学法。
How? Firstly I must calm myself down, search inside myself while study more Fa.
首先是静下心来。尽量使自己平静下来，不论外在的压力多大，都应尽量保持平静，尽量不要让自己的人心浮动，尽量控制住自己的情绪。当然，即使这对于现在的我来说，仍然是很难做到的。因为一个人的境界，状态，不是想达到什么层次就能达到什么层次的，就会有的，是需要在魔炼中一点一点的提高的。但是我应该尽量的这样来要求自己。在被批评时，应该尽量排除一切其它因素，从批评中看到自己的不足，哪里还有要改进的地方，尽自己的努力尽快赶上。意识到了这些，焦躁和抵触的情绪也就少了一些。
So I need to settle down my heart, no matter how much pressure seems to be, I must keep myself calm and not get worked up. Of course this is no easy task even today. Because it’s not up to a person to be wherever he wants to be, it takes time to get there step by step, and I keep reminding myself to meet the standard. When being criticized, I try to see through the external factors to look inside myself to see where I can improve and to change myself quickly. In doing so, my restless and rebellious mind has been controlled a lot better.
在尽量平静下来以后，开始找自己。比如，在配合的问题上，不要过多的强调自己。比如，我的记忆力不好，再加上年龄的原因，有时同一个错误会犯多次。在被批评时就会强调自己，心里不平。可是当静下心来想一想，错了就是错了，尽量改就是了，也不应该心里不平呀。还应当承认，长期的单兵作战，的确在配合的意识方面是薄弱的。即便有时问题是因为对整个的流程不十分熟悉造成的，那末别人指出来就是对的。如果处处强调自己，只是从自己的角度出发看待问题，问题不但不能解决，时间长了还会导致矛盾的产生。
In regards to looking inside to find problems, for example, I don’t try to emphasis my own opinion during group cooperation. I don’t have a very good memory, and I may repeatedly made mistakes in the same area. I used to defend myself, but afterwards I knew that I could just move on when a mistake was picked up, so why was I so agitated. Also because I was always a lone worker, I lacked an understanding of the team work process. I always regarded things from just my own angle when others pointed out problem, so the conflict hence could grow as time passed by.
再比如，被批评了，动了心了，说明你心胸还够不宽阔，从修炼的角度看你就应当被批评。师父在《北美首届法会讲法》中说：“我们学员之间，或者负责人之间碰到了什么麻烦事的时候，互相之间你对呀，他错呀，搞起这个来了，有了矛盾，出现了一种紧张状态，这是不对的。大法弟子要是出现了这个状态，你心里头为这些事情愤愤不平的时候，你这颗心就是在常人之中。我们碰到了什么问题都要去从法中找答案，我们要看自己，看自己的内心，我哪里做的不对呀？今天突然间发生的这个问题是不是我做的不对呀？仔细想想这个问题。”从工作的角度看，不应总是强调自己，而是应站在别人的角度上看，站在工作的要求上看，想到这些，就会将自己的注意力更加集中在自己的问题上，找到自己在工作中的不足和问题。这时，心里又平静了许多。
Furthermore, my heart was moved when being criticized which shows exactly my issue that my heart container is not big enough. Master said in the Lecture at the First Conference in North America: “when problems occur among students or persons in charge, it’s not right to point fingers at others and thereby cause friction and bring about tension. If this happens to Dafa disciples or if you’re angry about these things, your mind will then be that of an everyday person. You should always turn to the Fa for answers upon encountering any problem. You should examine yourself and look inside: “What did I do wrong? Did I do something wrong and cause the problem that suddenly came up today?” Think about it carefully.”
From the working angle, I should not always insist on my own opinion, instead I should consider the issue from other’s perspective, from the requirement of the work. After considering this, my heart was more peaceful.
人心浮动，还有一个重要的原因，就是在心理上对在新的环境下保持一个修炼状态的认识不足。所以遇到了问题时，或者在日常的工作时，忘记了时时处处都有修炼的因素在里面。放松了修炼，心性就守不住，就会有波动。师父在《二零一五年纽约法会讲法》中说：“当然了要想做好这件事情，那就得把个人修炼好，所以修炼又成了你们每个人的根本。无论你做任何救人的项目，离开了修炼，你就会发现，你就越来越常人化，思考问题、做事的方式都会越来越常人化。如果你能够一直在法上，一直没有放松自己修炼，你会发现你所有做的事情就真都像一个修炼人在做。那是能够完成大法弟子使命的根本、根本保证，所以你们不能够离开法，到什么时候都不能够放松对自己的修炼。”
There is another reason that my heart is not settled – that is I haven’t realised that cultivation factors exist in the new environment. When running into conflicts in the daily work, I forgot cultivation factors exist anywhere, anytime. I relaxed myself in cultivation and could not maintain my xinxing, hence my heart was affected.
Master mentioned in Fa Teaching Given at the 2015 New York Fa Conference: “Of course, you need to do well at personal cultivation if you’re to do well at those things. So this means cultivation is fundamental for each of you. With any project to save people, if you stray from cultivation you will find that you become more and more like a non-cultivator and tend to think about matters and do things in an increasingly ordinary way. But if you can stay on the Fa all the way through, and not let up in your personal cultivation at any point, you will find that everything you do is truly befitting a cultivator. That is simply essential if a Dafa disciple is to complete his mission, and what ensures it on a fundamental level. So you cannot stray from the Fa, and at no point can you let up in your own cultivation. Yes, many Dafa disciples outside of China are busy with projects. And if you want to do a good job with those projects and make them effective at saving people, then you need to do them better, put more heart into them, and spend more time on them. And that being the case, it may seem as though there’s no time for your own cultivation. But however things may be, you all still need to make time for cultivation and for Fa study.”
这就是师尊对我们的要求。过去师父多次讲过这方面的法。现在读起来，有了更深的体悟。大纪元是一个正法的项目，但它本身不是修炼。做正法的事，是正法弟子必须做的，但不等于做了正法的事，就是正法弟子了。一个项目，一个团队的修炼状态，是助师正法的保证。而团队就是由我们每个人组成的。困难总是会有的，问题也总是会有的，只有时时把自己当作修炼人，才能在困难和问题面前，守住心性，以一种正确的心态去面对困难和问题。
This is the requirement from our Master who has lectured many times in this regard. I seem to understand a lot more by reading it now. Epoch Times is a project for assisting in truth clarification, though it’s not cultivation itself. Every practitioner must participate in Fa-rectification, yet not because you did it then you are counted as a Fa-rectification Dafa disciple. Our cultivation status as a whole is very important to assure us to assist Master in Fa-rectification. Every one of us is part of the team, and in facing any difficulties, only all of us always treating ourselves as practitioners can we maintain our xinxing and resolve the problems.
在找自己的同时，多学法，特别是当静心学法时，师父会把法更深的内涵展现给我们。有一天，当我再次读到师父讲的韩信受辱于胯下的典故时，我突然问自己，韩信为什么能受辱于胯下？我想前提是因为他有一个远大的目标。为了这个目标的实现，他可以忍受胯下之辱。我突然对“忍”的内涵又有了新的理解：当我们认定了一个目标，并且为了做成这件事而开始行动后，在过程中会遇到许多的魔难，这些魔难不仅仅是困难，屈辱，不公，而是包括甚至赞扬（捧杀）在内的一切影响你向着既定目标前进的干扰。在所有这些磨难中，都不动心，坚定，这是更高一层的忍。
While looking within, we must study the Fa more with a peaceful mind, till then Master will display the magnificent meaning of Fa to us. One day, I was reading the part regarding Hanxin in Zhuan Falun, I suddenly ask myself that what reason Hanxin could endure humiliation to crawl under the legs. I understood that it’s because he must have had a much bigger goal for him. I seem to understand much better meaning of “Ren – Tolerance”, as soon as one sets up a goal, though there will be all sorts of obstacles, interferences and tribulations in the process for achieving it, one must be rock solid and be persistent to achieve what one first set out to achieve. I understand that this is Ren – Tolerance in a new higher level.
对于一个正法时期的大法弟子，师尊告诉我们：“忍不是懦弱，更不是逆来顺受。大法弟子的忍是高尚的，是生命伟大坚不可摧的金刚不动的表现，是为坚持真理的宽容，……”（《精進要旨二‧忍无可忍》）此时，对忍的含意理解得又深刻了一步。
To a Fa-rectification Dafa disciple, Master said: “Forbearance (ren) is not cowardice, much less is it resigning oneself to adversity. Dafa disciples’ Forbearance is noble; is the manifestation of beings’ magnificent, indestructible, and diamond-like solidity; is tolerance for the purpose of upholding the truth; and is mercy toward and salvation of beings who still have human nature and righteous thoughts. ” (Beyond the Limits of Forbearance – Essential for Further Advancement II) I seem to understand another layer of meaning of “Ren-Tolerance.”
这时我也问自己：你为什么要来做大纪元？你忘了你的初衷了吗。这也促使我去回忆起当初是怎样走入大纪元的。
I ask myself: what is the reason I work for The Epoch Times? Have I lost my initial motivation? I started to remember how I walked into doing work for The Epoch Times.
我是在新加坡开始参与大纪元的。那时中共对法轮功的迫害是全世界性的。而新加坡也是重灾区。新加坡的华人媒体每过一段时间就转载一些中共的造谣毒害善良的新加坡人。我们能做的就是派发单张和用我们的一张嘴去讲真相。那时看着那些造谣的媒体，常想我们能有自己的媒体该有多好！终于有了这个机会办起了自己的大纪元。记得那时一切从零开始，但是却是那么珍惜每一分，每一秒。做大纪元是那么的纯净，神圣。
I started work with Epoch Times in Singapore, which is also an area heavily influenced by the evil persecution from mainland China. The Chinese media of Singapore would publish propaganda from CCP every now and then to poison the local people. At that time what we could only do was to hand out flyers and talk to people one by one. Then I thought wouldn’t it be great if we had our own media! Finally, The Epoch Times was established. I still remember when it first started, every minute was so pure and so sacred for doing Epoch Times.
今天，10多年过去了。我们走过了最艰难的日子，但是，正法还没有结束，我们的使命还没有结束。不论有什么困难，都要坚持下来，要勇于面对自己的问题，克服自己的不足，适应新的环境，新的要求，不要强调自己，不论能力大小，最主要的是尽自己所能，完成自己的使命。这也是大法弟子大忍之心的一种表现。
Today, ten years have passed, the most difficult period has gone, though the Fa-rectification hasn’t ended, and our mission cannot stop no matter how difficult it is. I must overcome my own shortcomings in order to meet the new requirements in the new environment to fulfil the mission. Isn’t this another aspect of Ren-Tolerance?
如果说这半年多的体会是什么。那就是：不论做什么，都不要忘了修自己。特别是不能用作正法的项目来代替修炼。师尊在《二零一五年纽约法会讲法》中说：“我看到你们在一些项目当中很多人做的实在是太常人。一个媒体，比如说做媒体，一个媒体应该办好，最后弄来弄去，思想也渐渐的像常人一样了，思考问题的方式也不和修炼人一样了，也像常人一样了。那叫什么大法弟子啊？大法弟子办媒体干啥？救人。你别忘了，你是要救人，办好媒体的目地也是为了救人。讲真相，救众生，这就是你要做的，除此之外没有你要做的，这个世界上没有你要做的。你要做的就是这些事情，可是有些人把自己是修炼都放淡了，把常人事情看重了，对你们来讲，那是不是偏离了大法弟子修炼的路啊？”。想想自己半年的经历，再来读师尊的这段讲法，从内心感谢师尊对弟子的教导与呵护。
If someone asks me, what have I learned in the past half year? I would say: no matter what one does, does not ever forget to cultivate oneself. One cannot use excuse of doing Dafa work to replace one’s cultivation. Master said: “I’ve observed that on some projects many of you have been acting simply too ordinary. A media company… Let’s talk about the media work, for example. A media company should be run well. Yet what do we have but people’s thinking turning more and more ordinary over the course of time, with people no longer looking at things as a cultivator would, but instead in ordinary ways. In no way is that being like a Dafa disciple. Why are Dafa disciples running a media company, after all? To save people. Don’t forget that your purpose is to save people, and the reason to run a media company well is to save people. Clarifying the facts and saving sentient beings are what you need to accomplish. There is nothing else for you to accomplish. There is nothing else in this world that you need to accomplish. Those are the things that you need to work toward, and yet some people no longer pay much attention to even their own cultivation, and have instead made a priority of ordinary things. Haven’t you strayed from the path of Dafa disciples’ cultivation, then? (Fa Teaching Given at the 2015 New York Fa Conference)
Looking back my past six months, I sincerely am grateful of the care and guidance that Master has given me.
谢谢师尊，也谢谢帮助，鼓励，包容我的同修。
Thank you Master, and thanks to those practitioners who have helped me, encouraged me and put up with me.
谢谢大家。
Thank you all.