在整体环境中实修与升华(PM 9th sharing)
L L
尊敬的师父好！
同修们好！
又到了一年一度的法会。回首自己的修炼历程，因为惯性、惰性以及不想被触及的人心，以前我只写过一次交流稿，还把写稿当成了“任务”。
师父在《新加坡法会讲法》中开示：
“法呢，可以给他们看，叫他们知道，想不想学全看他们自己了。如果他们一意非要固守着他自己的认识，那也随他们去了。”
“固守”这个词让我有所触动。我觉得自己在交流上确实有些“固守”，所以今年希望有所改变和突破。
第一部分、从“家庭学法”到稳定的“小组学法”
我们全家都在修炼。原来女儿和儿子在家时，我们每天都学法，但因为都是家人，缺乏严格的时间机制，有时早一会儿，有时晚一会儿，整体效率不高。
大约四年半前，为了解决这个问题，我们租借了一位同修的办公室，一家人和附近的同修每天晚上一起学法。这样坚持了半年左右，后来由于种种原因中断了，又回到原来的状态。
三年前的一个周六早晨，先生去附近的公园炼功。平时他时常迟到，但那天特意提前出发。到了炼功点，他遇到了一位第一天来学功的女士。后来，先生通过了解她的情况，邀请她到我家学法。
这位新同修的加入，使家庭学法点有了非家庭成员，学法时间也逐渐规范起来。当时，她正处于家庭磨难之中，每天坚持学法和心性交流，对刚得法的她帮助很大。家庭学法规范后，我们自己也受益良多，于是又陆续邀请其他愿意面对面学法的同修加入，学法点正式稳定下来。
去年，东区学法组来了一位刚刚学功的年轻人。先生考虑到每天学法的环境对新同修有帮助，便邀请他加入。几个月前，又有一位新得法的年轻人加入我们的小组。这些新学员的加入和坚持，对我们也是很大的促进和鼓励。
去年我们搬了家，学法小组成员因为路途原因有所变化，但有些同修仍愿意多开一段路来我家面对面学法。回首这段历程，已经三年多了。除了神韵演出、参加法会或重大活动外，小组学法从未中断。即使我们外出，同修们也能按时过来，保持良好的规律。节日期间，学完法后我们有时也会安排简单的茶叙或烧烤，让气氛轻松一些，也帮助刚离开大陆的同修减少身处异乡的孤寂。
生活环境不同的同修在一起，难免会有差异，但这些差异并没有成为学法的障碍。大家在小组学法中相互促进，心性上的矛盾也极少对集体学法造成实质影响。
师父在《亚太地区学员会议讲法》中开示：
“集体学法是我给你们开创的一种环境、留下的这种形式，我想还是应该这样做。因为这是从实践中走过来的，这样修对学员提高最快。”
对新学员来说，能看到他们随着时间推移，在法上逐渐进步和成熟，有的也开始参与大法活动和项目工作。对我自己来说，稳定的集体学法机制也帮助我保持修炼状态，在修炼中不断突破。
第二部分、让户外炼功成为生活的一部分
户外炼功最初始于一个圣诞假期。孩子们放假后，早晨起床成了问题，每次喊女儿或儿子，总有一个不愿起来。经过交流，我们决定早上去公园炼功，于是假期里一家人开始了早上六点二十分的户外炼功。
和家庭学法点一样，户外炼功也曾因客观因素或主观惰性而中断。大约两年多前，我们又开始想办法出去炼功。后来，一位刚从大陆出来的同修加入晨炼，把每天一小时增加到两小时，一次炼完五套功法。随着时间逐渐固定，陆续又有其他同修加入，多时有八九个人。
搬家后，我们在家附近的公园建立了一个炼功点，一周七天每天都有同修参加。到目前为止，这个晨炼点也快一年了。寒来暑往，每次打坐结束，看到晨曦初放，总有一种与大自然浑然一体的舒畅。横幅挂在湖边的扶手上，很醒目。偶尔有人过来学功，虽然通常来过几次后就不再来了，但也许这是一颗未来的种子。
有时我也会因为惰性而缺席，但缺席后又会后悔，总能在自己的不足中看到持之以恒的意义。在这个过程中，惰性逐渐消退，韧性不断增强，早起对我不再是一种挑战，而成为习以为常的生活方式。
第三部分、在家庭生活中用大法法理指导自己、向内找
回顾过去，我毕业后在单位工作了大约十年。来到澳洲后，我在工作上与先生同修配合，这个过程中经历了不少磨合和矛盾。现在回想起来，能够走过这些矛盾，确实是因为受益于大法的指导。
来到澳洲后，先生做了一个小生意，我需要做他的助手，采购材料、发邮件、联系客户。当时条件其实还不够充分，但先生没有意识到。因为一开始我有些勉强，所以我们双方都有压力。
我平时对很多事务没有太多构想，但在执行过程中，如果事情与自己的认知发生冲突，我就习惯性地产生自己的想法，常常按自己的方式行事，导致结果与预期大相径庭。
比如，早些年因为生意需要，我们要租房居住和存放货物。先生已经基本谈好了，但我后来想到开支方面有困难，产生了压力，没有和先生商量就直接退掉了房子，引起了争吵。类似的情况时有发生。
事情发生后，过一段时间我会意识到自己处理得不合适，但当时却觉得自己就应该那样做。这种“应该”，其实是自我和各种人心形成的观念，而我很多时候习惯性地顺应它们，因此造成了矛盾和魔难。
在小事上也能看到自己的执着。前段时间，先生让我帮他配一点油漆，用量很少。之前他买过的油漆颜色合适，但光泽度不合适，所以这次需要找一个光泽度合适的。到了油漆店，我发现高光泽度的油漆都是一升以上的包装，没有小包装。我竟然“忘了”光泽度这个要求，还是配了一份颜色一致、光泽度却不同的油漆。
拿回来后，我觉得这件事很荒唐。
师父在《精進要旨》〈道法〉中开示：
“你们也要明白“自然”是不存在的，而“必然”是有原因的。”
我回想当时的细节，到了店里，我确实忘了光泽度这个要求。但为什么会忘呢？因为高光泽度的油漆没有小包装，价格高出五倍，我觉得浪费，于是在无意识中把光泽度这个选项屏蔽掉了。
同样在〈道法〉中，师父还开示：
“每当魔难来时，没有用本性的一面来认识，完全用了人的一面理解，那么邪魔就利用了这一点没完没了的干扰与破坏，使学员长期处于魔难之中。”
向内找，我发现最深处应该还是利益之心。这种利益之心很顽固，甚至会形成一种机制，使主意识在某个阶段失去觉察，让它代替主意识，形成一种“忘了”的状态。
回顾家庭修炼，最主要的心性磨炼就是我和先生在工作上的磨合。这个过程充满挑战、冲击和无奈。我知道修炼要向内找，很多时候也在找，但往往只找到某个层面，再往深处就开始自我保护。
譬如，去年卖房子，流拍后需要和买家面对面商量价格。由于我们的底价和买家的出价相差很大，先生态度明确，如果差价太多就不卖；但我当时确实想卖掉，于是出现了买家、中介和我同时给先生施加压力的场景。最后，房子虽然基本按照先生的底价成交了，但事后交流时，先生抱怨我当时的做法。我脆弱的一面又开始保护自己，不愿面对自己的软弱，便开始为自己辩解。这不仅没有解决问题，反而给本来就有情绪的先生带来新的冲击，造成了我们之间的冲突。
但近期，不知道从什么时候开始，我在遇到矛盾时，向内找自己不再附带条件了，也许这是长期学法形成的正念。以前先生提醒我，做错事情应该向内找是美德，我总听不进去，觉得他是在有意贬低我。经历了一次又一次的魔难，在大法的洪大力量下，我那层自我的坚冰开始融化，逐渐愿意真正看自己，而不是一味保护自己。
所谓“闻过则喜”，道理上我知道，但在实践中做不到。现在，我开始一点点明白、理解，甚至体会到其中的内涵。我感受到，从自我的顽固中释放出来、融入正理之中的自由与轻松，也开始理解为什么人的魔难与自己的心有关，以及这些法理背后的深刻内涵。
面对批评时，虽然先生的话中带有情绪，但冷静下来想想，也能发现其中有道理。后来，我渐渐学会不被他的情绪带动。当我能跳出情绪，平静地看待问题时，就会发现他所说的话也能让我有所领悟。
放下自我的过程是家庭生活的一部分。大法法理的指导让我明白，这不是勉强自己，而是真正扩大自己的容量，以新的角度看待问题。师父让我们在家庭中做好自己的角色。我从法理中悟到，每个人都要承担好自己在家庭中的责任，作为妻子和助手，我也必须做好自己的角色。只有真正做到配合默契，才能给对方带来帮助。随着我的转变，先生也不再那么苛刻。
常人看不到吃苦中的真正收获，所以会拒绝吃苦；而在大法中修炼，让我们能够从苦中看到真正的升华，不再愤懑不平。感谢师父的教导，让我在家庭的磨合中逐渐看到自己的问题，摆正自己的角色，修好自己。
第四部分、在和孩子的磨合中走向成熟
我有两个孩子，他们从小就在大法中成长。大女儿出生在国内，很早就跟着我们一起读法。上中学后，随着接触常人社会、面对迫害形势，以及受到同学和网络环境的影响，她在修炼上有所游离。
在家庭中我们讨论过：对于孩子，首先自己要做到“关心但不动心”。修炼不是一项硬性任务，而是一种机缘；我们应该让孩子在自己的人生经历中，通过法理逐渐认识到修炼的意义，而不是单纯地要求他们去修炼。
我的体会是，在与孩子发生矛盾时，首先要严格要求自己，但也不能让孩子因为妈妈是修炼人，就觉得自己理所当然可以获得宽容。应当让孩子看到修炼的妈妈与不修炼的妈妈之间的不同，感受到大法的力量。如果能够通过修炼找到并克制自己的人心，人生中的矛盾就会很快过去。
儿子有时会因为妒嫉心与别人发生冲突。记得他上小学时，我们曾被老师叫到学校，了解他和同学发生冲突的事情。通过他的描述，我一眼看出是妒嫉心引起的，这件事后来成了我们提醒他的一个“标志性事件”。
现在，每当和儿子交流，发现他正念不足或妒嫉心抬头时，我就会适时提起当年的事。我告诉他，当执着心太强、被其控制时，人往往就看不清自己了。通过具体的事件来对照，这些经历就能成为向内找时的一记警钟。
对我个人来说，修炼也让我能够更冷静地从人情中超脱出来。记得孩子们离家时，我曾有一段时间深深陷入为他们担心的“情”中。先生提醒我：“如果你想让他们走得更好、更稳，首先你自己要从这里超脱出来。”
当我真正看到自己的问题并从中挣脱出来时，对我来说是一种心灵上的解脱，对孩子们来说，则是一种空间上的松绑。
第五部分、结语
回想自己的修炼历程，确实让我感慨万千。坦白地说，也许我只是一个愚钝之人，至少在表面上，我曾有一个坚硬的现实外壳，使大法的洪大内涵显得有些遥远。但在师父的慈悲呵护和大法力量的感召下，随着一点点去掉表面的顽固，我真的感受到了大法的博大精深。
来到澳洲后，我主要的心性关就是和先生在磨合中不断提高。曾经有过很多挑战，但我尤其感谢先生同修在关键时刻给予我的提醒和推动。当我在名、利、情受到冲击，陷入苦恼和迷茫时，他通常能察觉我的心理状态，适时提醒我，或与我深入交流，帮助我看到问题所在，知道应该怎样做。
记得有一次，我和他交流什么才是正法时期的大法弟子时，他说，关键时刻要把维护大法放在第一位。当大法与利益、名誉、情感，甚至个人修炼发生冲突、需要作出选择时，都要把大法放在第一位。这些提醒让我受益匪浅，也让我在犹豫时知道该如何选择。
随着我们各自不断成长，曾经的困难也渐渐走了过去。如今再回头看，那些过去的坎坷，渐渐成了人生路上的路标，甚至成为沿途的风景，提醒我们珍惜未来的修炼机缘。
感谢那些几年如一日、每天来我家学法的同修。当我们在学法前小憩时，他们已经在开车赶来我家的路上。他们每一次的到来，都是对我修炼的推动。
也感谢那些在晨曦中来到炼功点的熟悉而温暖的同修。他们的坚持与陪伴，让这个炼功场更加充满力量与生机。
叩拜师尊！
谢谢同修！
Cultivating Solidly and Elevating Through My Cultivation Environment
Li L
Greetings, Revered Master!
Greetings, fellow practitioners!
It is that time of year again for our annual Fa Conference. Looking back on my cultivation journey, I realise that my habits, reluctance to make an effort, and unwillingness to confront certain human attachments meant that I had only written an experience-sharing article once before. I even treated writing it as another task to be completed.
In Teachings at the Conference in Singapore, Master taught:
“We can ask them to read the Fa so that they’ll know what it is. It’s up to them whether they learn it. If they insist on sticking to their own understanding, then let them be.”
The words “sticking to” resonated with me. I realised that I had indeed been sticking to my own ways when it came to sharing my cultivation experiences. So this year, I hope to make some changes and break through this barrier.
1. From Studying the Fa at Home to Consistently Attending Small Group Fa Study
Our whole family cultivates Falun Dafa. When our daughter and son were living at home, we studied the Fa together every day. However, because we were all family, we didn’t have a strict routine. Sometimes we started a little earlier, sometimes a little later, and overall it wasn’t that efficient.
To address this, about four and a half years ago, we rented an office belonging to another practitioner. Our family and the practitioners living nearby studied the Fa together there every evening. We kept this up for about six months before various circumstances brought it to an end, and we went back to our previous routine.
One Saturday morning three years ago, my husband went to a nearby park to do the exercises. He was often late, but that morning he made a special effort to get there early. When he arrived at the practice site, he met a woman who was attending her very first exercise session. After getting to know her, my husband invited her to our home to study the Fa.
With the addition of this new practitioner, our family Fa study group now included someone outside our family, which helped us establish a more regular schedule. At the time, this new practitioner was going through tribulations in her family life. Studying the Fa every day and sharing experiences about improving xinxing helped her enormously as someone who had only recently begun practising.
Once our Fa study routine became more structured, we benefited greatly as well. We gradually invited other practitioners who were willing to study the Fa face to face, and our group Fa study routine became more established.
Last year, a young person who had only recently started practising joined the Eastern Suburbs Fa study group. My husband recognised how beneficial a daily Fa study environment could be for a new practitioner, so he invited him to join us. A few months ago, another young person who had recently begun practising joined our group. The commitment and perseverance of these new practitioners have been a great source of encouragement and motivation for us.
We moved house last year, and the group of practitioners attending Fa study changed because of the increased travel distance. Nevertheless, some practitioners were still willing to drive further to study the Fa with us in person. It has now been more than three years, and apart from periods when we attended Shen Yun performances, Fa conferences or other major events, our group Fa study has never been interrupted. Even when we are away, the other practitioners continue to come at the scheduled time and maintain this good routine. During holiday periods, we sometimes have a simple cup of tea or a barbecue after studying the Fa. This creates a more relaxed festive atmosphere and helps practitioners who have recently left mainland China feel less isolated in a foreign country.
When people from different backgrounds and living circumstances come together, differences are inevitable. However, these differences have not become obstacles to our Fa study. Differences in xinxing have rarely had any significant impact on our group Fa study, and we have gradually worked through these situations together.
In Fa Teaching Given at the Meeting with Asia-Pacific Practitioners, Master taught:
“Group Fa study is an environment I created for you and a form that I’ve left for you. I think you should still participate. That’s because it has stood the test of experience, and cultivating that way allows our students to improve the fastest.”
For new practitioners, it is encouraging to see how they gradually progress and mature in their understanding of the Fa. Some have also begun participating in Dafa activities and project work. For me personally, this consistent Fa study routine has helped stabilise my own cultivation state and enabled me to make continuous breakthroughs in cultivation.
2. Making Outdoor Exercises Part of Everyday Life
Our outdoor exercise practice began during a Christmas holiday. As soon as our children were on holiday, getting them out of bed in the morning became a problem. Whenever I called either our daughter or son to get up, one of them would always want to stay in bed. After discussing the situation, we decided to go to the park to do the exercises in the morning. So, during the holidays, our whole family began practising outdoors at 6.20 am.
As with our home Fa study group, our outdoor practice site during the holidays was sometimes interrupted by external circumstances or our tendency to take things easy. Just over two years ago, we decided to resume practising outdoors every day. Later, a practitioner who had recently arrived from mainland China joined our morning practice. We extended our daily session from one hour to two hours, completing all five exercises. Once we established a set time, more practitioners gradually joined us. At its busiest, our group had eight or nine people.
When we moved house, we established an exercise site at a park near our home. Now, there are practitioners attending every day of the week.
This morning practice group has been going for almost a year now. Through the changing seasons, after finishing the sitting meditation and seeing the first light of dawn, I often feel a deep sense of peace and comfort, as though I have become one with nature. Our banner hangs prominently on the railing beside the lake. Occasionally, someone comes over to learn the exercises. Although they usually stop attending after a few sessions, perhaps a seed has been planted for the future.
Sometimes my own laziness gets the better of me, and I miss a session. Afterwards, I regret it. Yet even through these shortcomings, I have come to appreciate the importance of perseverance. Over time, my tendency to take the easy way has diminished and my resilience has grown. Getting up early is no longer a challenge, but has become a normal part of my daily life.
3. Applying the Principles of Dafa in Family Life and Looking Within
I worked for an organisation for about ten years after graduating. Since coming to Australia, I have worked alongside my husband, who is also a practitioner. We have had many differences and conflicts to work through along the way. Looking back now, I realise that I was able to get through these difficulties because I genuinely benefited from the guidance of Dafa.
After arriving in Australia, my husband started a small business. I needed to help him by buying materials, sending emails and communicating with customers. At the time, we weren’t fully prepared for this, although he hadn’t realised it. Because things got off to a somewhat rocky start, we both felt under pressure.
I generally don’t have many ideas of my own when it comes to various practical matters. However, when carrying out tasks, I would often be conflicted with my own understanding of how things should be done. I would then develop my own ideas and then habitually act according to my own approach. As a result, things sometimes turned out very differently from what was intended.
For example, in the early years, we needed to rent a property both to live in and to store stock for the business. My husband had more or less finalised the arrangements, but then I became concerned about the expenses and felt stressed. Without discussing it with him, I cancelled the arrangement outright. This led to an argument between us. Other similar situations happened from time to time.
After something happened, I could often recognise, some time later, that I hadn’t handled things appropriately. Yet at the time, I genuinely felt that my actions were justified and that things should have been done that way. This sense of what “should” be done was, in fact, a manifestation of my ego and various human attachments. Yet I continued to follow these impulses of mine, resulting in conflicts and tribulations.
Even in small matters, I can see these attachments in myself. Recently, for instance, my husband asked me to help him get a small amount of paint. He needed only a little. He had previously bought some paint, and although the colour was right, the finish was wrong. I needed to get paint with a high gloss finish. When I got to the paint shop, I saw that the high-gloss paint only came in tins of one litre or more, with no smaller sizes. I then ‘forgot’ that the finish mattered and bought a smaller size of paint that matched the colour but had a different finish.
When I brought it home, I realised how ridiculous I’d been.
In “Expounding on the Fa” from Essentials for Further Advancement, Master taught: “You should also be clear that “natural” does not exist, and “the inevitable” has reasons behind it.”
When I reflected on what I’d done, I realised that I really had forgotten about the finish while I was at the shop. But why had I forgotten it? The high-gloss paint wasn’t available in a smaller tin and cost five times as much. I thought it would be wasteful to spend that much, so, unconsciously, I had blocked out the main requirement about the finish.
In “Expounding on the Fa”, Master taught: “Whenever a tribulation comes, you do not see it with the side of your original nature but view it completely with your human side. Evil demons then capitalize on this point and inflict endless interference and damage, leaving students in long-term tribulations.”
Looking within, I realised that, at a deep level, the attachment was probably to personal gain. This attachment was deeply entrenched. It could even create a mechanism through which my main consciousness seemed to lose awareness at a certain point, allowing the attachment to take over and creating an apparently natural state in which I simply “forgot”.
Looking back at this aspect of my cultivation in my family environment, my greatest xinxing tests have come from conflicts when working alongside my husband. The process has been challenging, confronting, difficult and, at times, frustrating. I know that cultivation requires me to look within, and I have done so many times. However, my looking within would often only reach a certain level before my self-defensive instincts took over.
For example, last year, after our house failed to sell at auction, we needed to negotiate the price face to face with a prospective buyer. During the negotiations, there was still a substantial gap between our minimum acceptable price and the buyer’s offer. My husband was firm that we would not sell if the difference was too great. However, I really wanted to sell the house, and the situation developed into one in which the buyer, the agent and I were all putting pressure on my husband. In the end, we sold the house for roughly the minimum price my husband was willing to accept. However, afterwards, when we discussed what had happened, my husband complained about me. My vulnerable side immediately began trying to protect itself. I was unwilling to confront my own weakness and started justifying my actions. This placed further pressure on my husband, who was already upset, and created another conflict between us.
Recently, however, something seems to have changed. I cannot say exactly when it began, but I no longer set limits on looking within. Perhaps this is the result of the righteous thoughts developed through long-term Fa study. In the past, whenever my husband quoted an old proverb to me, “Knowing one’s mistakes and correcting them is the greatest virtue”, I could never really accept it. I felt that he was deliberately putting me down. But after going through one tribulation after another, and through the immense power of Dafa, the hard ice surrounding my ego has gradually begun to melt. I have started to genuinely want to look at myself rather than defend myself.
I understood the idea of welcoming criticism in principle, but I could not put it into practice. Gradually, however, I began to understand it a little more, and even to experience it for myself. I began to feel the freedom and relief that come from letting go of my stubborn ego and aligning myself with the principles of the Fa. I started to understand why people’s tribulations arise from their own attachments, and to appreciate the profound meaning behind these Fa principles. Although my husband sometimes speaks with emotion, once I’ve calmed down and thought about it, I can see that he has a point. Gradually, I have learned not to be swept along by his emotions. When I can rise above the emotional tension, I discover that his words can offer me genuine insights.
Although letting go of my ego is part of family life, the guidance of Dafa has helped me understand that this process is not about forcing myself to do something against my will. Rather, it is about expanding my capacity and learning to see things from a new perspective. Master has taught us to fulfil our roles well within our families. From the principles of the Fa, I have come to understand that everyone must fulfil their responsibilities within the family. As a wife and an assistant in my husband’s business, I must also fulfil that role properly. Only when we truly work together in harmony can we provide genuine support to one another. As I have changed, my husband has also become less demanding towards me.
Everyday people cannot see the true gains that come through enduring hardship, so they tend to reject it. Through cultivation in Dafa, however, we can recognise the genuine elevation that comes from hardship and stop feeling resentful. I am grateful for Master’s teachings and guidance, which have helped me gradually recognise my own problems, fulfil my role appropriately and cultivate myself through the challenges of family life.
4. Becoming More Mature By Working Through Differences with My Children
I have two children, both of whom have grown up with Dafa. My eldest was born in mainland China and began reading the Fa with us when she was very young. After entering secondary school, however, she drifted away from cultivation as she was increasingly exposed to everyday society, faced the reality of the persecution, and was influenced by her peers and the online environment.
We have discussed within our family that, when it comes to our children, we must first learn to care about them without becoming emotionally attached. Cultivation is not a compulsory task but an opportunity. We need to allow them to gain an understanding of the meaning of cultivation through their own life experiences and the principles of the Fa, rather than simply making demands of them.
My experience is that, when conflicts arise with our children, we must first hold ourselves to a high standard. At the same time, we shouldn’t let them think they can expect unconditional leniency because their mother is a practitioner. They should be able to see the difference between a mother who cultivates and one who does not, so they can experience the power of Dafa. When we can recognise and restrain our human attachments through cultivation, conflicts in life can often be resolved much more quickly.
My son sometimes has conflicts with others because of jealousy. I remember being called to his primary school one day because he had a conflict with a classmate. As he described what had happened, I could immediately see that jealousy was at the root of the problem. That incident later became a defining example that we would refer to when reminding him about jealousy. Now, when I talk with my son and notice that his righteous thoughts are weak or that jealousy is surfacing, I sometimes remind him of that incident. I explain that when an attachment becomes too strong and begins to control us, we often lose the ability to see ourselves clearly. By reflecting on a specific and memorable event, we can use our past experiences as a warning when looking within.
For me personally, cultivation has also helped me become calmer and reach above and beyond human qing. I remember that when my children first left home, there was a period when I was deeply consumed by qing and worried about them. My husband reminded me, “If you want them to move forward in life in a better and more stable way, you must first reach above and beyond this.” When I genuinely recognised my own problem and freed myself from it, I experienced a sense of inner liberation. At the same time, I gave my children more space and freedom to find their own way.
5. Conclusion
Looking back on my cultivation journey, I am filled with many thoughts and feelings. To be honest, perhaps I am simply slow to understand things. At least on the surface, I used to have a hard shell of practicality, which made the profound and boundless meaning of Dafa seem somewhat distant from me. Yet, through Master’s compassion, the boundless power of Dafa and the gradual shedding of my stubbornness on the surface, I have genuinely begun to experience how broad and profound Dafa is.
I am grateful to my fellow practitioner, my husband. Since coming to Australia, many of my most significant xinxing tests have arisen from the repeated conflicts between us. There have certainly been many challenges, but at critical moments I have been truly grateful for his reminders and encouragement to move forward. When my attachments to fame, gain and emotion have been challenged, leaving me distressed and confused, he has often been able to recognise my state of mind and offer timely reminders or engage me in deeper discussions. This has helped me see where the problem lies and understand what I should do. I remember sharing and discussing with him what it means to be a Dafa disciple during the Fa-rectification period. He said that, at critical moments, preserving and upholding Dafa must come first. Whenever we have to choose between Dafa and personal gain, fame and reputation, emotions or even our own individual cultivation, Dafa must always take priority. These reminders have benefited me enormously. They have helped me know what to choose when I feel uncertain. As we have both continued to grow, many of the difficulties that once seemed so challenging have gradually been overcome. Looking back, the difficulties we once faced have gradually become signposts along our journey, and even part of the scenery. They remind us to cherish what lies ahead.
I am also deeply grateful to all the practitioners who have come to my home to study the Fa every day, year after year. Sometimes, while we are having a short rest in bed before Fa study, they are already on their way to our home. Their presence has continually encouraged me in my cultivation. I am equally grateful to the lovely practitioners who regularly join us for exercises at the practice site in the early morning light. Their presence gives our practice site greater strength and energy.
Finally, I respectfully bow to revered Master. Thank you, fellow practitioners!