在向内找中不断去掉人心(PM 8th shring)
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慈悲伟大的师父好！
同修们好！
我是2018年开始修炼法轮大法的，从此我的生命有了翻天覆地的变化。修炼以后，我越来越体会到，师父安排在我们身边的每一件事情，都不是偶然的。很多事情表面看起来是别人对我怎么样、环境对我怎么样，可真正让我提高的，却是我找到自己在做事情中表现出来的那颗心。
以前我也知道要向内找，可是真正遇到矛盾时，第一念往往还是看别人。随着不断学法和修炼，我慢慢发现，人的一思一念非常重要。表面上只是生气、着急、抱怨或者不舒服，往深处找，却可能连着妒忌、名利心、利益心、看不上别人、想改变别人等各种人心。
这段时间的修炼经历，让我对这一点有了比较深的体会。
第一部分：在实践中体会一思一念的重要
疫情期间，我有三个月没有上班，那是我比较精进的一段时间。
每天早晨，我在家炼一个小时的抱轮。因为抱一个小时很累，手会抖，怕出去炼功时形象不好，所以就在家先炼。然后学法到九点左右，再去公园炼功、洪法，中午回来，下午四、五点又去公园炼功、发资料，每天基本都是这样。
有一天，一位马来西亚来的女士和一位讲英语的男子过来了解真相。女士会讲普通话，她对我说：“你在这里炼功，人家都不知道你炼的是什么功。”
我当时就想，这是不是师父借她的嘴在点化我？因为我那时没有穿炼功黄衣服。第二天同修正好打电话问我，炼功的展板要不要做成折叠的，我说要。后来我就开始带着展板出去炼功。
还有一次，我在一个很大的公园炼功。我离水泥路大约八、九米，正在炼第二套功法。一位五十岁左右的外国女士，在水泥路上来回走了好几趟，最后走到我身边。她没有穿鞋，手里拿着鞋，看到我以后非常激动，一边比划，一边给女儿打视频电话。
因为她讲英语，我听不懂，就找会英语的同修帮助交流。后来那位同修告诉我，那位外国女士说从水泥路那边走过来的时候感觉很舒服，越往我这里走感觉越舒服，所以最后把鞋脱了，说这样更舒服。
由此我想到师父讲过的能量场，也更加体会到，大法弟子炼功、洪法时形成的能量场是真实存在的。
2024年6月3日，我又参加了坎培拉的活动。那次好不容易请到三天假，我就提醒自己一定要人到、心到、正念到。
出发前一天晚上，我就开始清理自己的空间场。坐巴士时也在清理不好的思想，到旅馆以后，一醒来就炼静功、发正念。
那天下着雨，我们三个人一组在十字路口拿横幅。我看着面前大车小车开过去，车轮压过积水，水花不断飞起来。突然想到：马路每天被车压来压去，却好像很坦然；树和小草也是风吹雨打，却没有什么抱怨。
那么大法弟子在风雨中证实法，是不是也应该坦然？
就在这时，一个念头突然打进来：忍。对，不带任何人念的忍。
那一刻，我只是守住自己的一思一念。有一两次不好的念头出现，我没有跟着它走，它自己就消失了。我体会到这是法的力量，也是师父的加持。
站了将近两个小时，自己却感觉时间过得很快。结束收横幅时，雨停了一小会儿。我看到同修收雨伞，雨伞前面还不断滴水，这才意识到一直在下雨。我摸了一下头，发现头是干的，而且是热的，再摸身上也是干的、热的。
我当时非常惊讶，几个同修也过来摸我的衣服。有同修说，可能是师父把我带到另外空间去了。
弟子只是守住了正念，却能体会到大法的神奇。我知道这不是自己有什么了不起，而是师父一直在保护和加持弟子。
第二部分：从与同事矛盾中看到隐藏很深的人心
我和一个同事一起工作，工作本来比较简单：用雷射划线，再按照雷射线打孔、挂勾。
刚开始我们各做各的，我做两条半，他一条还没做完。后来他在下面放雷射、划线，我在上面打孔、挂勾。本来他放完雷射就应该上来一起干，可是他经常不是去厕所，就是玩手机，或者在那里走来走去。这样一来，很多工作就变成我一个人做。
如果跟别人一起做，两天半左右可以完成，可是跟他一起做，往往需要三四天。
刚开始我还能不往心里去，后来看到他不认真干活，我越来越着急、生气。有一天我突然意识到，这个“气”不是我，不能让它带着自己去发火，否则也可能影响别人对大法弟子的看法。
回家以后，我认真向内找：我为什么会生这么大的气？
师父在《精進要旨》〈境界〉中开示：“惡者妒嫉心所致，為私、為氣、自謂不公。”
我为什么生气？因为我觉得自己干得比他多，心里不平衡，这不是妒忌心吗？
我为什么难受？因为嫌弃他、看不上他。
我为什么希望他一定要和我干差不多的活？因为想改变他，让他按照我的标准做，这不是强加于别人吗？
这样一层层找，我才发现自己隐藏着这么多的人心：妒忌、不平衡、嫌弃、看不上别人、想改变别人，还有傲慢和自以为是。
我想到过去可能也曾经因为这些人心伤害过别人，心里真诚地说了一声：对不起。
我又想到自己为什么着急。师父在《转法轮》中开示：
“你觉的治好了病，别人叫你一声气功师，你高兴的沾沾自喜，美坏了。这不是执著心吗？治不好病时垂头丧气，这不是名利心在起作用吗？”
我为什么怕三天干不完？因为怕老板认为我工作不好，甚至担心影响自己的工作。这不还是求名心和利益心吗？
后来又遇到一块一平方米左右的泡沫板，安装位置非常困难。我提出把板分成两半，各自切缺口，这样比较容易。可是同事不同意，坚持要整块上。
如果是以前，我可能会觉得他在故意刁难我。但那段时间我一直注意自己的一思一念，所以心里很平静，只笑着说：“我相信你才怪，要不这块你来上？”
他很爽快地答应了，结果真正上板时确实非常困难，最后搞得满头是汗。
那一刻我却没有幸灾乐祸，反而体会到：事情还是同一件事情，可是当自己没有带着人心时，心里的感受完全不同。
第三部分：在手机执著中找到背后的观念和执着心
在得法以前，看手机、看连续剧好像就是我生活的一部分。
得法以后，师父在《转法轮》中开示：
“人就追求精神刺激，怎么解渴怎么来。那个作者也抓住这个特点了，反正你怎么解渴、怎么高兴，他给你使劲写。写的越玄你越愿意看，那只是艺术中的夸张。真正有这种功夫的人就不会这样干了，特别是更不能拿出来表演的。 ”
我学到这里，就把看手机的瘾戒了。当时感觉就像师父把我看手机的瘾好像祛掉了，连看手机的想法都没有了。
后来汽车之旅以后，有同修把车旅录像发到常人的网站上。我看完录像，发现下面还有连续剧和各种影片，就点开看了。
没想到这一看又成了我的执著，而且成了我很难放下的执著。
从那以后，我看了又戒，戒了又看。有时候是被动地戒，比如眼睛难受、腰痛，我就想到又是看手机造成的；有时候是主动戒，看了一会儿觉得一点意思都没有，就又戒了。过一段时间又会看。
有时候我也想找一个安静的地方，一个人学法、炼功一段时间。
有一次我正在看手机，自己非常清楚地知道：我其实很不想看。可是就是有一种力量让我拿起手机去看。
我就想，这好像不只是自己看手机的执著产生的物质这么简单，好像旧势力在用这种方式迫害我。因为我明显感觉到，看手机的执著变得越来越强。
那我应该怎么办？
师父在《二零零四年芝加哥法会讲法》开示：
“我们是在根本上否定它的这一切，在否定排除它们中你们所做的一切才是威德。不是在它们造成的魔难中去修炼，是在不承认它们中走好自己的路，连消除它们本身的魔难表现也不承认。”
对于手机，我看了又戒、戒了又看，这是不是长期在它们造成的磨难中修自己？
我想，我绝不承认旧势力的安排。自己有漏，可以在法中归正。可是我的漏到底在哪里？
我开始注意自己什么时候最容易拿起手机。我发现一个规律：星期五下班以后最容易看。为什么？因为周六、周日不上班，脑子里会冒出一个念头：今天星期五，终于可以放松了。我一下子明白了，原来就是这一念。
我把工作放在了第一位。好像一星期辛苦工作，工作结束以后才有资格放松。
可是我为什么而来？我是为法而来的。学好法、修好自己、救度众生才是根本。工作只是为了符合常人的生活方式，完成使命才是我们来世的目的。
原来问题不是简单的“看不看手机”，而是整个观念的问题。当这个观念转过来以后，我才发现，看手机的过程中还反映出很多人心：安逸心、懒惰心、容易发火，情绪有时也会莫名其妙地不好。
有时候我会怀疑自己：我到底有没有修去当时看手机的人心？所以我现在认识到，如果只盯着“手机”这个表面问题，可能会反复戒、反复犯。只有找到背后的观念和执着心，才能真正解决问题。
师父在《精進要旨三》〈越最后越精進〉中开示：
“对于走在神路上的修炼者，除去这些人心的执著与观念的改变就那么难吗？如果一个修炼的人连这些都不想去除，那么修炼人的体现是什么呢？”
这段法对我触动很大。我体会到，真正的放下不是强迫自己不去做某件事情，而是找到背后的人心和观念，从根上把它放下。
第四部分：在家庭的矛盾中向内找
家庭也是修炼的一个重要环境。有一次我从真相点回来，租客打电话说安装网络的人一会儿要来。我还要二十分钟才能到家，就打电话问妻子。她说自己正在逛街。
我第一念马上冒火：答应人家的事情，为什么不在家？为什么也不告诉我？
转念一想，我意识到这不是在抱怨吗？于是我马上告诉自己，这个抱怨心不是我，要把它灭掉，然后对妻子说：“没事，我二十分钟就到家，你慢慢逛吧。”
后来因为状态不好，一些细微的抱怨没有及时发现。第二天租客又说下水道堵了，我听到妻子下午三点多就收到信息，却没有早点告诉我，又开始埋怨。
后来通下水道时，因为一个盖子的问题，我甚至脱口而出：“你怎么什么事情都做不好？”
话说出来以后，我马上后悔。妻子本来可以不出来，她饭都没吃，却跟着我出来帮忙，我有什么理由去埋怨她？
我也反思自己在家里的表现。以前我下班以后会把五套功法炼完再回家，妻子下班比我晚，却还要做饭。我想到自己是修炼人，不能只想着自己炼功，却把家务都推给她。
于是我把炼五套功法调整成炼四套，她下班以后我就帮她一起做饭。周五下班回来，我尽量把家务都做完，这样周六、周日就可以安心出去洪法。
就是这么一个小小的改变，家里的气氛慢慢变好了，也看到妻子脸上的笑容越来越多。
有一次，妻子比我早下班，晚饭已经做好了。吃完饭以后，她回房间休息，我照样洗碗、扫地、拖地、洗衣服，把家务都做完。
做完已经五点多了，我准备出去加油、理发，因为第二天我还要参加汽车之旅。
我进去跟她打招呼，看见她轻松地躺在床上看手机。那一刻，我心里突然产生一种从来没有过的高兴和愉悦。
我没有妒忌，没有不平衡，也没有抱怨。
我体会到，原来不带着人心去做事情，自己也会感到真正的轻松和快乐。
通过这些事情，我越来越明白，向内找不是一句口号。很多时候，表面上只是“生气”，背后却可能有妒嫉心；表面上是“着急”，背后可能有求名和求利之心；表面上是“为别人好”，背后可能有强加和想改变别人；表面上只是“看手机”，背后却可能有安逸和懒惰心以及错误的生活观念。
所以我现在要不断提醒自己：遇到矛盾时，第一念不要看别人，先看自己；发现心里有波动，就要往深处找，看看这个念头背后到底是什么。
师父给我们安排的每一次矛盾，都是一次提高的机会。
修炼人只有不断向内找，把隐藏在思想背后的人心、观念和执著找出来，才能真正把它和真我分开，才能不断同化真、善、忍。
以上是自己在修炼中的一些体会，有不在法上的地方，请慈悲指正！
感恩慈悲伟大的师父！
谢谢同修！
Continuously Letting Go of Human Attachments by Looking Within
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Greetings, compassionate and respected Master!
Greetings, fellow practitioners!
I began practising Falun Dafa in 2018, and since then, my life has changed dramatically. On my cultivation journey, I have increasingly come to realise that nothing Master arranges around us is accidental. On the surface, it may seem that someone has treated me a certain way, or that my circumstances have caused a problem. But what truly helps me to improve is recognising which of my attachments are revealed through my actions.
I knew that I should look inward, but whenever a conflict arose, my first thought was often still to look at the actions of others. Through studying the Fa and continuing my cultivation, I gradually came to understand just how important every thought is. What appears on the surface to be anger, impatience, resentment, or discomfort may, when examined more deeply, be connected to jealousy, the pursuit of fame and gain, concern for personal interests, looking down on others, or wanting to change them.
My cultivation experiences during this period have given me a much deeper understanding of this.
Part One: Learning Through Experience How Important Every Thought Is
During the pandemic, I did not work for three months. It was a period when I was particularly diligent in my cultivation.
Every morning, I would practise the second exercise at home for an hour. Holding the position for that long was tiring and made my arms shake. I was worried that my appearance might not look peaceful when practising outside, so I did it at home first. Then I would study the Fa until around nine, go to the park to practise the exercises and clarify the truth, return home at midday, and go back to the park again around four or five in the afternoon. That was more or less my routine every day.
One day, a woman from Malaysia and an English-speaking man came over to learn the truth. The woman spoke Mandarin and said to me, “You practise here, but people don’t even know what exercises you’re doing.”
I wondered whether Master was using her words to give me a hint, because at the time I was not wearing the yellow jacket. The very next day, a fellow practitioner called to ask whether I wanted the exercise display board to be made foldable. I said yes, and after that I began taking the board with me when I went out to practise.
On another occasion, I was was doing the second exercise in a very large park, about eight or nine metres away from a paved path. A foreign woman who looked to be around fifty walked back and forth along the path several times before finally coming over to me. She was barefoot and holding her shoes. When she saw me, she became very excited, gesturing animatedly while making a video call to her daughter.
She spoke English, which I could not understand, so I asked a fellow practitioner who spoke English to help communicate with her. Later, the practitioner told me that the woman had said she felt very comfortable as she walked over from the path, and the closer she came to me, the more comfortable she felt. That was why she eventually took off her shoes, saying that she felt even more comfortable that way.
This reminded me of what Master has said about energy fields, and it deepened my understanding that the energy field formed when Dafa practitioners do the exercises and clarify the truth is real.
On June 3 2024, I took part in an activity in Canberra again. It had taken a great deal of effort to get three days off work, so I reminded myself that I needed to be there physically, mentally and with righteous thoughts.
The night before leaving, I began to clean up my own field. I continued clearing away bad thoughts on the bus, and after arriving at the hotel, I practised the fifth exercise and sent righteous thoughts as soon as I woke up.
It was raining that day, and the three of us stood together at an intersection holding a banner. I watched cars and trucks pass in front of us, their wheels splashing water everywhere. Suddenly, I thought: the road is driven over by cars every day, yet it seems to accept this calmly. Trees and grass also endure wind and rain without complaint.
Shouldn’t Dafa practitioners also remain calm and composed when validating the Fa in the wind and rain?
Just then, a thought suddenly came to me: forbearance. Yes—true forbearance, without any human notions mixed into it.
At that moment, I simply guarded each thought. Once or twice, a bad thought appeared, but I did not follow it, and it disappeared on its own. I felt that this was the power of the Fa and Master’s strengthening.
We stood there for nearly two hours, yet the time seemed to pass quickly. When we finished and began taking down the banner, the rain stopped briefly. I saw other practitioners folding their umbrellas, with water still dripping from the edges, and only then realised that it had been raining the whole time. I touched my head and found that it was dry and warm. I checked my body as well, and my clothes were dry and warm too.
I was astonished, and several other practitioners came over to feel my clothes. One practitioner said that perhaps Master had taken me to another dimension.
I had simply maintained righteous thoughts, yet I was able to experience the wonders of Dafa. I knew this was not because I was anything special, but because Master had been protecting and strengthening me all along.
Part Two: Discovering Deeply Hidden Attachments Through Conflict with a Colleague
I worked with a colleague, and the job itself was fairly straightforward: use a laser to mark the lines, then drill holes and install hooks along those lines.
At first, we each worked separately. I completed two and a half sections while he had not even finished one. Later, he operated the laser and marked the lines below, while I drilled the holes and installed the hooks above. Once he had finished setting up the laser, he should have come up to help me, but he would often go to the toilet, play on his phone, or simply wander around. As a result, much of the work ended up being done by me alone.
When I worked with someone else, we could usually finish in about two and a half days. With him, it often took three or four days.
At first, I could let it go, but as I watched him work carelessly, I became increasingly impatient and angry. One day, I suddenly realised that this “anger” was not my true self. I must not let it drive me to lose my temper; otherwise, it could also affect how people viewed Dafa practitioners.
When I got home, I looked inward and asked myself: Why was I so angry?
In “Realms,” from Essentials for Further Advancement, Master says: “A wicked person is born of jealousy. Out of selfishness and anger he complains about unfairness towards himself.”
Why was I angry? Because I felt I was doing more work than he was, and I felt things were unfair. Wasn’t that jealousy?
Why did I feel upset? Because I disliked him and looked down on him.
Why did I want him to do roughly the same amount of work as me? Because I wanted to change him and make him work according to my standards. Wasn’t that imposing my will on someone else?
As I kept looking deeper, I discovered so many hidden attachments in myself: jealousy, a sense of unfairness, dislike, looking down on others, wanting to change others, arrogance and self-righteousness.
I thought about how I might have hurt people in the past because of these attachments, and sincerely said in my heart, “I’m sorry.”
I also thought about why I was so anxious. In Zhuan Falun, Master says: “They think that they’ve healed someone and people start calling them a “master.” But it should be obvious that it’s an attachment. The fact that they get visibly dejected when it doesn’t go well is a telltale sign that ego and money are motivating them.
Why was I afraid we would not finish in three days? Because I was worried the boss would think I was not doing my job well, and even feared that my own job might be affected. Wasn’t this still a desire for reputation and personal gain?
Later, we had to install a piece of foam board about one square metre in size, in a very awkward position. I suggested cutting it into two pieces and making the necessary notches in each, which would make installation easier. But my colleague disagreed and insisted on putting it up in one piece.
In the past, I might have thought he was deliberately making things difficult for me. But during that period, I was paying close attention to every thought, so I remained calm and simply smiled and said, “I don’t believe it will work. Why don’t you give it a try yourself?”
He readily agreed, but when he actually tried to install the board, it was indeed very difficult, and he ended up sweating profusely.
Yet this time I did not gloat. Instead, I realised that although the situation had not changed, my feelings were completely different when I was not acting with human attachments.
Part Three: Looking Beyond Phone Usage to Find the Underlying Notions and Attachments
Before I obtained the Fa, browsing on my phone and watching dramas seemed to be just part of my everyday life.
After I began practising, Master said in Zhuan Falun:
“…they know that consumers just want whatever is stimulating and won’t object. Writers often seize on this fact and do whatever they can to meet the demand. And the more incredible the story is, the more readers or viewers go for it. So it really comes down to writers taking artistic license with things. Anyone who actually has powers like those in martial arts works would never act like those characters do, much less showcase their powers.”
When I studied this paragraph, I stopped using my phone to watch these things. At the time, it felt as though Master had helped eliminate this attachment; I wasn’t tempted to even look at my phone.
Some time later, a fellow practitioner had uploaded a video of our car tour, which I watched when it was shared with me. However, I then began to watch other videos that were on the site, one after another.
Unexpectedly, watching them became an attachment again—one that was very difficult for me to let go of.
From then on, it became a pattern where I would return to watching videos after stopping for a while. Sometimes I stopped because I had no choice—for example, when my eyes felt uncomfortable or my back hurt, I would realise it was because I had been looking at my phone again. At other times, I would stop voluntarily because, after watching for a while, I felt disinterested. But after some time, I would start again.
Sometimes I also wanted to find a quiet place where I could study the Fa and practise the exercises by myself for a while.
Once, while I was looking at my phone, I knew very clearly that I did not want to watch anything. Yet some kind of force seemed to make me pick up the phone and start watching videos again.
I began to wonder whether this was more than just the substance generated by my attachment to phone use. It felt as though the old forces were using this method to persecute me, because I could clearly feel that my attachment to watching things on my phone was becoming stronger and stronger.
So what should I do?
In “Fa Teaching Given at the 2004 Chicago Fa Conference”, Master says:
“We’re fundamentally negating all of their things, and all of, and only, the things you do while negating and getting rid of them is mighty-virtue. It’s not that you’re cultivating amidst the ordeals they created. Rather, you are to walk your own path well while not acknowledging them, not acknowledging even the elimination of their ordeals’ manifestations.”
When it came to my phone, I kept stopping and then starting again. Was I not spending a long time cultivating amid the tribulations created by them?
I thought, I absolutely will not acknowledge the old forces’ arrangements. If I have shortcomings, I can correct them according to the Fa. But where exactly were my shortcomings?
I began paying attention to when I was most likely to pick up my phone. I noticed a pattern: I was most likely to watch things after finishing work on Fridays. Why? Because I did not work on Saturdays and Sundays, and a thought would arise: “It’s Friday—finally, I can relax.” Suddenly, I understood. It was this very thought.
I had put work first. It was as though, after working hard all week, I had to finish work before I had earned the right to relax.
But why did I come into this world? I came for the Fa. Studying the Fa well, cultivating myself well and saving sentient beings are what truly matter. Work is simply part of living in ordinary society; fulfilling our mission is the purpose of our coming into this world.
I realised the issue was not simply whether I watched my phone, but the mindset behind it. Once I changed this way of thinking, I began to see that my phone use also revealed many other attachments: a desire for comfort, laziness, a tendency to lose my temper, and moods that sometimes turned bad for no apparent reason.
Sometimes I would question myself: Had I truly cultivated away the attachment that arose when I watched my phone? I now realise that if I focus only on the surface issue of “the phone,” I may keep stopping and relapsing. Only by finding the underlying notions and attachments can I truly resolve the problem.
In “The Closer to the End, the More Diligent You Should Be,” from The Essentials of Diligent Progress III, Master says:
“For cultivators traveling a divine path, is it really that hard to get rid of those attachments that arise from human thinking and to change those notions? If a cultivator doesn’t want to get rid of even those things, well, how is he to show that he’s a cultivator?”
These words touched me deeply. I came to understand that truly letting go does not mean forcing myself to stop doing something. It means finding the attachments and notions behind it and letting them go from the root.
Part Four: Looking Inward When Conflicts Arise at Home
Family life is also an important environment for cultivation. One day, I was returning home from clarifying the truth when my tenant called to say that the person installing the internet would arrive soon. I would not be home for another twenty minutes, so I called my wife to ask about it. She said she was out shopping.
My first reaction was anger: If she had agreed to be there, why wasn’t she at home? Why hadn’t she told me?
Then I reconsidered and realised that this was resentment. I immediately reminded myself that this resentful thought was not my true self and that I needed to eliminate it. I then said to my wife, “It’s okay. I’ll be home in twenty minutes. Take your time shopping.”
Later, because my cultivation state was not good, I failed to notice some subtle resentment in time. The next day, the tenant called again to say that the drain was blocked. I learned that my wife had received the message shortly after three in the afternoon but had not told me earlier, and I began complaining again.
When we later dealt with the blocked drain, there was an issue with a cover, and I even blurted out, “Why can’t you do anything properly?”
As soon as I said it, I regretted it. My wife did not have to come out to help me, and she had not even eaten, yet she still came along. What right did I have to complain about her?
I also reflected on how I behaved at home. In the past, I would finish all five sets of exercises after work before returning home. My wife finished work later than I did, yet she still had to prepare dinner. As a practitioner, I should not focus only on doing my exercises while leaving all the housework to her.
So I changed my routine from doing all five sets of exercises to doing four, and helped my wife prepare dinner after she finished work. On Fridays, I tried to finish the housework when I got home so that I could go out to clarify the truth on Saturdays and Sundays without worrying about chores.
This small change gradually improved the atmosphere at home, and I noticed my wife smiling more often.
One time, my wife finished work before me and had already prepared dinner. After we ate, she went to her room to rest, while I washed the dishes, swept and mopped the floors, did the laundry, and finished the housework.
By the time I finished, it was after five. I was going out to fill up my car and get a haircut because I was taking part in a car tour the next day.
I went in to let her know I was heading out and saw her lying comfortably on the bed, looking at her phone. At that moment, I suddenly felt a kind of happiness and joy I had never experienced before.
I felt no jealousy, no sense of unfairness, and no resentment.
I realised that when I do things without being driven by human attachments, I can feel genuine ease and happiness too.
Through these experiences, I have come to understand more and more that looking inward is not just a slogan. Sometimes what appears to be “anger” is actually jealousy underneath; what appears to be “impatience” may conceal a desire for reputation or personal gain; what seems to be “doing something for someone else’s good” may conceal an urge to impose my views or change them; and what appears to be simply “looking at my phone” may be rooted in a desire for comfort, laziness, and mistaken notions about how to live.
So I now keep reminding myself: when a conflict arises, my first thought should not be to look at others, but to look at myself. When I notice my emotions being stirred, I need to look deeper and ask what is really behind that thought.
Every conflict arranged by Master is an opportunity for me to improve.
Only by continually looking inward and identifying the human attachments, notions and pursuits hidden behind my thoughts can a cultivator truly separate them from the true self and continue to assimilate to Truthfulness, Compassion and Forbearance.
These are some of my personal experiences in cultivation. If anything I have said is not in accordance with the Fa, please kindly point it out.
With deep gratitude to compassionate Master!
Thank you, fellow practitioners!