一年来真修实修中我的变化和感悟
文：澳大利亚大法弟子
尊敬的师父好！
各位同修好！
过去一年的修炼，是我修炼進程中突破最大的一年，身心两方面都得到很大的提升。深知都是师父的苦心安排。
在此之前的几年，因工作忙，除了集体活动和大组学法外，没有更多的时间与同修接触，所以看不到与同修的差距，而且没有把修炼放在第一位，导致了很严重的病业关，出现身体消瘦，脸色晦暗，视力极度不好，起夜最多的时候一晚十一次，等等假象。给不修炼的亲友造成不好的影响。师父一再告诫我们修炼是严肃的，可我却偏离的太远了！
一、参加清晨学法归正修炼状态
早晨起来参加学法，对于很多同修来说早就是习以为常的事了，但对我而言，却是个艰难的事情。
长期以来，因为工作原因，常常是两三点才处理完所有事情，导致晚睡晚起的习惯，所以早起对当时的我来说是一件几乎不可能的事。虽然有很多同修早就提醒我早晨起来学法，可我就是置若罔闻，不愿参加。
师父曾经多次点化我，记得是最后一次，我做了一个梦，我睡在一堆动物皮毛上面，而且是一个人睡在角落里越来越往下陷。师父的声音说：“都把你说皮了，都不改。”醒来后，我下决心要改变这种不是修炼人的状态。去年的九月份，一位同修说：你来跟我们一起参加早上5点15分的学法吧。可各种观念促使我再次以各种借口推辞，而同修的话一下击中要害，她说：“你一个人学，有时迷迷呼呼的，不能天天坚持，跟大家一块学，固定时间，又有大家互相提醒，多好。”
我很认同，于是就开始了清晨学法。在开始的前三个月，虽然每天都能参加，可几乎每天白天都迷迷糊糊，一有空就想睡觉，觉得浑身乏累。但我想，既然已经下决心，就要坚持下去。
学法组同修的精進状态使我汗颜，她们无论遇到什么情况，从不迟到、马虎，我就像一个学习不好的差生，進到一个重点班，被带着往前走。现在我已习惯早起，基本每天都能参加学法。
因为有这样的坚持，明显感到师父把法理展现给我，体会到早晨集体学法的玄妙。
二、参加RTC培训比学比修
二零二零年十月四日是我们全家移民澳洲的十周年纪念日，当时心里想着要做一件跟修炼有关的事，但不知做什么。神奇的是，当天中午就有同修打电话通知：说RTC电话平台要举办新手培训，问我能否参加，我不加思索，马上就报名了。
其实我对打电话是没有信心的，之前试着打过，但拨通电话后，就不敢出声，说不出话来，就象嘴被封住了一样。所以一直觉得自己不适合这个项目。如果不是在这个特别的日子，师父巧妙的安排，我是不会报名参加的。
上培训课前，我给自己设定了很低的目标：能开口讲话，稳住了不怕就行了。至于能否成功劝三退，不在当前目标范围。
经过培训同修细致耐心的传授，我不怕了，能开口了。通过和培训同修们沟通的越来越多，我感受到其实打电话救人，语言表达技能、掌握真相资料的熟悉程度，这是能看见的，但更重要的是同修那颗纯净救人的心、修炼有素的状态。同样的语言，从她们的口里说出来就是直抵人心的。也就是说，这种力量其实是在言语之外的。
我常常感叹，师父要的不就是弟子精進实修的心吗。通过比学比修，我悟到，真正要学的除了技能，更应该是扎扎实实的修炼。
同修们的精進状态和心性境界，对我的日常生活、修炼都有借鉴作用。师尊说：
学法得法
比学比修
事事对照
做到是修 [1]
我对自己说，要时刻保持谦卑的心态，跟上正法的進程，对得起师父的苦心安排。同时，我也有信心了，只要修炼符合那一层次的要求，师父就会把智慧赐予弟子，加持弟子。
通过不断向内找，我明白了，这怕开口的背后，实际是怕被人拒绝，怕难堪，怕丢面子，怕被人骂，说到底是虚荣心、安逸心障碍着。看到自己这么多执着心真是汗颜。但能意识到，努力清除它们就不难了。
培训同修教会了一些讲真相的技巧，结合过去面对面讲真相的经验，我终于能上平台跟同修并肩救人了，我十分珍惜这个机会。我明白，电话那头是各种各样的有缘众生，每一通电话，每个表态关系着这个生命乃至这个生命代表的无量众生的得救。
另外，从每天拨打电话后的交流中，我也可以学到很多，有可能在同修无意的一句话里，找到了一把清除自己执着的钥匙。比如同修交流中提到如何对待家人，立即让我受到很大的启发。我以前并没有做到发自内心的对儿媳妇好，当我找到并去掉了自己隐藏很深的执着心，比如看不起对方的心、求回报的心、得理不饶人的心等等，儿媳妇对我的态度立即就变了。从中我悟到，如果心里有什么不舒服，有什么不开心的事情，那就一定要找一找自己。我有什么起心动念的地方不符合法了？这个根源在哪里？一定要修掉它。因为已经知道了任何一个念，任何一个执着，都是提高的障碍，那我还要那东西干什么？从另一个角度讲，所有给我们制造魔难的人和事，都是我们上升的台阶。
电话平台提供的是一个能熔炼人的环境，救人的同时还能让自己在修炼上快速提高，感谢师尊的苦心安排！
因为在三件事上尽力做好，我在各方面的变化是可喜的。
首先，身体上变化很大，用我先生的话说：“变得很好，脸上有光泽了”。我眼睛也明亮了，几年前我的视力非常差，看手机都无法看清，现在早晨学法不用戴眼镜了；头发在不知不觉中慢慢变黑了；晚上不用起夜了！特别体会到师父说的：“你得真正按我们这个心性标准去修炼，才能达到健康的身体，才能达到真正的往高层次上走的。”[2]
其次，遇事学会向内找，深深体会到师父就在身边，时时看护着弟子，察觉不到的执着心，只要是有，师父都会安排我修心的机缘，所遇到的看似偶然的事，其实透过表象，去探寻深层原因，往往都有我要去的执着心隐藏着。
师父说：“这都是你自己的难，我们为了提高你的心性而利用了它，都能让你过的去。只要你提高心性，就能过的去，就怕你自己不想过，想过就能过的去。所以今后遇到矛盾的时候，你不要把它看成是偶然的。因为矛盾产生的时候，会突然间出现，可是却不是偶然存在的，那是为了提高你的心性的。你只要把你当作炼功人，你就能够把它处理好。” [2]
现在家里虽然偶尔也会遇到一些不顺心的事情，但总的来说一片祥和，不修炼的先生和儿子一家看到我的变化，也是发自内心感受到大法的美好和神奇。
三、在打电话过程中去掉追求劝退人数的心
在RTC平台培训期间，克服了开不了口的障碍后发现，在平台上打电话，各种各样的其它人心，曾经隐藏很深，接下来也一个个被暴露出来，比如：众生接听了、两边交流顺畅就高兴；追求三退数量，退得人数多一点就高兴，反之就沮丧、不高兴；平台交流时，得到鼓励、关注就沾沾自喜。
有这些人心不去，马上就反应到打电话上来，导致接听效果起伏很大。明明同样的语言，昨天众生互动挺好的，退了好几个人，今天却接听率很低，而且越着急越没人听！这些不都是有求之心、虚荣心、名利心障碍的表现吗?
我悟到，其实这样的结果就是师父在点化，只要有不正的心，立马就让我看到，这样几个来回以后，我就在心里跟师父讲，我再也不敢了，再也不敢起那个心了。
下面分享一个故事，让我从中得到很多启悟。有一次，前一天打电话感觉挺好的，于是又起了欢喜心，结果第二天马上就不行了。就是说，有些心会反复几次，才能彻底去掉。当时，心里意识到自己又起了执着心后也沮丧的不行。那两天邪党封网严密，电话几乎打不通。这时，一个几次都打不通、原本不准备再打的号码，在我拨别的电话号码的时候，不经意看见了这个号码，同时金光闪了一下，我心里一动，悟到这个人是有缘众生，于是我就再给他打，结果他接了，而且他也同意“三退”（退出中共党、团、队）了。师尊说：“修在自己，功在师父” [2]，感恩师尊时刻在弟子身边，加持着弟子。不要追求数量，不能错过一个有缘人。
师父在平时也会安排有缘人让我面对面讲真相劝“三退”。同时，因为有平台电话上劝“三退”积累的经验，我发现在面对面讲真相时真是让我受益良多。
本来疫情封锁期间，找房客是挺不容易的，但贴出广告不久，就来了两个看房的年轻人，见面后我们交谈了一个多小时，两人都“三退”了，其中那位女孩还说，要上网找大法书仔细阅读。他们搬家的时候，帮忙的两位朋友，我找机会讲真相，那两位朋友也都愿意“三退”。另外，家里换煤气灶、油烟机时，从销售到安装的华人我也劝他们做了“三退”。
我想，都是因为在平台打真相电话的缘故，心胸不够宽广的表现都没有了，其它不好的念头越来越少。先生看到我的变化，也受到鼓励和启发，向自己的两个客户推荐《转法轮》，而且最近他告诉我，也想开始学炼法轮功了。
师尊说：“那么多众生等着救度呢，不讲真相能行吗？！我都在帮你们做！救常人本来是你们的事情。我救你们，你们救常人，现在连我都帮你们做，你不做了你是大法弟子吗？”[3]
结语
现在我时刻提醒自己不能放松，自己的修炼状态是救人的第一保证，做事是表相，修心才是根本。比如，有时不能自律，会放纵自己关心常人的新闻、八卦，看视频，浪费了很多宝贵的时间。师父在讲法中曾经多次告诉我们：修炼是严肃的。如果到现在连自己的行为都不能自控，就不是小问题，借此机会曝光出来，约束自己不要再做错。
我会在今后的修炼中，努力做到用大法的法理指导自己的一思一念，一言一行，做好三件事，紧跟师父走正走好最后的修炼路，多救人，跟师父回家。
以上交流如有不在法上的地方，请慈悲指正。
谢谢师尊！
谢谢同修！
注：
[1] 李洪志师父著作：《洪吟》<实修>
[2] 李洪志师父著作：《转法轮》
[3] 李洪志师父著作：《二零一九年纽约法会讲法》
（二零二一年澳大利亚网上法会）
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My improvement through One-Year Solid Cultivation
By a Falun Dafa Chinese practitioner in Australia
Greetings revered Master!
Greetings fellow practitioners!
This past year has seen the biggest breakthroughs in the process of my cultivation, having experienced tremendous improvements both physically and mentally. I know that it was all due to the Master’s meticulous arrangements.
For many years prior, I had been practising alone without the ability to compare my cultivation state with that of fellow practitioners. I also did not make cultivation my first priority. These things combined led to serious physical symptoms including a sick thin body, a dull complexion, extremely bad eyesight, awakening 11 times per night and other symptoms. These had given my everyday friends and relatives a bad impression of Dafa. Master has repeatedly told us that cultivation is serious, but I had strayed too far away.
1. Attending early morning Fa study to improve my cultivation
Getting up early in the morning to attend group Fa study has long been a common practice for many fellow practitioners, but for me, it was a difficult task.
For a long time, due to my work schedule, I stayed up until 2 or 3am, going to sleep late and consequently waking up late. Getting up early was almost impossible for me at that time. Although many fellow practitioners had reminded me to get up in the morning to study the Fa, I just ignored them and did not want to participate.
Master had helped me to enlighten many times. I remember in a dream, I was sleeping on a pile of animal skins and was sleeping alone in a corner sinking further and further down. In the dream, I heard Master’s voice telling me, “You are not listening even though I have told you so many times already.” After I woke up, I resolved to change my cultivation state as I considered myself to not be a true practitioner. In September of last year, a fellow practitioner said, “Come and join us for Fa study at 5.15am every morning.” Various ideas and excuses prompted me to resist again, but the words of this practitioner hit the nail on the head. She said, “If you study alone, you may sometimes get lost and have trouble sticking to it every day, so it’s good to study with others at a routine time. We can remind each other.”
I agreed and I started Fa study early in the morning. For the first three months, even though I attended every day, I was sleepy during most of the day after reading and wanted to go to the bed whenever I could. However, I thought that since I had already made up my mind, I should stick to my decision and persevere.
I was ashamed of myself when I saw the diligence of other group members, who were never late or sloppy, no matter what the situation was. I was like a mediocre student in an accelerated class and was pushed to move forward and catch up. Over the past year, I have changed from arriving late into being punctual and diligent in my daily attendance. Now I am used to getting up early and I can participate in Fa study basically every day.
Because of my perseverance, Master has clearly helped me to enlighten to Fa principles and I have now experienced the wonder of group Fa study in the morning.
2. Join the RTC training while cultivating myself
The 4th of October 2020 was the tenth anniversary of my family’s migration to Australia, and I was thinking of doing something related to cultivation to celebrate, but I didn’t know what to do. Miraculously, at noon that day, a fellow practitioner called to inform me that the RTC telephone platform was going to hold a beginners training and asked if I wanted to join in.
I had no confidence in making phone calls. I had tried to do so before, but after dialling the number, I had been too afraid and could not speak, as if my mouth had been sealed off. So, I always felt that I was not suitable for this project. If it wasn’t for Master’s arrangement on that special day, I would not have signed up for it. I had studied the Fa with fellow practitioners that morning and persevered in breaking through and doing so for a month and had the desire to cultivate well.
Before the training class, I set myself a very small target: to be able to speak out, to be calm, and not to fear talking on the phone. As for whether I could successfully persuade people to quit the CCP and its affiliates did not bother me too much at that time.
After the step-by-step training by fellow practitioners, I was not afraid and could speak out on the phone. By communicating more and more with other practitioners, I felt that saving people through phone calls required language skills and familiarity with truth clarification materials on the surface level. However, the pure heart of a practitioner to save people and a good cultivation status are more important. Those words can go straight to the heart and the power of the Fa goes beyond words.
I often felt, “What Master wants is the disciple’s heart to diligently practice.” By comparing and learning, I realised that what I really needed was not only communication skills but also to be diligent in my cultivation.
The cultivation and mindset of my fellow practitioners were helpful to me both in my daily life and cultivation.
Master said,
Solid Cultivation
“Study Fa, obtain Fa,
Compare in studying, compare in cultivating,
Examine each and every deed,
Accomplishing is cultivating.”(Hong Yin )
I told myself that I should always keep a humble mind, keep up with the progression of Fa Rectification, and cherish Master’s painstaking arrangements. At the same time, I also had the confidence that Master would bestow wisdom on the disciple and honour him or her as long as the cultivation level required was met.
By constantly looking inward, I understood that behind my fear of opening up my mouth is actually the fear of being rejected with a “No”, the fear of being embarrassed, the fear of losing face, the fear of being berated, and in the end, it stems from vanity and the attachment to comfort that caused these obstacles for myself. It was shameful to see so many of these attachments surface. But it wasn’t difficult to get rid of them once they were identified.
From the training, I learnt some truth clarification skills. Alongside my past experience of face-to-face truth clarification, I was finally able to help Master save people side-by-side with fellow practitioners on the phone call platform, and I cherish this opportunity. I understand that there are all kinds of sentient beings on the other end of the phone, and every phone call and every statement is related to the salvation of that life and even the infinite number of sentient beings that this life represents.
In addition, I learnt a lot from the daily sharing sessions after finishing the phone calls, and I often find the “key” to eliminate my attachments from the unintentional words of fellow practitioners. For example, I immediately enlightened how I should treat my family members when others shared about it. I hadn’t been treating my daughter-in-law well before, and I then found and removed some deep-seated attachments, such as the mindset of looking down on the other person, the mindset that wants to get something in return, being unforgiving, etc. My daughter-in-law’s attitude toward me immediately changed as well. I realised from this that if there is any discomfort or unhappiness in my heart, then I must look inside myself. What is the root cause of my thoughts that are not in line with the Fa? And then make sure to fix it. It is already known that any thought or attachment is an obstacle to improvement, so what do I need that for? On the other hand, all people and things that create difficulties for us are the steppingstones for us to raise our xinxing levels.
Through this phone call platform, I’m helping Master save people and improving my cultivation rapidly. I thank Master for his painstaking arrangements!
Because I did my best to do well in the three things, the changes I experienced in all aspects of my life have been delightful.
First of all, my body has changed a lot. In my husband’s words – it has become very good. My face became radiant, and my eyes were brighter. A few years ago, my eyesight was so poor that I couldn’t even read on my cell phone clearly. Now I don’t need to wear glasses in the morning to study the Fa, my hair is slowly becoming darker without me realizing it, and I don’t get up at night anymore!
Master said,
“To attain a healthy body and truly make progress toward high levels, you must cultivate by truly following our xinxing standard.” (Lecture Four, Zhuan Falun)
Secondly, I learnt to look inward when things happened and I truly feel that Master is with us, watching over his disciples all the time. Master will arrange opportunities for us to cultivate our minds and rid ourselves of the unnoticed attachments, as long as they remain. When looking deeper within, the seemingly accidental troubles encountered, in fact, often conceal a hidden attachment.
Master said,
“These are all your own tribulations that we use to improve your xinxing, and you will be able to overcome them. As long as you upgrade your xinxing, you can overcome them. Unless you, yourself do not want to do so, you can make it, provided you want to overcome them. Therefore, from now on when you come across a conflict you should not consider it a coincidence. This is because when a conflict occurs, it will take place unexpectedly. But that is not a coincidence—it is for improving your xinxing. As long as you treat yourself as a practitioner, you can handle it properly.” (Lecture Four, Zhuan Falun)
Now I occasionally encounter some conflicts at home, but in general, my family life is peaceful. My husband and my son’s family, all of whom do not practise, but they see the changes in me, they also feel the beauty and wonders of Dafa from the bottom of their hearts.
3. Removing the pursuit of results during phone calls
After overcoming the attachment of not being able to open up my mouth, I found that when I made calls on the RTC platform, I had all kinds of other human attachments. Those that were once hidden deep were exposed one by one, such as feeling happy when the sentient beings answered and we communicated smoothly, feeling happy when I had a high number of successful phone calls, and feeling frustrated when things didn’t go so well. I also felt complacent after receiving encouragement or attention during internal sharing sessions with practitioners.
With these attachments, the quality of the phone calls was up and down, even with exactly the same words. The more anxious I became, the fewer people answered the phone! Weren’t these all manifestations of pursuing vanity and fame?
I realised that, in fact, these results were a message from Master. Once I had an improper mindset, Master immediately lets me see it. After I noticed this a few times, I told Master in my heart that I would never allow myself to have that mindset again.
Here is a story that greatly inspired me. One day, I was doing well in my calls, and I felt overjoyed, then the next day it immediately became difficult. Some attachments and mindsets take several times before they are completely eliminated. At the time, I was frustrated when I realised that I had become attached to the results again. During those two days, the evil CCP tried to cut off the network, so the phone calls were almost blocked. There was a number that I had not been able to get through to several times. I accidentally saw that number when I dialled another number, and at the same time, a thought flashed in my mind. I was moved and realised that this person was a sentient being that I should save, so I called him again and luckily, he answered, and he agreed to “San Tui”.
Master said,
“Cultivation depends on one’s own efforts, while the transformation of gong is done by one’s master.” (Lecture One, Zhuan Falun)
I am grateful that Master is always by our side, empowering us. We should not miss a single predestined person.
Master also arranged for me to clarify truths to predestined people face-to-face, to advise them to quit the CCP. I found that I benefited a lot from the experience I gained on the telephone platform when I do face-to-face truth clarification.
It was not easy to find tenants during the CCP virus lockdown, but soon after I posted an ad, two young people came to have a room inspection, and we talked for more than an hour. Both of them agreed to quit the CCP. The girl told me she would look online to read Falun Gong books. When they were moving in, I met two of their friends, and I found an opportunity to clarify the truth to them, and both of them were willing to quit the CCP. In addition, when changing gas stoves and range hoods at home, I also clarified the truths to the salesmen and the installers and helped them withdraw the CCP.
I think due to the truth clarification phone calls I have been making on the platform, my past attachment of being narrow minded is now gone, there are fewer bad thoughts in my mind. When my husband saw these changes in me, he was encouraged and inspired to recommend Falun Gong to two of his clients, and he recently told me that he wanted to start learning Falun Gong as well.
Master said,
“How could it be okay to not do that when so many people are waiting to be saved?! Even I am helping you do that! Saving non-practitioners is supposed to be your responsibility. [The way it’s supposed to be is that] I save you, and you save them. Now I am even helping you do it, so if you don’t do it, are you a Dafa disciple?” (“Fa Teaching at the 2019 New York Fa Conference”)
Conclusion
I always remind myself now that I shouldn’t relax as my cultivation state is my guarantee to help save people efficiently. Getting involved in projects is what happens on the surface while cultivating is the basis of everything. For example, sometimes I cannot discipline myself and will indulge myself in ordinary people’s news, gossip and videos, which wastes a lot of precious time. Master has told us many times in his teachings that cultivation is serious. Not being able to discipline my own behaviour or attachments at this stage is not a minor problem. So, I’d like to take this opportunity to expose them and discipline myself to not make any more mistakes.
I will try my best to use my understanding of the Fa to guide my every thought, word and deed in my future cultivation, do the three things well, follow Master’s instructions closely, walk the final path of cultivation righteously, help save more people and return home with Master.
Please kindly point out anything inappropriate.
Thank you Master!
Thank you, practitioners!
(Presented at the 2021 Australia Online Falun Dafa Experience Sharing Conference)