我的得法的经历与修炼
慈悲伟大的师尊好!
各位同修好!
我是一位在法轮大法中修炼才一年多的新学员，当时我在中国那种持续非法迫害大法的恶劣环境中，虽然我能感受到压力很大，但这并没有能够阻挡得住我对大法的向往。
今天我交流自己为何能克服被中共迫害的恐惧并开始在法轮大法中修炼的经过；以及在短短的一年多修炼过程中我所亲身体验的和时时感受到的师父对我的慈悲加持与呵护！师父把我们快要破碎的一家拯救成健康祥和的快乐家庭。
一、破碎家庭幸遇大法锋回路转
我无法忘记，我们第一次见到大法弟子的美好经历。那是二零一七年十二月，那时我的儿子有点自闭症，他平时不和任何人说话，并且有时悲伤地说：“为什么要生我？”“我认为生活对我来说毫无意义”“我不想活着”。
那是一段黑暗而艰难的时期，一个善良的人建议我们应该见到他认识的“最好最阳光的家庭”！因此，我们遇到了法轮功学员，当他们看到我们时，他们的儿子立即热情地握住我儿子的手，并与我的儿子一起玩耍。发生了一件神奇的事，我的儿子笑了，笑得从未有过的灿烂。其实，我已经忘记了他上一次笑是什么时候！
即便我已经经历了如此美好的感受，就因为我知道中共对法轮功学员非法迫害和酷刑折磨的真相，使我感受到非常恐惧和害怕，因此我一直在选择修炼大法与不修炼之间摇摆不定，直到二零一九年三月经历了一次流产，这让我对人生从绝望到醒悟，明白了人生只不过是轮回在泥潭中的一段，我决心修炼大法，我想要从轮回中解脱出来。
那时，我被迫两次流产的痛苦记忆时时萦绕着我，晚上常常梦到我那些没有出生的孩子，他们呆在一个阴森的泛着绿光的地方，梦中很模糊，记不起具体的事件，只能感受到压抑和恐怖，而且醒来后还沈浸在那种情绪中无法自拔，我感到这是对我们两次未能保护婴儿的惩罚，我痛苦得要窒息……为了逃避现实，我每天躺在床上，沉迷于互联网，我甚至都没有气力去照顾儿子，上班前丈夫会做好饭，交代儿子照顾我，我每天没有做什么却觉得很累，身体累，心也累，觉得人生没有意义。
大法弟子得悉我的状态后，再次与我深入交谈，不厌其烦的一次又一次劝导我走入修炼，这一次，我冲破怕心，用了两天把大法书《转法轮》看完，我边看边流泪，看大法书时感受到了前所未有的舒服，祥和，心很静，在那段绝望的时间中第一次明白到了生命的意义，宇宙，人体，时空，生命，书里都写了，明白后，就知道我原来的痛苦其实是我们前世所做的结果，也就是业力轮报啊，那时我就想摆脱痛苦，不再受轮回之苦，我觉得生命的意义在于修炼，我想和师父回家。
此后，在与大法弟子接触期间，我的儿子也从沉迷于网络游戏，叛逆自闭变得阳光，开朗，对生活越来越热爱，并且对自然，科学，摄影……产生了浓厚的兴趣。儿子，也正在他人眼中成为榜样。
记得儿子沉迷网络游戏时，白天睡觉，夜里等我们睡着后，来到我们的房间偷偷的拿手机去玩，有一次，还在我的眼皮底下拿我的手机去给游戏充值，他知道我的微信付款密码，我也从来没有对自己的儿子设防，在接到银行的扣款短信时，我还以为是我的密码泄露，急忙给银行打电话冻结账号。
后来儿子神情闪烁，我才怀疑起来，我们严厉批评了他，并当面平静的把那个买给他的手机给砸坏，儿子威胁我们，不给他玩游戏就离家出走！我们没有妥协，儿子夺门而出，我们偷偷跟着他，发现他在小区的楼顶上蜷缩着。我们知道他暂时没有危险后回家了。
当晚，我对丈夫说，现在只有大法能救儿子了，经历着担心和折磨，无神论的丈夫也心力交瘁，无计可施，他是抱着试一试的心态同意儿子修炼。看得出来，虽然我得法后改变很大，但他还是很怀疑大法能对离家出走的儿子有什么用。在我们忐忑不安中，第二天早上，儿子回家了，我给他看了《转法轮》，他很感兴趣地一直看，一直看，自此以后，儿子跟着我学法，我们能感觉到儿子的怒气慢慢没有了，他开始做家务，认真学习，见到人总是礼貌的微笑，因为他总是能迁就别人，满足别人的需要，所以其他孩子总是喜欢围着他、跟他玩。自那以后他再也没有玩过网络游戏了，我们问他：“你所有的同学都玩游戏，你不会想玩吗？”儿子的回答让我惊叹不已，他说：“人生就是一张考卷，生命终结之时就要交卷给师父”，我当时又惊又喜，儿子小小年纪讲出的话是这么有智慧，他知道了生命的意义，我知道，我也不用担心他会做不好的事了，他知道不能给自己增添业力，他说他想好好修心，也想圆满随师还。
虽然他目前只是学法，还不愿意炼功，但我会好好修自己，放下对他的担心和执着，修好自己。我相信：他能做我的孩子一定是与大法有缘，他的一切由师父安排。
我的丈夫是一位无神论者，但是当他目睹我和儿子之间的变化后，他也慢慢進入大法修行。原本他的性格易怒、容易与他人发生冲突，在修炼大法后，他现在看待世界的角度和处理生活的态度是不同的，他不再沉迷于是非，也不再害怕被欺骗；因为他知道苦难是福，所以遇到魔难都可以退一步和忍让，并用大法“真，善、忍”的法理来指导自己，现在的他感到安宁与快乐，我们的家庭关系也融洽了。
我们全家都感受到大法太美好了，师父太慈悲了，大法和师父救了我们一家。
二、感受慈悲伟大的师父时时看护着弟子
得法后的经历，也让我感受到慈悲伟大的师父就在我身边时时看护着弟子！
记得我在第一次炼功的那天夜里，睡梦中，我的身体感觉到有电流流过，我醒了，感觉到我的身体美妙而难以形容！经过一段时间的修炼，困扰我很多年的妇科疾病也神奇的痊愈了。
后来，我们一家来到了澳洲，我们在国内同修的安排下直接找到了澳洲的同修，每天早晨我们可以去炼功点炼功弘法，白天发神韵小册子，参加各个大法活动，晚上参加学法小组或一家人在一起集体学法，每天可以集体交流，在集体修炼的环境中，觉得自己的修炼状态更好了。
在国内的时候，每次和同修一起交流，都要把手机放在其他房间的一个铁盒子里，还要放上音乐，听着同修讲述他们在看守所的遭遇的种种酷刑，还是会有怕心，也怕连累家人。在一段时间的学法修炼以后，我用正念想这些心都是要去掉的，来澳洲不久，就有同修让我参加一个活动，而我需要上台進行功法展示，在我上台和上台的前后，有一个人不断的对着我的脸照相，我没有把握住，顿时起了怕心，怕牵连国内的家人，这一念一发出，我就知道不好，虽然想否定它，但当时确实感到正念不足。后来，得知警察去我家找到我的妈妈，我发正念清除邪恶，可是说实话，我当时又一次没有守住心性，确实担心他们的安全。我感到自己太不悟了，大法弟子的思想也是有功能的，我为我的这么没有正念，人心这么重感到难过，所以，我首先要做的就是好好发正念，修好自己，修去怕心。
于是，我跟着同修参与了中领馆发正念和炼功，在中领馆发正念时，有一位三十多岁的男士对着我们拍照，我坚持发正念，清除控制他的背后的邪恶因素，我没有动心，我感觉到了强大的能量场，那时什么也没有想，只有对师父的感恩，我明白这是师父慈悲，给我又一个修心的机会，从此以后，虽然在参加活动也有时会有人对着我拍照，但我再也没有怕过。
我知道这就是师父说的：“修在自己，功在师父”[1]就是如此神奇，在走向无比殊胜的佛光普照的回家路上，我时时刻刻能感受到师父的慈悲看护和苦心普渡。
有一天，我乘在从中领馆回家的公交车上，到站时我突然问司机：火车站怎么走？问完后我自己都很惊讶，因为我是知道路的，我怎么会去明知故问呢？这时一位西人跟着我下车给我指路，我谢过她，并告诉她我认识路，可她却像没有听到一样坚持送我到车站，我忽然意识到，这不就是师父给我安排的救人的机会吗？于是我给她一路讲真相，讲中共活摘器官，中国没有人权，中共对法轮功的迫害，中共是个邪恶的政权等等，她说我讲的她以前都没这么听过，但她以后会去关注了解的，我们分开时她对我表示感谢。
那一刻，我感受到众生都在等着得救，我们大法弟子具有救人的使命，我也感恩师尊的慈悲点化。当我回到家门口时，先生惊奇地指着铁门说：“优昙婆罗花”！我仔细一看，果然，铁门上长着一簇洁白的优昙婆罗花。我们来悉尼不久，家门口的树上，儿子的自行车上都相继开放了优昙婆罗花，我把几片叶子保存至今，我很珍惜，因为我觉得这是师父对我的鼓励。同时我也感受到修炼的幸福和美好，心里充满了对师父的感恩。
我知道，我从大法中得到的太多太多，师父把我从这肮脏不堪的人世凡尘捞了出来，给了我第二次生命，任何语言也无法表达我对师父的感恩。看神韵时，从神韵一开演我就流泪，一直流到结束，听神韵交响乐，听明慧广播，尤其是“忆师恩”，我也会常常流泪，还有看到师父法像，觉得师父很亲很亲，又很惭愧自己不够精進，也会流泪，我知道这是明白的我的一面的表现，也让我知道我能做的只有勇猛精進，助师正法，听师父的话，做好三件事，圆满随师还。
最后恭录一首洪吟结束我今天的交流，以表达弟子对慈悲伟大的师尊的无限感恩，
〈缘归圣果〉
寻师几多年
一朝亲得见
得法往回修
圆满随师还
以上是我得法过程中的一点经历和个人体悟，如有不在法上之处请同修慈悲指正。
感谢师父！
谢谢同修！
注：
[1] 李洪志师父著作：《转法轮》
[2] 李洪志师父诗词: 《洪吟》〈缘归圣果〉
English Translation of the sharing:
My Experience of Obtaining the Fa and Cultivation
Greetings, great compassionate Master!
Greetings, fellow practitioners!
I am a new practitioner who has cultivated Falun Dafa for just over a year. While in China, though I kept feeling the tremendous pressure of persecution, I could not stop my yearning for Dafa, and eventually I obtained the Fa.
Today I would like to share my experience of overcoming fear, my experience of cultivation, and my gratitude for Master’s compassionate blessing.
- My family was saved from the brink of collapse, and was blessed with happiness
I will never forget the amazing experience of meeting with Dafa disciples for the first time. It was in December 2017, and at that time, my son was somewhat autistic. He didn’t talk to anyone and sometimes said some sad things such as, “Why I was born?” “I think life is meaningless to me.” “I don’t want to live.” It was a dark and difficult time for us. A kind man suggested that we should meet the “happiest and most optimistic” family he knew. That was, a family of Falun Gong practitioners. When we met, their son immediately held my son’s hand enthusiastically and played with my son. A miraculous thing happened. My son laughed and smiled brilliantly. I had forgotten when was the last time he smiled!
However, in spite of this good experience, because I knew the CCP’s persecution and torture of Falun Gong practitioners, I was terrified. Out of fear, I was unable to start the practice. In March 2019, after an abortion, my life went from despair to awakening. I realised that this life is just a brief period in the never-ending samsara. I became determined to practice Dafa and I want to be free from samsara.
At that time, the painful memory of two forced abortions lingered around me. At night, I often dreamed of my unborn children, who were in a place with a ghastly green glow. The dreams were very vague and I cannot remember the details, all I could feel was gloom and horror. Even after I woke up, I was still surrounded by these feelings, and could not pull myself out of them. I felt that this was the punishment for our failures to protect the babies. The pain I felt was immense and suffocating. In order to escape from reality, every day I just stayed in bed, wallowing in the Internet. I didn’t even have the energy to take care of my son. Before going to work, my husband would prepare a meal and tell my son to take care of me. Every day, even though I didn’t do anything, I felt tired physically and mentally and felt that life was meaningless.
After learning of my situation, the Dafa disciple I met before had an in-depth conversation once again with me, tirelessly persuading me to step into cultivation. This time, I broke through my fear and finished reading the Dafa book Zhuan Falun in two days. While reading, I was in tears, but also felt an unprecedented level of comfort, harmony, and peace of heart. In that period of despair, I understood for the first time the meaning of life. The universe, the human body, time and space, and life were all covered in the book. I finally understood that my suffering was a result of everything I did in previous lives, a result of karmic retribution. At that time, I wanted to be free from the pain, and free from the suffering of samsara and reincarnation. I believed that the meaning of life lies in cultivation, and I wanted to return home with Master.
Since then, through contacts with Dafa disciples, my son has also transformed, from being addicted to online gaming, rebellious and autistic, to a bright and cheerful person. He came to love life more and more and has also developed keen interests in nature, science, photography, and so on. He was even becoming a role model in the eyes of others.
Before, when my son was addicted to online games, he slept during the day, and at night after we fell asleep, sneaked into our room to take our mobile phones to play games. Once, he even used my mobile phone under my nose to recharge for the game. He knew my WeChat payment password, and I never set up any protective measures against my son. When I received the text message notification from the bank of the charge, my first thought was that my password has been hacked. I hurriedly called the bank to freeze my account. I only became suspicious of my son’s flickering facial expression. We verbally disciplined him severely, and even calmly broke the mobile phone we bought for him. Our son threatened to run away from home if he was not allowed to play games. We did not compromise, and he ran out the door. We secretly followed him and found him curled up on the roof of a building. Knowing that he was not in danger, we went back home. That night, I told my husband, only Dafa could save our son. Exhausted by our troublesome son, and at wit’s end, my atheist husband agreed to give it a try. I could tell that he was not fully convinced whether Dafa can help our son, even though he had observed big changes in me after practicing Dafa. Our son came home the next morning. I showed him Zhuan Falun and let him read it. He read and read with great interest. Since then, my son has followed me to study the Fa. We noticed that his anger gradually disappeared, he started doing housework, studied earnestly, and he always smiled politely when he met people. Other children liked to play with him because he always accommodated and cared about the needs of others. He never played online games again. Once we asked him, “All your schoolmates play games, don’t you want to play?” My son’s answer surprised me greatly, he said, “Life is a piece of the examination paper. When life ends, that’s when you need to hand it into the Master.” I was very much pleasantly surprised, that my son, at such a young age, could say things with such wisdom. He understood the meaning of life, and I knew that I didn’t have to worry about him doing bad things anymore. He knows not to bring bad karma upon himself; he wanted to cultivate his mind and be able to satisfactorily return with Master.
Even though he is currently only studying the Fa and not yet willing to practice the exercises, I will do my best to cultivate myself and let go of my worries and attachments. For him to be my son, he may also be destined for Dafa. Everything is arranged by our Master.
My husband was an atheist, but after witnessing the changes between my son and me, he also gradually entered the Dafa practice. Originally, he had an irritable personality and was prone to conflict with others. After obtaining the Fa, he now has a different perspective on life and the world. He is no longer obsessed with arguing what is right and what is wrong, nor is he afraid of being cheated. He knows that suffering is a blessing and that when he encountered trouble or tribulation he was able to step back, be tolerant, and use the principles truth, compassion and forbearance to guide him. He now feels peace and happiness, and we have a harmonious relationship within our family.
My entire family can feel that Dafa is truly wonderfully beautiful and Master is truly compassionate. Dafa and our Master saved our whole family.
- Feeling that Master is always by my side, watching over His disciples!
The experience I had after obtaining the Fa also allowed me to feel that the great and compassionate is always by my side, watching over His disciples.
I remember the night after the first time practicing the exercises, in my sleep, I felt electricity flowing through my body. When I woke up, my body felt wonderful and indescribable! After a period of cultivation, a gynecological problem that had been bothering me for many years has been completely cured.
Later, our family came to Australia. With the help of fellow practitioners in China, we were able to get in contact with practitioners in Australia. We could go to a practice point every morning to practice and propagate the Fa. We distributed Shen Yun pamphlets during the day, attended various activities, and joined a Fa study group or gather together as a family to study the Fa in the evening. We could interact in a group and share experiences every day. Under a collective cultivation environment, I felt that my state of cultivation was greatly improved. While still in China, whenever we wanted to study and share in a group, we had to place our mobile phones in a box in a different room and also put on music. I still feel terrified listening to practitioners recounting their experiences in detention centres and the various types of torture they were subjected to.
After a period of studying the Fa and cultivating, I am mindful that these attachments all need to be eliminated. Not long after arriving in Australia, a practitioner asked me to participate in a Dafa activity, where I needed to demonstrate the exercises on stage. While on stage and before and after going on stage, there was someone who kept taking photos of my face. I could not get a hold of myself and suddenly felt fearful, afraid of implicating my family in China. As soon as this thought came out, I knew it was not right, and wanted to negate it, but at that time really felt that I didn’t have enough righteous thought. Later, I found out that the police went to my home to see my mother. I used righteous thoughts to clear the evil, but to be honest, once again I could not take control of my attachments, and really worried about their safety. I felt very unenlightened. The thoughts of Dafa disciples carry energy. I felt bad about not having enough righteous thoughts and having so much human attachment. Therefore, I first needed to properly send out righteous thoughts, cultivate myself, and eliminate fear.
So, together with fellow practitioners, I participated in activities outside the Chinese consulate. While sending righteous thoughts there, there was a man in his 30s taking photos of us. I persevered in sending righteous thoughts to clear the nefarious force that’s controlling him. I didn’t sway this time and felt a strong energy field. At that time, I felt only gratitude to Master and nothing else. I knew this was Master’s compassion, giving me this opportunity to cultivate my mentality. From then on, I never felt fear again, even though there were still people who sometimes took photos of me when I participated in activities. I know that cultivating is up to ourselves, while the Gong is up to the Master. That’s the way it is. The path home is lighted by Buddha. On this exceptional path, I can constantly feel Master’s compassionate protection and divine deliverance.
One day, on the bus home from the Chinese consulate, after reaching my stop, I suddenly asked the driver the way to the train station, which surprised even myself. I knew the route, so why would I ask the question when I knew the answer? A Westerner got off the bus with me and showed me the way. I thanked her and told her that I knew how to get there, but she acted as if she didn’t hear me, and persisted in sending me to the station. I suddenly realised, isn’t this just the opportunity arranged by Master for me to save someone? So I began to tell her the truth, about CCP’s organ harvesting, the lack of human rights and the persecution of Falun Gong in China, how the CCP is an evil political power, and so on. She said she hadn’t heard much about what I told her, but she will attend more to those issues from then on. She thanked me when we parted.
I could feel that all living beings are waiting to be saved; that it is our mission as Dafa disciples to save them, and felt gratitude for Master’s compassion and lighting the way. When I arrived home, my husband, pointing to the iron gate, said with surprise, “Udumbara flower”! When I looked closer, indeed, I saw a cluster of white udumbara flowers. Not long after arriving in Sydney, udumbara flowers appeared on the trees in front of our home and on my son’s bicycle. I saved a few flowers to this day. I feel that it is encouragement from the Master and I cherish it very much, and feel happiness and wonder in cultivating. My heart is filled with gratitude to Him.
I know that I have received so much from Dafa, and that Master has given me a second chance at life by removing me from the filth. No words can express my gratitude to Master. When watching the Shen Yun show, from the start of the performance to the end, I was in tears. I also often shed tears when listening to Shen Yun Symphony Orchestra, to Minghui broadcasts, particularly Yi Shien (“Master’s Grace”). Also, when I see Master’s portrait, I feel He is very dear to me, and at the same time, shed a tear and feel ashamed that I haven’t dedicated myself enough to Dafa. I know that this is the manifestation of the understanding of my knowing side. This also let me know that the only thing I can do is to dedicate myself courageously, assist the Master to Fa rectification, listen to His words, do the three things well, and satisfactorily return with Master.
Lastly, I would like to finish my sharing with a Hongyin poem to express my boundless gratitude to the great and compassionate Master,
Destined Return for the Holy Fruition
Oh how many the years, looking for the master,
Finally the day has arrived to meet him.
Cultivate and return, the Fa now gained,
And follow your master to return, consummated.
January 23, 1996, Hongyin 1
The above are my personal experiences and realizations in my process of obtaining the Fa and cultivating. If there is any deviation from the Fa, I ask fellow practitioners to kindly correct me. Heshi.
Thank you, Master!
Thank you, Fellow practitioners!