Susan Bai
2005年澳洲法輪大法法會發言稿: “電腦網絡講真象講退黨的修煉體會
My experience about clarifying the truth via the Internet and helping people quit the CCP
師父好，同修們好：
Greetings Master, greetings fellow cultivators:
我今天很高興能在此與大家交流我最近利用電腦網絡講真象講退黨的修煉體會。我就從買電腦說起吧。直到今年初我還一點都不會用電腦，連明慧網都不會上。後來聽別的學員交流說電腦網絡是是很好的講真象方式，有很多人可以到電腦上來下載真象電影，還可以直接對中國人講真象。我有點動心，但又一想，我一點都不會電腦，而且買電腦要花那麼多錢，而我經濟不寬鬆，又沒有自己的房子，住在幹活的老闆家，用自己的電腦怎麼方便呢？老闆會不會不高興呢？這樣一想，就有些猶豫了，沒有立即決定。後來，我悟到現在退黨是一種很重要的講真象的方式，我就直接和我的老闆說，我想買電腦，並安裝高速上網，開始時我老闆不理解我花那麼多錢裝這些有什麼用。但我當時的念很正，我覺得我該幹什麼就幹什麼，所以我的老闆就同意了。
Today I am very happy to share with everyone my recent cultivation experience of using the computer and Internet to clarify the truth, helping people quit the CCP. I’ll start from the moment I bought a computer. Up till the beginning of this year, I didn’t know how to use computers at all. I didn’t even know how to get onto the Clearwisdom website. Later, I heard other practitioners say that using computers and the Internet was a very good means of clarifying the truth, because people could get on the computer and download truth clarification videos. Moreover, we could directly clarify the truth to Chinese people. I was thinking that I might do it as well, but then I thought, I can’t use computers at all. It costs so much money to buy a computer and I’m not very well off financially. I don’t have my own place, and was staying in my boss’ house. How convenient would it be if I have my own computer? Will my boss be unhappy? With these thoughts, I felt a bit hesitant and I didn’t make an immediate decision. Later, I enlightened that right now, telling people about quitting the CCP is one very important way of clarifying the truth. So I told my boss, ‘I want to buy a computer and connect to broadband Internet’. At the start, my boss didn’t understand what use it was for me to spend so much money getting these things. My thoughts at the time were very righteous so I thought that I should do what I’m supposed to do. My boss finally agreed.
於是我就買了全新的高級電腦專門做講真象的事，並且自費安裝了高速上網，並請懂技術的學員到我家裡來給我安裝了可以傳輸真象電影的軟件。我很快就看到了很好的效果，每天有１０多個人不間斷的連續下載真象電影，還有很多人在排隊等待下載。我從完全不會電腦，開始一點點的學習使用電腦，如何開機，如何上明慧網，到如何下載電影。我老闆也開玩笑的對我說，你從不會用電腦，到現在下載電影這麼厲害。再過一段時間，又有學員給大家推薦了可以給中國人打電話講真象的網絡聊天工具。我很感興趣，於是請學員到我家裡給我安裝了聊天的軟件，並給我演示了基本的操作方法，我還有了一個很有意思的網名叫—無懮無慮，這也許就是那些與我有緣的眾生與我相遇、結緣的契機吧。但是剛開始的一段時間，我的正念不是很強，所以並沒有馬上開始，進行聊天講真象。我遇到了各種各樣的干擾形式，比如，覺得自己正念不強，真象講不好，不知道如何去講，覺得自己文化不高，還給自己找了藉口就是自己的話筒對方一直聽不到聲音，雖然換了好幾個還是遇到這樣的情況，講不出來。這樣的干擾就使我開始網絡講真象延遲了將近一個月的時間。
I bought a new hitech computer just for clarifying the truth, and I paid for the installation of the high speed Internet out of my own expenses. I also invited a more technically competent practitioner over to help me install a program needed to produce truth clarification videos. I saw great results very quickly. Each day, 10 to 20 people downloaded truth clarification videos uninterruptedly, and many people queued up, waiting to download. I went from not knowing how to use a computer at all, to gradually learning how to use it, how to get onto the Clearwisdom website, and finally, how to download videos. My boss also joked with me, saying, ‘you’ve never known how to use computers, and now you’re downloading videos, you’re a star’! After a period of time, some practitioners recommended an Internet chat tool which could be used to make phone calls to Chinese people and tell them the truth. I was very interested, so I called a practitioner over to help me install a chat program and demonstrate the basic operations. I also had a very meaningful cyber name, Carefree. Perhaps this was a crucial factor for those predestined sentient beings, to allow them to meet me and establish the predestined relationship. In the beginning, my righteous thoughts were not very strong, so I didn’t get started immediately on clarifying the truth through Chat rooms. I ran into interferences of all sorts. For example, I felt that my own righteous thoughts weren’t strong, that I couldn’t clarify the truth well, and that I didn’t know how to go about it. I felt that I wasn’t well educated, and I found excuses for myself; namely, that the person on the other end of the microphone couldn’t hear me continuously, and even though the microphone was replaced several times, I still ran into this situation; I couldn’t speak. This kind of interference delayed my Internet truth clarification for almost a month.
直到有一天，我到另外一個學員家裡學法。學完了法學員問我有沒有開始網絡聊天講真象了，我說還沒有，我的話筒好像有問題。這個學員就建議我先在她家裡的電腦上聊聊試試，先沖過去開頭這一關。那一天，學員把電話接通之後，我就被趕鴨子上架推上前聊了起來，我當時非常緊張，不知道該說什麼，也不記得當時說了些什麼了。雖然我那天自己也覺得說話語無倫次的，但是師父還是給我鼓勵，對方聽得還很有興趣，也一直在耐心的聽我講。聊了一會，電話突然斷線了，我也沒有勇氣再去撥通電話了。之後，那個學員就把話筒借給了我，鼓勵我回家後繼續再接著聊。這樣我就沒有什麼藉口不真正的開始上網聊天講真象了。
until one day, I went to a practitioner’s place to study the Fa. After Fa study, a practitioner asked me whether I had started clarifying the truth via Internet chat. I said I hadn’t because it looked like my microphone was having problems. This practitioner suggested that I first try to chat using her computer, to break through this initial barrier. That day, after she connected the phone, I was forced to start chatting. I was extremely nervous at the time. I didn’t know what I should say, and I didn’t even remember what I had said. Although I felt that I spoke incoherently that day, Master still gave me encouragement. The other party listened with considerable interest and patience. After chatting for a while, the line suddenly disconnected and I didn’t have the courage to dial up again. After that time, the practitioner lent me a microphone, and encouraged me to keep on chatting once I returned home. With this encouragement, I didn’t have any excuse not to truly begin using the Internet chat to clarify the truth.
開始的時候，我還是感覺很不習慣，也遇到不少干擾。網絡上有很多人都是別有目的或者尋找色情娛樂的人，或者是即使聽我講了退黨退團之後也無動於衷，讓我覺得失去信心，感覺這個網絡聊天講真象太難，太花時間了。正在這時，我在網絡聊天時遇到了一位加拿大的學員。剛開始我們都不知道對方是學員，所以我就告訴他，我有一個朋友是煉法輪功的，剛從加拿大過來，那個學員立即就猜到了我說的是誰，並且說出了他也是個學員。我就開始向他倒苦水，訴說我最近在網上聊天遇到的困難，他就和我聊他網絡講真象的體會。我開始意識到我自己作為一個大法弟子的使命，認識到我現在為什麼要買電腦。我靜下心來學學法，找找自己，看看自己有沒有感到那麼多眾生等待救度的急切心態。我問自己，我現在買這個電腦是做什麼用的。最後意識到沒有什麼藉口，也不應該再有什麼觀念了。我想只要是師父希望我們做的事情，那我不要多想了，就去做好了。就抱著那一念，就希望能告訴儘可能多的眾生能夠退黨退團保平安，讓更多的眾生不會因為惡黨而被淘汰。
At the start, I still felt that I really hadn’t adapted, and I ran into no small amount of interference. On the Internet, there are many people who come with different purposes, people searching for lust, love and amusement. There were also people who dropped out after hearing me talk about quitting the CCP and its related organizations, making me lose confidence and making me feel that clarifying the truth using Internet chat was too hard and too time consuming. At this point in time, I bumped into a Canadian practitioner while chatting online. At the start, I didn’t know that the other person was a practitioner, so I told him that I have a friend who just came from Canada and practices Falun Gong,. That person immediately guessed who I was talking about, and said that he too was a practitioner. I then started to pour out my grievances to him, telling him about the difficulties I had recently encountered in using Internet chat. He shared his experience of using the Internet to clarify the truth. I began to realize my mission as a Dafa disciple. I realized why I had to buy a computer at this point in time. I calmed down to study the Fa, and I looked within. I examined myself to see whether I was anxious about so many sentient beings waiting for salvation. I asked myself, what is the computer I’m buying to be used for? Finally I realized that I don’t have any excuse, and I shouldn’t have any more notions. I thought that as long as it’s what Master wishes us to do, then I shouldn’t think about it much, but just do it well. I hoped that I could tell as many sentient beings as possible to quit the CCP organizations and they will be safe, so that many more sentient beings wouldn’t be eliminated.
從那個時候起，我每天干完工作之後，先學一講法，到晚上１０點多開始上網去聊天講真象，每天至少講到二點發正念前。有時候遇到有緣的人，忍不住就聊到３、４點鐘，把退黨、退團和大法的真象都講了，真正的徹底講情真象，讓對方完全明白過來，不但退黨，退團，退隊，還明白了大法的真象。有些還要給我他們的真名來退黨。
From then on, each day after I finished my work, I first studied one Fa lecture, and then at 10pm, I would get online and start to clarify the truth through internet chat. Each day I would talk at least until it was time to send forth righteous thoughts at 2am. Sometimes I came across predestined people, and I couldn’t help but chat till 3 or 4am. I told them about quitting the party and its organizations, and told them the truth about Dafa. I truly clarified the truth till the end, helping the other person come to understand the whole truth, not only about quitting the CCP and quitting the CCP’s organizations, but to also understand the truth about Dafa. Some people even gave me their real name to quit the CCP.
我告訴他們，你願意用真名，化名退都沒有關係，但是我還是希望你能夠平安，不要受到邪惡的迫害，所以我還是給你用化名退吧。那些常人都挺感動，感受到大法弟子處處為別人著想的胸懷。其中的一個網友給自己起了一個有趣的化名，叫做”三軍”，他告訴我說這表示海、陸、空三軍，表示他要把這些邪惡全部退出他的生命中去。
I told them, you agree to use your real name, but if you use a pen name it doesn’t matter. I still hope that you will be safe, and won’t suffer persecution by the evil, so I’ll still use a pen name for you. Those ordinary people were quite moved. They could feel Dafa disciples’ heart of thinking about others in all aspects. One particular Internet friend gave himself an interesting pen name, “Three armed forces”. He told me that this signified the navy, army, and air force- the three armed forces. It signified that he wanted to completely get rid of these evils from his life.
還有一個有意思的故事是一次我和一個網友聊天時，他的網名叫大樹。他在一個廠裡工作，他告訴我，他一個月工資４０００多塊錢。我問他是否經常上網聊天，他說白天上網，晚上他太太不讓他在家上網。我問他有沒有在網上聽說退黨、退團這件事情，他說沒有。我問他是否願意退黨，他開始的時候還說，我是擁護共產黨的。我就開始告訴他為什麼現在會出現退黨這件事情，為什麼會有這樣的天象變化，和他講共產黨的本質。講完了之後，他就問我，為什麼我沒有聽說我旁邊的人退黨、退團呢？我就告訴他，我為什麼要讓你退團、退黨就是要讓你保平安的，纔會讓你用化名或者筆名來退黨。所以即使你身邊的人退了黨，也不一定會到處說的，除非是他們很好的朋友。這樣他聽明白了之後，覺得很有道理，他也決定退黨了。我問他用什麼名字退，他說那就用大樹吧，因為我人長得高大，我喜歡這個名字，你就用這個名字幫我退吧。他還謝謝我。後來，我再上網時，他還多次我呼叫我再聊，但是我都正忙於和其他人講真象，沒來得及和他再聊。我聊天幾個月以來，幾乎沒遇到多少重複的聊天對象，讓我真的感受到很多人瞭解真象得救的機緣也許就那麼一次，錯過了就不知道什麼時候還有下一次機會了。
There’s another interesting story too. Once I was chatting to an Internet friend whose name was Big Tree. He works in a factory. He told me, his monthly wage is 4000 dollars. I asked him whether he often went online to chat. He said he goes online during the daytime at work because his wife doesn’t let him get on the Internet at night at home. I asked him whether he had heard of quitting the CCP. He said he hadn’t so I asked him whether he would like to quit the CCP. At first he even said ‘I support the Chinese Communist Party’. I told him why Quit CCP had come about, why there were such celestial changes, and about the nature of the CCP. After I had finished talking, he asked me, ‘why haven’t I heard of the people next to me quitting the CCP?’, so I said to him, ‘why do I want you to quit the CCP. Quitting the CCP is for your own safety. You can quit using a pseudonym or pen name. Even if the people beside you have quit the party, they might not go everywhere telling people about it, unless it’s their really good friends’. After he understood, and thought that it was reasonable, he also decided to quit. I asked him what name he would use to quit, he said, ‘just use Big Tree, because I have grown big and tall, I like this name, you can just use this name to help me quit’. He even thanked me. Later, when I got on the Internet again, this person asked me many times to chat, but I was busy clarifying the truth to other people and I couldn’t chat with him in the time available to me. For the several months that I have been chatting now, I have hardly bumped into people who I’ve chatted with before. This made me feel that the opportunity for many people to understand the truth and be saved may only come once. If we miss it, we won’t know when there’ll be another chance.
還有一個晚上，我二個小時之內連續幫助三個人退了黨、團，還有一個人退黨、退團之後，他明白了真象，很感謝我，我問他你還有沒有什麼其他人希望他們平安的，他說希望我能夠幫他女朋友也退黨，把他女朋友的名字給了我，說他女朋友剛剛入了黨。我告訴他，幫其他人退黨是可以的，但是一定要得到她本人同意。所以你必須告訴她為什麼退黨對她這麼重要。他說，好，我一定會告訴她，一定要讓她明白為什麼要幫她退黨。
One night, in two hours of chatting I helped 3 people quit the CCP and its groups. There was another person who, after quitting the CCP and its groups, understood the truth. He was really grateful towards me so I asked him, ‘do you have any more people who you wish to be safe’? He said that he wishes I would help his girlfriend quit the party, and gave me his girlfriend’s name. He said his girlfriend had just joined the party. I told him, to help other people quit the party is okay, but it must be that she herself agrees, so you must tell her why quitting the CCP is really important for her. He said, ‘okay, I will definitely tell her, I will definitely have her understand why I’m helping her quit’.
還有一個人我和他聊了不到１０分鍾他就很高興的同意退了黨，因為在和我聊天之前，他已經在網絡上遇到了好幾個來自加拿大和美國的學員，給他講過了真象。所以他在這之前已經明白了很多真象，這次也許是機緣成熟了吧，所以遇到我他就很乾脆的同意退黨了。這次聊天的經歷也給我一個很好的啟示，從前我和一些人講真象的時候聊了好幾個小時，最後我問他們是否退黨時，他們還是很猶豫，說還要考慮之後再決定，那時我會覺得花了這麼多時間，你也明白了這麼多真象，但是在最關鍵的時候為什麼還是下不了決心呢。我覺得救人真的很不容易。但是經過這次１０分鍾退黨的聊天經歷之後，我的想法完全改變了，我想不管我們和那些人講真象聊了多久，我不再求結果，不再執著他們是否馬上同意退黨，只要他們明白了真象，以後還會有得救的機緣。大法是圓融的，也許第一個人講的沒有完全打動他的心，沒有觸及到他的微觀，但那些真象是不會白講的，那下一個人也許就能夠完全改變他們，讓他們得救。我悟到不要小看了我們說的每一句真象，那背後的內涵是很深的，大家的努力合在一起，就能夠讓更多的眾生真正得救。明白了這一點之後，我就能夠以更平和的心態去聊天講真象，做而不求。
There was another person who I had only chatted with for less than 10 minutes. He happily agreed to quit the CCP, because before I had chatted to him, he already understood a lot of the truth from coming across quite a few Canadian and American practitioners who told him the truth. Perhaps this time the opportunity was ripe, so when he bumped into me, he immediately agreed to quit the CCP. This time, the chatting experience also enlightened me a lot. Previously when I clarified the truth to some people, I chatted for quite a few hours, and at the end when I asked them whether they’d quit, they were still very hesitant. They said they’d still have to think it over before deciding. At that point, I would feel that I had spent so much time: I would think, you understood a lot of the truth, but at the most critical point, why couldn’t you be determined to quit. I felt that truly saving people was not easy. But after this chat experience of quitting in 10 minutes, my thinking completely changed. I think that it doesn’t matter how much time I spend chatting to clarify the truth to people, I won’t pursue the results anymore, I won’t be attached to whether they immediately quit the CCP anymore. As long as they understand the truth, from then on, they will still have opportunities to be saved. Dafa is all encompassing. Maybe the first person who talks to them won’t completely move or touch them on a deeper level, but the truth won’t have been said in vain. The next person might be able to completely change them and allow them to be saved. I enlightened that we should not underestimate each sentence of truth clarification that we speak. The meaning behind it is very profound. When everyone’s efforts are combined, even more sentient beings can truly be saved. After I understood this point, I could chat and clarify the truth with a peaceful heart, doing it without pursuing.
與我聊天的人來自不同行業，很多都是醫生、政府部門、電腦工程師、設計師、大學畢業生等專業人士，苦於生活和工作的壓力很大。所以他們就通過上網聊天來輕鬆一下。他們看到我的網名之後，就很感興趣來找我聊天，問我為什麼能夠無懮無慮，我的秘訣在哪裡。在和我聊天過程中，他們也能夠分享到大法弟子的輕鬆、自在和無懮無慮的感覺，很多人願意把他們工作和生活上的煩惱告訴我，並且覺得我按照大法的法理給他們講的道理讓他們很信服和受益，也有人覺得和我聊天之後感到茅塞頓開，有了工作上的靈感。所以很多人還給我留下了他們的聯係電話，手機，希望能夠保持聯係，進一步聊天，也有很多人留下了電子郵件希望能夠給他們發九評和退黨的消息多瞭解一些。
People who chatted to me had many different occupations. Some were doctors, government staff, computer engineers, designers, university graduates and other professionals. They worked tirelessly and the work pressure was enormous, so they would get on the Internet and chat to chill out. After seeing my cyber name, they would be really interested to chat to me. They asked me why I was carefree and what my secret was. In the process of chatting with me, they could also feel Dafa disciples’ lightheartedness, liberty and carefree nature. Many people willingly told me about their troubles at work and in their lives. Moreover, they felt that they believed, and benefited from the principles I told them according to Dafa. There were also others who felt that chatting to me suddenly opened a mental block, and they had inspiration for their work. So many people left me their contact telephone number and mobile number, and wished that we could keep in touch and continue chatting. There were many people who left their emails and hoped that I could send them The Nine Commentaries and news of quitting the CCP so that they could understand more.
這樣聊天的故事是講不完的。我有時候工作了一天，到上網前已經感覺很累了。但是一想到那麼多眾生等待我去講真象去救度時，那就沒有那麼多累的觀念了。但是當我一坐到電腦前時，我就像完全換了一個人。感覺精神百倍，而且面對他們的各種問題，智慧的回答源源不斷而來。很多人和我聊天之後，都問我，你學位很高吧，是不是讀了很多書啊。我就告訴他們真話，其實我小學都沒有畢業，他們都感到很驚奇。這一切的智慧都來源於大法。
I can’t tell you all the stories I have about chatting. Sometimes I’d work for a whole day and before I got on the Internet I would already feel very tired. But once I think about so many sentient beings waiting for me to clarify the truth and save them, I don’t have so many thoughts of laziness. As soon as I sit down before the computer, it is as though I have changed into a completely different person. I feel that my energy and spirit has grown a hundred fold. Facing their various questions, wise answers continuously come forth in a steady stream. After chatting to me, many people ask me, ‘you’re highly educated, have you read a lot of books’? I just tell them the truth. Actually, I didn’t even graduate from primary school. They were all really surprised. All this wisdom came from Dafa.
我這幾個月來已經幫助幾十個人退黨、退團，還和好幾百個網友聊天講了真象。很多人聊過之後，還經常回來再找我，希望再聊。我覺得網絡上有極其豐富的資源，有大批的眾生等待得救，我悟到為什麼現在國內這麼多的人喜歡上網，為什麼這樣嚴密的網絡封鎖都沒有完全封鎖住，是因為有那麼多眾生在著急的等待得救。
In the past few months, I have already helped dozens of people quit the CCP and its organizations. And I have chatted to a few hundred Internet friends and told them the truth. Many people often came back to find me, and wished they could chat again. I feel that the Internet has really rich resources and that there is a large number of sentient beings waiting for salvation. I enlightened to why so many people inside China like to get on the Internet, and why, with such a tight Internet blockade, the Internet could not be completely blocked after all. It is because there are so many sentient beings anxiously waiting for salvation.
我想和大家分享的是，不要被自己人的觀念給障礙住了，錯過了這個講真象的大好機會。每個大法弟子都要大顯神通，這也是一個顯神通的機會。
What I want to share with everyone is, do not be hindered by your own notions and miss this great opportunity of clarifying the truth. Every Dafa disciple must fully display his supernormal abilities.
最後，我覺得作為一個正法時期的大法弟子，就應該聽師父的話做好三件事，信師信法。為什麼從去年開始退黨退團到現在，纔４００萬人宣佈退黨。我覺得這不符合師父對我們的要求和期待。如果每個學員都能夠真正動起來，每個人幫助幾十個人退黨、退團，那我們這麼多的學員，就能夠帶動千萬倍的常人退黨退團。以上是我最近講真象的一些修煉體會，如果有什麼不當之處，敬請同修慈悲指正。
This is an opportunity to demonstrate one’s supernormal abilities. I feel that as a Fa rectification period Dafa disciple, we should listen to Master to do the three things well, believe in Master and believe in Dafa. Since the beginning of last year until now, why have only 4 million people declared that they will quit the CCP? I feel that this doesn’t conform to the requirements and anticipation that Master has for us. If each practitioner can truly take action, help tens of people quit the CCP, with so many practitioners we can bring ten million ordinary people to quit the CCP. This is my recent cultivation experience of clarifying the truth. If there is anything which does not align with Fa, I respectfully invite fellow cultivators to point it out compassionately.
最後，我想以師父《洪吟二》中的詩《法正乾坤》與同修們共勉：
慈悲能溶天地春
正念可救世中人
謝謝師父！謝謝大家！
Susan白
Finally, I would like to encourage fellow cultivators, with Master’s poem from ‘The Grand Verses II’, “Fa Rectifies the Cosmos”
“Mercy can dissolve heaven and earth,
bringing about spring,
Righteous thoughts may save people in the world”
(Note: Provisional translation subject to further improvement)
Thank you Master. Thank you everyone.
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