珍惜修炼机缘 (AM 4th sharing)
L YQ
尊敬的师尊好！
各位同修大家好！
今天很高兴有机会和大家交流自己多年来的修炼体会。回顾这一路，有过困难和迷茫，也有突破执着、明白法理后的喜悦。每当在矛盾和考验中发现自己的不足，并在法中重新认识自己、改变自己时，我都更加体会到修炼机缘的珍贵。
下面，我从三个方面与大家分享自己的修炼体会。
第一部分：遇到问题时，真正向内找
修炼中的考验往往体现在日常小事中。遇到问题时，能否把自己当作修炼人，放下情绪，首先向内找，是我需要不断修炼的。
有一次，我要到较远的地方参加集体活动，便发信息询问一位同修是否有顺风车可以搭乘。同修回复说，她自己也是坐别人的车去的，随后指出我平时与人相处时有指责别人、要求别人，自己做不到时又说别人的问题，性格也比较强势。
看到这些话，我心里很不好受。我觉得自己只是问有没有座位，怎么反而谈起了我的性格？我也回想自己与这位同修平时相处得还可以，为什么她会这样看我？当时，我的第一反应是觉得委屈，有些不理解。
过了一会儿，我慢慢静下心来，想到自己是修炼人，遇到矛盾应该先向内找。我开始反思：平时与同修相处时，我是不是有时说话不注意？是不是认为自己的出发点是好的，就忽略了别人的感受？同修的提醒也让我有机会重新审视自己。
我逐渐认识到，别人怎么看我并不是最重要的，重要的是自己是否真的存在这些问题。如果存在，就应该改变，而不是一听到别人说自己不好，就觉得委屈，急于辩解。即使当时不能完全理解对方的话，也可以先放下自己的情绪，看看自己有哪些地方需要改进。
于是，我回复同修：“谢谢你的提醒，以后我会注意。”发出信息后，心里反而轻松了一些。我体会到，当自己不再一味想着解释和证明自己，而是愿意接受提醒、反思自己时，心态就会发生变化。不过，接受提醒不能只停留在口头上，还要在日常相处中留意自己的言行，真正改变自己。
师父在《转法轮》中开示：
“都是常人中的状态，谁今天惹你了，谁惹你生气了，谁对你不好了，突然间对你出言不逊了，就看你怎么对待这些问题。”
师父的法让我认识到，遇到矛盾时，不能只看别人怎么对待自己，更要看看自己的心动了没有。当听到不爱听的话时，自己是否急于辩解？是否只希望别人看到自己的好，却不愿意面对自己的不足？
师父在《二零零六年加拿大法会讲法》中开示：
“常人所有不好的心，你各种执着，你都得放下去。怕人说，是不是个执着？光想听好听的，这怎么可能呢？就是要说点你不爱听的，看你会不会动心。”
回想这件事，我很感谢同修的提醒，让我看到自己以前可能没有注意到的问题，这也让我想起师父在《洪吟三》〈谁是谁非〉中开示：
“修炼人
自找过
各种人心去的多
大关小关别想落
对的是他
错的是我
争什么”
我认识到，修炼人遇到问题时，首先应该想到的不是“别人为什么这样对我”，而是自己还有哪些地方没有做好。向内找不是口头上说一说，而是要在矛盾中真正放下自我，从自己的思想和言行中查找不足，并在以后的相处中逐步改正。只有这样，才能把遇到的矛盾转化为提高自己的机会。
第二部分：在魔难中守住正念
多年来，我曾有过几次意外摔倒的经历。回想当时的情景，这些突如其来的考验至今还让我印象深刻。每次事后回想，我都对师父的慈悲保护充满感恩，也促使自己反思修炼中还有哪些不足。
第一次摔倒，是我下班后骑自行车回家时。当时我在下坡转弯时突然向前摔了出去。事情发生得很快，我心里的第一念就是：“我是修炼人，没事。”
爬起来后，我看到自行车倒在身后，腿部关节有些淤青，头部着地时也听到一声响，但没有感到其他异常，便扶起自行车骑回家。这次意外让我感到事情发生得很突然，也让我开始反思自己在日常生活中是否还有需要注意和改进的地方。
第二次摔倒是在三年前。那时，我独自到居民区投放真相资料。那天天气炎热，走了很长时间，我虽然感到疲劳，但想到民众能早些拿到资料、了解真相， 还是很高兴，也鼓励自己坚持下去。
就在一条街上转身时，我突然脸朝地面摔倒，感觉身后似乎有一股力量推了我一下。当时我的头脑很清醒，心里想到：“我是大法弟子！没事！”
我立即爬起来，发现左手擦破了一点皮，正在流血，便摸了摸脸，确认没有受伤。那一刻，我再次感恩师父的保护。
第三次摔倒是在今年初。我在外地准备出门去机场时，因为地面积雪，一脚滑倒，整个人仰面摔在地上。身旁的两位同修都吓了一跳，我立即发出一念：“我是修炼人！没事！”同修一边一个把我扶起来，关心地问我怎么样。我回答说：“没事！”
回顾这三次经历，我体会到，遇到突发情况时，
自己的第一念很重要。我当时想到的是：“我是修炼人！没事！”每次平安走过来，我都感恩师父的慈悲保护。同时，我也提醒自己，不能因为有师父的保护就放松对自己的要求，更不能只在事情发生后才想到反思。
这些经历促使我思考，自己是否还有许多没有修好的地方，是否在平时的修炼中做得不够。修炼不能抱有侥幸心理，也不能因为事情看似意外而忽略深入查找自己的不足。今后，我要更加严格地用修炼人的标准要求自己，在日常生活中注意自己的思想和行为，及时查找不足，不断提高自己，走好正法修炼的路。
第三部分：在突破人念中坚定救人的信心
从2000年开始，我一直参与本地市中心的固定真相点，向民众讲真相。多年来，我一直坚持参与这个项目，但在过程中也逐渐发现，自己并不是始终保持着最初的热情。有时到了活动时间就照常出门，做事变得按部就班，甚至有些麻木。出门前偶尔会感到孤单、辛苦，甚至不太想去。
可是到了现场，看到民众主动接资料、了解真相，或在明白真相后表示支持，我的心态就会改变，感到自己今天来对了，也重新找回了最初的热情。
这使我开始反思：为什么坚持了这么多年，自己有时还会感到麻木，甚至不想出门？我认识到，这与自己的懒惰心和求安逸的心有关。熟悉了每天要做的事，就容易把坚持当成习以为常，忘了珍惜每一次救人的机会。
我体会到，修炼不能只是机械地完成事情，更要时刻保持正念，记住自己为什么去真相点。即使每天只有一个人来接资料、了解真相，也值得我用心去做。当我能够突破懒惰和安逸，真正走出去时，救人的信心也会更加坚定。
随着自己继续参与，我又遇到了新的考验。因为不会英语，当民众提出问题时，我常常无法回答和解释，心里很苦恼，甚至怀疑自己是否适合继续留在这里，一度产生了打退堂鼓的念头。
但想到这个地方每天有许多民众来往，如果我离开，而当时又没有其他同修在这里，这个位置就可能空下来，少了一个让民众接触资料、了解真相的机会，我又有些放不下。
在想离开与不愿离开之间，我的思想反复摇摆。一方面担心自己能力有限，另一方面又不愿因为自己的困难而放弃这个救人的机会。
后来，我慢慢静下来，用法理对照自己。我认识到，语言上的困难确实存在，但真正让自己动摇的，还有顾虑心和怕困难的心。如果因为不会英语，就认为自己做不了、应该离开，其实也是在用人的标准衡量事情。我开始明白，不能只因为自己有做不到的地方，就否定自己还是可以做好的事情。
于是，面对想了解真相的民众，我不再只想着自己讲不出来，而是尽力用自己能做到的方式帮助对方。我把资料递给他们，请他们仔细阅读，也坦诚地说明自己不会英语。
让我感动的是，很多民众都很理解，有人拍拍我的肩膀说没关系，有人向我竖起大拇指。这些善意的回应让我看到，即使自己的能力有限，只要不是因为困难而退缩，还是可以尽力做好自己能做的事。这段经历也让我重新思考，自己是否总是先看到做不到的地方，却忽略了自己还是可以付出的部分。
在克服语言困难的同时，我在讲真相的过程中也遇到过其他考验。有些中国人接过资料后，一边走一边撕掉；有的人用恶狠狠的眼神瞪我，甚至说出威胁的话。遇到这些情况时，我心里也会害怕、紧张，甚至产生退缩的念头。
但随着不断学法、对照自己，我逐渐认识到，不能因为别人的一个举动、一个眼神或几句威胁，就让自己动摇。真正需要面对和克服的，是自己遇到这些情况时产生的怕心。想到还有许多民众需要了解真相，我就提醒自己不能忘记来真相点的初衷，不能因为一时的压力和干扰而放弃。
回顾这些年的经历，我逐渐认识到，表面上是在克服活动中的困难，实际上也是在面对和修去自己的执着。从最初的懒惰、求安逸，到因为语言困难而犹豫，再到面对恶意时产生怕心，每一种情况都让我看到自己还有哪些地方需要提高。只有在遇到问题时不断向内找，才能逐步突破自身的障碍，更加坚定地做好救人的事。
师父在《远离险恶》中开示：
“不要以为你讲真相了，参加大法的活动了，参加了大法的项目了，就是为大法为师父做了什么了。那是师父叫你们互相救助，互相救人的同时度自己，这是末后众生互相救。这不是为大法做。”
“大法弟子传真相的目地是圆满自己的同时也在魔难中磨练自己从而消业，这使修炼更有意义更伟大。这也不是为大法做，是为修炼人自己在做。”
师父的这段法让我更加明白，参与救人项目不等于自己就修好了自己。救人的同时，也要不断修去自身的执着，在困难和考验中提高自己。坚持做事固然重要，但也要在过程中真正修炼自己，不能只停留在做了多少事情上。
回顾这些年的修炼，我看到自己在矛盾和困难面前还有需要提高的地方。今后，我要更加珍惜师父赐予的修炼机会，在法中不断修正自己，坚定地做好救人的事，不辜负师父的慈悲苦度。
以上是我有限层次的交流，不足之处，敬请同修慈悲指正。
谢谢师尊！
谢谢同修！
English Translation:
Cherishing the Precious Opportunity to Cultivate
L Yq
Respected Master, greetings!
Fellow practitioners, greetings!
I am very happy to have this opportunity to share my cultivation experiences over the years. Looking back on this journey, I have experienced difficulties and confusion, as well as the joy of breaking through attachments and gaining a deeper understanding of the Fa. Whenever I discover my shortcomings amid conflicts and tests, and re-examine and change myself according to the Fa, I come to appreciate even more how precious this opportunity to cultivate is.
I would like to share my cultivation experiences with you in three areas.
Part One: Truly Looking Inward When Problems Arise
Tests in cultivation often appear in the small, everyday things we encounter. When problems arise, whether I can regard myself as a cultivator, put aside my emotions, and first look inward is something I need to continue cultivating.
On one occasion, I needed to travel quite a distance to attend a group activity, so I messaged a fellow practitioner to ask whether there was a car I could get a lift in. She replied that she was also travelling in someone else’s car. She then pointed out that, in my interactions with others, I sometimes criticised and made demands of people, yet when I could not meet the same standards myself, I would point out other people’s problems. She also said that I tended to be rather forceful in my manner.
Reading these words made me feel very uncomfortable. I thought I had simply asked whether there was a spare seat, so why was my personality being brought into the conversation? I also reflected that I generally got along quite well with this practitioner, so why did she see me this way? My first reaction was to feel aggrieved and somewhat confused.
After a while, I gradually calmed down and remembered that I was a cultivator and should look inward first when conflicts arise. I began to reflect: Was I sometimes careless in the way I spoke to fellow practitioners? Did I sometimes assume that, because my intentions were good, I could overlook other people’s feelings? Her reminder gave me an opportunity to examine myself again.
I gradually came to understand that how others see me is not the most important thing. What matters is whether I really have these shortcomings. If I do, I should change rather than feel wronged and rush to defend myself whenever someone points out something negative about me. Even if I cannot fully understand what the other person says at the time, I can first put aside my emotions and consider what I need to improve.
So I replied to the practitioner, “Thank you for reminding me. I will pay attention to this in the future.” After sending the message, I actually felt more at ease. I realised that when I stop focusing on explaining and proving myself, and instead become willing to accept reminders and reflect on my shortcomings, my state of mind changes. However, accepting a reminder must not remain merely words. I also need to pay attention to my words and actions in everyday interactions and genuinely change myself.
Master taught in Zhuan Falun:
“Everything will assume the form of everyday situations, such as someone may have irritated you today, someone has upset you, someone has mistreated you, or someone suddenly speaks to you disrespectfully. It is to see how you will react to these issues.”
Master’s teaching helped me understand that when conflicts arise, I should not focus only on how others treat me. I should also examine whether my heart has been moved. When I hear something I do not like, am I eager to defend myself? Do I want others to see only my good points while being unwilling to face my shortcomings?
Master taught in Teaching the Fa at the 2006 Canada Fa Conference:
“Isn’t not wanting to hear criticism an attachment? You want to hear only pleasant things, but how could that be? [Arrangements are made] exactly to have others say unpleasant things and see if you are moved.”
Looking back on this incident, I am grateful for my fellow practitioner’s reminder, which helped me recognise problems I might not have noticed before. It also reminded me of Master’s teaching in Hong Yin III, in the poem “Who’s Right, Who’s Wrong”:
“As a cultivator
One always looks for one’s own faults
’Tis the Way to get rid of attachments most effectively
There’s no way to skip ordeals, big or small
[During a conflict, if you can remember:]
“He’s right,
And I’m wrong,”
What’s to dispute?”
I came to understand that when a problem arises, a cultivator should not first think, “Why is this person treating me like this?” Instead, I should ask myself what I have not done well. Looking inward is not simply something to say. It means genuinely letting go of self amid conflicts, examining the shortcomings in my thoughts and actions, and gradually correcting them in my future interactions. Only then can conflicts become opportunities for improvement.
Part Two: Maintaining Righteous Thoughts Amid Tribulations
Over the years, I have experienced several unexpected falls. Looking back, these sudden tests have left a deep impression on me. Each time I reflect on what happened, I feel deeply grateful for Master’s compassionate protection. These experiences have also prompted me to examine what I still need to improve in my cultivation.
The first fall happened when I was riding my bicycle home after work. As I was turning on a downhill slope, I suddenly fell forward. It happened very quickly, and my first thought was, “I am a cultivator. I am fine.”
After getting up, I saw my bicycle lying behind me. Some of the joints in my legs were bruised, and I had heard a sound when my head hit the ground. However, I did not notice any other unusual symptoms, so I picked up my bicycle and rode home. This accident made me realise how suddenly something can happen, and it also prompted me to reflect on whether there were things in my daily life that I needed to pay more attention to and improve.
The second fall happened three years ago. I was distributing truth-clarification materials by myself in a residential area. The weather was hot, and I had been walking for a long time. Although I felt tired, I was happy thinking that people could receive the materials sooner and learn the truth. I encouraged myself to keep going.
As I turned around on a street, I suddenly fell face-first onto the ground. I felt as though a force behind me had pushed me. My mind was clear, and I thought, “I am a Dafa disciple! I am fine!”
I immediately got up and discovered that the skin on my left hand had been scraped and was bleeding. I felt my face to make sure I had not injured it. At that moment, I was once again grateful for Master’s protection.
The third fall happened early this year. I was away from home and preparing to leave for the airport. Because the ground was covered with snow, my foot slipped and I fell backwards onto the ground. The two fellow practitioners beside me were startled. I immediately sent forth the thought, “I am a cultivator! I am fine!” One practitioner helped me up from each side and asked with concern how I was. I replied, “I’m fine!”
Looking back on these three experiences, I have come to realise how important the first thought is when something unexpected happens: “I am a cultivator! I am fine!” Each time I came through safely, I felt grateful for Master’s compassionate protection. At the same time, I remind myself that I must not relax my standards because I believe Master is protecting me. Nor should I wait until something happens before reflecting on myself.
These experiences have led me to consider whether there are still many aspects of myself that I have not cultivated well, and whether I have fallen short in my daily cultivation. I must not rely on luck in cultivation, nor overlook the need to examine my shortcomings deeply simply because something appears to have happened by accident. From now on, I need to hold myself to higher standards as a cultivator, pay attention to my thoughts and actions in everyday life, identify my shortcomings promptly, continually improve myself, and walk well the path of cultivation during Fa-rectification.
Part Three: Strengthening My Confidence in Saving People by Breaking Through Human Notions
Since 2000, I have consistently participated in a regular truth-clarification site in the city centre, where we explain the facts to the public. Over the years, I have continued to take part in this project, but I gradually noticed that I did not always maintain the same enthusiasm I had at the beginning. Sometimes, I would simply leave home when it was time for the activity and carry out my tasks routinely, even becoming somewhat numb to them. Before leaving, I would occasionally feel lonely and tired, or even reluctant to go.
However, once I arrived at the site and saw people willingly accepting our materials, learning the truth, or expressing support after understanding the facts, my state of mind would change. I would feel that coming that day had been worthwhile, and I would rediscover the enthusiasm I had at the beginning.
This made me reflect: Why, after so many years of persistence, did I sometimes still feel numb or even reluctant to leave home? I realised that this was related to my laziness and desire for comfort. When we become familiar with our daily tasks, it is easy to take our persistence for granted and forget to cherish every opportunity to save people.
I came to understand that cultivation is not simply about mechanically completing tasks. I must maintain righteous thoughts at all times and remember why I go to the truth-clarification site. Even if only one person comes to accept materials and learn the truth that day, it is still worth making a sincere effort. When I can overcome laziness and the desire for comfort and genuinely go out to participate, my confidence in saving people becomes stronger.
As I continued participating, however, I encountered another test. Because I could not speak English, I often could not answer or explain things when members of the public asked questions. This troubled me greatly. I even wondered whether I was suited to continue working at the site, and for a time I considered giving up.
But then I thought about how many people passed through this location every day. If I left and no other fellow practitioner was there at the time, this spot might be left unattended, reducing people’s opportunities to encounter our materials and learn the truth. I found it difficult to let go of the responsibility.
My thoughts repeatedly wavered between wanting to leave and being unwilling to leave. On the one hand, I worried that my abilities were limited. On the other hand, I did not want to give up this opportunity to save people simply because I faced difficulties.
Later, I gradually calmed down and examined myself against the Fa. I realised that the language barrier was real, but what truly caused me to waver were also my concerns and fear of difficulties. If I assumed that I could not do the work and should leave simply because I could not speak English, I was measuring the situation by the standards of an ordinary person. I began to understand that I should not dismiss everything I could still do well simply because there were things I could not do.
So, when members of the public wanted to learn the truth, I stopped focusing only on my inability to explain things verbally and instead did my best to help them in whatever way I could. I handed them the materials, encouraged them to read them carefully, and honestly explained that I could not speak English.
What touched me was that many people were understanding. Some patted me on the shoulder and said it was all right, while others gave me a thumbs-up. Their kind responses helped me see that even if my abilities were limited, I could still do my best as long as I did not retreat in the face of difficulties. This experience also made me reconsider whether I had always focused first on what I could not do while overlooking what I could still contribute.
While overcoming the language barrier, I also encountered other tests when clarifying the truth. Some Chinese people took the materials and tore them up as they walked away. Others glared at me with hostile expressions and even made threatening remarks. In these situations, I sometimes felt afraid and nervous, and even had thoughts of backing away.
However, through continually studying the Fa and examining myself against it, I gradually realised that I must not allow a person’s action, a hostile look, or a few threatening words to shake me. What I truly needed to face and overcome was the fear that arose within me in such situations. Thinking of the many people who still needed to learn the truth, I reminded myself not to forget why I had come to the truth-clarification site in the first place, and not to give up because of temporary pressure or interference.
Looking back on these years, I gradually came to understand that, on the surface, I was overcoming difficulties in carrying out the activities, but in reality, I was also confronting and removing my own attachments. From laziness and the pursuit of comfort at the beginning, to hesitation because of the language barrier, and then to fear when facing hostility, each situation revealed areas in which I still needed to improve. Only by continually looking inward when problems arise can I gradually break through my own barriers and become more steadfast in doing the work of saving people.
Master taught in Stay Far Away from Peril:
“Don’t think that just because you’ve clarified the truth, attended some Dafa activities, or participated in Dafa projects that you’ve done something for Dafa or for Master. That’s Master telling you to mutually save and help each other, to save others while saving yourself—this is sentient beings saving each other at the end times. This is not done for Dafa’s sake. ”
“The purpose of Dafa disciples spreading the truth is to be able to temper themselves amid tribulations and thus shed karma while consummating themselves, and this makes practicing cultivation even more meaningful and magnificent. This isn’t done for Dafa, either; it’s done for the cultivators themselves. ”
These teachings from Master have helped me understand more clearly that participating in projects to save people does not mean that I have already cultivated myself well. While saving people, I must also continually remove my own attachments and improve myself through difficulties and tests. Persisting in carrying out tasks is important, but I must also genuinely cultivate myself throughout the process rather than focusing only on how much I have done.
Looking back on my cultivation over the years, I can see that I still have room to improve when facing conflicts and difficulties. From now on, I will cherish even more the cultivation opportunities bestowed upon me by Master, continually correct myself according to the Fa, remain steadfast in doing the work of saving people, and not disappoint Master, who has compassionately endured so much to save us.
The above reflects my limited understanding at my current level. Please kindly point out anything that is inappropriate.
Thank you, Master!
Thank you, fellow practitioners!