走回修炼
文：澳大利亚大法弟子
尊敬的师父好，各位同修大家好，
我是去年才走回来的新学员。想借这次法会跟师父汇报下我近两年的修炼心得，也想借这次写交流稿的机会，静下心来认真的审视下自己的修炼过程，使自己提高。就在写这篇交流稿之前我也有很多不纯的人心涌现，比如想等到经历了一个大突破后读起来会让人感觉很深刻的显示心，怕写不好丢面子的虚荣心。当我决定清除掉这些不好的人心的时候，我发现心就能静下来了。
一、走回修炼的难忘经历
我是自幼得法的小弟子，从两岁多就被爷爷奶奶带着一起去炼功点。在我的记忆里，从小我们家的日常就是，晚饭过后一家人坐在一起看师父讲法录像，然后一起炼功。当时因为年龄小我没有完整的读过《转法轮》，但经常看录像听录音，在我懂事前大法的种子已经在我小小的身体里生根发芽了。当时爸爸的同事天目能看到我小腹部位的法轮。我从小的记忆里就只有法轮大法好这一个想法，即使铺天盖地的迫害压下来时，我也没有动摇过这个想法。
但是出国后因为自己的懒惰和贪玩，没有再继续修炼了，但我还是知道大法好，我自己打印出了一本《转法轮》。那本《转法轮》我带了十五年，可惜我也只是带着并没有认真坚持修炼学法。也是一眨眼这十五年就被我这样浪费掉了。我在常人的大染缸中渐渐的学坏，追求现代年轻人觉得能出风头的东西，讲话不带脏字都不知道怎么开口，学骑摩托车，抽烟，行为没有一点女孩子该有的温柔秀气，我的内心越来越觉得缺失了什么东西。就在我找到工作来到悉尼后，曾经多次在市区的公园里看到过炼功的同修，每次路过看到时心里想“下次有时间去问问他们可不可以让我加入”，但也从来没真的行动过。不过可能也就是因为看到我还有修炼的心吧，师父在这最后的最后又把我拉了回来。
去年一天中午睡觉时，突然醒来睁开眼，脑子里就出现一个声音说“你该修炼了。”我当时没有犹豫在心里答了一声“好。”然后就爬起来开始找书找录像，再次把五套功法跟着录像学习了一遍。我把存放了十五年的那本自己打印的《转法轮》翻了出来，开始学法，然后上网搜索法轮大法的网站，点進去一看才发现原来师父出过这么多的经文，当时很惊讶，因为从小只知道有《转法轮》。于是我开始抓紧学师父的各地讲法以及所有的新经文，当时越学越激动，越学感受越好，那段时间正好是第一次禁足，天天在家里二十四小时除了睡觉时间外我就是在学法，几乎每天学十多个小时以上的法。当时的心情真的就象《转法轮》中师父讲的：“他一旦学习了我们法轮大法以后，他一下子就明白了他在人生当中许许多多想要明白、而又不得其解的问题。可能伴随着他的思想会来个升华，他的心情会非常激动，这一点是肯定的。”
二、加入证实法的大法弟子行列
随着大量的学法，我救人的心情也越来越急切，感觉自己这小半年在家修炼的情况应该有所改变了，应该出去救人兑现自己的史前誓约了。这个心一起，我很快就找到了当地的辅导员，一开始心里想着因为自己是做设计的，如果有媒体之类的项目需要我那就最好了。但是我也想到自己这么晚才走回来，就去发发报纸也挺好的。
第一次跟同修去发信箱的经历让我很难忘，因为发信箱的范围不小，要不停的走三、四个小时，我那天还特意穿了一双很耐走的鞋，我原本自己也挺能走的，感觉应该没啥问题。但是没想到我才发了一半的范围，脚就开始磨得特别疼，感觉两个脚都起泡了，每走一步都是扎心的疼，我当时觉得很奇怪这鞋以前不磨脚啊，怎么今天这样。然后我又想到这可能是对我的考验，看我能不能坚持，我就开始一边走一边背师父说的：“大觉不畏苦 意志金刚铸 生死无执着 坦荡正法路”[1] 还是疼，我咬着牙跟自己说这点苦都吃不了还想修炼救人，这点苦算什么苦，我是修炼人我能坚持。就这样坚持下来发完了剩下的一半区域。现在想想，那次是我第一次走出来证实法救人，所以一定是在考验我是否有决心和毅力。那次之后我再出去发报纸，不管走多远什么路什么鞋，健步如飞，发的很快，脚步很轻再也没有累的感觉了。
三、在媒体项目中修去执著自我的心
很快我之前想加入媒体项目组的想法也实现了。当时正好有一个希望之声新开的视频项目组需要设计人员做节目图片，我有幸加入了这个团队。这样一做一年多一眨眼就过去了。我们的频道订阅数在这一年里也从几千涨到了十多万。我记得最开始节目的观看人数和订阅人数一直上不去，我心里默默的着急，每天关注着数据，有一点点小進步就会很激动。有一次跟同修交流的时候，同修对我说了一句话：“师父都是看着我们的心性安排的，我们的层次到了自然就会有更多的。”我当时一下子想到了师父说：“心性多高功多高，这是个绝对的真理。”[2] 心也就放下了。
在做项目中我一开始有很强的自以为是、不能被说的人心，认为自己是专业的，并且有那么多年的工作经验了，在专业方面有一定的权威性。一开始为项目做设计图的时候，不经意间就会带有平时工作中的心态，就是怎么样能让这图符合现代人的欣赏标准。却完全忘了现代人的道德水平，艺术水平都是扭曲的，其实都不是人应该有的标准，我们作为大法弟子应该引导世人走回传统。同修让我去参考其他大v节目的图时，我还心理有些不屑，认为自己比别人强，不愿意照着那种方向做，特别想做出自己的风格，认为特立独行才是设计师应该有的。之后渐渐的我也意识到了自己这个心是不对的，慢慢的也在改变，接受别人的建议，但是一直都没有去干净。于是就发生了一件让我彻底放弃这颗心的经历。
一天，同修找到我请我帮忙更新室外征签摆放的真相海报，我按照自己的想法把海报能完善的地方都修改了一遍，发回给了同修。让我没想到的是，过了一周同修给我的反馈竟然是都不太行，还是有很多需要修改的地方，那位负责的同修想让我带着电脑去市区见他，当面调整。我这个心一下子就压不住了，虽然没有表现出来，但是心里头可真来气，一点没考虑就跟同修说不行，我没空。等冷静下来感觉不太对，自己这个态度怎么这么不好，就向内找跟自己说这是为了救人，不能因为自己怕麻烦就不去。
第二周那位同修又来问我能不能过去一趟，我就答应了，约了周天中午见。因为下午还有学法，所以我想要速战速决。到了之后见到那位负责的同修发现他在炼动功，还好是第二套最后一个动作了，我就想等他炼完这套应该能先跟我们说完再接着炼。但没想到，他炼完这套跟我们聊了两句又接着炼了，我心里这个不耐烦马上就起来了。好不容易等他炼完了，我们在咖啡厅里坐下开始改设计稿，本来我想他应该就大概跟我说说，我记一下回家改就行了。没想到他又不按常理出牌，开始跟我一点一点的指挥着我改，这里应该再往左一格、再往右一格的这样改，我当时脸就沉下来了，心里跟自己说了千百遍要忍要忍，但却一点没有在向内找。直到我们去学法快迟到的时候才改完离开。我心里就更不高兴了，觉得很委屈。
同修开车带着我往回赶的时候，我在车里坐着一言不发心里还是很难受，我开始想试着向内找，问自己现在心里为什么觉得难受？是不是有什么心放不下的？但是每当我这样一想，好象有另一个想法就一下跳出来说：“我没有错呀，我这么大老远跑来帮他改，自己的审美也比他好，他还这样挑三拣四的找麻烦，还不顾及我们的时间。”当时我这一正一负的思想，就在我脑子里疯狂的打架，打的我自己都有点分不清哪个是对哪个是错了，就在我想的脑子都不太清楚了的时候，突然“怦”的一声，一股冲击力从背后袭来，我的头重重的撞到了后面的靠背上，眼睁睁的看着我们的车不受控制的滑过了一个红灯，我当时懵了一下，接着听到同修在我旁边说我们被追尾了，才反应过来我们出车祸了。我当时一下警觉了，感觉刚刚头撞的那一下，好象猛地把我脑子里所有的思想都撞出去了一样，人也清晰过来了，赶快认真的向内找，找到了自己不能被人说的强烈的自尊心，自以为是的心，看不起人的心，显示心，虚荣心，都是这么多这么不好的人心揉在一起，才让我那么的不舒服，都是这些人心执著拖着我不让我提高。
这次的意外就如同师父给我的当头棒喝，我真的明白了要下定决心去掉这些心了。师父说：“不是说我的技术被采用才是修炼的提高。怎么样配合好、把这些事情共同做好，这才是修炼人的状态，这才是第一位的。”[3]
在之后做项目中，我也渐渐的不那么看重自己的建议了，更多去考虑怎么在同修的建议中，用我的能力实现出更好的东西，那样做出的东西每次效果都会比较好。我们的频道也通过这次的美国大选热点，做的越来越大。我也发现我们项目组的成员修炼状态越来越好，大家都很努力的在改正自己的不足去圆容彼此。
四、禁足期间精進实修
由于五月份疫情再次在悉尼蔓延，我所在的公司老板决定关掉公司回国发展，我也因此失业了。不过我当时的心情很平静，觉得应该是项目组那边更需要我了，所以师父安排我去项目全职帮忙。我也挺开心的，能每天早上跟大家一起学法了，也能更多时间精進修炼和做项目了。
那时每天早上我要五点半起来，去接上同修一起去办公室学法和炼功，然后通常大家都要忙到晚上十点多才回家。每天三件事都能做全，那段时间感觉大家状态都挺好。后来我们还在办公室附近组织了室外炼功点。刚在室外炼了一周就有一位西人来跟我们一起打坐，她也非常想了解大法，我把大法的书和炼功教功视频都发给了她。有一天晚上回家路上去加油时惊喜的发现，在加油口上方，后车窗上长出了九朵优昙婆罗花，我当时很激动。我知道这是师父对我们当时精進表现的鼓励，师父也看到了我喜欢优昙婆罗花的心，感恩师父对弟子的慈悲呵护。
随着悉尼禁足越来越严格，我失去了集体修炼的环境，一天一天的，我的懒惰心和安逸心就又滋生出来了。之前从早忙到晚都不觉得累，现在睡个懒觉再起来，做两三个小时就觉得又困了。虽然在家确实增加了很多学法时间，我也每天坚持学2-4小时的法，但是总感觉自己做项目时心不在焉的。每天能做的事情很有限，自己心里又有点着急，不知道有劲儿要往哪里使。师父总会在我开始放松时给我安排新的事情，让我没有放松的余地，一直在推着我往前赶。
这时我在大组学法交流中听到同修说，最近又需要发报纸、派信箱的人了。我就想去吧，但是另一边的懒惰心又开始过来干扰我，借口说这种机会还是留给不会做其他项目的同修吧，反正我已经在媒体中做事了，派信箱有点大材小用了的感觉。我左思右想了一周的时间，就觉得这是师父安排的，正好可以战胜我自己的懒惰心，我就跟协调的同修要了地图。同修给我发来两张，我一看地图估计要2600多份报纸，心里有点打颤，感觉面积有点大啊，能不能坚持发完呢。但地图都要来了也没有反悔余地了，就去拿了2600份报纸回来。然后开始制定发报纸计划，早上七点起来去发，每天坚持。慢慢的我从第一天只能坚持发一个小时，到后来能一次发两个半到三个小时。在发报纸时为了不让自己有杂念，正念很强的去发救人效果更好，我就背论语，有时走在路上一步一个字的背，每个字都能显现在眼前，投進信箱时发正念，清除一切阻碍世人看真相得救的邪恶因素。
五、大法项目不分轻重
在发报纸的过程中，感觉自己找回了修炼刚开始的状态，可能也是因为师父看我状态好了，另一个更大的项目突然出现在我眼前。我收到了纽约项目组的招聘邮件，要招修图人员。我也没多想就觉得这个我能帮忙，就把简历发过去了。没想到第二天就收到回信并且马上安排了两轮面试。在面试中那边同修还说看我的能力应该安排更好的职位，打算让我做设计。我当时挺高兴，这个欢喜心和沾沾自喜的心已经不自觉的翻了出来，一下就感觉自己不错了，美国的项目组那很大啊，比澳洲这边的大多了，不知不觉的也开始把项目分了个你轻他重的。
然后奇怪的事情就出现了，本来面试的挺好的工作，突然没音信了！我这才警惕起来。是不是自己哪里做错了，这个机会不属于我？只是来考验我让我去欢喜心的？那真是我过的最煎熬的两周，每天都在想为啥还没给我发邮件呢？是不是不要我了？有天在炼功时突然有一念打入我脑子中“项目不分大小”，我一下明白了对啊，项目都是救人的有什么大小轻重呢？我默默的在心里对师父说：“师父我错了，对不起，我不应该把大法救人这么神圣的事情分个三六九，那还是站在常人的基点上去做大法的事情了。”就这一念马上觉得轻松了。过了两天我收到了录用通知，也顺利的入职了那边的项目组。我也体悟到，在修炼中，作为修炼人当我真正放下时，才会得到应有的，正如师父说：“要无所求而自得。”[4]。感恩师父的慈悲安排。
以上是我这还不满两年中的修炼体会，真的感恩师尊对我的慈悲救度，在最后的时刻还没有放弃我，我也会继续在项目中与同修们一起精進实修，不枉费师尊对我的细心看护与安排。也希望所有同修们都能修炼如初，共同精進，共同圆满，跟随师父回家。
谢谢师父，
谢谢同修。
注：
[1] 李洪志师父著作：《洪吟二》〈正念正行〉
[2] 李洪志师父著作：《转法轮》
[3] 李洪志师父著作：《洛杉矶市法会讲法》
[4] 李洪志师父著作：《精進要旨》<学法>
（二零二一年澳大利亚网上法会）
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Coming Back to Dafa
By a Falun Dafa Chinese practitioner in Australia
Greetings Master!
Greetings Fellow Practitioners!
Last year, I returned to cultivation in Dafa as a new practitioner. I would like to take this opportunity to report my two years cultivation experience to Master. I also like to take this opportunity to calm down to review my cultivation process so that I can elevate myself. Many impure human thoughts appeared before I started to write this article. I wanted to wait until I had a breakthrough in cultivation so that I looked better in cultivation, which was a show-off mentality. I was afraid of losing face if I didn’t write well, which was my vanity. When I decided to get rid of those bad human thoughts, I found I was able to calm down.
1. Unforgettable Experience of Coming Back to Dafa
I obtained the Fa when I was little. My grandparents took me to the practice site when I was a bit over two years old. From my memory, the routine in my family was that the whole family sat and watched Master’s video lectures after dinner and then practiced the exercises together. I didn’t finish reading the whole book of Zhuan Falun due to my young age. But I often watched lecture videos and listened to the audio lectures. The Fa seeds had already rooted and sprouted in my little body before I could understand life. At that time one of my father’s colleagues could see the Falun in my lower abdomen with his Tianmu. In my small mind, I had only one thought, that Falun Dafa is good. I didn’t have any doubt of this thought even if the persecution blanketed China.
I stopped cultivation due to my laziness and playfulness after I came overseas, though I knew Dafa is good. I printed the whole book of Zhuan Falun from my school printer. I kept it with me for 15 years. To my regret, I didn’t keep cultivating or reading the Fa, though I had the book all the time. In a blink of an eye, I had wasted 15 years. I became worse in the dye vat of ordinary society.I was seeking fashion to show off, talked with dirty words, learned to ride motorcycle, and smoked. I didn’t behave like a gentle girl. I felt more and more lost in my heart. I saw practitioners practicing the exercises in the city park several times after I found a job in Sydney. Every time when I saw them, I thought to myself, “next time when I have time, I will go and ask them whether they will allow me to join them.” But I never put it into action. It might be because I still had the heart to cultivate, that Master dragged me back into cultivation at the final time.
One day last year when I woke up from a nap, a voice suddenly appeared in my mind: “It is time for you to cultivate.” “Ok” I replied in my heart without any hesitation. Then I got up and started looking for Dafa books. I learned the five sets of the exercises from the Video again and took out the printed copy of Zhuan Falun which had been put away for 15 years. I started to study the Fa and then searched for the Falun Dafa website. I clicked the link and found that there were so many of Master’s lectures. I was very surprised because I only knew one book Zhuan Falun from my childhood. I started reading Master’s lectures in different cities and new articles. I felt excited and great. It was during the first lock down. I stayed at home reading the Fa all day long for at least more than ten hours every day. My feeling at that time was just like what Master said in Zhuan Falun, Lecture Eight.
Master said,
“Once they learn our Falun Dafa, they will understand at once many questions in life that they have wished to understand but could not answer. Perhaps along with their minds being elevated, they will become very excited—this is for sure.” (Lecture Eight, Zhuan Falun)
2. Joining Practitioners to Validate the Fa
As I studied the Fa more, I felt more and more urgency to save sentient beings. It was time for me to change my cultivation state after I cultivated myself at home for several months. It was time for me to go out to help save sentient beings and fulfil my historic vows. As soon as I had this thought, I contacted the local assistant. I was in the profession of graphic design. It would best utilise my skills if a media project had a position for me. But because I came back to Dafa so late, I was ok with distributing newspapers.
My first experience of letter box dropping was unforgettable. I had to cover a relatively large area and might have to walk 3 to 4 hours. I specifically wore a pair of comfortable shoes. I thought I should be ok because I walked a lot. Unexpectedly, my feet started to get sore when I just covered half of the area. It felt like my feet had started to blister and every step became excruciatingly painful. It was strange because the shoes were comfortable and didn’t have such a problem before. Then I realized it must be a test to see if I could persevere. I recited the poem “Righteous Thoughts and Righteous Actions: from Hong Yin II while I was walking.
Master said,
Righteous Thoughts and Righteous Actions
“A Great Enlightened One fears no hardship
Having forged an adamantine will
Free of attachment to living or dying
He walks the path of Fa-rectification confident and poised”
(Hong Yin II, Translation Version A)
It was still very painful. I bit my lip and laughed at myself for talking about saving sentient beings when I could not bear such a little pain. I am a practitioner; the pain is nothing and I could keep going. So, I persevered and finished the rest of the area. Looking back, I understood that it must be a test by Master to see how determined I was because this was the first time that I stepped out to validate the Fa and save sentient beings. Since then, when I distributed the newspapers, I walked briskly and fast no matter how far it was, what the road conditions, or what kind of shoes I wore. I always had light steps and was not tired at all.
3. Letting Go of Attachment to Myself While Doing Projects in Media
Soon my hope to join a media project came true. A new video project team in Sound of Hope was recruiting a video editor. I was lucky enough to join this team and have been with them for over a year. The subscribers to our channel have jumped from a few thousands to over a hundred thousand. But at the start the subscribers and viewers of our program remained low. I became anxious. I stared at the data every day and became excited when the viewers went up even a little bit. One day I shared with a practitioner who said to me: “Master arranges it according to the level of our xinxing. If our level is elevated, we will certainly have more viewers.” I thought of Master’s Fa.
Master said,
“One’s gong level is as high as one’s xinxing level” (Lecture One, Zhuan Falun).
So, I was no longer obsessed with the data.
At the beginning of the project, I was full of myself and didn’t take criticism well. I felt that I was a professional with many years of experience and had authority in my area. When I did the design, I had the mentality of an everyday person and tried to align my work with modern appreciation standards. I forgot that the modern morality and artistic appreciation were deviated and went downwards and away from human being’s standard. As a Dafa practitioner, I should lead everyday people back to tradition. When other practitioners referred me to other designs done by influential online designers, I was not convinced. I thought myself better than them and was not willing to go in that direction. I wanted to establish my own style and thought a designer should have their own taste. Gradually, I realized that my mentality was not correct. I tried to change myself and accept other people’s suggestions but hadn’t done it completely. An incident happened so that I had to completely let go of this attachment.
One day a practitioner asked me to update a poster for the petition for an outdoor display board. I changed the poster as much as I could according to my thoughts and sent it to him. Unexpectedly, he replied to me a week later saying that my work was not good and a lot needs to be adjusted. He asked me if I could take my computer and meet him in the city so that I could make the changes in front of him. It was beyond my forbearance though I didn’t show it in my face. I was angry in my heart. I said no to him without any hesitation. I said that I didn’t have time. When I calmed down, I knew that I was not right. My attitude was not good at all. I looked within and told myself that it was for saving sentient beings and I shouldn’t refuse him simply because I didn’t want to take the trouble of going into the city.
The practitioner asked me again the following week if I could go there. I agreed and made an appointment of seeing him in the noon on Sunday. I had Fa study in the afternoon, so I wanted to finish it as soon as possible. When I arrived at the site, I saw him practicing the exercises. Luckily, he was doing the last movement of the second set of the exercises. I expected that he would talk to me after he finished this last movement. He stopped and chatted with me for a few words and continued doing his exercises. I got impatient, although I waited until he finished the exercises. We sat down at a café and started to change the design. I thought he would tell me where to change and I could leave and make the changes at home. Yet he didn’t follow that logic. He instructed me to change bit by bit and asked me to move this a bit left and move that a bit right. My face changed immediately. I still told myself to forbear, but I didn’t look within. By the time we finished I had to rush to the Fa study. I was not happy at all and full of grudges.
When the practitioner took me back to the Fa study by car, I felt uncomfortable and didn’t say anything. I tried to look inward and asked myself why I felt uncomfortable and if I should let go of any attachments. But another thought came into my mind: “I was not wrong. I went so far away to help him. I have better artistic appreciation than he does. Yet he still made troubles for me and even was not watchful of the time.” My positive and negative thoughts were fighting with each other in my mind. I was almost unclear which one was right, and which one was wrong. At that moment I heard a loud “bang”. A strong force attacked me from my back. My head hit hard against the seat. I saw our car drove through a red light uncontrollably. I was shocked. The practitioner said that we were hit from back. I realized that we had a car accident. My mind became clear at that moment as if the moment my head was hit against the seat was the moment that all my thoughts were hit out of my mind. I immediately looked within and found my strong ego of not taking criticism, being full of myself, looking down on others, my show-off mentality and vanity. All these attachments were mixed together and made me feel uncomfortable and dragged me down from improvement.
This accident served as a grave warning by Master. I was very clear that I must let go of those attachments.
Master said,
“It’s not as if only when your technology is adopted will you improve in cultivation. Working well with and cooperating with others and working together to do a good job with the tasks at hand, that is how a cultivator should be, and that is first and foremost.” (“Teachings at the Conference in Los Angeles”)
Gradually, in subsequent projects I placed less importance on my own suggestions. I considered more how to do a better job using my ability while complying with other practitioners’ suggestions and achieved good results by doing so. Our channel became more and more popular via the US election videos. Our team members became increasingly mature in cultivation. Everyone tried hard to improve themselves and harmonize the whole body.
Part 4: Cultivating Diligently during Lock Down
The pandemic became worse in Sydney in May. My boss decided to close the company and went back to China for development. I lost my job as a result. I was calm and understood that my Dafa project might need me more. Master must have arranged me to do the project full time. I felt happy because I could study the Fa with the team every morning and have more time for cultivation and doing the project.
I got up 5:30 every morning, picked up a fellow practitioner and drove to the office for exercise and Fa study. We wouldn’t finish work and come back home until 10 o’clock at night. I could do the three things every day. Our cultivation state was very good during that time. We set up an outdoor practice site near our office. A westerner came to do the meditation with us one week later. She wanted to learn Falun Dafa. I sent Dafa books and an exercise video to her. One night when I was in the petrol station, I saw a few udumbara flowers on the back screen of my car. I was very excited. I knew Master was encouraging me and Master knew that I like udumbara. Thank you Master for your compassionate protection.
As the lock down became stricter, I lost the group cultivation environment. I became lazy and started to seek comfort as time went on. Before, I didn’t feel tired from morning till night. But now I got up late and felt sleepy after working only two or three hours. Though I increased my Fa study time to two to four hours a day, I felt absent minded when I was working on my project. I could only do a limited amount of work every day. I felt anxious and lost my direction. Master always arranged new tasks for me when I started to relax and didn’t give me space to get lazy. Master has been pushing me forward.
One practitioner said in the big group Fa study that they needed practitioners to distribute the newspapers and do letter box dropping. I wanted to join them, but my laziness started to interfere and used the excuse that I should leave this opportunity to those practitioners who were not involved in Dafa projects. Anyhow, I had been working in the media and felt I was over skilled for letter box dropping. I hesitated for a week and realized that it was arranged by Master and it was also an opportunity for me to overcome my laziness. I asked for a map from the coordinator. She sent me two maps. I estimated that I had to distribute 2600 copies of newspapers. I felt a bit chilly in my heart because the area was too large and doubted if I was able to complete the task. But it was too late for me to say no since the maps had been sent to me. So, I took 2600 copies of newspapers and started to work out a plan for my distribution. I got up at 7 o’clock in the morning and distributed for one hour for the first day, then two and a half hours to three hours a day. I would achieve a better result if I had strong righteous thoughts while distributing the newspaper. I recited “On Dafa” to replace my other thoughts. Sometimes I recited word by word so that every word came up before my eyes. When I was putting the papers into the letter boxes, I sent forth righteous thoughts to dissolve the evil elements that prevented sentient beings from knowing the truth and being saved.
5.Dafa Projects Are Equally Important
I found that the cultivation state I had when I came back to cultivate in Dafa had returned while distributing the newspapers. Master might have seen my good cultivation state, as another big project came up. I received an email from the New York project team for recruiting a graphic editor. I sent my resume to them without thinking too much. I received their reply to the next day and two rounds of interviews were arranged. During the interviews, the practitioner there said that they might arrange a better position for me based on my ability and might ask me to do the designing. I was very happy. My complacency came up unconsciously. I felt I was capable. The project in U.S. was very big and much bigger than the one in Australia. I differentiated the projects into important and less important.
Strange things happened. The interviews went well but I didn’t receive any reply. I became vigilant. Did I do anything wrong? Was the opportunity not for me? Was it only a test to let me get rid of my complacency? These were the most agonizing two weeks I had experienced. Every day I was thinking, why didn’t they send me an email. Was I not accepted? One day when I was doing the exercises, one thought came into my mind: “Do not differentiate the projects.” Yes, I suddenly understood that every project was saving sentient beings and there were no more important or less important projects. I said to Master in my heart: “Master, I am wrong. Sorry. I shouldn’t categorize such sacred Dafa projects into important one or lesser important one. I am looking at Dafa projects from everyday person’s perspective.” I felt relieved after I said that to Master. Two days later, I received the letter of offer and joined the U.S. team. I enlightened that as a practitioner, I will get what I deserve when I let go of my attachments. It is truly “gain things naturally without pursuing them”. (“Learning the Fa” – Essentials For Further Advancement) Thank you Master for your compassionate arrangement.
This is my recent cultivation experience for less than two years. Thank you Master for saving me with compassion and not giving up on me at this last moment. I will continue cultivating diligently with fellow practitioners in my team and be worthy of Master’s careful protection and arrangement. I hope all practitioners will cultivate as we just started. Let’s cultivate diligently, reach consummation, and return home with Master.
Thank you Master!
Thank you, fellow practitioners!
(Presented at the 2021 Australia Online Falun Dafa Experience Sharing Conference)