衷心感恩师父救我 我助师父救众生
文：澳大利亚大法弟子
尊敬的师父好！
同修们好！
今天我以无比感恩的心情向师父汇报、和同修们交流我的修炼心得体会。我交流的题目是“衷心感恩师父救我，我助师父救众生”。
一、喜得修炼机缘 全家受益
修炼前我曾患甲状腺癌症，并动手术切除了一半甲状腺，从此，我每周要去看中医或西医。
二零零四年九月，姐姐介绍我走入大法修炼，当我读《转法轮》后很激动，原来这是我多年要找的东西，我流泪了，我很快找到悉尼市中心的达令港炼功点。刚一开始炼功我就感觉很好。大法净化了我的身心，急躁脾气也改掉很多，我身心的巨大变化，证实了大法的美好，尽管我先生没有走入修炼，但他很了解法轮大法带给人们的益处，非常支持我外出讲真相。我也安排好时间照顾家人，把整个家打理得好好的，使全家感觉很幸福。
当时我的三个幼小女儿，看着我修炼后身体变得越来越好，也自然的跟着我一起炼功和学《转法轮》。我看她们这么想修炼，周末时，我就带她们去悉尼的明慧小学读书和炼功，同时在日常生活中我用真、善、忍去管教她们。因此在孩子们成长的过程中，在不同时期，她们在学校演讲中常常向同学们和老师们讲大法美好的真相。周末假期我也常带她们参与洪法活动。
当母亲节或我生日时，孩子们都会在贺卡上写：“谢谢您妈妈，您带领我们学法轮大法！使我们都变好了，这是您给予我们的世界上最好的东西。”
二、初修阶段历经魔难感悟实修很重要
在最初修炼阶段，因我对修炼大法的认识，还没有完全从感性转变到理性上来。所以在经历了几次关难后，我真切体会到实修很重要。修炼人平时绝对不能脱离学法、炼功和讲真相；而且平衡好工作和家庭也很重要。
当我修炼一年后，因为身体恢复了健康，我也恢复上班了。然而繁忙的工作使我几乎没有时间和精力，如往常那样的正常学法和炼功，致使我的修炼状态也变得越来越差。在单位上班和同事遇到矛盾时，我时常忘记自己是个修炼人，也没有想到这是安排给我提高心性的好机会，反而用常人的心态去对待矛盾。我的身心越来越疲惫，这样的修炼状态持续了三年多，我的身心又变回修炼前的不好状态，并出现了很大的生死关。
过生死关期间，我没有忘记自己是个修炼人，要求自己正念对待问题，我反思并很痛悔自己上班时对同事们不够善，我发自内心的惭愧，向他们说对不起。我还找到妒嫉心、怨恨心、争斗心和自私的心等。我悟道作为一个修炼人，真的应该修好自己，把自己所有的人心放下，才能真的与人为善。最后身体渐渐好转了。我真的衷心感恩师父的又一次救度。
从此，我开始加强学法、炼功和讲真相，但是我从一个极端又走向另一个极端，我开始忽视家人的正常生活需求，我没有用真、善、忍去严格要求自己，去善待和关心他们。致使我先生和女儿开始对我不好，抱怨我没有善心。
有一天，我发现丈夫做了一件使我很难接受的事情时，我知道我的修炼路又走偏了。之前经历生死关时，我用了很久才走出魔难，这次面对家庭关，我悟道要赶紧在法上修过去。因为我明白这是正法时期修炼，每一个关难不能拖延太久，不能影响到自己的修炼和做助师救人的重要事情。
我抓紧时间向内找，并在法上去归正自己的一思一念，不接受旧势力安排的路。我悟到修炼路上遇到的关难都是自己的业力和执着心造成的，我努力放下自己的痛苦，发现自己对丈夫的情太重，并且自己有想多花时间学法、炼功和做大法事情的私心，偏离了大法要求我们在常人中修炼，要最大限度的去圆容好家庭和社会的法理。而且，丈夫也是我要救度的众生，我不能把他推出去，我一定要善待他，我内心平和的忍下来了，原谅了丈夫，结果丈夫非常感动，并在师父法像前感谢师父。在师父的呵护下，这个大关我只用了一个多星期就修过去了。
之后，我的三个女儿進入叛逆期，她们也开始一个接一个的魔炼我的心性，提供给我一次又一次提高心性的好机会，帮助我在家里的实修过程中逐渐同化真善忍，为以后走出去讲真相救人打下了扎实的基础。
我每天上网和同修一起学法。有一天，我读到师父说：“作为一个修炼人，就得在常人的环境中修炼自己，魔炼自己，逐渐的把执着心、各种欲望去掉。”[1]
我还读到师父说：“你要想长功，你不注重心性的修炼，你的功根本就长不上来。”[1]
我突然理解了为什么我以前学法没有得到法，因为自己没有按照法的要求去衡量自己的言行，所以功根本就长不了。
有一天，一个女儿回家后不高兴，说考试成绩不理想，我听后就安慰她说：“没有关系，下次做好就行了。”女儿听后更不高兴了，开始不理睬我，一直哭。我不理解，一直在想我只是希望她看开点，不要难过，下次努力就行，我没有说错话呀，怎么会这样？我想了好久，还找不到自己的问题。
女儿冷静了一天后与我说话了。我问她：“妈妈哪里没有做好？”她告诉我：“妈妈，您不善。我同学的妈妈是西人，她们很善良，当遇到这种事情发生时，她们首先询问和关心孩子的感受，而不是像您那样很随便的大声说没有关系，我感受不到您对我真正的关心和善。”我听了之后，心里很惭愧，知道自己的善心不够，没有真心的关怀她。我就赶紧给她一个拥抱，我说：“对不起，妈妈知道了，以后不是光考虑你的成绩，而是关心你的感受”。女儿听了就开心的笑了。
师父说：“真正的善，是修炼者在修炼过程中、在善修的过程中，已经修成的真善。面对众生时，因为你有还未修好的人的一面，所以你不可能使修好的神的部份完全表现出来。必须时你就得理智的、清醒的像个修炼人，让自己的责任、让自己的正念来主导，然后你真正的善才能展现出来，这就是修炼人和神的不同。这是慈悲，他不是有意的表现，不是人的善恶喜好的表现。不是你对我好了我就对你表现善。他是没有代价的，不计报酬，是完全为了众生的。”[2]
又有一次我和一个女儿发生很大的矛盾，我们都很不高兴。我赶快停下来看自己，找到自己的抱怨心，其实就是把自己的观念强加于别人。还有与女儿的情很重等执着，找到后我就赶快放下它。我就坦诚并耐心的和女儿解释。女儿听了之后也改变了，很开心的说：“妈妈您放心吧！我知道您为我好，我知道自己应该怎么做了。”
从此以后和女儿们再发生任何矛盾时，我第一念想到的就是孩子的感受，真正站在她们的角度和立场去为她们的需要着想，多与她们交流。我感悟到无论发生什么矛盾都是为我提高而设的，也越来越明白了如何修善了。
三、听师父话用心救度澳洲众生
在我刚修炼三个月时，当我读了师父的新经文后，我知道作为大法弟子要助师救众生，现在世界上的人都是等着听大法真相的，从此，我开始出去跟众生讲真相，明白了真相的众生才会有美好的未来。
最近十年里，我每周除了安排一天陪不修炼的先生外，其余五到六天都在外面讲真相、征集签名，我不是只让他们签名，求数量，而是希望告诉他们真相，我看他们来签名时，我会问：“先生或女士：您明白您在签什么吗？您知道发生什么事吗？”如果他们说知道了……。我就不多说，否则，我会告诉他们中共迫害法轮功的真相。
通常我都是向西人讲真相。我尽量启发他们的善心，唤醒他们的良知。使他们明白中共的邪恶本质，支持法轮功反迫害。
有一次，一位西人不想签名还和我辩解病毒来源问题，我就告诉他们：“假如我说这个原因，但是你说那个原因，现在是没办法确认哪个是真实的。但是我肯定中共活摘法轮功学员器官是真实的。”就这一句话，他们马上就签名了。我知道，我不能和他们争论，我也不去否定他们的观点，只要他知道中共迫害法轮功的罪行，支持法轮功反迫害就好了。
又有一次两位众生走过来就骂我们，我很有礼貌问他们：“你们是不是听了什么而误会我们了？”接着，我很真诚的针对他们的误解一一解释，首先我告诉他们什么是法轮功，我讲以前自己有癌症，修炼法轮功后现在都好了；第二，中共迫害法轮功的原因；第三，得知他们是马来西亚人，我说我也是马来西亚人，我知道马来西亚的政府因和中共有生意来往，所以不让民众知道中共做坏事的真相；第四，我还说明了为什么我每天站在这里给人讲真相的原因，最后，我给了他们很多资料请他们带回去看。他们听完后就像变了一个人一样，对我们很有礼貌，为刚才说的那些不好话跟我们道歉，还叫我们要小心。并在解体中共的征签表上签了名，他们说会把这件事情告诉他们的家人和朋友，还谢谢我们。
他们听真相前后态度发生如此大的改变使我很感动。
师父说：“而且在讲清真相中，你们发出的善心，你们发出的正念，都在解体邪恶，都在使被救度的生命清醒、找回他自己，能够使人理智的真正自己去认识这些问题。当然世人一旦清醒过来的时候，马上就不一样了。”[3]
四、师父成就我向华人讲真相的心愿
作为马来西亚华人，我讲中文不流利，但我一直有个心愿，希望能够直接向华人讲真相。感恩师父成就我的心愿。两个月前，我得到机缘开始用一种选播录音的方式，而不用说话就能向华人打电话讲真相。
当我试着拨通第一位中国人的电话，对方听完选播的录音真相广播后，我再按录音问他是否愿意“三退”（退出中共党、团、队）保平安，他说：“好！谢谢！”他还说自己是党员，从他回答的语气中我感觉他很愿意退出中共邪党。
第一个电话就成功劝退，让我感受到师父的加持和鼓励。从那天起，我坚持每天打电话两次、共五小时左右，真心帮助中国人明白真相。在师父的加持下，我每次都有灵感去按最适合的那个录音，使华人能够听明白。即便有些不太愿意听的，我也不放弃，真诚善意的与他们交流。
让我最感动的一次，是与一位老先生接通了电话，他开始说：“不要讲了，我都知道了。”
但是我还是继续按他能接受的录音、播放给他听，告诉他我们是真心为他好，中共做了多少坏事等，他就一直听、没有挂断电话。
听到最后，我又问他是否愿意三退，他好像变了一个人一样，说：“好！好！好！”
我请他记住这些真相并告诉家人，他说：“好！好！好！”
最后的录音是请他记住：“法轮大法好！真、善、忍好！九字真言”，然后我就和他道别。
他也说：“谢谢，行了。再见！”
他从一开始不愿意听真相，到最后态度变的很好，变的很乐意做“三退”了。过程中，我一直在心里默默的说：我想救您，我不放弃您。我当时正念出来了，他就变了，全部听完真相并且做了“三退”。
有时候对方不听我会很着急并为他们流泪。因为我不想落下每个可贵的中国人，哪怕一天只救一个人我也要坚持做，尽管有时打不通或接了电话挂断的。因为我感觉到在抢救众生，所以我不放弃，我一直要求自己正念坚持，一定要救他们，我一直在心里对他们说：请把您的手伸出来，我抓住您的手，拉您起来，我是在救你呀！当我心里生出这个正念，善心要救他们时，师父看到我的心，总是会加持我，他们基本都能听电话，使我能顺利帮他们做“三退”。当时，我都会第一念想：“感恩师父！”
有了这个讲真相的好办法，我随时就像和亲人打电话一样，我抓住机缘和抓紧时间救他们。两个多月中，我帮助八十多人做了“三退”。
结语
我不知道用什么语言来感恩师父，我讲不出来，但是我真的从内心感恩师父！因为师父给予我两次生命；师父还恩赐我这个世界上最珍贵的大法。我非常感恩师父使我拥有一个具有传统文化的家庭：与先生相敬如宾，孩子们孝敬父母，姐妹友善，全家和乐融融。我也非常感恩师父把我改变成为别人着想的生命。我现在只想听师父的话，唯有修炼好自己，用心讲真相、助师父救众生来报答师恩。再次叩谢师父的洪恩浩荡！
以上是我有限层次的交流，有不在法上的地方请慈悲指正！
感谢师父！
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Sincerely thanking Master for saving me, and assisting Master in saving sentient beings
By a Falun Dafa Chinese practitioner in Australia
Greetings Master!
Greetings practitioners!
1. Attaining true happiness through cultivation, and benefiting my family
Before cultivation I had thyroid cancer, and had surgery that removed half of my thyroid, which resulted in my visiting Western and Chinese doctors weekly.
In September 2004, my sister introduced me to Falun Dafa. After reading Zhuan Falun I felt emotional, as I realized this was what I had been searching for, for years. I shed tears and quickly went to find practitioners at the Darling Harbor exercise site. When I started to learn the exercises, I felt very good. Dafa has purified my body, changing my patience and temper. My body and mind transformed into something pure, which proved Dafa’s power. Although my husband doesn’t practice, he understands that Dafa can benefit people, so he completely supports me in clarifying the truth. I also try to organise time to look after my family, taking care of them well. As a result, my family feels happy.
After witnessing such changes in my body, my three daughters also wanted to learn cultivation, so we began exercising and reading Zhuan Falun together. I noticed they wanted to cultivate, so every weekend, I would take them to the Sydney Minghui school to learn Chinese and do the exercises. At the same time, I would teach them every day to practice ‘truthfulness, compassion and forbearance’. Throughout my daughter’s school years, when different opportunities arose, they would do presentations to their classmates and teachers about the beauty of Dafa. On weekends, I would take them out to participate in truth clarifying activities.
On Mother’s Day, my children would give me cards saying: ‘Thank you Mum, you guided us to learn Falun Dafa, which made us change for the better. We have received the best thing in the world!’
2. Experiencing tribulations in the initial stage, enlightenment in cultivation is most important
When I started cultivation, I did not fully understand the Fa, and hadn’t completely adopted the rationality of a practitioner. After going through some difficult times, I realized that true cultivation is very important. A cultivator must never stop studying the Fa, practicing the exercises, and clarifying the truth; and it is also important to balance work and family.
After a year of practice, I became physically and mentally healthier, and felt able to go to work. However, the busy days at work used up all my energy and time, and my cultivation became worse. Whenever I encountered conflicts with colleagues, I often forgot that I was a cultivator, and didn’t realise that it was a good opportunity to improve my xinxing. My body and mind started to weaken. I was in this state for more than three years, and my body and mind returned to the unhealthy state I had before cultivation, which resulted in my biggest tribulation: the test of life and death.
During this tribulation, I always thought of myself as a cultivator and told myself to treat problems with righteous thoughts. I realised that I was not kind enough to my colleagues when I went to work. From my innermost being I apologized to my colleagues for all my past actions. I identified the attachment of jealousy, resentment, fighting, selfishness, etc. I realized that as a cultivator, I would need to cultivate myself well and let go of all my human attachments, so that I can be truly kind to others. Gradually my body improved. I am truly grateful to Master for saving me.
From then on, I began to strengthen my Fa study, practice exercises and clarify the truth daily, but this led to another problem. I began to ignore the needs of my family and failed to uphold truthfulness, compassion and forbearance, by failing to treat them with kindness and care. As a result, my husband and daughters began to treat me poorly and complained that I was not kind.
One day I found out that my husband had done something that I simply could not accept. I knew this was a reflection of my cultivation path going astray. Because of my experience from my tribulation of life and death, it took me quite a long time to pass that tribulation. Now I am determined to quickly cultivate myself in the Fa because we are cultivating in the Fa-rectification period, and every tribulation cannot be delayed for too long. It cannot impact my cultivation and mission in helping Master save people.
I took this opportunity to look within and position myself within the Fa and reject the old forces’ plans. I understood that the difficulties I encountered on the road of cultivation were caused by my own karma and attachment. I realised I had strong Qing towards my husband and selfishly wanted to spend more time studying the Fa, exercising and clarifying the truth. I have deviated from the Fa principles that allow me to cultivate among ordinary people and maintain harmony within my family. I realized my husband is a sentient being that I must save. I must treat him with compassion, so I calmly tolerated it and forgave him, and as a result my husband was moved. He gratefully thanked Master in front of Master’s image in our home. With Master’s guidance, I was able to overcome this major tribulation in a week.
After this, my three daughters began a rebellious period. They all started to test my xinxing. One after the other, the home environment provided me with opportunities to cultivate truthfulness, compassion and forbearance. This led me to build a strong foundation to clarify the truth in saving sentient beings.
Every day I study the Fa with a practitioner. One day I read,
Master said,
“As a practitioner, you must cultivate and temper yourself in the environment of everyday people and gradually abolish attachments and various desires.” (Lecture One, Zhuan Falun)
Master said,
“If you want to increase gong without emphasizing xinxing
cultivation, your gong will not increase at all.” (Lecture One, Zhuan Falun)
I finally understood that what I previously learnt wasn’t truly attaining the Fa. Because I did not follow the Fa standard, my gong couldn’t grow.
One day my daughter arrived home unhappy. She said her exam questions were unreasonable. I said: don’t worry, just do better next time. After hearing this my daughter got really mad. She began to ignore me and kept crying. I was confused and did not understand. I’ve just wanted her to treat it lightly, to not be upset, to just work harder next time. I didn’t say anything wrong, ‘what was the issue?’ After much thought, I couldn’t find the answer.
After some time, my daughter calmed down. I asked: “What did mum do wrong?” She said: “You did not use compassion. My classmates’ mums are westerners. They are very kind. When they encounter a situation like this, they would first consider the child’s feeling, instead of saying ‘treat it lightly’ like you did. I couldn’t feel your honesty or kindness to me.” After hearing this, I felt ashamed. I realised my compassion wasn’t enough. I did not genuinely care about her. I quickly gave her a hug and said: I’m sorry, mom understands. From now on, I will not just consider your achievements, but also care about your feelings.” My daughter smiled happily.
Master said,
“True shan is what a cultivator attains in the process of cultivation and cultivating goodness, and this is a genuine shan that is achieved by cultivation. When you interact with sentient beings, it’s not possible for you to display your successfully-cultivated divine side in full, since you still have a human side that has yet to complete cultivation. When required, you must be rational and clearheaded like a cultivator, allowing your responsibilities and righteous thoughts to direct you, and only then will your true shan be displayed. That is what’s different about a cultivator and a divine being. And that is what compassion means–not some intentional display, show of human preference for this or that, or an instantiation of, “If you’re good to me, then I will be shan toward you.” It is offered unconditionally and has no thought of reward–it is fully for the sake of sentient beings.” (“Fa Teaching at the 2009 Washington DC International Fa Conference”)
There was a time where I had a serious conflict with my daughter, which made us both very upset. I realised that I have the attachment of hatred, as well as imposing my own opinions on others. I also have strong qing towards my daughter. I quickly tried to remove it. I patiently explained this to my daughter. After listening she changed, and happily told me, “Don’t worry mum! I know you want us to be good. I know what to do.” Now whenever there are conflicts, the first thing I think of is the feelings of my children. To truly stand in their shoes and think of their needs by communicating with them more. From then on, no matter what conflict I encountered, it was all meant to improve and strengthen my enlightenment in the cultivation of compassion.
3.Listening to Master, sincerely saving Australia’s sentient beings
Three months after attaining the Fa, Master’s Jingwens made me realise the importance of assisting Master in saving sentient beings. The people on earth are waiting to hear the truth of Dafa. I need to go out and clarify the truth to sentient beings so that, by understanding the truth, they will be able to have a wonderful future.
I spend five to six days a week clarifying the truth in public and collecting signatures. I don’t focus on reaching a certain number but explain the truth to them. When they sign the petition, I ask “Sir, do you know what you are signing for? Do you know what is happening in China?” If they say they know, I don’t say much. After all, my objective is to clarify the truth about the persecution of Falun Gong in China.
Whenever I clarify the truth to Westerners, I try to inspire them by triggering their kindness to awaken their true consciousness. This allows them to understand the evil nature of the CCP and to support an end to the persecution of Falun Gong in China.
Once, a Westerner did not want to sign the petition and argued about the source of the virus, so I said: ‘If I say this reason, but you say the other, there is no way to confirm it. However, I believe the CCP persecuting Falun Gong practitioners is the unavoidable truth.’ After hearing this, the person immediately signed the petition. I know I cannot argue with them, and I won’t deny their views. As long as they know the CCP’s crimes of persecuting Falun Gong and agree that the persecution in China should stop, that is enough.
Another time two sentient beings came over and scolded us. I politely asked them: ‘Did you misunderstand us after listening to some fake news?’ Then I carefully cleared up their misunderstanding. I firstly explained to them what Falun Gong is and how it had benefited my health and that I used to have thyroid cancer. Secondly, I explained the reason behind the CCP’s persecution of Falun Gong. They were from Malaysia, and I said I am also from Malaysia. I told them the Malaysian government supports China, and prevents the true situation being told in our country. I also explained to them why I stood there every day to clarify the truth. Then I gave them a lot of information to take back to read. After listening to what I said, they completely changed. They apologised for being impolite earlier and told me to be careful, and then signed the End CCP petition. They said they would tell their family and friends about this and thanked me.
This incident deeply moved me.
Master said,
“On top of that, as you go about clarifying the truth, the benevolence you exude and the righteous thoughts you project disintegrate the evil, awakening those lives you save and causing them to recover their very selves, and that can lead a person to truly come to rationally see these things for himself. And of course, as soon as people wake up, things are immediately different.” (“Teachings at the 2005 Conference in San Francisco”)
4.Master’s power in letting a non-Chinese person clarify the truth
As a Malaysian Chinese, I am not fluent in Chinese, but I always had a wish to clarify the truth directly to Chinese sentient beings. I am grateful to Master for allowing me to fulfil my wish. I had an opportunity to use the “Easy Talk” Chinese truth clarification recording to play to Chinese people to clarify the truth.
The first time I dialled the phone number, the Chinese person listened attentively to the full recording. Then I said to him: ‘I’ll give you a pseudonym to help you do the three withdrawals (meaning quit the CCP, Young Pioneers, and Youth League) so you can stay safe?’ He replied, ‘yes!’ He also said he is a party member and agreed to withdraw from the evil CCP.
Master encouraged me in that first phone call, and from that day on, I persisted in calling twice a day for about five hours in total, to truly help Chinese people understand the truth. With Master’s help, I was able to pick the best recording so that the Chinese person could understand. Even if there are some who don’t want to listen, I won’t give up talking with them.
The phone call that moved me the most was one with an elderly gentleman. He said, “Stop talking, I know all about it.”
Not fazed, I continued to play the truth clarification recording for him and told him we are sincerely helping him to realise the atrocities of the CCP and so on. He kept listening without hanging up.
At the end of the recordings, I said: “I’ll give you a pseudonym to help you do the three withdrawals, is that okay?” He replied: “Yes! Yes! Yes!’ He seemed like a different person from before.
The last recording asked him to remember the nine words: Falun Dafa is good! Truthfulness, compassion and forbearance is good! Then I said goodbye.
He replied: “Thank you! Alright. Goodbye!”
In the beginning, this old gentleman was reluctant to hear the truth. However in the end his attitude changed and he agreed to do the three withdrawals. During that time, I kept saying silently from my heart: ‘I want to save you. I will not give up on you.’ My sincerity helped him change, so he listened to all the recordings and did the three withdrawals.
Sometimes, people don’t listen to me, which makes me feel very anxious and tearful. Even if I can save one person a day, I don’t want to leave behind any precious Chinese people. I will not give up even if they don’t pick up the phone, or if they hang up on me during a call. I am helping Master save sentient beings, so I will not be discouraged. I persist with righteous thoughts so they can be saved. In my heart I beg, ‘please stretch out your hand. I will grab your hand and help pull you up. It is to save you!’ I feel Master saw my heart and helped me in allowing the sentient beings to listen to the recordings to do the three withdrawals smoothly. I am sincerely grateful for Master’s help and guidance.
With “Easy Talk”, I felt like I was calling my relatives. In less than two months, I helped more than 80 people do the “three withdrawals”.
5. Sincerely grateful to Master in giving me the world’s precious Dafa
I don’t know what language to use to thank Master. It is difficult to put into words, but from the bottom of my heart I am truly grateful to Master! He gave me two lives. Master also gave me the most precious gift in the world, Falun Dafa. I am extremely grateful to Master for giving me a family with traditional culture: a husband with mutual respect, children with filial piety, friendship with siblings – our whole family is blessed. I am extremely grateful to Master for transforming me into a person living for the sake of others. I want to listen to Master’s words so I can cultivate myself better, clarify the truth to assist Master in saving sentient being and repay Master’s grace. Thank you Master!
The above is my limited level of understanding, please kindly correct me if anything is not on the Fa!
Thank you Master!
Thank you, practitioners!
(Presented at the 2021 Australia Online Falun Dafa Experience Sharing Conference)