Greetings Master!
Greetings Fellow Practitioners!
I am a veteran practitioner who obtained the Fa in 1996 yet I am a new disciple who has cultivated for less than a year. Thank you Master for your compassion as you have never given up on me. I was lost in the maze of the material world for so long. Last August I migrated to Australia and returned to cultivation. Once again I have experienced the immense compassion of Master, the happiness and magnificence of cultivation in Falun Dafa. I attended the Washington Fahui in June this year and was so lucky to have personally listened to Master’s lecturing. I understand further the importance of cultivating myself well and the urgency of saving more sentient beings.
I’d like to share some of my cultivation experiences here. Please kindly point out anything inappropriate.
My Father’s Lung Cancer Disappeared after One Week’s Practice of Falun Dafa
My father was diagnosed with lung cancer in late 1995. My elder sister visited all the military hospitals in Nanjing and in the rest of the province, as well as Chinese medicine practitioners and qigong masters. All of them concluded that he had lung cancer. We became desperate. A military friend of my father gave a copy of Zhuan Falun to him. He finished reading it within a week. A medical examination showed that a lump the size of a matchbox in his lung disappeared. The doctors felt it very strange and couldn’t provide an explanation. In the end they said it was a wrong diagnosis.
My mother started to practise Falun Dafa from then on. She was on all sorts of medications back then, but she hasn’t taken any medicine since. She is energetic and walks fast. She gave me a copy of Zhuan Falun in 1996. A lot of my questions were answered after I read it. One night I saw Master smiling at me with boundless compassion. I also had other supernormal experiences.
Because of my human attachments, I was obsessed with sentimentality. Though Master gave me hints a few times, with my poor enlightenment quality, I drifted in the big dye vat of human society. Cultivation was just at the back of my head. Recalling those years that I had wasted, I am terribly regretful.
Awakened by a Documentary about Organ Harvesting after Migrating to Melbourne
I settled down in Melbourne in August 2017. I came across the documentaries Ten Years Investigation on Organ Harvesting and Eternal Wave one day while I was surfing the internet. I cried from the beginning to the end while I was watching. I could hardly stop crying. I had tears in my eyes whenever I recalled the films. I cried on and off for almost fifteen days.
I was finally awakened. I knew it was arranged by Master. Our compassionate Master would not give up any practitioner. I started to practise the exercises at the local practice site. I got up at 4:10am and left for the park at 4:40am. In summer time I also got up at 2:55am to send righteous thoughts. At the start it was hard for me. I often dosed off when sending righteous thoughts. Though I managed to complete the exercises in the morning, It was like I was starting a task from the very beginning. As I cultivated more, I enjoyed the morning fresh smell of grass and trees in the park. I felt serenity and happiness while doing the exercises to the music.
I understand the urgency and importance of saving sentient beings. In order to save them I must study the Fa well. I am an impatient person so I wanted to read several lectures a day to make up for the time that I had lost. Later on I realized that if my mind was not focused, I could achieve little even if I read nine lectures a day.
One night I was studying the Fa on my bed. I felt sleepy after I had read several pages, so I read out the Fa loudly. My mind became clearer and clearer. Every cell in my body was filled with energy. I read the Fa until I had finished two lectures by 1:30am. I told myself that I must go to bed because I had to get up at 4:10am to practise the exercises in the park. Though I didn’t want to sleep, I lay down anyway. Soon after I closed my eyes, I realized that I was floating on my side above my bed. It was a magnificent feeling. Someone was beside me and adjusting my lower abdomen. My eyes closed yet I felt as if I was awake and clear headed, but I couldn’t move. I knew it was Master. When I was finally able to sit up in the bed, I just couldn’t stop my tears.
When I study the Fa with groups or I study the Fa and do the exercises alone, I often cannot stop tears from rolling down my face. I have experienced Master’s immense compassion. They are tears of joy.
Breaking through Fear and Clarifying the Truth to People
I stepped out to attend Dafa activities late last year. I posted Shen Yun fliers in the letter boxes in the suburbs of Bendigo. I attended the parade to show people the beauty of Falun Dafa in April this year. I had gone through a process of letting go of fear.
Every time I saw practitioners clarifying the truth to people in the park, I would feel ashamed of myself. I didn’t think I could do that. I felt anxious in my heart. On the eve of the New Year this year, I didn’t know what to do when I was on the street in the city centre for the first time. I gave out several newspapers but I wanted to hide behind other practitioners. I had this feeling for several hours. I truly admired those practitioners who are out clarifying the truth all the year round.
I attended the parade in Bendigo in April. I was one of the fan dancers. I had never done such a thing in public before – dancing on the street in broad daylight. I didn’t dare to look at the crowds on both sides of the street. I must have danced so hard because one of my shoes got a hole in it. My first reaction was that I had some omission, but some practitioners thought it meant some evil interference that had been holding me back had been eliminated. They might be right. This was the first time that I stepped out. Master might have given me that hint.
One day in the park practitioner a practitioner said that she had collected 150 signatures in one day. I admired her and was happy for those beings that had been saved. I told myself that I could no longer hide and must step out.
Soon I met another practitioner in the City Square. I went out to collect signatures with her two days in a row. I depended on her very much and didn’t dare to engage other people directly. I said to myself: “I am doing an important thing, a righteous thing. How can I behave like a thief? This was not me. I must rectify it.” As soon as I had this thought, Master sent pre-destined people to sign the petition immediately. It was miraculous. Now I can collect signatures in the park all by myself. Thank you Master for your strengthening of my character.
Learning to Look Within
Master said:
“It would be good if they could manage to search within themselves for the things that they have been able to find in others.”(“A Dialogue with Time”, Essentials for Further Advancement Vol. I)
From the perspective of believing in Master and believing in the Fa, I should follow what Master said in the Fa. My understanding is that I must have attachments to cultivate out if I come across a certain incident. I didn’t realise that I didn’t fully believe in Master or in the Fa after I stumbled on several occasions. I had thought that if someone didn’t do well, it had nothing to do with me. Actually there must be attachments that I should let go of because nothing accidental would happen to a practitioner regardless of whether it was a small thing or big thing. If I dug deeper, I would find the connection and the attachment might not be small, especially if it happened in the Fa study group. I had much experience of that.
For a period of time I didn’t feel comfortable when the practitioners read the Fa at a different speed to what I was accustomed to at the Fa study group. I believed that the uniformity of the reading speed showed whether the practitioners could co-operate with each other. One night I shared with an elderly practitioner and suggested that she might try to read at the same speed as everybody else. I thought I was courageous to point it out and on the Fa, but no other practitioner supported me. I felt sad. This, however, reminded me to look within. I had not known how to look within previously. I found that I was not compassionate to this practitioner.
I had been thinking of this incident after going home. When I was doing the sitting meditation the next morning, I felt that Master had taken out something for me and I was relieved and felt light-hearted. I no longer had complaint against that practitioner. I only had compassion. Tears rolled down my cheeks. Actually the problem was with me. I paid too much attention to the reading speed. The more I cared about it, the more I felt the practitioners didn’t read in harmony.
I was enveloped with happiness after my realization. I felt serene and comfortable. I didn’t feel any pain. I kept sitting after the meditation music stopped. I wouldn’t have stood up if I didn’t have to go to the truth-clarification site.
Cultivation has changed me. I used to be a tomboy. I hoped that I would become soft and considerate after I started to practise cultivation. Though I haven’t quite achieved that goal, my strong and stubborn temperament has softened considerably.
I was not good to my mother-in-law and her family. I had much resentment against them. After I started to practise Falun Dafa, I sincerely apologized to my husband’s sister and told her that from now on I would only focus on my in-laws’ good sides.
I didn’t have resentment towards them any more. They also changed. My husband’s second sister and her husband withdrew from the CCP and its affiliated organizations.
“Only by first cultivating yourself well can you fulfil your historic mission. That’s why you cannot neglect your own cultivation throughout the process of saving beings and validating Dafa. So you must take cultivation seriously; it is the most basic thing for cultivators to do to ensure success.” (Fa Teaching Given at the New York Fa Conference Celebrating the 25th Anniversary of Dafa’s Spreading)
I feel a great responsibility on me. Only by cultivating myself well can my family members be saved. How true it is in the case of my husband who is a non-practitioner.
One day, my husband was about to leave home when he realized that he had forgotten his watch. He asked me to get it for him. Because we were in a rush, I was reluctant to do this for him. Immediately, I realized that I shouldn’t care about such a trivial thing. I changed my mindset but didn’t show it on my face. My husband felt my reluctance and said: “What’s wrong? I don’t owe you anything do I?” His words shocked me. An inner voice said to me: “Yes, you owe him.” I understood that I owed him but didn’t admit it so as to save face. I said to him sincerely in my heart: “Sorry, my attitude was not right just now. I shouldn’t treat you like this. It is my fault”. Master requires us to behave according to the principles of Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance. I will not act like this next time.” His facial expression and attitude changed as I changed. He acted as if nothing had happened between us. We were both relieved at the same time.
Personally Listening to Master’s Lecture
Without Master’s strengthening, it would have been impossible for me to have attended the Washington DC international Fa conference this year. I needed special approval for entry to the Fahui. I also lost my US visa and had to re-apply. I looked within and let go of my attachments. Everything went well afterwards.
I felt like I was like in a dream when I was physically inside the Fa conference venue. It was so solemn. Every practitioner’s sharing was so touching that I cried from the beginning to the end.
One familiar voice said to me after a practitioner finished his speech: “Master is coming.” I was not surprised. I had no doubt that it was true. I was again enveloped with happiness. I finally could see Master in person! When the MC asked everyone to stand up, I called Master with a trembling voice in my heart. I looked at Master attentively. I had tears rolling down my cheeks but didn’t bother to wipe my eyes because I didn’t want to miss a single moment.
My first feeling was that Master is so compassionate. He rescued me from hell and cleansed me many times. No practitioner could ever possibly know what Master had done for us or could write it down in human language. This was my feeling when I saw Master for the first time. A poem from Hong Yin came into my mind:
“All the worries in the human world carried
Over heaven’s suffering, heart is harried
There are words to share and yet with whom shall I?
Only colder still are places that are high”
(Being on High, Bearing the Cold, Hong Yin)
We could never pay back what Master has done for us and for his saving grace. No words can express my gratitude to Master. I shall be diligent, cultivate myself solidly and fulfil my mission.
One day on my way to the Chinese consulate to clarify the truth to people there, I was thinking of my husband. He has pre-destined relationship with me, but he hasn’t obtained the Fa yet. How can I save him? I must do well. If he couldn’t be saved because of me, I should be held responsible. I realized that I was selfish and attached to my personal consummation. All of a sudden one thought came into my mind and tears started to flow. Master didn’t let me see anything but made me understand the importance of saving sentient beings. Personal consummation was not worth mentioning in comparison with the salvation of sentient beings.
I am normally assigned to hold banners in front of the Chinese consulate. But that day the co-ordinator asked me to give out fliers. I was a bit nervous at the start. The materials were given out quickly and all of them were soon gone that day. Two people thanked me.
Conclusion
I returned to Dafa with initial excitement and progressed to my present peacefulness. Master has been pushing me forward on my cultivation path in the past eight months. When I felt sad or wronged in conflicts, I reminded myself of what Master had given to me and how Master would worry about me. No language could express this. My tribulations were nothing compared to the practitioners in China who lost their lives and who stepped out against the persecution despite the huge pressure. My resentment disappeared and I felt relieved. I felt like I had jumped out of a deep dark well and come out into the vast open light. I was now in a different realm of existence. Master put these righteous thoughts into my mind.
Most of the time, I feel happy now. Anyway, I have Master and resolve to be attached to nothing and pursue nothing. I will just listen to Master and walk on the path Master has arranged for me – doing the three things well.