在做协调工作中修炼升华 Upgrading myself while cultivating in coordinating Dafa projects.|
在做协调工作中修炼升华 Upgrading myself while cultivating in coordinating Dafa projects.
John Zhuo from Sydney
Upgrading myself while cultivating in coordinating Dafa projects.
John Zhuo, Sydney
Greetings venerable Master! Greetings fellow practitioners,
My sharing topic is: Upgrading myself while cultivating in coordinating Dafa projects.
At 2012's New York Fa conference, with great gratitude towards Master's teaching I was able to see where my short comings were in my cultivation through the participation of the Fa Conference. I knew that I would have to be more diligent in my cultivation to help Master for Fa Rectification and to full fill my original promises. Just a few days after I came back from the New York Fa Conference, the person in charge of FXH asked me if I could be the coordinator for the Centre of Quitting CCP (in Sydney). To be honest I knew that being a coordinator is not easy. Not only do you need to coordinate different events, but you also need to balance fellow practitioners' different opinions and even conflicts at times. I thought of myself as an introverted person, not very good in dealing with people and not really suitable for a coordinator's role, so I didn't agree to be the coordinator at the time. But I was reminded that since I was doing well in coordinating our local ticketing team for Shen Yun, I should be able to do well in coordinating the Centre of Quitting CCP, and was asked to think about it more before any final answer.
I had started to coordinate the ticketing team from 2009. I found that fellow practitioners in the ticketing team were all easy to work with and issues raised were only in the technical aspect. So coordinating the ticketing team wasn't such a difficult task. But coordinating the Centre of Quitting CCP required facing a lot more practitioners and organising a lot more activities, so I told myself that it would be better for a more capable practitioner to take on that coordinator role. Once I had that thought, I felt that it wasn't right, and it wasn't accidental that the practitioner in charge suggested me to take up this role. I recalled what was the first thing in my mind when I'd just finished participating the New York Fa conference - that I need “to be diligent, do better in assisting Master, do better in fulfilling my vow.” But it seemed I had already forgotten that. I felt ashamed of myself as I was trying to avoid my responsibility, wanting to avoid possible conflicts, and that this was not worthy of Master's great compassion. So I took up the coordinator role for the Centre of Quitting CCP.
第一，正念坚持 风雨无阻 巡回悉尼各华人区讲真相
1. With the right mind set, doing the “Wall of Truth” around Sydney suburbs.
Following the FXH's suggestion, in order to let more people know the truth, we started holding the “Wall of Truth” activities around the Sydney suburbs. We are rotated our activity to a different suburb each weekend, focusing on clarifying the truth, quitting the CCP and petition collection for stop the Forced organ harvesting in China. If the conditions were right we would also invite the Celestial Band to perform as well. By doing these activities we were able to help local people know the truth about the goodness in Dafa and at the same time cleaning up the other dimensions, and the results were great.
I remember one time in the morning it was raining, and seeing that the start time for the activity was near and the weather didn't seem to change, I called off the activity. Once the notice to cancel was sent out, the rain stopped, and the sun appeared after a while. I didn’t enlighten at that time that my heart and mind wasn't solid enough in the activities of clarifying the truth. The second time we faced the same scenario, I discussed it with the other coordinator and we decided that from now on, no matter what kind of weather, strong winds or rain, we would do our activities as planned. Ever since, the weather has been basically fine during our weekend activities. In addition, seeing fellow practitioners working diligently assisting Master with the same passion whether under the baking sun, or in the chilling wind, I was quite encouraged and touched, and felt more confident to coordinate ongoing events.
第二，魔炼心性 改变急脾气 整体配合路路顺
2. Cultivating my inner nature, changing my fast temper, the coordination is getting easier.
It has not been easy to persist in organizing the weekends’ activities around Sydney suburbs for three years. By involving in this process, my xinxing has been upgraded through overcoming hardships.
To do activities in a suburb we need to have a permit from the local council. Once the permit is obtained we then need to notify practitioners beforehand. One of the practitioners who helped applying for permits was often delayed in completing the task. I would then have to call them to speed up the process, but they hardly ever picked up the phone. Sending emails didn't seem to work either, and often it was at the last moment we got the permit, and sometimes the delay affected our activity.
I am an impatient person and I want to do things the instant I think of it. Such delays in the permits were testing my limits. I wanted to explode but I knew I should not do that, and I had no idea what to do to solve that problem. After a period of time my impatient character seemed to slow down a lot because of that, but at the same time my confidence in coordination had also been reduced too. Later on, I came to know that this practitioner had to work at two jobs and they were very busy. But they never complained when I called them multiple times for the same request. But if I were put in their shoes, I wouldn't be able to handle it as well as they did. So I started to look within myself, and the situation started to change. There were also other practitioners who stepped in to help and share some of the work load, so the permit application process has become smoother now.
Also in the events we need to have banners and other materials, and soon enough we had practitioners helping collect information for flyer design, and others doing layout and printing as well as distributing to different locations. All these initiatives helped make coordinating the events so much easier. At times there were more practitioners participating in the events, and other times less people turned up. When some practitioners didn’t appear again after a few times, I initially felt disappointed, but I understood that I still have to do well in what I am supposed to do.
Master said: “as Dafa disciples we have got to fulfil what we are supposed to. If what Dafa disciples have been working toward really does take place in the near future, and yet you haven’t done well, then at that point you will regret it—truly regret it. If [at that point] you haven’t done many of the things that you originally aspired to do, or haven’t saved many of the people you aspired to save, then that’s a major issue.” (Fa Teaching Given at the 2015 New York Fa Conference)
There were a few fellow practitioners who persisted in participating in all the events, which really reminded me about Master's teachings, and these practitioners' compassionate action towards sentient beings truly touched me, encouraged me and gave me a lot of confidence
3. Continue the activities in clarifying the truth persistently, the public shows their supports
I have found that in the area where we have held the activities, the people and the environment usually changed a lot afterwards. However, at the beginning, some people who may have been poisoned by the CCP behaved quite badly. Once when we were setting up the banners a Chinese restaurant owner came out and started cursing and wanted us to move away. I thought maybe as he had not seen our truth clarification activities before, he is so unaware of the truth. Now, such people are hardly seen, and each time we do the activities there are many Chinese who agree to quit the CCP. We have also collected many signatures for “stop forced organ harvesting”. Some people came proactively wanting to know the truth, some thanked us for telling them the truth, others were encouraging us, and some also provided us with water.
Last November when the Chinese CCP leaders came to Sydney, we saw the CCP had organized its “red group” of people carrying on like scenes from the Cultural Revolution. Some of them even physically abused our practitioners. We could also see that most of the Chinese from those groups were just there as observers, and many of them didn’t really know the truth. So what we have done is still far from enough.
Master told us at the 2015 New York Fa Conference: ”…Clarifying the facts and saving sentient beings are what you need to accomplish. There is nothing else for you to accomplish. There is nothing else in this world that you need to accomplish.”
So we have to do more to clarify the truth and save more of the precious Chinese people.
4. With less attachments and more compassion things becoming easier.
I had obtained the Fa in October 1996 in Sydney. Since cultivating in Dafa, apart from everyday work, I have put all other time into cultivation, promoting Dafa and activities for saving sentient beings. My xinxing has been continuously exercised in the process.
Apart from the 5 days a week ordinary life work, I have been trying my best to participate in projects for clarifying the truth, saving sentient beings, and often time helping practitioners with their computer issues. I am also a member in the Celestial Band playing trumpet. It has already become a part of my cultivation in how to organise my time well. It has become my habit that I will finish all the things that I am supposed to be deal with for the day. So sometimes it would be very late when I finish everything, but basically I won’t delay things to be handled to the next day. For example, replying to emails on time, and taking all the phone calls etc. Sometimes when I was following my steps to go through things, a phone call cut in. If it was not a brief call, then the longer the conversation the more impatient I would become. At last, I even couldn’t maintain my xinxing and showed my unpleasant tone in the conversation. At those moments, there wasn’t any compassion and forbearance in me, but what manifested was the part that I had not yet cultivated well. This allowed me to see my own shortcomings, and it allowed me to know that I must watch my every single thought, so as to improve my inner nature.
Sometimes I even complained a bit to fellow practitioners, saying that time for me was already very tight. I had to do my own Fa study, exercises, fix computers and practice trumpet. Sometimes I even thought if I was not a coordinator, I would have better energy and time to do one or two things well. This thought seemed that I wasn’t really attached to being a coordinator and had no attachment to fame. However, this was more like superficial thinking. Only by looking within myself when a conflict occurs that I can really dig out any attachments. Meanwhile, I must pay attention to my heart and check if it is moved when encountering a problem.
Another example was last year at the event to protest against a CCP leader’s visit to Canberra, when all of our Aussie practitioners came together. At a big group Fa study session before the event, a practitioner put forward some good suggestions and ideas. The event coordinator thought he had a good understanding and asked him to join the coordinating team. This practitioner spent a lot of time and effort and made a detailed plan for the event. With practitioners’ joint effort this Canberra event was quite a successful one. When this practitioner was sharing his good plan at night, I suddenly felt a bit uneasy in my mind. I was aware of that immediately and I was asking myself: was it my jealousy? No, I would never be jealous of him as I understand the principle of Fa very well that every practitioner should play a role based on his/her capability to help Master in the Fa-rectification and walk his/her own path. We were actually providing an environment to encourage this.
But then why had I felt uneasy in my heart? Thinking a bit further, I thought I found what it was: this practitioner had now become the focusing point and everyone admired him, yet as the main event coordinator, I was just sitting there and couldn’t express much of my contribution. That was why I had that kind of feeling in my heart. Wouldn’t that be an attachment to fame? Didn’t I think to myself that it did not matter whether to be a coordinator? I shouldn’t have had such a mentality! I realized that the human mind set came with us in birth. As long as being a human, there will be a human mind. The only difference is that some people have bit more attachments and some others have a bit less. It is not what you think that you have or don’t have. So looking within is the key to eliminate attachments. Watching your every thought at any time and capture it once your heart is moved. You will be elevated once you abandon it. Once I understood that, my body and heart lightened up. Now, if a practitioner needs help in sharing, I would setup the projector for him and feel happy for him from the bottom of my heart.
In addition, in many truth clarification activities, I was occasionally taught what to do by some fellow practitioners, but I felt they did so without respect. I was a coordinator, being coordinated by others. Recently there was a test that had a very strong impact on my xinxing.
At the beginning of August, we got the news that a Chinese officer who actively follows Jiang and persecutes Falun Gong would arrive in Sydney and sign an agreement with the Sydney mayor in two days time. A few of us coordinators had an emergency meeting, discussing how to expose the evil deeds that this Chinese official has committed, so as to let more Sydney city officials and residents know the sins this person has committed. I sent out an emergency email to our email group that night to inform our fellow practitioners about our action. The next day I suddenly received an email from a practitioner. They asked quite a few questions about the activity: Is it organized by Fo Xue Hui? Why always do things at the last minute? Has the media been informed? Is there any plan before and after? Why we always give others an impression that we are a protest group? Is there only one way to clarify the facts? How are we regarded by the Sydney government officials?
These seemed more than questions or suggestions and like I was being blamed. I felt uncomfortable in my mind and my human thinking came out: I always do things honestly and seriously. No one blames me like this. What’s wrong with you? Can’t I send out this email? To a culprit of persecution, you don’t protest, what should you do? Do you invite him to dinner and then clarify the facts? If you have good ideas, why don’t you raise them up? How will the government officials look at us? Shouldn’t they be more grateful to us when they know the truth? But when I thought about it one more time, I realized that: hang on, this was not right. Was this just like I was fighting with the fellow practitioner? I came to have a clear head in just a few seconds after my mind went in a wrong direction.
Master said: “While karma is being transformed, if we’re going to handle it well and not make a mess of things like ordinary people, we need to always have a compassionate heart and calm mind. Then when you suddenly run into some problem you’ll be able to handle it well.”(Zhuan Falun).
I should clam down first and ask myself where I feel painful. I am a person who deals with others honestly and seriously. Practitioners who know me well know that I am an honest and serious person. Being honest and serious is good, but how come that has turned into an attachment unknowingly? It has turned into such a state that no one can question me and others must listen to me. As I am always one of my word, I have become so attached to ego?
As long as it was an attachment, it must be removed. Once it was abandoned I felt lighter. Actually the practitioner who emailed me was trying to help do things better and more perfectly. They weren’t targeting me or had any problem with me. However, they had indeed helped me to improve. As I had the attachment, Master used their words to enlighten me. Through this test, I come to understand better why Master taught us not to provoke others when talking to them and consider others’ capacity of bearing with our words. As a coordinator I should be able to calmly listen to practitioners’ suggestions and only then can I do better in coordination.
I am grateful to Master for giving me the opportunity to improving myself and help saving sentient beings. I am grateful to Master for his great compassion. The above is just a little understanding from my own cultivation, please point out any shortcomings.
Thank you, Master! Thank you, everyone!
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