感恩在师父巨大的慈悲和荣耀中修炼 Immense Gratitude for Cultivating in Master’s Great Benevolence and Glory|
感恩在师父巨大的慈悲和荣耀中修炼 Immense Gratitude for Cultivating in Master’s Great Benevolence and Glory
悉尼 萝安 Emma from Sydney
Immense Gratitude for Cultivating in Master’s Great Benevolence and Glory
Greetings, Revered Master!
Greetings, fellow practitioners!
As a new Dafa disciple, I got to know Dafa in late April this year (2015) when I was asked to sign a petition in the street at the Sydney city CBD. I remember an aunty-like woman came to me with the petition form while I was walking. I was planning to avoid her but somehow I stopped. After I signed we had a little chat. When she knew I was a Christian, she said: “Jesus is a great God, he does exist and suffered a lot for people.” However, she suggested that I should read Zhuan Falun, which would help me understand the meaning of life and what we live for. What she said was incredible as no one ever told me anything like that before. It’s also the answers that I have been searching for, so the suggestion hit the right spot immediately. It is this unexpected coincidence that has created the opportunity for me to know more about Dafa and become a disciple
It’s my fate to learn Dafa
Before I practice Falun gong, I was baptized as a Christian at Anglican Church in Australia. In 2 years time, I made lots of friends at church, actively joined the church activities, and I even met my ex-fiancé during the time. During the period, I have learnt to enjoy the assize-style life, have improved my English abilities on listening, speaking, reading and writing also on some simple social skills for living in Australia. I thought God finally blessed me with such a wonderful whole new life. I had a great longing for my bright future that I would have a stable accounting job, a perfect husband and our happy family with kids. I would no longer feel lonely for the sheltered life he and his family provided. Simply when I thought my life was about to move on in a pattern that was simple and repeated, I learnt Dafa, which provides me with the answers of everything.
Out of respect for Falun Gong practitioners as well as the suggestion that I have got during the day, I developed quite a strong desire wanting to know what was Falun Gong all about. I started reading Zhuan Falun online at the same night, which kept me awake until 4 am the next day. I felt that every sentence in that book could inspire me while I was reading. Every little incident that happened in my life seemed make sense to me as long as I could recall. I believe that everything has been arranged for me in my life, I also know that Master stopped a car accident to save my life before I had the chance to talk to the Falun Gong lady that day.
The next day I only slept for 3 hours but not fatigue at all. Instead, I felt that my heart was overwhelmed by happiness and gratitude. A strong energy field of benevolence and grace had wrapped me up, which made everything around me look so beautiful and filled with sunshine. With such an intensive feeling, I could barely control my body. It seemed every cell of my body expressing the joy of reading the Fa. My mind was filled up with the content of Zhuan Falun while a voice had been reading aloud of the book inside of my brain too.
Although I read Zhuan Falun and knew Falun Gong is good, also understood a lot about religion, I couldn’t give up on Christianity as my attachments of sentimentality. However, the more I studied Master’s Fa teachings at conferences in different places, the more I understood of the seriousness of cultivation and about the connection between religions and Dafa. By reading the Fa teachings, my personal notions were gradually rectified. When I read Master’s words “Their purpose for learning Dafa is to use it to protect things deep down inside that they cannot let go of, things in religion, or God.”( Essentials for further advancement • Dafa Cannot be Used), my heart jerked suddenly. I felt the words were specifically said to me. It also hit me at the same time that Master knows everything. After I spent more time reading the Fa, I finally understood the principle that cultivation must focus on one school. Hence, I made up my mind that I will cultivate Falun Gong no matter what would happen.
Pass the tests
After I made up my mind, I came across two big tests. One was to handle my broken heart from ending the relationship with my ex-fiancé; the other one was to deal with criticism from people at church. I know Master arranged these two tests for me.
As for the first test, I remember I tried to share my joy of reading Dafa books to my ex-fiancé, and also tried to explain some of my new understandings about life to him when I read Zhuan Falun at the first time. It is because of me that he did some readings on Dafa website. Unfortunately, he told me that he couldn’t accept it. Suddenly at that moment I realized a bit of me knew a test is coming soon. Not long after that he told me that he’s not going to marry me because we now had different belief. I accepted it perfectly well. I knew it’s crucial time to make a decision on this issue and I were not going to fail. Master’s teaching had deeply rooted in my soul, which I believe is worth giving life for exchange, so I didn’t hesitate.
I nearly failed on the second test when mom told me that everyone at church swore at me for betraying. I couldn’t practice any meditation exercises at the following night as I was too depressed to absorb the news. I couldn’t help but crying and saying to Master: Master, what I am going to do if I couldn’t pass the test. They all hate me, hate Dafa as well. It’s all my fault. What am I going to do about it? I cried and fell asleep that night. However, when I woke up the next day, everything seemed so clear and explainable to me. I realized that all of it was planned for me. The experience at church and the friendship with people there were all arranged for me to abandon my attachments at this moment. In everyday life, the nicer and kinder the other people treated me, the harder this test would be. Master said in Zhuan Falun (Lecture Six): “If you want to practice cultivation, human sentimentality must be relinquished. Of course, in practicing cultivation in ordinary human society, we should respect parents and educate our children. Under all circumstances, we must be good and kind to others, not to mention to our family members. We should treat everyone in the same way. We must be good to our parents and children and be considerate of others in all respects. Such a heart is thus unselfish, and it is a heart of kindness and benevolence. Sentimentality is something of everyday people, and everyday people just live for it.” After I understood it with the principle of Fa, I passed the second test.
I spent a month to get through the hardship, which was a very quiet period of time. It was just the landlord and I shared the house at that time and he was away a lot. Reading Dafa books and practicing meditation exercises were the only two things I did everyday considering I had no other social activities to attend like before. I started to experience how powerful the Fa is as I spent most of the time reading while thinking about details in life. I always know that I was not a tough, determined person. From my memories, any time I had a conflict or argument with someone, I would blame myself and go off to sulk in my room for a while. However, I found myself having courage to confront such difficulties this time. I stopped being uneasy and worry. Those negative emotions were instead replaced by rationality and calm. I know Dafa has been changing me into a strong mind person and my mood is getting bright and shiny.
In that month I had no job, no university courses, no friends, no previous social activities, sometimes even no talking for days as no one to talk to. There was a moment that I was chickened out by the situation. However, when I was certain on Dafa and passed the tests, I got new friends and a volunteer job at the tax office. When I involved in the Fa-rectification activities, fellow practitioners even offered me a job. My life was filled up again which made me busy but fulfilled. I found inner peace and delight. I knew that I didn’t lose anything. Master had opened a broader new world in front of me, from which I had actually got more. When I was most helpless, there were Master’s arrangements that helped me pass the tests smoothly, for example, the encouragement from fellow practitioners, understanding and care from landlord, and the financial support from mom. Here I would really like to thank Master and everyone for helping me get through the toughest time in my life. I could always feel Master’s benevolence and glory showering my whole body when I was walking in the street in a sunny day. Being a Master’s disciple I feel really lucky and happy.
Ended the hostile relationship with mom
Another story is about mom and I made reconciliation of years of hostile relationship with each other after I practice Dafa. From my memories, mom and I never lived in harmony in our lives since I grew old enough to talk. We both believed that we hated each other and we could not start a normal, comfortable conversation at any time. After came to Australia, mom re-married and she really wanted me to get married as well because in that case she could declare to the whole world that she would be completely isolated from me in the rest of our lives. To be honest, on this regard we exchanged ideas and I agreed with her. Two years time at church, our horrible relationship didn’t change a little because of the faith in Jesus, instead, it actually got worse. I could not bear her behavior and she hated me when I talked pleasantly with others but not with her.
After learnt Dafa, I realized that I had become very stupid and selfish in this mother-and-daughter relationship when I re-think about it. I complained a lot about things, such as she’d been too strict on me, always showing an angry face, a bad cook, yelling at me whenever she wanted, which caused the fact that I was never be able to enjoy any gentle and soft mother love. However, I never thought that she didn’t have any gentle and soft mother love either in her life. She’s been struggling to survive in such a vicious living environment and she has done her best to love me and protect me. However, I failed to understand her as I only thought about myself. Now I do feel ashamed that I had been crude to her in so many years. After I realized that I apologized to her. I said: mom, I am so sorry that I have hurt you so much before. I was just naïve and selfish. Please forgive me. Falun Gong is really good. You do need to read this book. My mom was shocked by me and also touched deeply. She never expected that I would apologize to her one day. I also told her that I was not going to church any more. I suggested that you shouldn’t either. Please come join me to cultivate Dafa. Mom misunderstood Dafa as heresy, therefore in the past she refused to read or take anything that relates to Dafa, such as books, brochures or emails. But this time she said if Falun Gong can change you into such a different person, then I will believe it no matter what it is and whatever it takes. To me, it’s not a big deal not going to church. So this is how it happened. We both said a lot and shared a lot. We both cried. We hugged each other and promised that we would never become enemies again.
Proactively involved in Fa-rectification
The first time I participated in petition activity on the street was three weeks after reading Zhuan Falun. I was rather nervous at that moment, worried about being refused by people. I begged Master in my mind to reinforce me with courage for 10 minutes before I started. I walked up to the first person telling him about organ harvesting in China. It was smooth in seeking the signature and giving the leaflets although I was stammering in speaking English out of stressed nerves. I started to feel confident. However, it became not so easy to deal with the subsequent bunch of people. Some of them dodged me just as dodging a bullet, some waved hands saying no, some showed a very disgusting expression on their face when I approached. But the amazing thing was that I didn’t generate any negative emotions toward those people, instead I showed mercy toward them because their human notions stopped them from knowing the truth. I felt Master’s reinforcement and because of it I could be able to treat people with mercy although they had different reactions. It was such an unbelievable and precious experience to a new practitioner. I understood right away that Master was helping me build up my own glory. Since then, I stopped feeling awkward in any petition activities because I know assisting Master in Fa-rectification is my glory and it is the greatest and most noble thing.
Three months after I learnt the Fa, I started teaching people who are interested in Falun Gong the meditation exercises. I also like to learn from other fellow practitioners during the petition activities and think how I can do better. So there is a day I began to read English version of Zhuan Falun. Reading English Zhuan Falun makes me really happy, which gives me new understandings of Dafa from a different perspective and also provides me with standard, accurate words to promote Dafa to the sentient beings. I know not only I need to tell people about the truth, explain the principles and mechanics of the five sets of exercises, but also I need to use clear and accurate words with responsible attitude to help those good people get to know the beauty and magic of Dafa, instead only recognizing us as a group of people who have been suffering persecution. My next goal is to learn off The Great Way of Spiritual Perfection in English, using the simple but standard expressions to teach the exercises meanwhile building up the ability to answer simple questions about the practice. At present, I sometimes go to Gosford park to teach people the exercises during weekends. I also teach some friends of mine at home. Some of them practice other qigong, but after learning the first two exercises they felt a strong energy field and wanted to practice more.
By writing this sharing article, I have sensed more beauty of Dafa cultivation. I am deeply grateful in cultivating in Master’s benevolence and glory. Master said that “Strive forward with every effort until Consummation.” (Essentials for further advancement • Enlightment). I will be more diligent in cultivation, abandoning attachments to assimilate the Fa to be a good person first, then becoming better and better in the future.
Please correct me if there is anything inappropriate.
Thank you Master. Thank you everyone.
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