修去消极情绪 圆容整体环境 Eliminate negative thoughts and cooperate with the local cultivation group|
修去消极情绪 圆容整体环境 Eliminate negative thoughts and cooperate with the local cultivation group
AM10: Kathleen Lee – Canberra
Greetings fellow practitioners!
I migrated from Mainland China to Australia in 2009. In 2014 New York Fa conference, a practitioner asked a question related to the notice issued by Dafa Association that practitioners leaving China after 2005 are not allowed to help out with Shen Yun events backstage or with food service. I also have had similar issues and want to share my experience here.
Once I settled down in Australia, I applied for the American visa in 2011 to attend New York Fa conference with my daughter, as I was looking forward to meeting Master in person after 10 years of life under the pressure due to persecution. I also planned to take my daughter to visit the Shen Yun training center in New York. We all have seen that some practitioners, as parents, are keen to send kids to Shen Yun if their kids can be trained to dance or play musical instruments professionally. I was one of them. My daughter likes music since she was little. Similar to other young Dafa disciples, she has been affected more by the ordinary world when she grows up. I hoped that visiting Shen Yun training center could let her have a picture of what kind of environment she could be in, if one day she could join Shen Yun. When I was waiting for the New York trip with hope and excitement, the coordinator of Canberra called me that my daughter and I were not allowed to visit Shen Yun training center as we left Mainland China in 2009. Instantly, I was controlled by bad emotion, as I knew someone leaving China later than me, had visited Shen Yun training center. Rather than looking inside to find the reason of upset for preventing from visiting Shen Yun training center.
After the visiting issue, I heard that practitioners like me cannot join several other projects. I thought that I was not attached to it, but when I was doing things I found that I was slack with all kinds of reasons. Such as “Normally people do not think about how to handle the problem unless they are given the responsibility.”, “Oops, do not move forward please, others may think you want to be a coordinator. Why cause trouble? ”, or “let him enlighten by himself, as I am not the coordinator. Duty of care, anyway I already pointed it out to him. ”. Now I shall admit that I have used “leaving China after 2005 could not join in some projects” as an excuse to be negative and slack.
I visited Perth in early June. When I had a discussion with several Perth practitioners, I noticed that one practitioner was very calm and peaceful even when others were very emotional. I saw that they cooperated with each other positively and they tried their best in Dafa project. All of this really impressed me. Master had said in <Teaching the Fa at the Conference Ⅲ> Teaching and Explaining the Fa at the Metropolitan New York Fa Conference: “Everyone's realm is different, and I'm telling you now, Master has seen that some of the disparities among students have increased. It wasn't apparent before, but now they've increased, and the more it's toward the end the bigger the disparities. So there are bound to be differences in people's understandings. The key is how to cooperate better and coordinate better with one another.” It is very true. The Perth trip was a big warning for me. I identified that I already fell far behind in cultivation.
When I looked inside, the biggest issue is that I mainly focused on my cultivation rather than being responsible for the local cultivation group. For example, when I saw some problems, Yes, I would tell the coordinators in time, even sometimes with the suggestions on how to solve the problems. However after that, I feel that I have done what I shall do, and these problems in our cultivation group seem not be related to me anymore. I had such a notion that it is the coordinator who shall take actions to solve the problems related to a group. Such an attitude was caused by selfishness. I would like to have a trouble-free life with the excuse that I was not permitted to be involved in some key Dafa projects or play the role like a coordinator. Actually this attitude was caused by having not been treated in the same way as the practitioner leaving China before 2005. Master had mentioned that being emotional is a human attachment.
Attachments behind being emotional are caring about others' comments and pursuing fame in cultivation. If I can solve the problem, why do I wait for coordinator to do it? When the coordinator is busy at other things, shall it I do it? What had held me not to do it? Concerns that no practitioners would follow my suggestions, or do not want to be misunderstood that I want to be a coordinator. 14 years ago, I had the encouragement to go to Tiananmen Square by myself to uphold Dafa. I said to myself: "I am a particle of Dafa. Today if 100 fellow practitioners would stand up to safeguard and uphold Dafa, I will be the 101st." At that moment, not only family, friends and colleagues could not understand me, even several fellow practitioners. I had thought about it, but quickly put it aside. I had been worry and hesitated for several days that I could not bear through the tortures exposed in Minghui website before I got the answer: "if I really could not go though, at least I have been here as a pebble to pave the road of upholding Dafa, then no regret at all." That morning I left home with a light mood and a peaceful mind. Very naturally, just like I left home to do a thing I wanted to do from my heart.
Actually, I had not been tortured due to that Tiananmen Square trip. The manger of the company I was working for picked me up from the policemen station before I was sent to the detention center. My home was invaded and made messy. After I cleaned up the home, I got the phone call from the manager. He said: tomorrow you can come back to work if you like. Now looking back, my xinxing seemed by chance to comply with the Fa requirements on me at that moment, so in my case, I had not gone through the trouble. Now I have cultivated anther 14 years, where is my righteous thought? Concern about this or that, trifles prevented me from doing what a practitioner should do.
Before the Perth trip, through emails, I knew that Sydney practitioners were collecting the signatures from medical professionals about stopping illegal organ harvesting. It was initiated by Doctors Against Forced Organ Harvesting (DAFOH). I mentioned it to the coordinator. The answer given was: "Yes, you can do it." "What?" I thought:" If I do not want you to organize it, why would I tell you?"
After I returned to Canberra, I did think that I should start to drop petition letters to the medical professionals in Canberra. It was only about three weeks left, if I do it by myself, only part of Canberra could be covered; if with several practitioners, nearly the whole Canberra could be covered. Why be scared to ask? The worst case would be you still have to do it by yourself. That is all. I mentioned it formally in Fa Study at Saturday night and asked the practitioners who would like to do it with me stay a little longer for a brief meeting. Two to three practitioners joined me. I was happy. On the second day, I copied the open letters and petition letters and sent to the practitioners, so we could formally start on Monday. Very soon, I received messages from other practitioners and the number of involved practitioners quickly increased from 2~3 to 6~7. My mind seemed to broaden. I thought of a western practitioner. We seldom meet with each other and at least two years we had not studied Fa together. I contacted him and got his YES reply very soon. It really encouraged me: See, all practitioners would like to do more for clarifying the truth.
In the process of visiting the Pharmacy or hospital to collect the signatures, the return ratio was not high. When I was sharing with a practitioner, I felt the difficulty and disappointment. Then I started to write emails and send messages to encourage fellow practitioners: "Low return ratio shows that we have not done enough on clarifying the truth. Now we start and it will help to remove the negative things accumulated in the past. Furthermore what we have done will be the foundation for the future."
Three weeks passed very quickly. The practitioners involved tried their best and the result was not too bad. In a ward area in Canberra hospital, I went there two times to pick up the petition letters dropped last week. The receptionist told me: “Susan is not in today, but she has not given me the signed petition letter yet.” I answered without thinking: “Tomorrow I will come again.” So the receptionist showed me where Susan’s office is. On the second day, I met Susan in her office. Susan is a social worker coordinator. She told me that she scanned the letters and emailed to all social workers. She encouraged me when I told her that the signed letters are less than I expected. She said that most of people in the hospital are very busy and it takes time for them to digest it. What you have done is absolutely right, keep doing it and letting people get this information from different ways. I was happy and inspired by her attitude.
The much better thing is, after that, three Canberra practitioners formed a team to collect signatures condemning the Chinese communist regime's crimes against humanity. I felt that I had underestimated the righteous thoughts of my fellow practitioners. I made an English petition poster to support them. As for myself, after finishing the DAFOH signature campaign, I set back to my original cultivation state even without noticing it until I started to write this experience sharing.
Master has addressed many times on the cooperation between fellow practitioners. In Fa-Lecture During the 2003 Lantern Festival at the U.S. West Fa Conference, Master Said: “How are we to... it's just like what the student who submitted the question slip brought up, how are we to do a good job cooperating and coordinating with each other--that's what Fa-rectification needs the most from Dafa disciples. We don't dwell on surface forms. As long as you've studied the Fa well you will be able to do that. You know, in the old days before a group practice everybody would be talking and doing all kinds of things, and it would look really disorderly. But as soon as the music started--"Whoosh!" everybody stood together and gathered into a formation more orderly than a group of soldiers. There wasn't anybody drilling you and there wasn't anybody telling you what to do. Instead, it came from inside yourselves. That's cooperation and coordination, and that's the harmony of Dafa disciples. You shouldn't just display it in these certain things, you should display that kind of cooperation in all areas of Fa-rectification.”
Being attached to having not been treated in the same way as the practitioners leaving China before 2005, is to protect my feeling in a negative and narrow way. It exposed my notions shaped and formed in the wicked Party culture, such as everyone is same and shall be treated in the same way. Actually how can it be same? The origin of life is different, the predetermined relationship along the history is different, the vow promised before is different, the fundamental attachment is different and the diligence in cultivation is different. The things we meet in daily life are for us to identify our attachments and get rid of them. In Further Understanding of ESSENTIALS FOR FURTHER ADVANCEMENT “Do you realize that as long as you’re a cultivator, in any environment or under any circumstances, I will use any troubles or unpleasant things you come across—even if they involve work for Dafa, or no matter how good or sacred you think they are—to eliminate your attachments and expose your demon-nature so that it can be eliminated, for your improvement is what’s most important.”
The lesson I learned is to correct the mindset, as the ways you are used to might not be right. Master hoped practitioners would like to cooperate from their heart even when they have not been told to do it. My cultivation status is still far away from that. Writing experience sharing is a process to face the attachments directly. When I broke through the barriers to write down my thoughts, I clearly felt the strengthening from Master. Obtaining the Fa in the Dharma-Ending Period is the luckiest thing. I do have no reason to be negative. We came here as we vowed to do it. How to cooperate with coordinator and fellow practitioners to clarify the truth and to save more sentient being is the way to fulfill one’s vows. Eliminate the negative thoughts is to give up the attachment and to be diligent.
Thanks you Master for saving me with mercy, thank you fellow practitioners for your tolerance and kind help.
Thank you Master!
Thank you fellow practitioners!
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