在参与新唐人工作中修炼提高、助师正法 (Chinese and English)
Precious Opportunity, Unprecedented Honour
- Cultivating and Helping Master in Fa-rectification in NTDTV Work
1. Surpassing My Ego
NTDTV Australia started to set up a new structure after we listened to
Master’s Fa lecture to Australian Falun Dafa Practitioners in New York
in August 2007. The previous news coordinator needed to undertake the
role as the vice general manager. In order to show support for her, I
reluctantly agreed to take her responsibility as the news coordinator.
I had never coordinated anything before that. At the first meeting
after I became the news coordinator, I told the fellow practitioners in
the TV team, “I have been very afraid of asking help from others.
Please do try to understand this and support my work. I will have to
resign from my position if at any stage asking for help from you has
become too difficult a task for me.”
Having said that, I still managed to get another practitioner to do
this “asking for help” thing for me. Whenever we needed to cover an
event, this practitioner was to arrange a reporter, a camera person and
a video editor; whilst I only looked after other non-man-power issues.
In other words, I had been doing NTDTV work without letting go of my
attachment to this fear of “asking for help from others.”
Last year NTDTV went through a reshuffle. The news department was
divided into two sub-departments, “news story department” and
“editorial department”. Another practitioner was appointed as the
coordinator for the editorial department. Since then she and I
encountered huge differences of opinion about how to coordinate the
staff and how the two sub-departments should be working together. In
the end, the conflicts and clashes became so furious that I was no
longer able to take it. So I asked to resign.
After receiving my resignation letter, the general manager called and
shared with me. She did not say much, only politely pointing out to me
that in all these years since she knew me, she felt that although I
could be counted on as being diligent, I wasn’t able to break away from
my ego. No matter what I did, there was always some sort of ego carried
around. She said that if I could make a break through regarding this, I
would be making a great step forward on my cultivation path.
Although her words were polite and soft, they sounded like a tremendous
thunder to me and felt so soul stirring to me. I suddenly realized
that, without knowing it, I had already wrapped myself within a very
thick layer of ego.
I remembered that shortly after the persecution happened in China, when
I realized for the first time that I should step forward to safeguard
Dafa instead of hiding at home to so-called “cultivate myself”, I had
experienced how it felt like after “letting go of oneself and melting
into the Fa”. At that moment I experienced the unspeakable
wonderfulness expressed in Master’s poem “After the Catastrophe”:
“The heavens clear,
the cosmic body transparent,
the universe rectified,
With the ultimate catastrophe now past,
lucent is the whole Cosmos.”
realized that if I could let go of my ego; if I could melt myself into
the Fa of the cosmos, who could the evil persecute? If “I” did not
exist anymore, how could the evil persecute me? That was a wonderful
feeling of true freedom and fearless integrity.
However, after coming to Australia and participating in different Dafa
projects without my realizing it, I had been choosing things that I
liked to do or was good at. Gradually, I became more or less a loner.
Sometimes when I saw other practitioners’ attachments of wanting to
become project coordinators, I felt quite proud of myself because I
thought I did not have such an attachment. I seldom volunteered to do
the background or behind-the-scenes work. Many times, practitioners
would set the stage for a project, and then I’d make a grand entrance
and grab the limelight. Everyone looked to me. I was always the one
talked about in the reports and I was always in the photos… so it was
all about “me”, “me” and “me”.
Why am I unwilling to take on the role of a coordinator? It’s because I
thought I had special abilities in some regards, so I should use those
abilities well. But I thought being a coordinator did not require
special abilities and there was too much communication required. To put
it simply, it was again my attachments of selfishness and
self-centredness reappearing. They were such strong attachments! Why
couldn’t I let go of my attachment to my “special abilities” and
harmonise with others, and create more opportunities for others in the
NTDTV project? Why did I chicken out again and not seek to break
through in cultivation? After I had those realisations, I had a dream
that night. I dreamt that I climbed up a very steep hill. Upon waking
up, I understood it was the encouragement from Teacher.
Learning to look inward and letting go
gave up the idea of resigning and was determined to make a breakthrough
in this test. I also wanted to avoid conflict with another coordinator.
However, because I did not elevate in my Xinxing enough, conflicts were
bound to surface. As I looked outward, I thought more and more about
how I was correct, and I was becoming more and more emotional; I felt
more and more that I must have been wronged. Eventually, I lost my
temper one day and dumped all my resentments and unhappiness on a
fellow practitioner who had come to discuss a project with me. He
quickly ran away from me. I then grabbed another practitioner, and
complained about all the unfairness I had suffered.
next morning, I realised I was so out of control the day before. How
did this happen? Which of my attachments was causing this? As I looked
inward, I immediately found it. It was my resentments towards the
practitioner who had different opinions from me. This was obviously
wrong and I must let go of it.
I had the righteous attitude, I immediately felt very calm. And when I
thought of the practitioner again, I did not feel any resentment or
negativity. Master have asked us to “look inward”, so why did I only
look at her and her attachments\? Perhaps I was right, but it was
because I pointed out her mistakes that her attachments were touched,
and as a consequence, she refused to cooperate with me. Shouldn’t I be
thinking about why I was being unkind, not considering others’ feelings
and situation, and not cultivating my speech? How many people have I
hurt through my speech in the past few years?
further inward, I realised that I may not be absolutely right. Perhaps
there were some good points in the other practitioners’ suggestions.
Master has said adopting which-ever idea is not as important as
practitioners trusting each other and cooperating well. In the past few
years, Australian practitioners have been insisting on their own ideas
and therefore wasting valuable time and causing damages to different
Fa-rectification projects. It’s about time we all learn our lessons. So
why should I insist on my own ideas, rather than step back and accept
others’ ideas? Why can’t I trust other practitioners’ explanations
instead of interpreting her positive efforts in explaining things as
her not wanting to give up her attachments? Why can’t I step back in
the face of conflicts?
“Teaching the Fa at the 2002 Fa Conference in Philadelphia, USA” Master
said: “When another God proposes an idea, they aren't eager to reject
it, and they aren't eager to express their own ideas and they don't
believe that their own ideas are good. Instead, they look at what the
end result of the other God's proposed approach will be. The paths are
different--everyone's path is different--and the truths that beings
validate and enlighten to in the Fa are different, too, but the results
might very well be the same. That's why they look at the results, and
if the result of a God's idea can achieve the goal, if it can truly
achieve it, then all of them will go along with it. That's how Gods
think. Also, if there's something lacking in it they'll unconditionally
and quietly supplement it to make things more complete and perfect.
That's how they handle things.”
I realised again: It does not matter how right I think I am at any
time, I cannot stubbornly hold on to my own ideas. This is because it’s
likely you may find you’re not absolutely right the next day. So, why
hold on to your own ideas?
I gave up my own ideas completely, I did not get so attached to my
notions of how the news department should be run. I accepted other
practitioners’ suggestions and tried my best to harmonise the whole
body with the best of my abilities. Master has said in “Teaching the Fa
at the 2002 Fa Conference in Philadelphia, USA”: “True improvements
come from letting go”, and in Zhuan Falun: “One’s gong level is as high
as one’s xinxing level, and this is an absolute truth.” I quickly
discovered, after I had learned to look inward and let go, not only was
the work of the news department not affected; to our delight, it
the practitioner who had refused to work with me earlier on started to
contact me. We talked about how to better improve our work. After I
have finished writing this sharing, I sent a copy to her and asked for
her opinion. Not only didn’t she hold any negative opinions about me,
on the contrary, she opened herself up to me, and told me that she
didn’t want to work with me because I was too aggressive in my speech.
And she was afraid of such an approach. After our positive sharing, the
conflicts between us dissolved.
this process, I can see that the issue is not how others have treated
me, but the problems lie with myself. “The environment changes
according to your mindset”. When I have too much negativity in my
thinking or the way I do things, people will be pushed away. Whereas,
if I am not attached to my own ideas and am able to listen to others’
opinions calmly, I can then understand others and their feelings.
Consequently the situation will improve.
course, to do the job better also relies on the quiet contribution of
many practitioners and the elevation of the group as a whole. It’s not
just about one person. Sometimes, a news piece of just over one minute
takes more than ten hours to complete. I understand if I as the
coordinator did not improve my xinxing and understanding, the news
department’s tasks will be affected.
Clarifying the Truth at all times and at Will
for NTD TV is also clarifying the facts. Being a journalist, however,
also brings about many opportunities for clarifying the facts. When we
are sincere about it, there will also be opportunities for us.
example, during the 2007 APEC meetings held in Sydney, the then-
Australian Foreign Minister held a first press conference. On my way
there, I thought to myself that I must grab the opportunity and ask a
question about the forced organ harvesting of Falun Gong practitioners
was a big venue and there were several hundred journalists
participating from all over the world. I quickly settled down in the
first row, so that I would have better chance of asking the question.
the Minister finished his speech and announced that questions could be
asked. Almost all the journalists there raised their hands all at once.
The staffer who stood in the centre of the venue and not too far away
from me did not know what to do and who to give the microphone to. As
she hesitated, I said to her in my heart: “Please pass the microphone
to me.” Subsequesntly, she walked to the front, walked past several
journalists next to me and handed the microphone to me. So I stood up
and asked: “Last year, former Canadian MP and co-author of
“Investigation into Allegation of Forced Organ Harvesting of Falun Gong
Practitioners in China”David Kigour visited Australia. The Australian
Government promised to conduct an investigation into the issue. This
year, Mr Kilgour is again in Australia to call on the world leaders
attending the APEC to pay attention to the issue. Can I ask what the
Australian Government has done in the past year?”
在她犹豫不决的时候，我很自然的在心里对她 说：“你把话筒给 我。”结果她真的
then-Australian Foreign Minister was sued by Falun Gong practitioners
for issuing certificates preventing them from demonstrating outside the
Chinese Embassy in Canberra. It’s not hard to imagine that he must have
been quite shocked by the question. As a result, for the press
conference next day, journalists were asked to submit their questions
beforehand in writing. This caused a lot of complaints among the
journalists. Nevertheless, those journalists, several hundreds in
number, had all heard my question in the first day; they would have all
heard of the Kilgour-Matas report. So perhaps some of them might have
looked up the report or reported on the issue.
another occasion, The Australian Foreign Journalists Association
invited the leader of the opposition to give a speech. I also applied
to attend the event. The secretary of the Association was quite serious
about her work and he sent to everyone a detailed list of the
participating journalists’ names, organisations, countries and the
seating arrangements. Because she knew I represented a Chinese language
TV station, she put “China” behind my name.
wrote back to her immediately and asked her to change the country
behind my name to “USA” or “Australia”; I explained to her the
independent nature of NTD TV, and how the Chinese Communist regime was
afraid of NTD TV exposing its true nature, and the regime’s efforts in
suppressing the TV station.
the following day at the lunch function, perhaps as a gesture of
apologising for her mistake, she let me asked the first question.
Before asking the question, I again emphasized that NTD TV’s
headquarter was in New York, it’s an independent TV station and not
belonging to the Chinese regime. This made all the participating
journalists (about 100 of them) and the leader of the opposition smile
in a friendly way, as if they all understood the meaning behind my
are rules to follow as a journalist and we cannot step over the line.
However, our work allows us to reach everyday people at different
social levels. If we have the heart to do so, there will always be
opportunities for us to clarify the truth. There are different ways to
clarify the truth, and our wisdom bestowed by Dafa will allow us to do
so appropriately and at will.
Precious Opportunity, Unprecedented Honour
few years ago, when I noticed Master mentioning NTDTV, The Epoch Times
and the Sound of Hope in his teaching, I was shaken and felt really
honoured. I thought to myself: those media established by Dafa
disciples were mentioned in the Fa. This might have meant that they
will exist forever with the Fa and will be remembered in the history of
the universe. To be able to participate in the media valued by Master
is such an honour and blessing.
like to thank our venerable Master for rectifying the universe and
sentient beings at the last havoc. Thank you, Master, for helping the
Fa-Rectification Period Dafa Disciples establish their future and
mighty virtues. In order to do this, Master gave his all. We can only
do better and better, so as not to disappoint Master, for this
opportunity only comes once since the creation of the Cosmos.
you, Master. Thank you, fellow practitioners.