助师正法中的难忘历程和教训

Memorable Experiences and Lessons on My Path of Assisting Master in Fa-Rectification

L Yang

 

尊敬的师父好!各位同修好!

Greetings Master! Greetings Fellow Practitioners

正法的進程突飛猛進,已經過去了21個年頭。在這21年里,自己一直处于修上來和掉下去的状态,一直在讓師尊費心。在修煉的道路上,一點一滴中体会著師尊的慈悲與偉大,内心是無語言表的敬意與感激。謝謝師尊的苦度!作為年青大法弟子,希望同修以我修煉過程中的不足為前車之鑑,放下人心,勇猛精進。

The process of Fa-rectification is forging ahead rapidly and 21 years have passed. In those 21 years, there has always been an issue of cultivating upwards or dropping down for me, and I have worried and troubled Master a lot. On my cultivation path, I have been bathed in Master’s great compassion. I have no words to express my deepest gratitude and respect. Thank you, Master, for your compassionate and painstaking salvation! I hope all young practitioners like me can learn from my mistakes, get rid of all human attachments and strive ahead vigorously.

1998年,我和母親得法。通過修煉,母親的疾病消失了,也漸漸明白了大法的內涵。爲了不落下我,母親開始教我背《洪吟》。那時我剛剛8歲,不明白什麽是修煉,由於玩心很重,並沒有體會到其內涵。在一次突如其來的腹部疼痛中,我哭著跪求師父幫助。暮然間,疼痛感消失了,就像什麽都沒有發生過一樣。驚訝中我跪在師尊法像前郑重的說:“老師,我決定炼功了!”

In 1998, my mother and I obtained the Fa. Through cultivation, my mother gained health and gradually came to understand the inner meaning of Dafa. To make sure I wouldn’t be left behind, she started to teach me to recite Hong Yin. I was only 8 back then and didn’t know what cultivation was. Due to my strong attachment to play, I couldn’t understand its inner meaning either. However, once, a sudden and severe bellyache struck me down and I pled for Master’s help, kneeling and crying. All of a sudden, the pain disappeared as if nothing had happened. Surprised, I knelt down in front of Master’s portrait and said seriously: “Teacher, I have decided to practise!”

師尊在《轉法輪》第三講中說到:“它千方百計的阻撓你,不讓你修煉,所以採取各種方法干擾你,甚至於真會來殺你。”師尊慈悲的呵護,讓我在夢境中度過了劫難。一次,睡夢中突然間出現了兩個“小鬼”,拿著刀追殺要我的命。我一躍從2樓跳下,頭也不回的一直往前奔。眼看就要被那“小鬼”追上了。就在一拐角處,突然出現了一個大佛,披著黃衣,坐在一個法輪上。我停下腳步,呆呆的看著大佛。大佛單手一揮,兩個小鬼瞬間收入旋轉的法輪中。我連忙感激的跪下,大佛將我扶了起來,沖著我笑呵呵的。夢一下子就醒了。在此之後的第二年,也同樣在一個夢境中,我被人用斧頭在後背砍殺,當即從夢中醒來,後背隱隱有痛感。我知道,我欠下的債還清了。內心中感激著師尊的慈悲呵護。

Master said in Lecture Six in Zhuan Falun: “They will not let it happen, and they will try everything to stop you from practising cultivation. Accordingly, all kinds of methods will be used to interfere with you. They will even come to really kill you.” Under Master’s merciful protection, I passed a big tribulation in a dream. Two ghosts holding knives appeared in my dream and wanted to kill me. I jumped off from the second level of a building and kept running without turning my head. When I was about to be caught by the ghosts, a magnificent Buddha appeared on the corner, wearing a yellow kasaya and sitting on a law wheel. I stopped and stared at the Buddha. He waved his hand and immediately the two ghosts were sucked into the turning law wheel. I knelt down with gratitude right away and was held up by the smiling Buddha. Then I woke up suddenly. The following year, in a similar dream, I was chased and attacked by people with axes. And when I woke up, I could feel a dull pain on my back. I knew I had paid back my karmic debts. Master tenderly cared and protected me. My gratitude is beyond words.

1999年,邪惡鎮壓。兒時的自己,本性純淨,所以正念很強。爲了維護大法,我和母親兩個人連夜來到了北京,并住到了一位同修的家裡。在那裡,擠滿了來自全國各地的40多名大法弟子。那晚幾十個大法弟子擠在一個屋簷下睡覺。因為沒有足夠的食物,叔叔阿姨都把自己的食物節約下來分給我。他們對我開玩笑:“如果警察把你抓起來了,搶你的大法書,你怎麼做?”我嚴肅道:“死也不給他,他們打死我好了。”屋子裡的人都哈哈大笑起來。那一刻,所有的大法弟子的心中都很堅定,看透了生死,为了維護大法,心中沒有畏懼。在公安局的院內關著幾百名大法弟子,填表后所有人被排隊問話。警察問我什麽,我都義正言辭的回答。他們開始嘲笑我裝模作樣,捉弄我。師尊慈悲呵護,我和母親沒有受到嚴重的迫害,被連夜送回了當地派出所進行關押。那時,感覺空氣中沉悶不已,各處都是黑暗的,壓得我喘不過氣來。家庭和學校中的全力反對造成我不斷的轉校。師尊爲了鼓励我堅定修煉,在一次打坐中,師尊讓我看到了從下世到現在的所有轮回轉生。我一邊打坐,一邊流淚。深感師尊的偉大與艱辛。

In 1999, the persecution started. Back then, I still kept my pure nature so my thoughts were very righteous. To defend Dafa, my mother and I hurried to Beijing overnight and settled down in a co-practitioner’s home. That place was filled with over 40 practitioners from all parts of the country. That night, all the practitioners slept under the same roof. Because we didn’t have enough food, the adult practitioners saved their food for me. They asked me: “What will you do if the policemen arrest you and try to take away your Dafa book?” I replied seriously: “I would rather die than give my book away. They can beat me to death, but I won’t give it up.” All the practitioners in the room laughed. At that moment, all of us were determined to safeguard Dafa and let go of the attachment of life and death. We didn’t have fear inside. The next day, hundreds of practitioners were locked in the yard of a police station. All of us were required to fill up a form and line up to be interrogated. Whatever they asked, I replied in a righteous and dignified manner. The policemen started to mock and tease me as being pretentious. Thanks to Master’s merciful care, my mother and I didn’t suffer from severe persecution. We were sent back overnight to our local police station to be put in detention. During that period, the air was depressing and it was dark everywhere. I felt like I was suffocating. The pressure from my family and school forced me to transfer from one school to another constantly. To encourage me, one time during meditation, Master showed me all my lifetimes of reincarnation from the moment I descended upon Earth till now. My tears streamed down and I felt Master’s enormous grace and the hardships he has borne.

小時候不懂修煉,只知道師父說什麼就要做什麽。由於當時的我還保持著純淨,所以正法的每一個環節都沒有落下。《轉法輪》第二講中說“修在自己,功在師父”。從發正念,到訴江案,到講真相發資料,再到師尊的每一次講法,我都目睹了那神聖莊嚴與洪大。每當迷戀在那裡,總會有外界力量把我叫回來。那時的邪惡很多,猶如波濤一般,敲鑼打鼓的從四面八方湧來。當正念很強時,師尊就會加持。每一次見到師尊,心中都有說不出的喜悅。穿越一層又一層,每一層中都有無量的眾生。他們注視着,也在翹首期盼。舊勢力會從深處開始干他們要的。一層又一層。每一層中,如果大法弟子沒有正念,那一層的生命就歸了舊勢力,從而影響了下一層。有時發正念經常會很久,腿開始隱隱作痛,不時的從定中出來。我開始讓5個副元神作為護法,圍成一個圈子,瞬間能量更加強大。“堅修大法心不動”(《見真性》)邪惡幻化假師父開始干擾我,我不動搖,并大聲說:“我是李洪志老師的弟子!”法輪天地旋轉,將邪惡打回原形急速收入,滅盡了。師尊慈悲呵護,每一次學法煉功都在身邊照看著我,那種祥和與慈悲,讓我每每想到就會流淚滿面。

I didn’t know much about cultivation when I was a child and just did whatever Master required. Because I was pure then, I didn’t miss out on one single event. Master said: “Cultivation is up to you, gong is up to the Master.” (Zhuan Falun). From sending forth righteous thoughts, the lawsuit against Jiang Zemin, distributing truth-clarifying materials, to all Master’s Fa-teachings, I witnessed the holiness, grandness and sacredness in the other dimensions. Whenever I was fascinated by some scene, I would be woken up by external elements to remind me to come back. At that time, the evil beings flooded in from all directions like sea waves. When my righteous thoughts were strong enough, Master would support me. My joy was beyond words every time I saw Master. Travelling from layer to layer, I saw countless sentient beings on every level. They eagerly waited to be saved. The old forces did what they planned from level to level and started from a deep dimension. On every level, if the practitioners were not righteous enough, the beings there would be controlled by the old forces, which would affect the next level. Sometimes, I would send righteous thoughts for a long time and would be woken from meditation due to the pain in my legs. So I asked my 5 subordinate souls to sit in a circle as my Fa guardians and suddenly the power was strengthened. The evil beings transformed into the figure of Master to interfere with me, but I wasn’t influenced by them and said loudly: “I am a disciple of Li Honzhi!” The law wheel rotated in Heaven and Earth, turned the evil back to their original forms, sucked them in and disintegrated them completely. Every time I studied the Fa or did the exercises, Master would stay beside me and looked after me. Tears streamed down whenever I thought about Master’s great benevolence.

爲了救度众生,我和母親夜間出去發放真相資料。母親在電線杆上貼真相貼紙,我就在一邊發正念。有時就會看到警車路過。師尊慈悲呵護,我和母親平安的在城市和農村之間散发真相资料。有幾次我和母親分路而行。天黑路窄,耳邊不時的伴有很微妙的聲音。我害怕極了,不敢前行。於是我一邊又一邊的念正法口訣,提醒自己要做下去。每當這時,都會感受到師尊在背後照看著自己。有一次在檢察院門口持續的發正念,天氣突然陰沉,下起雨來。我正念求師尊加持,并開始與另外空間生命進行溝通。瞬間雨停了。一直等到我和母親安全到家,雨才重新下起來。師尊在《二零一零年紐約法會講法》中說:“正念一強真的跟神一樣力可劈山,一念就劈山”。在沐浴著師尊的慈悲中,每一次奇跡的出現,都讓我更加堅信大法。

In order to save sentient beings, my mother and I went out at night to distribute Truth-clarification materials. When my mother put up truth-clarifying materials on poles, I sent righteous thoughts at her side. Sometimes a police car passed by, but we were safeguarded by compassionate Master. My mother and I clarified the truth between the city and the countryside without stopping. Several times we had to separate from each other and take different paths. It was very dark and the path was narrow. I could always hear some special noise. I was too scared to walk forward. Then I kept on reciting the Fa Rectification verses, reminding myself that I had to do it. Every time on such occasions, I felt that Master’s Fashen following me and looking after me. Once, when we sent righteous thoughts intensively in front of the building entrance of the Procuratorate, suddenly the sky became dark and it started raining. I asked Master for help and started to communicate with the beings from another dimension. Immediately, the rain stopped and only started again after my mother and I arrived home safely. Master says in Fa Teaching Given at the 2010 New York Fa Conference: “For once the righteous thoughts are strong, you will truly have the god-like might to split a mountain in half – split it with but one thought.” Every time the miracle happened, I became even more steadfast in my belief in Dafa.

漸漸的在大陸的學校中受到污染。不知從何時開始,心中脫離了大法。雖然年齡還不是很大,但是已經學會了虛榮,攀比,嫉妒,面子,拉關係,追求名利情等等這些東西。母親叫我和她一起學法,心裡開始排斥,甚至和她爭吵。黑灰色的物質開始一層又一層的包裹了我,不再能看到我的真體。實際上,就是從一名大法弟子墮落到了常人。由於長時間不煉功,腿也不能雙盤,經常被邪惡干擾而出現病業現象。執著在常人心的驅使下越來越強。終於有一天,師尊嚴肅的對我說:“你已經不是原來的劉楊了。”但是我沒有醒悟,還是執著于常人的一切。那時的天也是昏暗的,甚至做什麽事情都不順著自己的意願。因為自己脫離了大法,走入了舊勢力安排的道路中。內心深處不斷警示著自己是一名大法弟子,卻總有一股力量牽引著我遠離大法。又一次來到北京,站在天安門廣場,心中卻有了極度的怕心。回想起了反迫害开始那一年,只感到自己慚愧無顏。我心中仍沒有正念。神把我推到了風口浪尖上,我卻不敢再做一個證實大法的修煉者。

Gradually, I was contaminated by society in school. I don’t know when it started, but my heart gradually detached from Dafa. Although I was still quite young, I had developed many bad habits, such as self-importance, jealousy, reputation, comparing with others, trying to curry favour with others, attachments to fame, profit and emotion, etc. My mother asked me to study the Fa together with her, but I started to reject this and even quarrelled with her. The black material started to build up on my body layer by layer; finally, I could no longer see my true body. In fact, I had fallen to an everyday person’s level from being a Dafa Disciple. I stopped practising and could not double cross my legs. As a result, I was often interfered with by the evil to contract diseases. My attachments got stronger, driven by human notions. Finally, one day Master said to me seriously: “You are no longer the original Liu Yang.” But I still did not wake up; I was still attached to human being’s interests. I had fallen according to the arrangements of the evil forces. Although deep in my heart a voice reminded me that I was a Dafa Disciple, there was always a force that drove me apart from Dafa. When I went to Beijing again, standing on Tiananmen Square I was extremely afraid. Without righteous thoughts, I failed to be a cultivator who could validate Dafa.

師尊慈悲,沒有放棄我。那一次母親說得到了一個光碟,是師尊《對澳洲學員講法》的錄像。當師父的身影再一次出現在眼前時,我終於忍不住了淚水。師尊在怎樣的承受著這一切!我感到了自己的不爭氣,因為有我這樣的弟子,師尊才會一拖再拖。我幡然醒悟了。由於自己的差錯,被安排到身邊等待救度的生命就此失去機會。我決定要在摔倒的地方爬起來。接下來的一次政治課上,老師突然當衆污蔑大法。一开始我的怕心又在作祟,我猶豫不決,怕被學校開除,怕被家裡人罵。我深深吸了一口氣,我要為大法辯解。咬牙站了起來,大聲的告訴老師他說錯了。教室裡頓時很安靜,所有人都很詫異的看著我的舉動。這時,我心裡也一下子平靜了,我感到了師父的加持。於是我講了法輪功的真相,講了大法在全世界的洪傳。說完後,沒有意想到,所有人居然向我鼓起了掌。我知道,這是師尊慈悲的點悟。這些生命聽到了期盼已久的真相。我也決定要回到修煉的道路上。但是學校還是把我“勸退”了。後來母親決定把我送出國,不希望我在國內繼續被污染而墮落。

Benevolent Master didn’t give up on me. One day, my mother got a DVD, the video of Master’s Fa Lecture to Australian Practitioners. When I saw Master again, I burst into tears and realised how much our Master had endured for us. I also realised I had failed to live up to His expectations. Because of students like me, Master has had to wait again and again. I woke to the truth that because of my faults, the sentient beings who were arranged to be around me had lost the chance to be saved. I decided to stand up again at where I fall down. Then soon after in one of our political classes, the teacher suddenly defamed Dafa. I hesitated to stand up in the beginning due to the attachments of fear, afraid of being dismissed by my school and being scolded by others. Then I took a deep breath and stood up while gritting my teeth. I spoke very loudly to tell the teacher that he was wrong. The classroom became quiet immediately, while everyone stared to me surprised. I felt calm at that moment and also felt Master’s help. I talked about the truth of Falun Gong, as well as that Falun Dafa had spread to over 100 countries. When I finished, everyone applauded me. I understood that this was a hint from Master, as these beings had got to know the truth, which they had been waiting for, for a long time. I made up my mind to return to the path of cultivation. My school dismissed me and then my mother decided to send me overseas with hope that I would not be contaminated as badly as in Mainland China.

來到海外,當我在邁進真善忍畫展門口的那一刻,當我看到師尊無比洪大的畫像的那一刻,我已經泣不成聲。像一個離家多年的孩子一樣,那種心情無以言表。現在與曾經不同,我在修煉中的認識更加清晰了。在海外,沒有了中共邪黨的束縛,所以在學校的每一次演講中我都講述著大法的美好和神韻晚會。一位已經明白了真相老師,非常支持我,竟然帶頭為學生講起了中共的邪惡。“修在自己,功在師父”(《轉法輪》),我知道這一切都是因為自己有了願望,師尊才會慈悲的加持我。

I came to Australia. When I walked into the room where the Truth-Compassion-Forbearance International Art Exhibition was being held, when I saw Master’s portrait which looked extremely loud, I broke down in tears, just like a child who had been away from home for many years. Now, I have a very clear mind about cultivation practice. I will speak about how wonderful Dafa is and how beautiful Shen Yun Performing Arts is. One supportive teacher who had known the truth talked to his students about the evil nature of the CCP on his own initiative. “Cultivation depends on one’s own efforts, while the transformation of gong is done by one’s master.” (Zhuan Falun) I understood that all of these things happened because I had the wish and Master benevolently helped me.

 

 

在加入新唐人項目后,顯示心便開始加強,几乎不易察覺。節目做得好和不好都會產生人心。實際上,就是沒有認清 “助師正法”的意義。師尊在《什麽叫助師正法》中說道:“怎麼能叫師父助你呢?怎麼能在正法中用大法圓容你人的想法呢?” 我忽然發現,自己和曾經的我不同,曾經的我沒有那麼多人的後天觀念和執著心,從而很單純的聽師父的話。而现在“聽師父話”這麼簡單的修煉,卻做不到。其中包含了多少常人心,以致被邪惡干擾,造成一時糊塗,過不去關。師尊在《轉法輪》中說“從分子、原子、電子、質子、夸克一直到中微子,再往下有多大?到了那一步顯微鏡已經看不見了,再往下極小的微粒是甚麼?不知道了。”常人是看不到一層法理的,迷在自己的這一層次之中。如此,身邊的每一件事情都不是那麼偶然的,眼睛一過一看中,都是這一層法理在人中的體現。當我在正念鬆懈的時候,人這一層的物質自然就會跑到自己身上來,因為符合了這一層的物質状态。而我認為的那些湧上來的慾望和很多常人的思想來源,都是錯以為自己想出來的,從而沒有坚决否定这一切。每當悟到些法理之後,眼中總會有些淚水。因為自己的怕吃苦的心,在摒棄很多執著心的過程中,總是要迫使自己做到修煉中的精進。“修在自己,功在師父”,師尊知道我的努力,把一些物質悄然拿下去了。當我發覺時,已經在不知不覺中提高了。沐浴著師尊的慈悲,我深深的為自己平時做的差漏而感到羞愧。

After I joined the NTD team, the attachment of showing off was reinforced and was quite hard to detect. For example, whether or not the program had been done well, my human notions would be generated. It was actually due to a lack of understanding what “Helping Master to Rectify the Fa” is. Master said in “What Does it Mean to ‘Help Master Rectify the Fa’?”: “This alone is what you should be doing, yet you want instead for Master to help you? How could you use Dafa during the Fa-rectification to instead help fulfill your human ideas?” I suddenly realised that I was different from what I had been in the past, when I didn’t have so many human notions and attachments; as a result, then I listened to Master with a pure heart. But now, I could hardly meet the requirement to “follow Master’s teachings”. When my righteous thoughts were not strong enough, substances in the level of human beings would enter into my body, because I was at the same level. In the meantime, I wrongly thought that all of these human desires and thoughts originated from my own self. As a result, I failed to deny them. Once I realised this, I always had tears in my eyes because I found that I had upgraded without awareness. Master had removed some of the bad parts from my body, as I had the heart to improve. Surrounded by Master’s benevolence, I felt deep regret for what I had not done very well in everyday life.

師尊通過夢境不斷點悟我應該多救人,抓緊時間。一次,整個世界的地面垂直了過來,這時海浪幾百米高,向這邊奔湧而來。大水掠過之處,人們都被淹沒,高樓房屋被衝垮。大水來到我面前把我孤立了起來。不斷有人伸出手臂讓我救他。整個世界充滿歇斯底裡的哭叫聲,一片慘不忍睹的景象。我驚呆了,面對著無數被淘汰的人們,身體無法動彈。我大聲哀呼,心如刀絞。我哭醒了,這邊的自己也淚如雨下。

Master gave me hints through dreams to let me realise that we should save more sentient beings as soon as possible. I remember in one of the dreams, the Earth of whole world became vertical, and the height of the waves reached more than several hundred metres. After the flood passed, people were submerged, big and high buildings were shattered. But only I was isolated, while people constantly raised their hands asking for me to save them. The whole world was full of hysterical cries and screeches; it was really too horrible to look at. I was shocked, but I couldn’t move a bit facing the countless people being eliminated. I was crying aloud with a painful heart. I woke up and was still crying.

2013年,在一個特殊的夢境中,世界已經清理完畢。師尊帶著大法弟子來到了一個非常美麗的空間中。弟子們圍著師尊團團而坐。師尊講了一段法,繼而走到每一個大法弟子面前,輕輕的在額頭上一點。頓時,身體沒有了束縛,非常美好,這時的思想也和宇宙溝通上了,智慧無限。大法弟子都歸位了。这时夢醒了,身體还在不由的顫動。這是唯一一次大劫難之後的夢境。時間真的不多了。如果做不好,真的沒有顔面面對師尊,也沒有顔面面對錯失機緣的生命。

In one of my special dreams this year, I saw the whole world had been cleaned up. Master led all Dafa disciples to a very beautiful dimension. Disciples were sitting around Master. Master tought the Fa for a while, then he walked to every Dafa Disciple and gently pointed once at everyone’s forehead. Immediately, I felt like my body had no boundary, very happy and glorious, and my mind could communicate with the Universe with unlimited wisdom. All Dafa disciples had returned to their original positions. I woke up with my body trembling. This was the only dream I had after the one of the great catastrophe. I think the time is really limited. If we do not do well, we will not be able to face Master, and and we will not be able to face the beings that lost the chance to be saved.

希望各位大法小弟子、年輕大法弟子能夠以我的不足作為修煉中的參考,引以為鑒,真正做好正法時期的大法弟子!希望還在常人中徘徊的大法弟子儘早醒悟,不要辜負師尊的苦度,也不要辜負宇宙的重托。希望我們在真修的道路中修好自己的一思一念,做好“三件事”,不要在最後的審判中後悔晚矣。我們修煉的路很窄,在放下執著的“苦難”中,在救度眾生的艱辛中,一切事情都是要靠我們的一顆心,一個正念—— 一個堅定的助师正法的信念,一個堅修大法不動搖的决心。“功修有路心為徑,大法無邊苦作舟。”(洪吟,《法輪大法》)

 

I sincerely hope fellow little practitioners and young practitioners can draw lessons from my faults and benefit in their own cultivation practice to become true Fa-rectification Dafa disciples. I sincerely hope the practitioners who are still wandering among everyday people awaken as soon as possible. Do not be unworthy of Master’s grace in His arduous efforts to save us. Do not fail to live up to the expectations of the universe. I sincerely hope all of us can cultivate our every thought on the path of trule cultivation and do the three things well, so we will not feel regret and feel too late until the final trial. Our cultivation paths are very narrow, and in the face of “pain and hardships” when we let go of our attachments, and in our painstaking efforts in saving sentient beings, we must do everything with our hearts and with righteous thoughts, which means we must hold a firm belief in assisting Master in Fa-rectification and saving sentient beings, an unshakable determination to solidly cultivate in Dafa. “Cultivating gong has a path, mind is the way, On the boundless sea of Dafa, hardship is your ferry”. (“Falun Dafa”, Hongyin)

 

謝謝師尊!謝謝各位同修!以上為個人所悟,不足之處,請同修慈悲指正。合十。

Thank you Master Thank you fellow practitioners! Above is just my personal understanding. Please kindly point out anything inappropriate. Heshi.

 

 

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