Rectify Deviation to
Become a Genuine Practitioner
Greetings Revered Master!
Greetings Fellow Practitioners!
For quite some time I went to the towns near Canberra
almost every weekend to collect signatures for stopping organ harvesting from
living Falun Gong practitioners in China. It was a
tiring job but I felt content inside. I knew I was fulfilling what Master
wanted. When I was about to leave
But good days didn’t last long. One day I received an
email from my ex-husband who reprimanded me for my “extreme selfishness”.
However I just dismissed it. I thought to myself: “When I was busy doing things
for my daughter, where were you?” I was suspicious of his plans for my daughter
in the email. When I came home, I found my daughter was not emotionally stable.
It seemed things were much worse than I expected. What had gone wrong? Was I
selfish? In order to let my daughter study in the best public school in
Master said: “Clarifying the
truth and personal cultivation are integrated. If someone's state of mind is
not right, or if his righteous thoughts are not strong enough, then problems
will follow, for your own cultivation is what's fundamental. Remember too that
the rotten demons and evil entities of low levels that directly persecute Dafa disciples don't want sentient beings to be saved.”
(Fa Teaching at the 2009 Greater
My parents had been very strict with me since my
childhood. I worked diligently and went to a very good university. Though I was
stubborn and easily became impatient, I had traditional values and did not make
any serious mistakes. In
My mum was very strict with us. Educated by the CCP’s “political struggle” theory, she had many authoritarian techniques for “educating” children. There were several bamboo rods hung behind the door. If she was not happy with me, she would grab one of the bamboo rods and lash me. At that time I could not understand why my mum could be so cruel to her own children. I hated these unkind methods but unfortunately I used the same method without thinking to educate my own daughter and rectify what I thought was not correct. It was exactly like what Master said: “A person is like a container, and he is whatever he contains” (“Melt Into the Fa” from Essentials for Further Advancement) I grew up in that kind of environment and I automatically adopted the same methods to deal with issues myself.
师父在《美国东部法会讲法》中说：“现在人说这个女性越来越解放，个性越来越强，其实你们并不是被善那一面带动的。 我觉的强不体现在人的外表这一方面，你平时就象一个温柔的真正的女人一样，你的能力会使你同样得到你应该得到的一切，不见得你非得表现出来象阳刚、象男人 一样你才能得到。你们懂我说的道理吗？（鼓掌）就说你们是女人，你们一定要象女人一样，善良、温柔，才会得到男人的尊敬和爱。如果你们不能够善良和温柔， 男人看到你们就害怕，（笑）你们就得不到应该得到的爱以至家庭的温暖。”当年读到这时我情不自禁双手合十，感谢师尊让我明白了做人的道理。此后我对当年男友的态度好了很多，不再那么强硬。同学们从我对男友的态度的改变，都觉得我变了。我也打消了和男友分手的念头，毕业后很快就结婚了。但这种改变，只是如洋葱剥掉了薄薄的一层而已。
Master said: “People are saying nowadays
that women are becoming more and more liberal and their personalities are
getting stronger. In fact, you aren’t being driven by your kind (Shan) side. I
don’t think strength is necessarily reflected in a person’s outward expression.
If in your daily life you’re like a gentle, true woman, your competence will
let you have everything you deserve all the same. You don’t necessarily have to
express yourself in tough and manly ways to obtain those things. Do you
understand what I’m getting at? (Applause) In other words, if you’re a woman,
you must act like one, and be kind and gentle. Only then can you gain respect
and love from men. If you aren’t kind and gentle, men will be afraid of you
when they see you, (laughter) and you won’t be able to have the love or even
the family affection that you’re supposed to have.” (Teaching the Fa at the
I started to practise Falun Gong when I was a postgraduate at the university. Soon, the persecution started in 1999. If Master had not protected me and strengthened me, I would have given up because of the persecution. I had to bear the hardships with much effort due to my own karma and cultivation deficiency. Sometimes I thought I was fundamentally a male. Some practitioners also jokingly said that my primordial spirit must be male. Actually I didn’t have much strength at all.
Before cultivation I had discovered that a person could have many characteristics. After I started to cultivate in Dafa, I came to understand that a person’s life was arranged during which process the characteristics (xinxing) were moulded. Xinxing had to be tempered for the future arrangements. A person was unable to govern his own fate or will. My xinxing was changed greatly after I practised Falun Gong. The changes were completed in the process of severe conflicts.
Master said: “Tribulations are something people bring upon
themselves. People owe debts for the bad things they’ve done lifetime after
lifetime, so they have to pay them. Look at the hardships you’ve endured during
the process of your cultivation—those are all obstacles for you that are caused
by the karma that you’ve accrued yourself. But it’s also a good thing: we use
it to improve your xinxing, so isn’t it a good thing?
This is why a person can cultivate into a Buddha or a demon. It’s precisely
because there’s karma and because you’re in a maze that you can cultivate.”
(Explaining the Fa for Falun
Dafa Assistants in
After I came to
I learned a hard lesson. Before my relative’s child came and stayed with us, I learned that she had the habit of lying. I set up a rule with her parents that if she lied to me three times she would be kicked out of my home. At that time I thought she would become good after she learned the principles of cultivation when she stayed with me. Since she came to my home, I found she had lied almost three hundred times. I made up my mind several times to let her move out. But on second thoughts, would she become good after she moved out? Her parents had been pleading with me and didn’t agree. They even pleaded with my elderly parents to put pressure on me.
For quite some time I was very impatient due to the pressures from my work and family. Sometimes I got angry with my daughter but didn’t realize it. She was emotionally unstable and liked to go out to have fun. One day in a company meeting I behaved aggressively. I never behaved like that before during my ten years there. I was always low-key. I felt I was on the verge of collapse. It was time now for me to treat ups and downs as normal and increase my forbearance. One colleague commented behind my back: “She can do whatever she wants to do. She is tough.” These conflicts forced me to sit down and look inward.
Gradually I found out where I was deviated. I was arrogant and opinionated and didn’t know how to be a good wife or a good mother. I simply relied on rules and used rules to deal with issues. I felt I was completely correct. But life is not a scientific formula. The reincarnation of life after life makes people, especially Chinese people, very complicated. I asked myself if I knowingly did things I shouldn’t have done in the process of educating my daughter and my relative’s child. The answer was “yes”. In the video lecture that Master gave to Australian practitioners, Master mentioned that: “Some people really will leave you disappointed by not fulfilling their potential and not living up to expectations”. I realized how hard it was for Master to save me.
After I found out my xinxing problem, I felt that I changed. My daughter became more stable emotionally. She supported and understood me more when I did things to validate the Fa.
Recently I watched an old Taiwanese film made decades ago. The females were gentle but strong. They spoke softly but powerfully. I came to know how a traditional woman should be. But looking at myself, I even didn’t know how to be a normal lady having been brainwashed by the Party culture for so many years. Practitioners should have a higher standard than the ordinary people. I asked myself if I had truly cultivated myself. Digging deep down, I found it was unforgivable if I always thought I was right. In the group Fa study, if I thought a particular practitioner didn’t say the right thing, I would point it out sharply. “I shouldn’t allow the unrighteous to have a voice,” I thought to myself. I believed I was doing the right thing. At that moment I regarded myself as high up and the other practitioner as being lower. I didn’t consider the practitioner’s feelings and if she/he could accept it. I was not compassionate at all.
I was actually fortunate that I had a marriage which
let me experience the transitory nature of things in this life, and that I have
a child that let me learn how to be forgiving, caring and appreciative. Master
said: “As cultivators, you
are going about personal cultivation, and so in the process of your improving your understandings, I won’t let you
encounter things that have nothing to do with your cultivation. Since your
personal path of cultivation and improvement before you have been painstakingly
arranged by me, I won’t arrange unnecessary things for you.” (Teaching the Fa at the Conference in
I started to become calm, regardless of what was happening in my external surroundings. I started to become peaceful, and gain and loss were no longer significant to me. I started to become gentle and flexible and many things were no longer that important to me. Some things could not be controlled by human beings. I started to look within and wished to change myself from within. I felt relaxed when I was not attached to so many things and didn’t make judgements according to strict rules. I got along well with the children and it was easier for me to co-ordinate with fellow practitioners. I became closer with my Chinese colleagues and we became friends. It was easy for me to clarify the facts to them. At lunch time one day, one of my Chinese colleagues, who was previously negative about Dafa, told the truth about Dafa to another Chinese colleague. I was a bit surprised yet very happy.
Looking back at the journey I had gone through; if I
didn’t cultivate I would not have recognized the deviation I had due to being
brainwashed by the Party ideology. I encountered many hardships and
tribulations after I came here which gave me opportunities to cultivate that I
would not have had if I stayed in
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Thank you Master!
Thank you fellow practitioners!