修去人心 圆容整体

Let go of human mind to harmonize the one body

Susan Zhou

 

尊敬的师父好!同修们好!

Greetings Great and Benevolent Master, greetings fellow practitioners:

一、在做大纪元广告设计中修炼提高

1. Cultivate and improve myself while designing advertisements for the Epoch Times

在中国时看了师尊对澳洲学员讲法的DVD,我对同修说澳洲需要人,我要去澳洲。看到师尊在《在大纪元会议上的讲法》,我心里对师尊说:我去做大纪元。我和女儿来到澳洲的第二天我们就出去找同修,但直到第三天,我们才在歌剧院真相点看到了同修。同修把我们带到悉尼大组学法点参加集体学法。从此我们每周参加,从未间断。19997.20后中国就失去了这样的大组学法环境,我们很珍惜。同修问起我有什么特长和爱好,我说写文章和画画,她急切的说:“我觉得师父送人来了,我带你去大纪元”。我和女儿在悉尼大纪元报社门前合了影,隐约有一种到家的感觉,泪水夺眶而出。

When I was in China, I watched the DVD of the Fa teaching given to the Australian practitioners. I told my fellow practitioners: “Australia needs practitioners, I’ll go to Australia.” When I read master’s “Fa Teaching Given at the Epoch Times Meeting,” I said to Master in my mind: “I will work for the Epoch times.” The second day after my daughter and I arrived in Australia, I went to look for practitioners. On the third day, I saw fellow practitioners at the truth clarification centre at the Sydney Opera House. A practitioner took me to the big Fa study group in Sydney. Since then, we have all participated in a group Fa study every week, and we have never stopped. After July 20 1999, the big group Fa study environment was lost. We really cherished it. A fellow practitioner asked me what expertise I had. I said writing articles and painting. She said earnestly, “I feel that master is sending people here, I will take you to the Epoch times.” My daughter and I had photos taken in front of the Epoch Times office. I had a feeling of coming back home, and I cried.

之后我就和女儿去大纪元,在火车上我跟编辑部的协调人通了电话,她说,过来看看吧,看看你能干什么。我当时感觉很受冷落,对女儿说回去吧,我不去了。回到家,我向内找,为什么我会感觉受到委屈,是我太在乎自我,在乎被人尊重。过后我又和女儿来到大纪元,一位同修说你没有提前预约,只好又打道回府。心想真是好事多磨。女儿说国外都是要预约的。之后我再一次来到大纪元,广告部的同修说:你做分类广告打字和输入吧。我想,干什么都行,我既然在心里对师尊说要做大纪元,就要兑现。

Later my daughter and I decided to go to The Epoch Times. I rang the coordinator of the editing department on my way to the office and she said, “Come over, let’s see what you can do.” I didn’t feel welcome, so I told my daughter, “Let’s go back home, I don’t want to go.” When we got home, I searched within myself as to why did I feel wronged. I was too attached to being respected. We went to The Epoch Times again later, and a practitioner said, “You don’t have an appointment.” I could only go back home. I was thinking that the road to happiness really is full of hardships. My daughter told me that appointments are necessary in other countries. Later on I went to The Epoch times again and a practitioner in the advertisement department said, “How about you do some typing and data entry for the classifieds.” I thought doing anything was good. Since I told Master in my mind that I wanted to work for The Epoch Times, I had to fulfil my word.

在做大纪元的项目中,我找到了自己许多人心,如欢喜心、显示心、怕被人说的心、看不起别人的妒忌心等,感谢师父给了我一次又一次提高的机会。师父在(《精進要旨》“修者自在其中”)中告诫我们:“作为一个修炼者,在常人中所遇到的一切苦恼都是过关;所遇到的一切赞扬都是考验。”

While working for The Epoch times, I discovered a lot of human attachments, like the attachment to happiness, showing off, fear of criticism, and jealousy that made me look down on other people. Thank you Master for giving me so many opportunities again and again so that I can improve. Master told us: “For a cultivator, all the frustrations he comes across among everyday people are trials, and all the compliments he receives are tests”. - A Cultivator is Naturally Part of It (Essentials for further advancement.)

我很快就学会了做分类广告和设计广告,还学会了排版,同修夸奖说你学的真快,欢喜心就起来了。广告设计完了也不关上屏幕,想等着别人夸奖,可往往这种心出来时,我等来的都是批评。当我觉得自己某个广告图片合成的好而起欢喜心、显示心时,客户会让我从新换图片。当我回家议论别人的广告没有我设计的好看时,第二天,客户会点名要我按照被我设计得不好的广告去修改。设计广告也反映我的修炼状态,任何一颗人心都会影响广告的效果。

Very soon I learned to do Classifieds and advertising design, and I learned to arrange the newspaper layout. Fellow practitioners praised me for being such a fast learner. My attachment to happiness came out. I didn’t turn off my computer monitor after finishing the design, waiting for other people’s praise. However, when this kind of attachment came out, I attracted criticism instead. When I thought I had composed a good advertisement image, and had the attachment of happiness and showing off the next day, the customer would ask me to change that image. Whenever I said that other people’s designs were not as good as mine, the next day, my client would asked me to fix my design according to the one that I didn’t think was very good. My cultivation status was also reflected in my advertising design. Any human notion would influence the result of the advertisement.


有一次在销售会议上,销售人员批评广告设计人员,我辩解说:如果是我做的我会在广告制作单上签名的,言外之意你说的这个错不是我的,但心里打起了退堂鼓,一连几天没去办公室,觉得这个同修鸡蛋里挑骨头,不象个修炼的人,岂不知自己也掉到常人堆里。

Once in a sales meeting, the sales staff criticized the advertising design staff. I argued: “I would sign on the design form for the advertisement I did, indicating that I didn’t make the mistake.” But in my mind I thought about quitting, and didn’t go in to office for several days. I felt that the practitioner was nit-picking and wasn’t behaving look like a practitioner. I didn’t realize that I had also fallen to the level of ordinary people.

 

在工作过程中,不时会听到批评和指责,当面提出的,我有时会为自己辩解或解释,背后传的,我心里就很反感。师父在《在大纪元会议上讲法》中说:“修自己、向内找,这些话我说的都特别明白、特别清楚了,可是没有多少人能够重视这件事。”

From time to time I would hear about criticism and accusations. When it was raised face to face, sometimes I would defend myself or explain. When it was spread behind my back, I would feel very disgusted. Mater said in Fa Teaching Given at the Epoch Times Meeting:‘Cultivate yourself’ and ‘search within’ are words that I have said in a very straightforward and clear manner. (Laughing) But, there aren’t that many people who give these words due weight.”

 

我想:我是助师正法来的,有什么不平衡的呢?为什么对同修的批评总认为是在挑我的毛病?有时还想入非非地认为挑毛病的同修是我前世的仇人。同修的批评如果是对救人项目负责,我何必在乎她对我个人的态度是否和颜悦色呢?我要从根子上去掉从小养成的自尊心、虚荣心。

I thought: I am here to assist Master to rectify the Fa, so why do I feel unjustified? Why do I always consider other practitioners picking at my faults while they criticise me? Sometimes I fancied that the practitioner who picked at my faults was an enemy in my previous life. If the practitioners’ criticism is responsible for helping the project to save sentient beings, why should I care about her attitude to me? I have to eliminate the attachment of self-esteem and vanity from the root.

 

30多年前我满身的疾病:低血糖,腰病、胃病、腿病,药不离身,修炼后无病一身轻。现在我做广告时,经常在电脑前一坐就是十几个小时,不知肌饿和疲倦,头不疼眼不花。

Thirty years ago, I suffered many diseases: low blood sugar, lumbar disease, stomach disease, leg disease etc. After practicing cultivation, the diseases disappeared, and my whole body became very light. While doing the advertisement design, I can sit for over 12 hours in front of the computer without feeling hungry and tired. I don’t get a headache my eyes are not blurred.

后来广告部的另两名同修先后离开了,广告设计落在我一人身上,我产生了埋怨的心理。广告多时,我想是不是我也要知难而退呢?但是每当我有想离开的想法时,总是会不自觉的重温师尊《在大纪元会议上的讲法》,师父说“在这一点上大家一定要清楚,把握好自己,去掉不平衡的人心。”

Later two other practitioners in the advertisement department left, and all the tasks of advertising design fell to me. I had a human notion of complaining. When we had more advertisements, I thought whether I should also shrink back in the face of difficulties. Every time I had the thought of leaving, I always unconsciously reviewed Master’s Fa Teaching Given at the Epoch Times Meeting, Master said: “You really need to be clear on this, handle yourself well, and get rid of that human sense of unfairness.”

 

有时晚上学一遍,早上又学一遍,坚定了我的正念。今天做广告设计不会是偶然的,从上学到工作都离不开写字写文章画画,这些技能也许都是为今天证实法所准备的。

Sometimes I studied once at night and once in the morning. This helped to strengthen my righteous thoughts. It was not an accident for me to do advertising design. Since going to school, writing and painting have been inseparable from me, and these skills are helping to prepare for today’s Fa-rectification.

 

销售人员拉广告很幸苦,我总是不厌其烦的认真按照销售人员和客户的要求及时的对广告进行更改和更新。随着销售人员增加,广告量增多,白天做不完,经常熬至半夜1200。这也有一个好处,不会错过半夜全球发正念的时间。做大纪元广告这短时间里,不管晚上睡的多晚,每天早上我都保证炼完五套功法再去大纪元,晚上回家后先学法。

It is hard work to sell advertisements; I always take the trouble to make changes and adjustments promptly according to the requirements of the sales staff and the clients. With the growing of the sale staffs and the quantity of advertisements, , I often work till midnight. There is a benefit to this in that I won’t miss the midnight sending righteous thoughts. During all this time of working at The Epoch times, no matter how late at night I finish, I always do the five sets of exercises and then go to The Epoch times. I always study the Fa as soon as I get home at night.

 

不久,我和另两位同修通宵赶制中秋特刊。特刊印出后,不尽人意的事又发生了,第二页刊首寄语字看不清,内页仙女图月亮背景返到顶层,仙女头部及上身全被遮住。因最后样稿不是我核版的,我也就没有过多的想法。

Soon after, two other practitioners and I worked on the Mid-Autumn special edition. When this special edition was printed, unsatisfactory things happened again. The messages to the readers on the second page couldn’t be read clearly. On another page, the moon background came out over the top of the fairy image, covering the head and upper body of the fairy. It wasn’t me who checked the final layout, so I didn’t think too much about it.

 

后来有一天,我无意中听到同修的通话提到神韵中文特刊和大纪元中秋特刊的事,语气严厉的说不要再让苏珊做了,她根本就不行。我嘴上没说什么,心里觉得委屈,因为觉得中秋特刊和神韵中文特刊出的问题都不是我的问题。心想:你说我不行但我在尽力做;你行却在背后挑剔和非议,谁行和不行不是你说了算的。我还一度刻意寻找这个背后议论的人是谁。这一关又没过好。

One day, I overheard a phone conversation between practitioners talking about the issues tht had affected the Shen Yun Chinese flyers and the Mid-Autumn special edition. The tone was very harsh and they were saying that they should stop Susan from doing the job, she’s no good at all. I didn’t say anything, but felt so wronged in my heart, because I didn’t think that those problems were my fault. I thought, “You said that I wasn’t good, but I tried my best. You nitpicked and blamed me and said things behind my back. You don’t have the final say in whether I’m good or not.” I even tried to find out who was talking about me behind my back. I didn’t pass the test well.

之后同样的情景又出现了,我无意中又听到同修的电话通话,还是关于这两次的问题,这回我想,修炼人碰到的事没有偶然的。师父说:“很多神在我耳边讲:你们大法弟子不能被说,一说就炸,说也不能说怎么行,不能被人说怎么修,这叫什么修炼人,”“实质的东西摘掉,但是养成的习性你们得自己去。久而久之养成的习惯,这种习惯来源于不同的执著。有对爱面子心的执著,叫人说了觉的不好意思,就会在这方面触动不能被说的心。也有的人觉的自己是项目负责人不能叫人说。也有人在哪方面有特长不叫人说。也有人对别人有不好的看法因此不能叫人说,等等方方面面啦。不能被人说来源于不同的执著。” (《曼哈顿讲法》)向内找,我找到自己有爱面子心、争斗心、抱怨心、委屈心、不让人说的心、愿意听好话的心等。

Later, the same thing happened again, I overheard another practitione’rs conversation on the phone, regarding the same issues. This time I thought, “Nothing a practitioner encounters is accidental.” Master said: “Many gods are whispering in my ear. Your Dafa disciples won’t stand for anyone being critical of them. Just one word and they explode. Could it work if others aren’t allowed to criticize them? How are they supposed to cultivate if they can’t take criticism? What kind of cultivator does that amount to?“I will remove that material substance, but the associated habits and traits that you’ve formed have to be eliminated by you. And as for the habits that you’ve formed over time, those stem from your various attachments. Those who are attached to saving face will be made to hear things that are embarrassing, hitting upon that attachment that causes you not to be able to stand hearing others’ critical remarks. There are also some people who think that since they are project coordinators, they should be immune to criticism. And then some people who have special talents in some regard or other won’t take criticism from people. Another group won’t hear anyone out on account of having a negative opinion about the other person. It comes in all shapes and sizes. Being unwilling to listen to others’ remarks stems from a range of attachments.”Fa Teaching Given in ManhattanLooking within, I found a lot of attachments: fame, competitive mentality, complaining, refusing criticism, attachment to praise etc.

 

同时反观自己,虽没有背后议论其他同修的习惯,但在茶余饭后与家人同修的闲谈中也会谈论谁的状态好,谁的举动不象个修炼人等。

师父在(《法轮功》中说:“业或者业力是由于本人今世或前世的过错而产生的,比如杀过生,欺负过谁,争夺过谁的利益,背后议论过谁,对谁不友好等等,都会产生业力。”我想可能在修口这方面我也要修一修了。

Examining myself, although I don’t have the habit of talking about other practitioners behind their backs, but during casual conversations with fellow practitioners at home, I would talk about who’s status is good, who doesn’t behave like a cultivator, etc.. Master said: “Karma is produced by a person’s doing wrong in this life or in past lives. For instance, killing, taking advantage of others, infringing upon others’ interests, gossiping about someone behind his or her back, being unfriendly to someone, and so on can all create karma.”FALUN GONGI think that maybe I need to cultivate my own speech.

 

二、圆容配合其他大法活动

2. Harmonize and cooperate with other Dafa Activities,

来到澳洲除全职做好大纪元广告设计外,我还尽量参加神韵推广以及其他各种大法活动,圆容整体的需要。

After coming to Australia, besides working full time for the Epoch Times, I tried my best to participate in Shen Yun promotion and other Dafa activities, to harmonize the whole body.

在推广神韵期间,我参与发信箱、插牌子、贴海报、刻光盘、装信封、派发单页、在商场卖票、发正念、建Facebook等,协调人安排什么就做什么。

During the Shen Yun promotion period, I participated in letterbox drops, putting up posters, making DVDs, stuffing envelopes, distributing flyers, selling tickets in shopping centres, sending righteous thoughts, setting up Facebook pages and doing whatever the coordinators asked me to do.

我悟到,要时常想到自己是大法弟子,保持纯净的心态和很强的正念。一次我和女儿派发神韵单张,看到有一栋大楼里有100多个信箱,但大门是要划门卡才能进去的,我闭目求师父加持让我进去,几秒钟后睁开眼时,一个人从里面出来打开了大门。看完演出的人从剧院走出来,我们问你是怎么知道演出的信息,有人说是朋友告诉的,有人说是看到报纸或海报,也有从很远地方赶来的人说是从信箱里看到神韵的单页。我悟到在神韵推广中,我们做的每一件事都很神圣,很重要。师父说:“就是因为在迷中,不让你们看到真相,你们看不到自己做过的事的神圣,你们有人的一面,很难树立起那正念,因此你们兴奋不起来,还得在艰难中做好,能够走过来才了不起。如果谁都知道自己做的事情伟大、了不起,谁都去做。谁都看见神活生生的在你面前,他什么都不要了,豁出来了神怎么说就怎么做,谁都会这么做,这没有威德,这不是修炼,迷也破了,什么也不算了。就是在那迷的环境中,看不到真相,看你还能不能修、能不能走到最后、能不能修成。一个地上的人要成神就那么难,一个地上的人上天就那么难。”在将神韵资料送进每一个信箱时,我都会默默的对每一户人家说:去看神韵,这是你千万年等待的。就象在中国大陆发资料时,我会默默的对每一户人家说:师父让我救你们来了。

I was enlightened. I always think that I am a Dafa Disciple, keeping a pure mind and strong righteous thoughts. Once my daughter and I went to distribute Shen Yun flyers. We saw over 100 mail boxes in a building, but we needed to swipe a key card to enter the building, I closed my eyes and asked for Master’s help. After a few seconds, I opened my eyes and saw a man opening the door from inside. We asked the audiences coming out of the theatre after seeing Shen Yun, “How did you know about the performance?” Some said that their friends told them and some said that they saw it advertised in the newspaper or on posters. There were some people from remote places who said that they received Shen Yun flyers in their letterboxes. I enlightened that everything that we do in Shen Yun promotion is sacred and important. Master said: “But, precisely because you are in this place of delusion, and cannot see the reality of things, nor the holiness of all that you have done, and since you each have a human side, it is hard to establish such righteous thoughts and you thus don’t experience a sense of excitement, and must manage to do well amidst hard times. Only by coming through under these conditions does it count as extraordinary. If people could know the magnificence, or extraordinariness of what they are doing, nobody would hesitate to do these things. If everyone could see a divine being right before them, in full, living color, then nothing else would matter and they would put everything on the line in order to follow whatever that divine being said. Everyone would do the same, and there would be no mighty virtue to be had, for it would not be cultivation. The spell of delusion would have been broken, and so nothing would count. But, precisely because one is amidst the setting of delusion, one cannot perceive the truth of things, and thus it can be seen whether you can manage to cultivate, whether you can manage to make it through to the finish, and whether you can succeed at cultivation. It is immensely difficult for a human being on this earth to become a god, and it is every bit as difficult for him to ascend to the heavens.”Fa Teaching Given at the 2010 New York Fa ConferenceEvery time that I delivered the Shen Yun material to a letter box, I would talk to the family in my heart, “Go to see Shen Yun, this is what you’ve been waiting for for thousands of years.” It’s like when I was distributing Dafa materials in mainland China, I would tell every family in my heart, “Our master send me to save you.”

 

有一次在商场卖票时,一位买了票的西人迟迟不愿离开摊位,不停的说:我要看神韵,我都等不及了。一位西人说:你们的海报早点贴出去,我们就会自己去买票。一个华人问我:神韵是不是在悉尼歌剧院演出啊。看到世人对神韵的渴求,我们更知作为大法弟子肩负的责任。

Once when I was selling tickets in a shopping centre, a westerner who bought a ticket didn’t want to leave and kept on saying, “I want to see Shen Yun, I can’t wait.” Another westerner said, “Put up your posters earlier and we will go to buy tickets by ourselves.” A Chinese person asked me: “Is Shen Yun performed in the Sydney Opera House?”. Seeing sentient beings longing for Shen Yun further reminds us of our responsibility as Dafa disciples.

 

一次我在发真相资料给一个常人时,他说:你是不是退休闲的没事做。向内找,发现自己在当天参加洪法活动时,看到当时来的同修不足20人,多数都是年纪大的同修,心生抱怨:协调人说今天是大型洪法活动,怎么才来了这么几个人,还都是年纪大的。这不正的一念给众生不接资料找到了理由,大法弟子的一丝一念都会影响救度众生。同修虽然去的少,但能量场非常强,一个西人女士走到我女儿面前说:你们炼的什么功,我感觉到很强的能量。一个华人也走到我跟前说要了解法轮功。

Once when I gave some truth clarification material to an ordinary person, he said: “Are you retired with nothing to do?” Looking inward, I realized that when I saw less than 20 practitioners come out for this Dafa activity, and most of them were older practitioners, complaints came into my mind, “The coordinator had said that this is a large Dafa activity. How come only a few people turned out? And they are all old people.” This unrighteous thought gave the sentient beings an excuse not to take the materials; every single thought from a Dafa disciple will have an impact on saving sentient beings. Although fewer people showed up, the energy field was still very strong. A western lady came up to my daughter asking: “What exercise are you practising? I can feel the strong energy.” A Chinese person also came to me saying that he wanted to know more about Falun Gong.

 

还有一次去中领馆发正念,只有3位同修,我的人念出来了:怎么就来了3个人。转念一想,不对,三个修炼中的人就是三个神,这念头出来,感到自己无比的高大,真是人神一念间。

Another time, we sent righteous thoughts at the Chinese consulate with only three practitioners. My human notion came out, “How come only three people came?” Suddenly I changed my thinking, “Wrong, three cultivators are three gods.” Once this thought came out, I felt very high and strong, One thought really distinguished a God from a human being.

我每天都做着助师正法的三件事,每天都在心性考验中提升着自己,每天都很充实。

I have been doing the three things to assist Master in rectifying the Fa every day. I improve myself through Xinxing tests every day, and every day is fulfilling.

 

最后让我们谨记师尊的教诲:“无论是修炼环境与世人的认识,都在根本的改变着。这本来已经是正法与大法弟子在修炼后期的展现,可是还有一少部份学员,甚至是老学员,却在此时或多或少出现了消沉的状态,松懈了精進的意志,没有意识到这也是对正法时间的执著或不正确的后天观念干扰造成的,从而被旧势力先前在人类空间表层留下的干扰因素与邪灵、烂鬼钻了空子,加大加强了这些执著与人的观念,从而造成了这种消沉状态,其实大家想一想,过去的修炼人要耗尽一生才能走完的路中都不敢怠慢一刻,而要成就大法所度生命之果位的大法弟子修炼中又有最方便的修炼法门,在这种证实法修炼最伟大的荣耀瞬间即逝的暂短修炼时间内怎么能不更精進呢?”(《越最后越精進》)在今后的修炼道路上,我要更加勇猛精进,修去人心,放下自我,圆容整体,兑现史前的誓约,圆满随师还。

In the end, let us remember Master’s teaching: “The cultivation environment and the perceptions people have are both undergoing changes on a fundamental level. This phenomenon indicates that Fa-rectification and Dafa disciples' cultivation are in their final stages. And yet a small number of students--veteran students, even--have to differing degrees exhibited a despondent state and slackened in their resolve to be diligent. They haven't realized that this is an attachment to the duration of Fa-rectification, or is caused by interference from incorrect, acquired notions, which results in their gaps being exploited by interfering factors that the old forces left behind early on in the surface of the human dimension, wicked specters, or rotten demons--things that have magnified and strengthened those attachments and human notions--all of which has brought about this despondent state. Actually, if you think about it, the cultivators of the past didn't dare to slack off for even a second, and that was when it took an entire lifetime to complete the journey. So how can Dafa disciples--who are to achieve the Attainment Status of a being who is saved by Dafa and who have the most convenient cultivation way--not be even more diligent when they are given this most glorious honor of Fa-validating cultivation in a brief cultivation period that passes in the blink of an eye?” (The Closer to the End, the More Diligent You Should Be) On the road of cultivation ahead, I need to be more diligent, eliminate my human notions, let go of myself, harmonize the whole body, fulfill my prehistoric vow and come back home with master.

 

不当之处请同修慈悲指正。

谢谢师尊!谢谢同修!

Please correct me if I have said anything inappropriate.

Thank you Master, Thank you fellow practitioners.