Taking the Fa as Teacher, Striving Forward Vigorously and Steadfastly
Greetings, revered Master! Greetings, fellow practitioners!
When I heard the notice requesting Fa Conference contributions, my first reaction was indifference, as if it had nothing to do with me. For me, attending the Fahui was to listen to other practitioners’ sharings, because my cultivation was not good enough to write about. To stimulate our enthusiasm the coordinator found us a lot of sharings written by fellow practitioners. After reading them, I was deeply inspired and moved. I looked within and found that on the surface, I tried to appear really humble and said I didn’t do well, but actually I still have the attachment of validating myself. The Fahui is a cultivation form established by Master, and conforming to Master’s directions is the best way to help Master rectify the Fa. It is precisely because I didn’t do well enough that I should look within and summarize my cultivation so that I can catch up. Now I am going to report to Master and share with you about my recent cultivation.
The day after Master published What is Classical Chinese Dance? on the Shen Yun official website, I saw the link to the article on Skype forwarded by other practitioners. After reading it, I forwarded the link to our project team. Soon, one practitioner wrote a post saying it was not Master’s article published by Minghui, which meant we were spreading fake Fa-teachings and disrupting the Fa. The tone of this practitioner was very serious. Seeing this, I was astonished and struck dumb. I was in a daze for quite a while before I recovered. The coordinator suggested that delete the link. At that moment, I felt quite emotional, but I managed to control myself and asked fellow practitioners to delete the post. I thought to myself: “what is going on?” If what the practitioner said was true, then it was a very serious problem. Although my cultivation state had not been good recently, I still knew to look within to see if something was wrong in my cultivation. Then I found relevant Fa teachings by Master and some Minghui articles. After reading them, I felt that I wasn’t up to standard. I couldn’t calm down even when I went to sleep.
The following day, Minghui forwarded the same article, and the practitioner wrote an apologetic post. But I still felt that something was wrong, so I calmed myself down and looked inside. The reason why I encountered this whole thing must have something to do my attachments.
As Master said in Further Understanding from ESSENTIALS FOR FURTHER ADVANCEMENT: “as long as you’re a cultivator, in any environment or under any circumstances, I will use any troubles or unpleasant things you come across—even if they involve work for Dafa, or no matter how good or sacred you think they are—to eliminate your attachments and expose your demon-nature so that it can be eliminated, for your improvement is what’s most important. If you are able to succeed in improving yourself this way, what you do then, with a pure heart, will be the best and most sacred.”
So I looked back and examined every thought I had when forwarding the article. The first thought was that the mission of our media is to promote Shen Yun, therefore every practitioner in the team should study Master’s teaching on What is Classical Chinese Dance? But digging deeper, a hidden and almost imperceptible thought was found. This was that not many people would have read the article because it was published on the Shen Yun website and I felt a pleased with myself for having found it and spread the word. Then I kept looking within and found that every time I posted Minghui articles on BBS or Skype, my attachment of showing off emerged. I would think: “look, I read Minghui articles every day, look how diligent I am.” On the surface, my intention was to help fellow practitioners improve together, but actually my attachment of showing off was hidden inside. What a terrible attachment!
In Zhuan Falun, Master said: “We do our cultivation in the setting of ordinary people, and because of this a lot of our students can’t seem to let go of many attachments they have, and a lot of their attachments have already become natural to them, they can’t notice it. Showing off can appear in all kinds of situations, and it can also show up when a person is doing something good.” If Master had not had woken me up in this way, I wouldn’t even realize my attachment which has already become natural.
Since I participated in the project of making truth-clarifying phone calls, I have tried to make phone calls whenever I have time. But I always feel a lack of compassion when clarifying the truth, so what I said cannot touch the listener’s heart. I feel really upset that after so many years of cultivation, I still have not succeeded in cultivating compassion. One day, after I made some phone calls, a thought suddenly appeared in my mind: “from what perspective am I doing this?” I immediately realized that my starting point was not right. Because Master said that we have to do the three things, I feel that I must make the phone calls, but I have to breakthrough selfishness, I have to study the Fa, I have to send righteous thoughts, I have to cultivate compassion, I have to do such and such…… It seems that I want to do the three things well, but subconsciously I do it for the sake of my own improvement in cultivation rather than saving sentient beings whole-heartedly. From such a perspective, how can I have compassion?
In Fa Teaching at the 2013 Greater New York Fa Conference, Master said: “Some people express that they think they’re quite pure, when in fact that’s not the case; they have all kinds of extraneous, distracted thoughts and many things that were formed post-natally. Even what you consider to be a very simple thought might—from its starting point to its cause, or the things that accompany it—be impure.” Master also said in Teaching the Fa at the 2004 Western U.S. Fa Conference: “Selfishness is a fundamental attribute of the cosmos of the past. Because of that attribute, formation-stasis-degeneration-destruction and birth-aging-sickness-death are inevitable. In the future the Fa will be all-harmonizing, perfect, and selfless. The change in that fundamental attribute of the cosmos leads to fundamental changes in the cosmos’s progression and beings’ characteristics.”
When one does things to benefit one’s own cultivation rather than eliminate one’s attachments to better save the sentient beings, one cannot break the constraint of the principles of the old universe and can only walk the path arranged by the old forces. Whatever one does should be from the perspective of the Fa and for the benefit of others. Even studying the Fa shouldn’t be only for personal improvement and change, but rather for better saving sentient beings and assisting Master in Fa rectification. This is what is required by the Fa of the new cosmos and everything of one’s cultivation is incorporated in it. ‘Truthfulness, Compassion and Tolerance’ is encompassed in Master’s Fa on every level. If I don’t change my perspective, how can I show my compassion? Once I enlightened to this Fa principle, my confusion was dissolved a bit. After I changed my starting point, I could feel the change in the listeners’ attitude when I was making phone calls.
I have been doing the three things; because I slacked off in cultivation for a
while, I couldn’t study the Fa wholeheartedly and was
interfered with constantly when sending righteous thoughts. Therefore, a lot of
troubles arose. I was severely interfered with by emotions for quite a long
time. My parents came to
But because I didn’t look inside enough, the environment was not changed. Thus I was experienced interference, to varying degrees, at work, in my personal life, in my cultivation, and in my state of health. I knew that this state of affairs was not right, so one day I shared with a practitioner after making phone calls and was reminded that I needed to study more. In the media project with which I am involved, I am in charge of a section about lifestyles, so all I am exposed to is ordinary people’s stuff. My work and family environments are also very human. Although I studied the Fa every day, it was just a formality as I did not study wholeheartedly. So I began to adjust the time for study and exercises. I studied more, looked within and measured myself against the Fa. Gradually, the environment was changed and the physical pain disappeared. While searching within, I found that when talking to my father, I was actually either complaining about something or trying to give him orders, with a strong desire to change him and insist on my own opinions. Moreover, I was irritated when my ideas were not adopted.
for more attachments layer by layer and found my fear of getting hurt, the
attachment of protecting myself, showing off and also the pursuit of fame and
profit. And behind all those attachments, I discovered an even more damaging
hidden attachment—jealousy. I have been involved in the media project since I
Master said in Zhuan Falun: “It is because jealousy is displayed very
As Master said in Zhuan Falun: “Today I am telling practitioners that you should not keep yourselves in the dark without being enlightened to it. The goal that you intend to achieve is to practice cultivation toward high levels. The attachment of jealousy must be relinquished, so I have singled out the issue in this lecture.”
Today I expose my attachment of jealousy in order to make sure it has nowhere to hide so that I can eliminate it. It is not part of the real me and I will not acknowledge it as part of me; otherwise it will ruin me.
I still have the attachments of validating myself, of lust and showing off. I have been writing down every attachment that I find and trying to completely relinquish them by sending righteous thoughts. After a period of solid Fa study and cultivation, I can now quickly detect and catch the impure attachment behind every thought and word. Although I still have a lot of attachments to abolish, I am not afraid to try. The key is whether one has the determination to get rid of them and not let them manipulate oneself. I am a Dafa practitioner in the Fa rectification period rather than just any average cultivator. I believe I can do well and I have to do well. I will deny and eradicate my attachments fundamentally.
The above is my personal understanding, please kindly point out any mistakes.