Let Go of Ego in Coordinating Shen Yun Evaluation

M Li



Greetings respected Master, Greetings fellow practitioners!



Shen Yun has been touring around the world for almost 8 years, but the sentient beings in West Australia have not had the good fortune to watch it. This is in no doubt a reflection of the cultivation status of WA practitioners as one body. For many years, we have been losing the chance again and again because we couldn’t cooperate with each other. This year with the help from the practitioners of another city, we have made a breakthrough, and I’d like to share with fellow practitioners about my experience of letting go of ego during the process of coordinating the Shen Yun evaluation.



In the end of 2011 after we lost many chances, we again started to work on the Shen Yun project, and formed a face to face Fa study group. We were determined to solidly work on this by starting with clarifying the truth to the management of the theatre. In the beginning there were over ten practitioners participating in the weekly Fa study and sharing, but soon another project had problems. The old force used the gap among practitioners, created many rumours and illusions, so some practitioners no long came to the group Fa study for no apparent reason. Some explained why they wouldn’t come any more, and some even said openly that the energy field of the group was not good and they wouldn’t come. In the end there were only three to five practitioners who persisted in the group Fa study. In 2012, these practitioners tried to contact several theatres and did lots of work. Some theatres were very supportive, but couldn’t help due to technical difficulties. We deeply understood that the true reason was that our cultivation status didn’t meet the requirement of Shen Yun.



In November 2012, as a few more Shen Yun shows were added in Canberra, practitioners of another city asked us if we could assist making phone calls to help Canberra. So we joined the phone call team for Canberra. Maybe we didn’t actually help much, but this was the first time for us to join the Shen Yun promotion as a one body, which opened a channel for us to make further breakthroughs. Thank you Master for this benevolent arrangement! Also thank you fellow practitioners of another city for your trust, because we only had one practitioner in the phone call team who had passed the Shen Yun level 1 evaluation.



After that, we started to get all practitioners to study the Shen Yun training and evaluation materials. In early March this year, the practitioner who was coordinating the evaluation came to Perth and did a training for us for the first time, and conducted the level 1 evaluation for a group of practitioners. This training had encouraged us a lot, and about 75% of practitioners joined the training. However, an extremely sharp Xinxing test followed soon afterwards.



After the training, as I hoped that more practitioners could join the Shen Yun Fa study group and study the Shen Yun promotion materials, I wrote an email to report to all about the training, and advised that the session for Shen Yun group Fa study would be the session for Shen Yun promotion sharing. My intention was to encourage more practitioners to join, but surprisingly I received strong reactions from practitioners who didn’t join the training and they were against this idea. This made me realize the big gap among practitioners. After I calmed down, I started to think, why it caused such a strong negative reaction? It was apparently a good thing, why would practitioners treat in the opposite way? I shared with the practitioner who provided training to us. That practitioner thought I should have discussed with the coordinators before sending that email. I realized my mistake. It was because I took too seriously about my being “righteous”. I thought as Shen Yun was the project under Master’s direct instruction, surely the Shen Yun promotion team’s Fa study was so important that all should have supported it. I didn’t think about other practitioners’ understanding. Why didn’t I think it over, and instead made others feel uncomfortable? Wasn’t this the selfishness of the old cosmos? When talking about the attitude of the gods in the old cosmos towards Master’s using the Buddha’s image and Buddha Fa principles in Fa rectification, Master taught us in “Teaching the Fa in the City of Los Angeles”, “the gods in those systems of beings don't know who you truly are, so will they let you do whatever you want? …That is why they're thinking, ‘since this matter involves us, how could we let you do whatever you want with us? I, like others, have countless sentient beings, and I too want to try to be chosen.’” No matter what level a being is at, as long as such an element of taking oneself as the most important one, there must be gaps. How to eliminate such gaps?



In April, after sharing with practitioners of the Dafa association of other city, we increased truth clarification activities. I took the job of installing RTC phone call software for fellow practitioners. In the process I eliminated lots of interference, and installed the software for most of the practitioners who wanted to join RTC. But an elderly practitioner was always not keen to install, and said there was not much use to do it. In the beginning I treated it as the problem with this practitioner. I thought, you were not very busy, why you wouldn’t make phone calls? One day I went to help a practitioner to get onto internet, and had in my pocket my USB stick that I was using all the time. Along the way I kept thinking about the shortcomings of that practitioner, my heart was not clam and it was raining, I passed his place. When I arrived, I couldn’t find that USB in my pocket, and it was not in the car either. I then realized that it was my Xinxing problem thinking about the shortcoming of the fellow practitioner. Why would I do that? Thinking about it deeply, it was because when I was experiencing a big Xinxing test last year, she also said something negative about me. I thought she was not a good person, let alone a good practitioner. I saw deep in my heart the ego that was controlling my thoughts and behavior of the human side, which let me think this way. On another day when I was at the home of another practitioner, she said, “Master saw that your Xinxing is relatively good, so arranged all for us.” The words “relatively good” immediately touched me. Clearly Master was giving me a hint that I was not quite good, at least not good enough. The before mentioned practitioner had not got the software installed, so she went to ask help from this practitioner, and asked, “Why you still don’t have time to install for me?” Of course, after that we did get it installed.



In May, we received a wonderful news, that Shen Yun office had approved the theatre for West Australia. That kind of joy could not be described with words. One day after the big group Fa study, a practitioner asked me about the details, I said, “It’s not the time to disclose the details yet.” This practitioner was upset and said to me, “You are so impatient with fellow practitioner, this way you won’t be able to promote Shen Yun well”. I felt very uncomfortable, and didn’t talk to her further. Why I felt uncomfortable? Why wouldn’t I like to talk to her? Looking within afterwards, I was strongly against her deep in my heart. Why was I against her? Because she said earlier to a practitioner who was preparing for the evaluation that we would have no way to get Shen Yun venue in WA, and made the other practitioner not confident, and had to share with other practitioners. I thought at that time, why there was such kind of people? Now I realized that what she was against was not Shen Yun but me. If it was she herself working on the Shen Yun promotion, she wouldn’t against it for sure, why she was against it when I was working on it? Was this targeting at my ego? So let’s see why this ego always attract all sorts of troubles. I often regarded what she said and did were not right, and regarded them as interference, and only my own understandings was on the Fa. Master said, “As a cultivator, one always looks for one's own faults, 'Tis the Way to get rid of attachments most effectively, There's no way to skip ordeals, big or small, [During a conflict, if you can remember:] "He's right, And I’m wrong," What’s to dispute?” (Who’s Right, Who’s Wrong”, Hong Yin III) When I looked at things with this ego, I always tried to assimilate practitioner’s understanding to my own understanding. This will never resolve the problem. Only through compassionate sharing, and assimilating the understandings of different levels to “Truthfulness-Compassion-Forberance” in the Fa, would we be able to achieve true harmony. When we are affected by the ego, we would be attached to the right or wrong on the surface level. If we keep disputing, the old force would use this loophole to enlarge our gap, and to destroy our one body.



Master said in “Fa Teaching Given in Manhattan”, “Whether you are right or not is, for a cultivator, not important whatsoever. Don’t argue left and right, and don’t emphasize who’s right and who’s wrong. Some people are always stressing that they’re right, but even if you are right, even if you’re not wrong, so what? Have you improved on the basis of the Fa? The very act of using human thinking to stress who’s right and who’s wrong is in itself wrong. That’s because you are then using the logic of ordinary people to evaluate yourself, and using that logic to make demands on others. ” Haven’t I been always demanding on others?



Later, this practitioner not only attended the Shen Yun evaluation, but also booked the evaluation when our venue was rejected after being approved. This proved that she was confident that Shen Yun will come to West Australia.



In July, our venue was again rejected by Shen Yun office. I cried badly after hearing this. I felt very regretful that I had lots of human attachments, and had negative thoughts against some practitioners and thought they were not supportive to Shen Yun’s coming to Western Australia. Actually they were not unsupportive, it was actually we had unresolved Xinxing conflict and unclosed gaps, so the old force would come to interfere. Master said in “20th Anniversary Fa Teaching”, “For Dafa disciples there are the standards for Dafa disciples, and although you may appear to be just a human being who is doing cultivation, sometimes when your righteous thoughts are strong one sentence is all it takes and a person can be saved. But he’s an ordinary person, and he has his standards for gaining salvation; he will go to the place that he is saved to. You, on the other hand, have standards that apply to you.” Each Dafa practitioner is a particle, if these particles cannot connect and spread all over the universe, how to form a gigantic cosmos?



When our understanding is righteous and we didn’t try to find what’s wrong with others, our Shen Yun venue was approved again. We again obtained the chance to hold Shen Yun. The practitioners and sentient beings in West Australia have hope now. I was so happy that I had tears at that moment. I deeply felt Master’s immense benevolence and profoundness that is blessing the countless sentient beings in the cosmos.



I deeply felt that any human thought and any unrighteous mind and behavior, is all connected to the ego deep inside. That ego also has layers and levels, all sorts of human notions formed in this life has formed an ego, and those notions during our countless reincarnations in the past millions of years have also formed egos of other layers, and the egos of higher levels were also formed in the high realms from the selfish nature in the old cosmos. What it shows here in the human dimension is that once other people’s ways of doing things do not comply with our own notions and understandings, we would be against it. For Dafa practitioners, it will prevent us from forming a one body to validate Dafa.



Master taught us, “I also want to tell you that your nature in the past was actually based on egotism and selfishness. From now on, whatever you do, you should consider others first, so as to attain the righteous Enlightenment of selflessness and altruism. So from now on, whatever you do or whatever you say, you must consider others—or even future generations—along with Dafa’s eternal stability.(Non-Omission in Buddha-Nature “, Essentials for Further Advancement) Now I understand that it’s far from enough by just looking within on the surface level, or just not disputing with others. That does not meet the Fa standard. Only when we dissolve all the elements of our ego in the beings of all layers, from the micro to macro levels, and become the true righteous beings for the others, are we able to truly assimilate to Dafa and return home with Master.





Thank you benevolent Master, thank you fellow practitioners.