The Way Home
Greetings Master, greetings practitioners
My name is Hui Shi, and I have been practising Dafa since 1995. When I was young, I practised with my parents, so I was diligent. I cultivated with my mum, did exercises and studied the Fa. And when I was young, I could recite Hong Yin. The most impressive article for me in Hong Yin was Tempering One’s Heart and Will.
Reaching Consummation, obtaining Buddha’s Fruit,
Eating bitterness treated as joy.
Toiling the body does not count as bitterness,
Cultivating the heart is most agonizing.
Each and every barrier must be broken through,
Here and there, demons are everywhere.
A hundred hardships falling all at once,
See how one lives.
Able to endure suffering in the world,
Transcending the world, is a Buddha.
When the persecution started, my parents were arrested several times, but I didn’t feel any fear. However, due to many reasons, my cultivation was not that diligent.
2009, I came to
In 2011, I joined a media truth clarification project doing layout. Looking backwards the last 2 years, this project gave me a good cultivation environment and also gave me the chance to improve my xinxing. Many things have happened and I have fresh memories of them all.
When I began media work, I did not have any experience in editing a newspaper or layout; everything was totally new and strange to me. No matter it was people or things I did not know how to deal with. I do not know why, but at that time I had such a thought: “For this project, I am an unimportant person. Whether I am do this or not, there isn’t any difference. “Because of this thought, I was careless and slack in my work. Even the simplest fiction paper I did very poorly; every time there were 1 or 2 mistakes. I’m not sure why it happened, but there were always some mistakes. I was confused. But at that time, I did not look within nor study Zhuan Falun. I did not think of my own problem, but looked for excuses: “I just came into the Fa. I do not need to give myself such a high standard. I will take my time.”
Then I was arranged to be in charge of forum layout. That was the first time the layout work included both words and pictures, which is a formal structure layout. The first 2 weeks, the work was not that good, but gradually I gained the feeling for doing layout work. The coordinating practitioner praised me that one of my layouts was wonderful. Suddenly, my zealotry came out: see, this is what I think, it is all time issue. Now, I can do it well. Then I ignored even more looking within. Instead, I was immersed in my self-satisfaction. At that time, I did not have the mindset that a practitioner should have. What’s more, I rarely studied the Fa. After that, I found I was framed by a frame; my layout work did not improve. Still, I did not look within and then that bad thought came up again: “Why should I work so hard? I don’t need to be that careful as I am not that important to this job.”
When I was in this situation, one day I went to play. On a very level playground, I twisted my foot and my foot became swollen. At that time, I did not pay attention to this; then later, I twisted my foot again, the same foot I injured previously, but I still did not enlighten and continued to act as before.
At that time, I did not think I was doing anything wrong; I just felt like playing. I hung out with my friends and classmates in different places, and I thought that was quite normal. In this big dye vat of ordinary people, it is easy to be pulled down by different things. Playing with ordinary people, hanging out, I felt very happy. I actually was lost in delusion and in the human world. I couldn’t even realise how lost I had become. I couldn’t measure myself according to the Fa and I couldn’t treat myself as a practitioner. Due to my lack of Fa study, I didn’t even realise I was moving away from the Fa further and further.
But Master did not give up on me. He enlightened me again and again, but I still could not awaken from human society’s big dye vat. Finally, 2 months ago, the coordinator, chief editor and vice editor of the media I was working with said they wanted to talk with me. At that time, I started to look within. Did I do something that wasn’t good? Wasn’t I careful enough with my layout work or other work? To my surprise, what they talked about was not my layout work; instead, they talked about my cultivation situation over the last 2 years. No Fa study, no exercise practice for a long time; there was no Fa, no righteous thoughts, no goals in my head. I was already lost in the human world. Their sharing and reminder to me was a stick warning to me. It let me realise I had been far away from the Fa and been deeply lost. I worried whether I would still be able to come back, whether I would still have the chance to come back. But one sentence from the chief editor gave me confidence: “It does not matter what you did previously and what you were like before. You are a piece of white paper; the only part that is black is just a corner. Just erase it quickly. That is OK.” That evening, I held Zhuan Falun and started to read it again. The cordial feeling made my arms feel warm. During studying the Fa, I gradually saw the path I will go and should go down. The purpose of living in this world for me is not to stay with those ordinary people, but to cultivate myself and save sentient beings. This is what Master told me and awakened in me via practitioners’ mouths, and this saved me from confusion and being lost.
Come back to the Fa; I clearly knew what I should do and what I should not do. When the Fa is in my heart, what tribulations and interference can stop me? I will not only cultivate myself well, there are also many sentient beings waiting for me to save them. Anyway, I will catch up with the progress of Fa rectification.
After that sharing, in order to make young practitioners more diligent and also to reduce problems, the media coordinator organised a Fa-study group for young practitioners once a week. And I joined as well. Although at the beginning my reading was not very smooth, I tried my best to read and learn by heart, and I tried not to make any mistakes and read it into my heart.
After one month after the Fa-study group was established, something happened. One day, I was driving out from the back door. The car in front of me had already driven out and half of the car was on the road. I was following it, but suddenly it stopped and my car hit it. The driver was very angry and criticised me: “What are you doing? Don’t you know how to drive?!” I kept saying sorry, but he asked for a $2500 payment. I was scared. I had never had any crash or car accident, and the bill was big for me. I did not know what to do. I was wondering: “Why is it so? Recently, I have been diligent; I have kept reading the Fa and doing the exercises. Why has this thing still happened to me? Why didn’t Master take care of me?"
Suddenly, some Fa came to my mind, which I had studied several weeks before in Fa Teaching at the 2013 Greater New York Fa Conference: “The old forces have sought to make this a confusing environment and supposedly ‘test’ people. They have wanted to see whether your understanding of the Fa is real and whether you believe. So they have intentionally mingled true and false and made it hard for people to see things clearly.” Then I thought: “That’s right, isn’t it a test for me?” Then I talked to Master: “I believe in this Fa; I need Master’s help.” After this thought came out, I was not that scared and calmed down. I called my friend whose work is repairing cars. He told me was not worth that much, at most $500. Then I bargained with that driver. I said I did not have that much money; the most I could give was $500. But he wouldn’t accept that. I kept sending righteous thoughts to him and told him: “Please trust me; my friend said $500 is enough to repair your car.”
our conversation, he came to know I was a student, and he realised I really
didn’t have money to pay him. He compromised and said $500 was ok. I was
excited because I was saving $2000. Then he drove me home to get the money. On
the way, I realised that meeting him was not a coincidence. Should I say
something? With this thought, I started to chat with him. I asked where he came
from and he said
On my way back home, I was crying because I could feel the greatness and compassion of Master, and I understood the Fa principle Master explained that whatever happens is a good thing for cultivators. I know that no matter what, Master will not ignore me. As long as I want to cultivate, as long as I remain diligent and study the Fa, Master will help me with his compassion and send those predestined sentient beings to me. Although I was slack before, Master did not give up on me and is still taking care of me.
In the future, I will study the Fa, do the three things well, and help Master rectify the Fa. In my future media work, I will do my best with everything and take full care. I know human beings have laziness. If I do something improper in the future, please point it out and be tolerant.
Last, but not least, I want to thank Master and I want to say: “Master, I will not fail You. I came back, I know where my home is and I know which path leads me home.”
Thank you all for listening. If anything is improper, please correct it.
Thank you Master. Thank you all.