為法而來的寶寶

 

我的女兒剛剛半歲大,同修們都說她福氣大,生在大法弟子的家庭,是有來頭的。我深深知道女兒 就是為大法而來的,與大法有緣,所以為她改名為惜緣,珍惜與大法的緣分。

 

其實我結婚之後曾一度覺得不想要孩子,一個是自己工作太忙,還有做大法的事情,我覺得沒有時 間精力兼顧,更認為如果生孩子不能工作的話,只靠丈夫一個人賺錢,家裡經濟壓力也太大了。但是修煉的路是師父安排的,不 是我想說了算的。去年三月份的時候,我去同修家請師父法像,結果那天我的結婚戒指不見了。當時我就悟到,師父是叫我“不 要戒子”,就是說要生孩子。我心裡還不想接受。結果不久真的發現自己懷孕了。當時我對著師父法像說:“師父,我知道這個 孩子是為了大法而來的,她是大法弟子,我不會辜負了她來世的唯一目的的。”

 

寶寶從在我肚子裡就開始跟著我學法,但是慚愧的是我煉功沒有很勤快,可能因為這樣,我開始四 個月的妊娠反應比較嚴重,經常嘔吐,以致工作也沒辦法繼續做,只好在家呆著。只能靠丈夫一個人賺錢,當時我覺得我們兩個 人壓力都很大,丈夫每天工作都很辛苦時間很長,煉功學法都受到影響,而我覺得每天都要看丈夫臉色做人,一度覺得很抑鬱。 後來悟到這都是幹擾,就在家每天抄法發正念,排除幹擾、否認自己不好的想法觀念和思想業力。後來學法和向內找之後發現, 是自己變異了的觀念,如所謂“男女平等”、“女人也可以比男人能幹”等想法讓我難受。因為修煉前我就是一個很要強的人, 覺得自己不需要靠男人生活,自己能獨立。雖然結婚之後我都儘量以大法的法理來要求自己,尊重丈夫,但是失去工作使我非常 沒有安全感,覺得要靠別人的滋味很難受。其實師父在1997年的紐約座談會講法回答弟子有關花丈夫的錢算不算失德的提問已經講的很清楚 了:夫妻就是這樣一種關係,不存在這個問題。現在為甚麼你提這個問題呢,就是因為現在人為的把這種人的倫理給敗壞了。而 恰恰就是這變異的觀念使我感到抑鬱,明白了之後感覺輕鬆了很多,也更能從丈夫的角度去體諒關心對方。

 

生孩子的過程也是一個考驗。我剛剛進入醫院待產的時候就不斷有醫生或助產士問我要不要止痛 藥,他們還勸我吃一點沒有關係,對小孩沒有影響。我都只是感謝他們的好意,並沒有接受。但是隨著陣痛越來越強烈,我的承 受能力也幾乎到了極限。我並不是一個很能忍受疼痛的人,我也是因為怕痛一直盤不好腿,以致打坐時間久久不能突破一小時。 而生產的陣痛那是來的更強烈,而且也不知道何時是盡頭。這個時候助產士又來問我要不要進行吸氧或注射止痛藥,我還是咬咬 牙拒絕了,只是要求在產房播放我帶來的普度濟世MP3音樂。雖然聽著大法音樂,但是我的疼痛卻沒有因此減少。我當時感覺好像就在無望中一直忍受 著,幾度冒起了想放棄忍受的念頭。只能在心裡不斷的念“難忍能忍,難行能行”。實在不行的時候就跟自己說:“想想國內被 迫害的同修,他們承受的痛苦是你的千百倍,你這點痛算什麼。”這樣大概堅持了7個小時,終於開始生產了,過程很順利,不到一個小時就女兒就生出來了,七斤半,很健康。過後 助產士還對我放的普度濟世音樂很感興趣,我後來就把音樂燒錄到CD盤連同女兒的照片寄給了她。她後來回信說音樂很好聽,還說把我女兒的照片貼在了醫院的牆上。

 

我媽媽當時還沒有修煉,但是明白真相也支援我們煉功。她就覺得我女兒跟普通小孩不一樣,不吵 也不鬧。我媽媽就說,學大法的孩子就是不一樣,在娘胎裡就聽大法歌聽法,也特別懂事,跟她講話她好像都能聽懂。我就跟我 媽媽說,一定要堅持每天給小孩聽師父講法,還有大法音樂,媽媽也很贊同。

 

後來我發現我修煉狀態好時女兒就特別乖,我狀態不好的時候她就會鬧。推神韻期間特別明顯,如 果我一天都在家忙別的事情,她就特別鬧,一會這一回那,弄得我疲於奔命。如果我需要出門推神韻,她就特別乖。我一直都堅 持母乳餵養,如果要外出就提前把奶擠出來放冰箱作為儲備。有一次我必須去比較遠的地方跟房產仲介談贊助神韻宣傳板的事 情,一來一回至少要大半天,但是儲備的奶不夠兩頓,我就跟女兒說:“媽媽現在要去推神韻,你要幫媽媽發正念,媽媽會儘快 回來,你如果怕肚子餓就睡多一點。”女兒很認真的看著我,我覺得她聽懂了就出去了。結果等我回來的時候,女兒才剛睡醒, 問我媽媽她也覺得很奇怪,說今天喂完她一頓之後她就一直睡,比平時多睡了一倍時間。類似的事情很多,我覺得女兒真的是很 配合的好同修。

 

更可喜的是,因為我媽媽每天給女兒放師父講法錄音,她也跟著聽,她越聽越覺得師父講的有道 理,最近也主動要學法。其實我媽媽當年也是看過書的,只是還沒開始煉功鎮壓就開始了。雖然不修煉,但是她一直保留著一本 《轉法輪》,就放在家裡的書櫃。現在她已經在看第二遍的《轉法輪》,也開始跟著我學功了。這都是師父的安排,我感覺到師 父真的為我們每一個人都費盡了心血,不想放棄任何一個有緣人。師父一直都在等著我們每一個人,包括新老學員、昔日的同 修。

 

最後我想用《轉法輪》最後一段講法與大家共勉:“我主要提出點要求:希望大家在今後的修煉當 中,把自己當成一個煉功人,真正修煉下去。我希望新老學員,都能在大法中修煉,都能夠功成圓滿!希望大家回去抓緊時間實 修。”

 

合十!

墨爾本大法弟子:馨妍

 

Baby that comes for Dafa

 

My daughter is now 6 months old, fellow practitioners all say that she is very fortunate to be able to born in Dafa disciples’ family, and she must have an extraordinary background. I know in my heart that my daughter comes for Dafa. Since she has a predestined relationship with Dafa, I gave her the name “Xi Yuan”, meaning “cherish the predestined relationship”.

 

After I got married, I didn’t plan to have kids at the beginning. It was because my job was very busy and I have to work on Dafa projects as well, I didn’t think I would have enough time and energy to handle a child. Also I didn’t like the idea of staying at home and letting my husband work and earn all the money. I believed that we will face financial hardship if that was the case. However, my way of cultivation is arranged by Master not by myself. In March last year, one day I went to a fellow practitioner’s home to get Master’s framed picture, and my wedding ring went missing. At that time I realized that Master is telling me to give up the idea of not having kids, but I still didn’t want to accept that. Soon after that I found myself pregnant. I then stood in front of Master’s picture and said: “Master, I know this child comes for Dafa, she’s a Dafa disciple. I will not forsake her only purpose to come to the world. ”

 

My daughter studied Fa while in my tummy, but it’s a shame that I was not diligent enough to practise the exercises every day. Maybe that’s the reason why I felt pretty sick in the first four months and vomited a lot. I could not work and had to stay home. Both my husband and I felt the pressure since he’s the only source of income. My husband needed to work long hours and it was labour intensive which affected his Fa study and exercises. I also felt depressed since I have to read his face and react to his mood. I then realized this was all interference and I started to copy Fa and sent righteous thoughts to eliminate interference and to eliminate my thought karma. When I looked inward, I found out that it was my distorted values such as “men and women should be equal”, and “women can be more capable than men” that made me feel bad. Before practising Falun Dafa, I had a strong ego and was very independent. I believed that I could live a good life by myself. Although I tried my best to use Dafa’s teaching to respect my husband after I married, I still felt very insecure when I gave up my job and had to rely on him. Actually, Master stated very clearly in Teaching the Fa at a New York Meeting in 1997 when he answered disciple’s question of “Does spending my husband’s money count as losing virtue (de)?” Master answered:” That’s how the relationship is between a husband and wife, so this problem doesn’t exist. Why do you raise this question now? Because people have corrupted these human ethics.” I felt much lighter when I discovered these corrupted and distorted thoughts which made me depressed, and I could really put myself into my husband’s shoes and understand him.

 

The process of giving birth to my child was also challenging. When I got to the hospital for the delivery of my baby, doctors and midwives often came and offered me painkillers, and told me it’s fine to have some and it’s not going to affect the baby. I just thanked them and didn’t take it. But as the contractions got stronger, my ability to endure pain was reaching its limit. I am not the kind of person who can tolerance much pain, and that’s why I was very bad at sitting in double lotus position and could not meditate longer than one hour. The labour pain was even stronger and seemed endless. The midwife came again and offered me an injection. I still refused but asked for my Pu Du and Ji Sh MP3 to be played. My pain didn’t cease while listened to Dafa music, and I didn’t know when the end of my suffering would come. I repeated to myself "It’s hard to endure, but you can endure it. It’s hard to do, but you can do it." When I was about to give up, I said to myself, ”think of the persecution what practitioners in mainland China have suffered. Your pain is nothing compared to theirs ” After seven hours, I started to give birth, and it was pretty fast and smooth, I delivered my daughter within an hour. She was 3.75kilo and very healthy. The midwife was very interested in Pu Du and Ji Shi music. I later sent her a CD copy of the music with my daughter’s photo. Then she replied that she just loved the music and she also put my daughter’s photo on the hospital’s “wall of fame”.

 

My mum was not practising cultivation at that time, but she knew the truth and supported us. She noticed that my daughter was not like some other babies who cry a lot, and is very peaceful. My mum said that a Dafa baby is really different, and my daughter seemed to understand when people talked to her. I asked mum to play Master’s lecture to her everyday and also let her listen to Dafa music, and my mum agreed.

 

Later I realised that my daughter behaves well when I am diligent, but if my cultivation status was not good, she became naughty. It was very obvious during Shen Yun promotion period that if I stayed home and busied myself with other stuff, she behaved very badly, and then I was even more busy and tired trying to calm her down. When I went to go out to promote Shen Yun, she was well-behaved. I always breast fed my daughter and I will expel milk and keep it in the fridge before I go out. One day I needed to go out to talk to a real estate agent about the sponsorship of a Shen Yun advertising board. It was on the other side of the city and it would take at least half a day before I could come back. But I didn’t have enough milk put by in the fridge for the whole day. I told my daughter that: mum is going to promote Shen Yun, please send righteous thoughts for mum. I will be back as soon as I can, but sleep longer in case you are hungry. My daughter was looking at me while I talked to her and she seemed to understand. Then I went out. By the time I made it home, she was just waking up. My mum told me that my daughter went to sleep after being fed, and slept twice as long as usual. Similar things happened a few times, my daughter is indeed a very good fellow practitioner who cooperates well.

 

It was great that my mum also listened to Master’s lecture everyday when she play them to my daughter, and the more she listens the more she agrees with what Master says. Thus, she started to read Zhuan Falun recently. My mum actually read Zhuan Falun once many years ago, but the persecution started before she even learned the exercises. Although she didn’t practise cultivation, she still kept Zhuan Falun at home on the book shelf. Now she’s reading Zhuan Falun for the second time and has learned to do the exercises with me. These things are all arranged by Master. I really feel that Master has done a lot for every one of us, and he doesn’t want to give up on anyone who has a predestined relationship. Master is waiting for us all, including veteran, new practitioners and those who used to be practitioners but have lapsed.

 

I would like to finish my sharing with the last paragraph of Zhuan Falun“I will mainly make a few requirements: I hope that all of you will treat yourselves as practitioners in future cultivation practice and truly continue your cultivation practice. I hope that both veteran and new practitioners will be able to practice cultivation in Dafa and succeed in it! I hope that after going home everyone will make the best use of his or her time for genuine cultivation practice.”

 

He Shi!