修炼之前，我不明白为什么历史上的修炼人能够日日夜夜苦志学法，与青灯黄卷相伴终生。不吃好吃的东西了，不交 漂亮朋友了，多没意思啊。今生我有幸得真法，明白了许多不解的问题。修炼中，我受过寂寞之苦。等横下心来顶过去之后，苦尽甘来。我发现那 个空门，不仅不凄清，相反竟是那般圣洁、美好。在学法修心中，我体会最深的是忍耐寂寞的妙处。师父说：“人最怕啥？寂寞。”（《什么是大 法弟子》2011年纽约法会讲法）大法修炼者在这物欲横流的社会，不受现实的诱惑。除了做好本职工作，及为传真相而广泛接触社 会外，都甘于寂寞，精进实修。我曾这样问一位中国人：“来到海外，你习惯这里的生活吗？”他无奈的说：“我不习惯这儿的寂寞。”国外不像 国内那般热闹喧嚣，一般的人难以忍受这份空寂。我说：“能耐住寂寞是取得大成就的关键。你看过去的学生，拜在老师的门下，十年八年也正 常。”他微笑着说：“那就要修炼啊。”在以后的交谈中，他提出几个问题，向我了解了法轮功的真相。
从古至今，从帝王将相到贩夫走卒，似乎没有一个不孤独的。纵然显赫一世，也难摆脱寂寞。因为常人社会不是生命 的归宿，每个生命都在求索。然而修炼者的寂寞与凡人的寂寞是迥异的。前者不是无病呻吟，而是在艰苦的修炼中磨去各种欲望和执著后，升华到 一定境界中，身边没有多少人能共鸣，甚至无人倾诉。还要坚持到最后一分一秒，才能到家。这种孤独是高尚的。而常人的寂寥多因为名利情得不 到满足，而发出的感慨忧愁。修炼的人修一思一念，即使在凄凉透骨的孤独中，也做足内修的功课。
师父说：“可是在无望的寂寞中默默的修，看不到希望，那是最难的。任何一种修炼都会经过这样的考验，都会在这 样的路中走。能够持之以恒啊，不断的精进，那才是真精进。这话是这么讲，做起来实在是太难了。所以说修炼如初，必成正果。”（《2009年大纽约国际法会讲法》）我从大学毕业至 今，除了做过两份短暂的工作外，18个月的时间里都在找工作，其间的愁烦阻塞可想而知。我在国内是英语老师，那么在英语国家就缺少了一技之长。英 语不是我的母语，所以不可能去学校教英语。我在澳洲只有3个月的工作经历，又逢全球经济萧瑟。作为一个修炼者，我不会变的六神无主。18个月来，我不断的向内去修。表面上是我缺 乏常人的技能，实质上是受了业力的阻碍。如果没有业力，就不会碰到困难。我知道自己曾经做错了什么。人一定要具备了厚德，才会有相应的利 益。在痛苦中，我问自己：“如果真的碰到山穷水尽，我的信心还有多大？我正信的程度在哪里？我还能一修到底吗？”其实再大的磨难都是好 事。我珍惜这个亲身磨炼自己的机会，我要看看我的心能否从困难中走出来。我能不能身在世上，心在尘外？
无论多么困苦无援，我都能打起十二分精神做好三件事。在一时看不到希望的情况下，如果还能像雄狮一样，那是修 炼啊！精血诚聚、广传真相是我持久的状态。凭这一点，我坚信自己不会穷的。父母亲劝我不要沮丧，他们认为困难是暂时的，叫我对经济不必有 任何担忧。弟子的一切财富都是师父所赐，在难中我深深体会到师父的护持和佛法的强大慈悲。找工作遭到拒绝时，我偶尔会产生自卑的心理。通 过不断的学法、学法、再学法，我归正了思想。其实自卑是对生命不负责任的表现。在寂寞无助中还能保持一份淡定，那是修炼人应做到的。诗仙 李白有云：“天生我材必有用，千金散尽还复来。”人不可妄自菲薄的。师父 赋予了每个弟子证实法的能力，而弟子的生 活、工作等一切的一切都在修炼范畴之内。所碰到的坎坷不就是用来磨炼心性，考验弟子的正信吗？当我能用正念对待困难时，我失去了常人的哀 怨，增强了修炼的信心。
18个月后的一天，我接到一位印度人的电话。 他和他的太太为申请绿卡，需要提高英语成绩，问我能不能教他们或者教一个班。这条路慢慢的走开了，那种柳暗花明的境界是不是就在修炼者坚 定的信念中？
个人修炼是正法修炼的基础。一个对自己不松懈的人，在这个历史时期，一定不放松一丝一毫的努力，争分夺秒讲清 真相。倘若不好好修炼自己，讲真相时会略显苍白，不能在有限的时间里一下子说到问题的实质。而且，修不好自己，众生也不能得救。我非常注 重自己的修为。无论在中国大陆，还是在海外，我传播真相时很少遭到拒绝。甚至对方能听一两个小时。圣人舜生活的年代没有手机、没有电视， 无法宣传。可是天下的人都知道他品格浑厚，都喜欢亲近他。因为修德是最实在的，很容易引起关注。如果我们平时都能在这颗心上狠下功夫，那 么在讲真相的时候何愁不能广传真相呢？相反如果修炼的比重不够，讲真相的事可能像做善事，范围也难以扩大。我致力于自己的周围，我悟到我 的生活环境一定是我的修炼环境。我和两位女生住在学生公寓。她们每天基本上饭后不洗碗，不倒垃圾，不打理厨房与洗手间的卫生。我有时能乐 呵呵的忍，有时愤愤不平。我几乎每天要洗所有的碗。当她们对我的付出不在意时，我更生气了。师父说，“一个修炼的人所能遇到的一切都会与 你们的修炼、圆满有关，否则绝不会有。”（《大法是圆容的》 精进要旨二 ）我碰到这件事，是要把烦躁、发火、爱指责别人的心去掉，充实自己的佛性。同时把怕吃亏的心理放下，在这件事 上修出修炼者之忍。四年过去了，现在即使她们什么都不做，我也不放在心上。一天，她们中的一位问我，“法轮大法是什么？人们在共产政权 下，不能说真话，真是令人恼火。”另一位对我说，“共产党的洗脑真可恶啊。”当我能用慈悲、正念对待这个事时，我没有了常人的气恨、委 屈；我身边的人都能用善念对待大法。我再次细心体悟了师父讲的“修内而安外”。大概是重视个人修炼的缘故，我在学校、宿舍、公交车和唐人 街讲真相时，常常有人表达出强大的正念。在车上，一位女生听了真相后，问我：“是不是退了以后，我就自由了？那我就退。” 我问一对夫妇，“你们听说过济公在飞来峰下的故事吗？”他们说：“听过。我们一直在找一条路。”他们欣然同意 三退。在唐人街，一位学生倾听了真相后，对我说：“你看那些在天安门广场围观的人，多么愚昧。你应该跟他们讲真相。”
修炼始终存在考验。不会因为我要讲真相了，一切都顺利。在唐人街讲真相的4年中，我的热情未有丝毫的减弱。然而，当 没有人对这件事表示关心时，我会难过。有一天去唐人街的路上，我在想：我毕竟是修炼的人，我的心能超越这种苦。即使没人问我，我也能当成 锤炼心性的机会。正念一出，我就碰到可贵的人。我走近一位中国人，告诉他法轮功是什么。他打断了我的话，表示不耐烦：“对不起，我不感兴 趣。”我说：“作为一个人，不能漠视别人的痛苦。如果这是跟生命存留有关的信息，你还不想了解吗？” 于是他继续听我说。问道：“我有一个好奇 心。法轮功为什么被迫害呢？” 我说：“这不是好奇心。你是在负责任的提问题。”之后，他同意三退。实际上他提问的时候，已经得救了。我再次 悟到修炼心性与讲真相效果之间的关系。
修炼的人要转变观念，放下在常人中做事的习惯和喜好。每个生命都有自己的脾气、禀性。这种禀性与生生世世的生 活环境和扮演的角色都有关系。在相当长的时间里，我只喜欢耿直率真、才气逼人的文人士子，对其他的人不怎么关注。这种性格距离真善忍太远 了。修炼中我不断纠正自己，把喜欢什么、不喜欢什么看淡。去年年底，网站上发表了一篇我写的采访报导。我一看，我的心就被冲击了。报导经 过修改，但没有与我商量。我觉的改过的文章显得松散。为什么我结构紧凑的报导反而被代替呢？这一定是师父让我在做事的同时，修炼自己，去 掉思想中的狭隘。过去，我非常愿意倾听严守心性、做事紧凑的同修对我慈悲指正。我厌倦做事中的松懈。紧凑与松懈这两种物质不相容。如今， 我也能和较松懈的人合作。在合作的过程中，不是去比较表面的技术水平，而是看自己的心性在这件事中能不能升华上去。
我曾去悉尼帮助推广神韵。一位协调人说：“我作为协调人，就希望我能把这一串珍珠都串起来。”这是多么纯正的 心态啊，一下子说到我心里去了。跟同修一起卖票是多么幸福。与大家配合的过程中，我深深的领略到同修的美好。一位白人几次来到我们的摊 位。第一次她买了本画册，她觉的神韵晚会像一幅画。她渴望看演出。然而她的丈夫已年过80，近期又要搬家。她担心他受不了路途奔 波，所以一直没能下决心买票。我的同修表示愿意开车接送，以免去她的顾虑。第二天，这位女士终于又来到摊位。她依然犹豫不决，给我们留下 了联系方式，只是不能马上买票。她走后，我和同修商量着是否索性先帮她买票。这时，我不敢相信自己的眼睛。她再次来到我们身边。这一定是 师父的巧安排。面对她的顾虑，同修对她说：“如果你对自己有信心，上天会照顾你的。”同修慈悲的话语像神的状态。这位女士转而问我：“你 为什么认为我们一定会来看演出呢？”我说：“你看演出时，会感受到很强的希望。我们的愿望就是盼着每一个人都能得救。”她的眼圈红了，坚 定的说:“那我一定来看。”于是同修帮她订了两张很好的票。这位女士还主动的向我们了解法轮功是什么，因为她从神韵画 册中看到了一些发生在当代中国的真实的故事。我在做这件事的过程中，悟到救人要持之以恒。哪怕在无望中，在自己的工作生活没有着落的情况 下，都不可松懈。真能做到时，修炼中的艰苦与美好同在。
除了推广神韵，我一直珍惜身边讲真相的机会。我家离学校很近，我常去学校对中国学生讲真象。他们几乎都有对民 主的向往。我抓住这一点，启发他们的责任感，劝他们了解真相、退出中共。一位学生了解真相后，平和的对我说：“你们就是弱势群体，不过你 们比义和团要强。” 我说：“是啊，法轮功学员一直坚持理性的讲真象。作为你来说，读书人以天下为己任。只要你跟中共决裂，你就为 民主出了一份力。”他点头同意三退。我的一个朋友在国内做美术老师，我曾经在电话里对他讲真相、劝三退，并把师父的《在美术创作交流会上 的讲法》介绍给他。不久，在以后的通话中，他告诉我自己的职业在社会上非常重要，已经意识到了现代派艺术并不美。他教学生刻苦练习美术的 基本功，力求造型的精确。他的教学得到领导和学生的充分肯定。他的一位学生在全国十几万考生中，以第四名的成绩考上四川美术学院。同时， 身教重于言传。作为男老师，他把以前蓄的长发剪掉了。从此致力于正统美术的研习。听到这些，对佛法无边我惊叹不已。
Work Harder at Cultivating Xinxing; Work Harder at Saving Sentient Beings
Greetings, revered Master!
Greetings, fellow practitioners!
My cultivation has some improvement. Here I would like to report to revered Master.
Before practicing Falun Gong, I did not understand why the cultivators in the past could persist with their ways so diligently. Neither did they eat anything delicious nor did they find good-looking friends. In this life I am most honored to obtain Dafa and able to understand many such issues. In my cultivation I experienced loneliness. When I was willing enough to endure that, I found that happiness was in my own hands. Cultivation is not cold and cheerless; rather, it is holy and pure. During my Fa studies and xinxing cultivation, I deeply felt the wonderful effects of enduring loneliness. Master states that: “What do people fear most of all? Loneliness” (What is a Dafa Disciple? Fa Teaching Given at the 2011 New York Fa Conference). Dafa disciples can resist the temptations of modern society. Practitioners communicating with ordinary people extensively only when clarifying the truth. I once asked a Chinese person: “Do you get used to the lifestyle in Australia?” He said, “I don’t get accustomed to the loneliness.” Western countries are not as lively as China. Ordinary people cannot tolerate this. I replied: “Whether you can tolerate loneliness it is the key to great accomplishment. It was fairly common in the past that students had to be with (nobody but) their teachers for over 10 years.” He said: “That means we need to cultivate.” Then he raised some more questions and eventually found out about the truth of Falun Gong.
From ancient times to the present, from the kings, generals and ministers to peddlers, nobody could avoid experiencing loneliness. Even if they were successful in their careers, they would found it hard to free themselves from loneliness. This is because human society is not our permanent home and everyone is seeking something. Nevertheless, there are significant differences between a cultivator's loneliness and an everyday people’s loneliness. The real cultivators will not moan about being lonely. On eliminating various desires and attachments, they could reach a certain realm. However they could find few people to communicate with. Moreover, they should persist with their cultivation to go back to their place of origin. This kind of loneliness is noble. By contrast, everyday people feel lonely due to the dissatisfaction that wealth and fame has not necessarily made them happy. Cultivators will look inside, examine and try to remove each human notion, even when they feel extremely lonely.
1. Looking inside - a deep conversation with myself
Master stated that to quietly cultivate in bleak loneliness, with no hope of an ending in sight, would be the hardest of all. Doing any form of cultivation entails undergoing trials such as this on a difficult path.. Only if one can persevere and continually forge ahead does it amount to true diligence. It's easy to talk about, but putting it into action is tremendously difficult. That is why it's said that always cultivating as if you were just starting will surely result in achieving your ultimate level (Fa Teaching at 2009 Greater New York International Fa Conference). On finishing my university degree, I worked at two temporary jobs. It took 18 months to find a proper job. I certainly felt worried about that situation. I was teaching English in China. That is, I don’t have specific skills that are useful in English-speaking countries. As English is not my first language, it is impossible to teach English at schools in Australia. I had only three months of work experience in Australia. Meanwhile, many countries are experiencing economic recession. However, as a practitioner, I would not be at a loss. Throughout those 18 months, I kept looking inside. I seemed to lack the skills to secure a good job. In fact, my job applications were hindered by my karma. Without karma, I would not be encountering any difficulty. I was aware of what I have done wrong. Only when we have great virtue can we fulfill the corresponding wishes. When in mental pain I asked myself: “How strong is my faith? Can I keep going if I cannot solve the current problem?” In fact, no matter how hard it is, it would be a good thing. I cherished this opportunity to upgrade my xinxing. I would assess whether my xinxing level was higher than the level of the hardship. Although I'm living in a human society, can my heart be detached from the secular society？
No matter how helpless I had been feeling, I would still be highly motivated to do the Three Things. I realise that I must be as strong and brave as a lion even when I could not see any hope for the future. This was my cultivation indeed. Being truly diligent and clarifying the truth has been my staple condition. For this reason, there is no chance of me falling into poverty. My parents encouraged me to think positively. They reckoned that the hardship was temporary and that there was no need to worry too much about money. I believe that each disciple’s wealth is given by Master. I could deeply feel Master’s mighty compassion. When my job applications were rejected I would feel a bit inferior. I rectified this human notion through my perseverance in Fa studies. Actually, I understood that being feeling inferior would not a responsible attitude for me. It is essential that a practitioner keep perfectly calm when going through hardships. Li Bai, a renowned poet in the Tang dynasty, said that one was born to be useful and money is bound to come somehow. We should never belittle ourselves. Master has entrusted to each of us the abilities of Fa validation. All the problems that we have encountered are part of our cultivation. Therefore all the hardships are used to test our xinxing and the level of faith. When I faced the difficulty with righteous thoughts, I strengthened my confidence and banished the sadness.
I received a call from an Indian man after 18 months. He and his wife needed to improve their English test results for Permanent Visa applications. He asked me whether I wanted to teach them or even teach a class. It seemed that I found a way to solve my problem. At the realm of the shaded willows, the blooms of flowers is in a disciple’s strong faith, isn’t it?
Personal cultivation is the foundation of Fa rectification cultivation. At this particular time, a person who is strict with his personal cultivation can undoubtedly race against time to clarify the facts. Should we not cultivate ourselves diligently, we would not be able to point out the key issues promptly during facts clarification. Moreover, without sufficient personal cultivation, sentient beings cannot be saved. I put great emphasis on my cultivation. Rarely was I refused when clarifying the facts in the past ten years. Many people even listened to me for up to two hours. The great sage Shun lived in Ancient China where there were no mobile phones and TV sets.. Regardless of that, all people were aware of his perfect virtues and liked to approach him. This is because cultivating one’s moral character can attract many people’s attentions. If we are passionate about cultivating xinxing, we don’t have to worry about whether the truth can be spread extensively. On the contrary, if cultivation is inadequate, then the truth clarification would only be as good as doing good deeds (like an ordinary person), also it would be hard to widening the areas of truth clarification. I put a lot of effort into talking to people around me. My living environment must be my cultivation environment. I stayed with two female students in an apartment. Seldom do they wash the dishes, clean the kitchen and bathroom. Sometimes I could tolerate this happily, sometimes I could not. I have to wash all the dishes nearly on a daily basis. I got angry when they don’t care what I have done for them. Why did I encounter such a problem? It is mainly because I need to strengthen my Buddha nature by eliminating my tendency of blaming others. Meanwhile, I had to get rid off the attachment of not wanting to be put at a disadvantage position. Four years have passed and I don’t feel upset any more, even if they don’t clean anything. One of them asked me, “What is Falun Dafa? The communist rulers do not allow people to speak honestly. This is annoying.” The other said, “It is terrible that the CCP brainwashes people.” When I dealt with the issue properly, I no long have any anger in me. People staying with me will return the compassion of a Dafa practitioner with their own kindness. I remembered that Master tells us to pacify the external by cultivating the internal (Essentials for Further Advancement).
Due to my emphasis on personal cultivation, many people expressed their very kind thoughts when I clarified the facts in schools, my apartment block, buses and Chinatown. When I rode in a bus, a girl asked me, “Can I get my freedom after I quit the CCP? If that is the case, I will quit it.” I asked a couple, “Have you heard about the story of Jigong?” They replied, “Yes we did. We are seeking a way.” They renounced the CCP too. In Chinatown, a Chinese student said to me, “Those bystanders who were just watching the crackdown that happened in Tiananmen Square were so ignorant. You should tell them about the facts.”
We need to take tests in our cultivation from the start to the end. Thing won't go smoothly because I need to clarify the facts. During the four years’ truth clarification in Chinatown, my passion has never weakened. However, I felt a bit upset when nobody seemed to care about what I had to say. One day on my way to Chinatown I thought that, as a cultivator, I can overcome my sadness. Even if nobody cares about what I am doing in Chinatown, I will cultivate my xinxing. Once I had sent forth righteous thoughts on this, I met a very good Chinese person. I told him what Falun Gong is about. He looked impatient and said, “Sorry. I am not interested in this.” I said, “We are human beings, so we should not be indifferent to the sufferings of others. If the information that I conveyed had something to do with your safety, will you be concerned about it?” Then he became willing to listen to me. He asked, “I am curious. Why has Falun Gong been persecuted?” I replied, “This is a reasonable question. You have shown a responsible attitude by raising that question.” He renounced the CCP shortly afterwards. Actually he was saved when he raised such an important question. I came to understand the relationship between xinxing level and our effectiveness in clarifying the facts.
Cultivators need to change all the human notions, letting go of the habits that things are done in the human society. Everyone has his own personality which is related to the roles that he had played in previous lives. During a long period of time, I only liked educated people who are truthful and upright. I was not very concerned about other types. This personality was too far away from Zhen Shan Ren. I keep rectifying this in my cultivation. At the end of last year a report of mine was published. I was shocked when I saw it because it had been modified a lot. Moreover, they did not let me know before they modified the report. The modified version was not tightly structured. Why had they replaced my concise analysis with their loose structure? It occurred because Master gave me the opportunity to let go of my narrow-mindedness. In the past, I was very willing to listen to my fellow practitioners who are strict with themselves. I was intolerant of inefficiency. Now I can also co-operate with people who don’t work fast. During our co-operation, it is important to see whether my xinxing can be upgraded rather than competing with others’ abilities.
2. Clarifying the facts and saving sentient beings
I went to Sydney to help promoting Shen Yun. A coordinator said that she wants to do everything correctly and successfully. I was touched by her pure thoughts. For this reason, I felt happy when selling tickets with fellow practitioners. Throughout our period of cooperation, I really appreciated the great abilities of others. When we were selling tickets in a shopping centre, a lady came to visit us a couple of times. On the first occasion, she took a brochure. She wanted to see the show as she thought Shen Yun looked like a beautiful painting. However her husband was over eighty years old. Also, they were moving to a new place. She did not buy the tickets for fearing that her husband could not travel that much. In order to solve this problem, my fellow practitioner decided to offer her a lift. On the following day, she came to visit us again. She still hesitated to buy the tickets, but she gave us her contact number. When she left, we were thinking about whether we should just buy the tickets for her right now. To my surprise, she turned up again. This was actually Master’s arrangement. Regarding her concerns, my fellow practitioner said to her: “If you have confidence, then Heaven will look after you.” Her kind words came out like the words of a god. The lady asked me: “Why do you think that we will come to see the show?” I replied: “You can feel a strong sense of hope when you see the show.” She nearly cried and said, “I must come.” Then my fellow practitioner booked two tickets for her. Also, the lady asked us what Falun Gong is all about, as she learned something of what has occurred in the current China from the Shen Yun booklet. When we sold the tickets, I realized that I should persevere with our task of saving people. I should not get distracted even when it appears to be slim in finding a job. Once I had met the standard, I found happiness amongst hardships in cultivation.
Besides Shen Yun promotion, I cherished every opportunity to clarify the facts. My accommodation is close to a university, so I often clarify the facts to Chinese students. Many students yearn for democracy, so I made the most of this to encourage them to renounce the CCP. One student observed that: “Although you are a vulnerable groups, you are stronger than the the Boxer Uprising.” I said, “Falun Gong practitioners keep clarifying the truth peacefully. As you are an intellectual, you shall one day be responsible for the country. As long as you break away from the CCP, you are contributing to China's democracy.” Then he renounced the CCP. One of my friends works as a fine arts teacher in China. I clarified the facts to him over the telephone. Also, I introduced Master’s Teaching the Fa at the Discussion on Creating Fine Art to him. Later on, he told me that his profession is very important in the society and he does not like modern art. He encouraged his students to practise diligently to achieve a solid mastery of the essential arts skills. His superiors and students gave him very positive feedbacks on his teaching performance. Meanwhile, setting an example is better than enforcing rules. As a male teacher, he had his long hair cut. He has since been dedicated to studying the traditional arts. When he told me about this, I admired the boundlessness of Master’s Fa!
During the truth-clarification, it is Master’s Fa that can really save sentient beings. As long as we can study the Fa and cultivate xinxing diligently, we can do well in our cultivation and save as many sentient beings as possible.
Finally I would like to cite Master’s poem to encourage us all, which is as follows:
A Reading Response
Born into suffering,
Your pockets were still empty after decades.
Upon gaining the Fa, you soared upward.
Do well the three tasks,
Save all beings,
Return home and don’t slow your steps.
(Hong Yin III)
My understanding of the Fa is limited. Please kindly point out anything inappropriate.
As I have been put into Dafa cultivation, I would like to extend my heartiest thanks to Master.
I would like to extend my heartiest thanks to Master and fellow practitioners.