去掉人心推神韻

我曾經是96年得法的小弟子,那時8歲,對神佛一直很相信很敬仰。那段時間我跟著家人同修一起修煉,參加集體練功和交流會,從怕黑怕鬼到發燒吐血也不去醫院,覺得自己一直在成長著。 99年鎮壓之後,家人同修出國了,我也漸漸離開了大法,思想裏多了許多執著。 2010年底,因為出國留學的原因,我再次來到了家人同修的身邊,也重新接觸了大法。說是重新,是因為除了童年的記憶,已經十多年沒有學法練功了。師父要求的三件事,也是在出國之後才知道。

2011年,我第一次和當地的同修一起參加培訓和推神韻。因為學法練功發正念都沒有保證,我的狀態很不穩定,面對干擾和考驗,覺得自己十分脆弱。但是師父並沒有放棄我,而是不斷地鼓勵著,提醒著,時時看護著我這樣的弟子。

剛開始參加神韻培訓的時候,本著一貫在常人中學習養成的習慣,準備了很多神韻的資料,把神韻當成常人中的事情來做,可是就像師父經文中說的:大家知道,修煉跟不上,那人心就會浮起來,表現上大家都會看到。那人心中各種各樣人的想法,各種各樣的思想來源,都會對你進行干擾。(《大法弟子必須學法》),面對各種干擾,因為沒有學法做保障,沒有法的力量加持,每次打預約電話或者在街邊推神韻時都十分的不順利,甚至有了只要今天出去推神韻,就要有倒楣的事情發生了的消極思想。

然而,事情在我和另外兩位同修第一次去醫院神韻的時候發生了轉變。那天正好是耶誕節放假的前一天,大部分的醫院職工都已經離開了,當時的我並沒有很強的正念,只是抱著在節前最後試一試的心理和同修們一起去了。而同修正念很足,即使在詢問過好幾個人都表示無能為力的情況下仍在堅持。接著一個十分熱情的西人主動走過來問我們需不需要幫助,他是這個醫院的市場經理,雖然他並不直接負責在醫院推廣神韻的具體事宜,卻帶我們認識了各個部門能幫助我們的人,並在整個醫院以及它們的各個分屬部門都推廣了神韻。也讓我真的見證了弟子正念足,師有回天力(《洪吟二》〈師徒恩〉)。之後到其他醫院推廣神韻的時候,我都會先學法或者和同修交流出自己不好的思想,大家發完正念後在去推廣神韻,其他醫院也都十分順利的和我們合作了。

之後在其他的地方推廣神韻也讓我更加堅定了師父時時在我們身邊,哪怕是一點點心性的變化,師父都會用各種各樣的方式鼓勵弟子。

記得第一次去海邊的住戶敲門神韻的時候,我剛懷孕不久,反應比較強烈,每天都感覺到胃裏的東西往外湧,胃裏沒有東西吐了就吐酸水,覺得很疲憊。和同修到了那裏,除了擔心自己能走多遠,就是擔心會不會被當成推銷員,思想裏不好的物質很多,雖然同修的正念很足,但我們還是連連碰壁。後來我們在長凳上休息的時候,我突然意識到這樣下去不行,默默的對師父說,雖然今天很難受,但是可以克服,可以堅持,救人才是第一位的。就這樣,師父再一次展現了他的神跡,就在我們下一戶遇見的那個女士,她不僅很高興的給一家人買了票,還詢問了許多關於大法的事情,甚至親自打電話去大紀元瞭解更多的真相。想到自己只是稍稍轉變了思想,師父就將緣分這麼大的人送到弟子面前,真的很感動。

到神韻開演的時候,我和同修在劇院賣神韻節目冊。那天和家人同修發生了矛盾,雖然還是微笑著和來看演出的觀眾打招呼,但心態一點也不慈悲祥和,更沒有正念加持。中場休息的時候,有幾個觀眾過來跟我打招呼,第一個是我的老師,她很高興的說演出很好看,她和先生都很喜歡。第二個是我曾經在圖書館推神韻遇見的芭蕾舞演員,她也走過來表示感謝,還買了兩本畫冊留作紀念。接下來是我同學的男朋友,雖然我沒有跟他直接推過神韻,但他說我同學說了,這個演出很棒,所以他就來了。就這樣有緣人一個接一個走到我的面前,我的眼淚不禁在眼眶裏打轉,師父用這樣的方式點化我,鼓勵我,要一直保持正念。

今年的神韻我有邀請我的同學一起看,演出前幾天我先約他們見面,很認真的告訴他們我得法的經過和大法被迫害的真相,希望他們能得福報。我記得看完演出後,一個同學對我說:“謝謝你,演出很好看。關鍵是我知道了很多以前在國內不知道的事情。”我知道,她得救了。

我不算精進的弟子,人心很多,三件事做的也不好,但是師尊也一直看護著我,讓我常常覺得感動又羞愧難當。希望以後不多的日子和同修們共勉,不負師尊的慈悲苦度。

墨爾本大法弟子 Tracy


Get Rid of Attachments to Promote Shenyun

 

I got to know Falun Dafa in 1996 when I was eight years old. At that time, many practitioners practised together and we shared our cultivation experience. I used to be afraid of darkness and ghosts, but after practising Falun Gong, I got rid of all these fears and no longer went to hospital. I felt that I was diligent at that time. However, after the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) suppressed Falun Gong in 1999, my practitioner relative went abroad and I began to live like an ordinary person and developed more and more attachments. In 2010, I came to Australia and made contact with other Dafa disciples again.

 

In 2011, I participated in the training for promoting Shen Yun Performing Arts for the first time. I felt that there was a lot of interference and my cultivation state was quite fragile because of a lack of studying the Fa and practising the exercises. However, I felt that Master was always encouraging me.

 

At the beginning, I promoted Shen Yun as if I was doing some job in everyday society. However, just like Master said:You know, when a person fails to keep up in cultivation, human thinking will surface, and everyone will see this reflected in his actions. And all of the human ideas, as well as the variety of sources from which those ideas stem, that are bound up in that human thinking will serve to interfere with the person.”

.(Dafa Disciples Must Study the Fa)

 

When I made cold calls for making appointments or selling tickets I always failed. I even developed a very negative thought that as long as I was trying to promote Shen Yun, some unfortunate things would happen.

 

However, things changed when I went to promote Shen Yun in a hospital for the first time. I went with other two practitioners just before the Christmas holiday and most of the medical staff had left. I didn't have much confidence at that time and just thought we might have a try. We met several people and, as I expected, they said they were unable to help. However, my fellow practitioner had very strong righteous thoughts, he kept on searching for the right person to see and just before we were ready to give up, somebody just popped up and asked if we needed a hand. This man was the business manager in the hospital and he indeed helped us a lot in promoting Shen Yun. He introduced us to other departments later on and sent our flyers and posters to every collection centre of the pathology lab. I suddenly realised why Master said: When disciples have ample righteous thoughts, master has the power to turn back the tide.” (Hong Yin II The Master-Disciple Bond) After that, every time before I went to promote Shen Yun, I just studied the Fa or shared with fellow practitioners to clear my mind. Moreover, several other hospitals also happily helped us in promoting Shen Yun. I felt that Master always accompanied us and once you had a pure heart and stronger righteous thoughts, he would help you.    

 

I remember when I participated in door-to-door Shenyun promotion in the beachside suburbs for the first time. I had just become pregnant and vomited several times a day. I knew it was interference but I could not clear it away and felt very tired. After I arrived there, I doubted myself a lot. I didn't know exactly what to say and I was concerned that the people there might think we were sales people. To begin with, we were rejected several times. I made a wish to Master that I could overcome the difficulties and that the most important thing was to save sentient beings. Then we met a lady with great predestination. She not only bought three tickets for her family, but also telephoned the Epoch Times herself to learn more about Falun Dafa and the persecution in China. I felt really encouraged.    

    

I was selling program books and albums at the theatre when Shen Yun arrived. I had some xinxing tests with my family on that day. I was agitated and could not keep a compassionate heart and calm mind. However, in the interval of the show, several members of the audience came to me. The first one was my college lecturer and she said the show was wonderful and that she and her husband really loved it. The second person was a ballet dancer who I met when I was promoting Shen Yun in a public library, and she happily bought two albums. The third person was my classmate's boyfriend. I hadn't had a chance to talk to him about Shen Yun before, but he came to see the show as my classmate told him that it was great. I felt quite touched that Master just sent the predestined people one by one to me and reminded me that I should keep righteous thoughts and save them.

 

I invited my friends to watch Shen Yun with me.  Before we went there, I spent a whole day explaining to them the truth about Falun Gong. I hoped that they could be saved. And indeed, after watching the show, one of them told me: ”Thank you. The show is good and the more important thing is that I get to know something I didn't know in China.” I felt happy that she was saved.

 

I am not diligent enough and still have lots of attachments. But Master never gives up on me and encourages me again and again. I feel so touched and sometimes ashamed of myself. I am determined to seize the time to genuinely cultivate myself in future.

 

Melbourne Dafa disciple Tracy