我曾經是96年得法的小弟子，那時8歲，對神佛一直很相信很敬仰。那段時間我跟著家人同修一起修煉，參加集體練功和交流會，從怕黑怕鬼到發燒吐血也不去醫院，覺得自己一直在成長著。 99年鎮壓之後，家人同修出國了，我也漸漸離開了大法，思想裏多了許多執著。 2010年底，因為出國留學的原因，我再次來到了家人同修的身邊，也重新接觸了大法。說是重新，是因為除了童年的記憶，已經十多年沒有學法練功了。師父要求的三件事，也是在出國之後才知道。
Get Rid of Attachments to Promote Shenyun
I got to know Falun Dafa in 1996 when I was eight years old. At that time, many practitioners practised together and we shared our cultivation experience. I used to be afraid of darkness and ghosts, but after practising Falun Gong, I got rid of all these fears and no longer went to hospital. I felt that I was diligent at that time. However, after the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) suppressed Falun Gong in 1999, my practitioner relative went abroad and I began to live like an ordinary person and developed more and more attachments. In 2010, I came to Australia and made contact with other Dafa disciples again.
In 2011, I participated in the training for promoting Shen Yun Performing Arts for the first time. I felt that there was a lot of interference and my cultivation state was quite fragile because of a lack of studying the Fa and practising the exercises. However, I felt that Master was always encouraging me.
At the beginning, I promoted Shen Yun as if I was doing some job in everyday society. However, just like Master said: ”You know, when a person fails to keep up in cultivation, human thinking will surface, and everyone will see this reflected in his actions. And all of the human ideas, as well as the variety of sources from which those ideas stem, that are bound up in that human thinking will serve to interfere with the person.”
.(Dafa Disciples Must Study the Fa)
When I made cold calls for making appointments or selling tickets I always failed. I even developed a very negative thought that as long as I was trying to promote Shen Yun, some unfortunate things would happen.
However, things changed when I went to promote Shen Yun in a hospital for the first time. I went with other two practitioners just before the Christmas holiday and most of the medical staff had left. I didn't have much confidence at that time and just thought we might have a try. We met several people and, as I expected, they said they were unable to help. However, my fellow practitioner had very strong righteous thoughts, he kept on searching for the right person to see and just before we were ready to give up, somebody just popped up and asked if we needed a hand. This man was the business manager in the hospital and he indeed helped us a lot in promoting Shen Yun. He introduced us to other departments later on and sent our flyers and posters to every collection centre of the pathology lab. I suddenly realised why Master said: ”When disciples have ample righteous thoughts, master has the power to turn back the tide.” (Hong Yin II The Master-Disciple Bond) After that, every time before I went to promote Shen Yun, I just studied the Fa or shared with fellow practitioners to clear my mind. Moreover, several other hospitals also happily helped us in promoting Shen Yun. I felt that Master always accompanied us and once you had a pure heart and stronger righteous thoughts, he would help you.
I remember when I participated in door-to-door Shenyun promotion in the beachside suburbs for the first time. I had just become pregnant and vomited several times a day. I knew it was interference but I could not clear it away and felt very tired. After I arrived there, I doubted myself a lot. I didn't know exactly what to say and I was concerned that the people there might think we were sales people. To begin with, we were rejected several times. I made a wish to Master that I could overcome the difficulties and that the most important thing was to save sentient beings. Then we met a lady with great predestination. She not only bought three tickets for her family, but also telephoned the Epoch Times herself to learn more about Falun Dafa and the persecution in China. I felt really encouraged.
I was selling program books and albums at the theatre when Shen Yun arrived. I had some xinxing tests with my family on that day. I was agitated and could not keep a compassionate heart and calm mind. However, in the interval of the show, several members of the audience came to me. The first one was my college lecturer and she said the show was wonderful and that she and her husband really loved it. The second person was a ballet dancer who I met when I was promoting Shen Yun in a public library, and she happily bought two albums. The third person was my classmate's boyfriend. I hadn't had a chance to talk to him about Shen Yun before, but he came to see the show as my classmate told him that it was great. I felt quite touched that Master just sent the predestined people one by one to me and reminded me that I should keep righteous thoughts and save them.
I invited my friends to watch Shen Yun with me. Before we went there, I spent a whole day explaining to them the truth about Falun Gong. I hoped that they could be saved. And indeed, after watching the show, one of them told me: ”Thank you. The show is good and the more important thing is that I get to know something I didn't know in China.” I felt happy that she was saved.
I am not diligent enough and still have lots of attachments. But Master never gives up on me and encourages me again and again. I feel so touched and sometimes ashamed of myself. I am determined to seize the time to genuinely cultivate myself in future.
Melbourne Dafa disciple Tracy