一点修炼交流与体会

2009年的618日,我走出飞机,第一次踏上了墨尔本的土地。

在中国工作了五年,对修炼也荒废了五年,加上学生时代的不精进,眼看着我在名利情仇中一步步滑向深渊。师父慈悲,安排我来到了澳洲。来澳洲之前,我带着“开拓一个光明前途”的人心,在中国委托移民律师递交了澳洲技术移民的申请;还没等到技术移民的审批,我在中国已经度日如年。于是申请了学校,来澳洲一边留学一边等着永居身份的批准。

来到澳洲后,由于怕心,不敢和当地同修联系,也不敢向常人表露我是法轮大法修炼者,甚至连真相都不曾讲过。当时经济上很是拮据,我在一家鱼薯店里打工,住在店铺后面,整天都是打工、上学。到了暑假,终于多了一些自由支配时间。一天,我打开了明慧网,开始学习师父的讲法。

因为没有结束,对众生都是机会,师父一再等着你们。”《大纽约地区法会讲法》(大纽约地区法会讲法)很快我便泪如雨下,我知道师父早已给我安排好了一切,一直在等待我的醒悟,一直在等待我的归来。 “其实你们再也不是常人中的人了,你们都回不去了,你们真的回不去了,(鼓掌)你们和常人的差距相当之大了。”《各地讲法六》(亚太地区学员会议讲法)

20091224日,我拨通了同修的电话,几天后找到了Dandenong 公园的练功点,再几天之后找到了墨尔本大纪元报社的办公室,从此在墨尔本熔入正法洪流,直到今天。十分感谢几位阿姨同修当时对我的关心和鼓励。

大法弟子的很多苦难源于自己的人心观念和业力。回首来澳洲的这三年,我的日子基本上都不好过。但是作为一个修炼人,我深深的明白这些都是我修炼要走的路,都是修炼中的财富。 “功修有路心为径,大法无边苦作舟。”《洪吟(法轮大法)》

作为一个修炼人,我时常因为看到了自己的人心而感到羞愧,也为一些执着久久去不干净而苦恼。修炼是严肃的,容不得半点借口。我希望借这个机会,把自己的人心执著进一步曝光,不妥之处也希望能够得到同修们的慈悲指正。

一、磨去虚荣心

常常瞧不起人但又怕被人瞧不起,我曾经就是这样的人。从根子上讲,是对“名”的放不下,再深处,就是对“情”放不下。

刚刚走到墨尔本大法弟子中,因为多年不做三件事,修炼状态其实很差了。但是又担心被同修看扁,所以介绍自己或者和同修交流时常常会强调“我是1996年得法的”,暗示别人我是老弟子了; “迫害开始的时候我是如何如何过来的”,显示我自己闯过了生死。

很长一段时间里,我都不愿意接受 “难民”这个身份。在我的观念中,我硕士毕业、有大学讲师职称、在中国的工作单位里是个小头头,自我感觉良好,我为什么要当难民呢?当时对我来说,难民不是一个体面的字眼,难以体现我的价值所在,把我自己辱没了一样。那段时间,我无视正法需要、无视师父安排,希望通过攻读博士学位来延长留学签证,以便继续留在澳洲,同时继续等待几年前递交的技术移民申请的审批。

正是因为我有了这颗执著心,师父给我安排了更好的修炼环境。后来我不但当上了难民,这一路走来一步一步修去了我对名的执著。

2009年澳洲改变了移民政策,我之前的技术移民申请变成了无限期的等待。2010年的墨尔本神韵演出结束后,我已经到了破产的边缘。交完一个月的房租后,我存折上还有10块钱,身上还有几个硬币。

我在建筑工地上干了一年小工,一起工作的有大量的黑民,当时我的内心还抱着常人的执著—所谓的“清高”。开始干的都是些又脏又累又危险的活,在黑黄色的脏水里工作,从破旧的梯子上摔倒地上疼得爬不起来,在布满粉尘的封闭房间里打磨墙壁、第二天早上起来眼睛鼻子里都是白色分泌物,一次拉着160公斤的建筑材料上一个大斜坡、听到自己的脊骨绷得嘎嘎作响,还要被大工骂我偷懒,拿到的工资也不多。当时真的不觉是苦,一是穷到那份了,为了生存别无选择,二是也想攒点生活费为自己日后参与大法项目做些准备,所以就干了下来。我一下子变成了社会底层的一员,巨大的落差给了我巨大的魔炼,在常人的现实环境中实修,用大法一点点的来归正自己,我的虚荣心也一点点的去掉了,同时也消去了巨大的业力。谢谢师尊!

二、修去争斗心

从去年11月份起,我家阳台斜对着的一家通宵营业的咖啡馆开张。从这家店还在装修的时候开始,我就找上门去,抱怨音乐太吵。等到开张之后,隔三岔五的变得更加吵闹,有几次甚至来了现场伴奏的乐队闹到后半夜。我一边向市政厅投诉,一边报警,事情都得不到解决。每天回到家里,都能够听到音乐声,有时大,有时小,心里很烦。日子久了,居然还生出了怨恨之心,比如“扔个玻璃瓶子砸过去”之类的。

接下来事情变得更加糟糕,由于我的争斗之心迟迟不去,甚至都没有意识到,我隔壁的邻居也开始吵闹了起来。接连两个周六的晚上,他都在家中很大声的开着音乐,通宵不停。第二次,我没有守住心性,用力的拍着他的门大叫、按他家的门铃向他抱怨,被人家臭骂一顿后,我才稍有醒悟。

有一天学法时,我意识到噪音的存在能够长达半年多,一定是干扰。于是开始了长时间的发正念。一个小时后,噪音停止了。可我却总觉得那里不对劲。

家里人告诉我大部分时候她几乎听不到什么吵闹,这一切显然都是对着我的心来的。面对噪音,我认为自己人的利益受到了侵犯,先是用人的方式去针对人解决问题,继而用修炼人的表面形式去解决问题,出发点都是为了自己的利益不受侵犯,为了自己不受伤害,出发点都是私我。我当时发正念的做法也是是典型的“你们却因为在常人中的利益损失了而对我诉苦”《精進要旨》(真修)。

这噪音就好比师父在《转法轮》(第六讲)中告诉我们的:“一睡觉就有人找他比武争斗,搞的一夜都休息不了。其实这个时候就是去他的争斗之心,他这个争斗之心要是不去,他老是这样的,长此下去,几年拖下去也是出不了这个层次。”

噪音来者不善,我用“不善”的心态解决不了“不善”的因素。大法弟子是修善的,善解一切的、解体一切的、归正一切的是慈悲,即便是在除恶,也是我们在善中的所为,并非是人中的那种所谓“对抗”或者“抗衡”,更不是“以恶制恶”。我们超常的力量也都是建立在慈悲的基础之上的,只有“善”修到位了,才能达到标准。

三、结语

修炼时间越长越觉得自己好像新得法不久,常常感叹自己怎么还有这样那样人心。我们的修炼环境就是在常人之中。只要在这个环境中存在,就必定会面对常人生活中的琐碎。修炼人身边的任何人、事、物,无论巨细,都在衡量着我们能否用正念来对待这一切,每一思每一念我们都在摆放着自己此时此刻的位置。“在师父的眼里,你们的一思一念哪,你们的一个举动啊,我都能看出你是一个什么样的心。”《二零一零年纽约法会讲法》

修炼到了最后的最后,我们就是在一思一念的往出爬,一思一念间都能折射出某方面修炼的好与坏、心性的高与低。最后,用师父的一段讲法与同修共勉:“我告诉你们哪,你们那个本质的生命比我说的还清楚,因为师父现在是用人的语言在说,真正你们自己,明白着哪,只是被后天三界内的因素、不好的这些事物给你形成的观念、经验、积累,象土一样把你埋在这里了,真念返不出来,所以得修。就是往出爬,把这些污染拨去,洗净自己。修炼中你们就是在做这个事,同时在魔难中还得去救众生。”《大法弟子必须学法》

墨尔本大法弟子 Dustin

 

Sharing some understanding in my cultivation

 

 

On 18th June 2009, I walked out of the plane and stepped onto land in Melbourne for the first time.

 

I had worked in China for five years and all those years went to waste in terms of cultivation. I was not diligent enough back in my student days, so with fame, gain, emotion and hatred I gradually slid into the abyss. To save me, merciful Master arranged for me to come to Australia. Prior to coming here, driven by an attachment to “building a bright future”, I commissioned an immigration lawyer in China to submit an application for skilled migration to Australia. But each day passed like a year and I couldn’t wait for my application to be approved. Therefore, I applied for a school and planned to wait for the approval of my Permanent Residency Visa while studying here.

 

After I got here, due to the attachment of fear, I didn’t dare to contact local fellow practitioners or tell ordinary people that I am a Falun Dafa practitioner. I didn’t even clarify the facts once. I was vey poor then. I worked part-time in a fish and chip shop and lived behind the shop. Everyday was filled with work and study. At last the summer break came and I finally had more free time. One day, I opened up the Minghui website, starting to study Master’s Fa.

 

Because it hasn't ended yet, it is still an opportunity for all beings. Master has been waiting for you over and over again!” (Teaching and Explaining the Fa at the Metropolitan New York Fa Conference) Soon tears streamed down my face. I knew that Master had long arranged everything for me and waited for me to wake up and come back. “The truth is, you're no longer one of the ordinary human beings, and you couldn't even go back anymore, you really can't. (Applause) The difference between you and ordinary people has grown downright large.” (“Teaching the Fa at the Meeting with Asia-Pacific Students” from Teaching the Fa at the Conference VI )

 

On 24th December 2009, I made a phone call to fellow practitioners and found the group exercise site in Dandenong Park several days later. Afterwards I found the Epoch Times office. From then on, I melted into the process of Fa rectification in Melbourne until today. I really appreciate the care and encouragement from some of my fellow practitioners at that time.

 

Most of the tribulations Dafa disciples encounter stem from our attachments, human notions and karma. Looking back on the three years in Australia, my life has not been smooth. But as a cultivator, I deeply understand that those tribulations are a part of my cultivation and treasures of the cultivation process.

Cultivating gong has a path; mind is the way. On the boundless sea of Dafa hardship is your ferry” (“Falun Dafa” from Hong Yin).

 

As a practitioner, I often feel ashamed of seeing attachments within myself and upset that I can’t completely eliminate some of my attachments for a long time. Cultivation is serious and does not allow any excuses. I’d like to take this opportunity to further expose my attachments. Please kindly point out anything inappropriate

 

Abandoning the attachment to vanity through tribulations

 

I used to be that kind of person who tends to despise others, but also worry about being despised. Its root is the attachment for fame; digging deeper, it’s the attachment of emotion and sentimentality.

 

When I first joined the practitioners in Melbourne, my cultivation state was actually very bad since I hadn’t done the three things for many years. However, I was afraid of being looked on with disdain by others, so when introducing myself or communicating with the fellow practitioners, I always emphasized that “I obtained the Fa in 1996” to imply that I was a senior practitioner and “I was like this and like that when the persecution first began” to show that I had overcome the test of life and death.

 

I was unwilling to accept the identity of a refugee for a long time. In my opinion, I had a Masters degree and the title of university lecturer; plus I used to be a minor official at my workplace in China, so I felt good about myself. Why should I be a refugee? At that time, “refugee” was not a respectable label to me. It didn’t reflect my values and would bring disgrace to me. During that period, I ignored the requirements of Fa-rectification and Master’s arrangements and hoped to extend my student visa by pursuing a doctoral degree so as to stay in Australia and wait for the approval of my application for skilled migration.

 

It was because of this very attachment that Master arranged a better cultivation environment for me. Afterwards, I not only became a refugee, but also encountered tribulations which helped me relinquish my attachment to fame step by step.

 

Australia’s immigration policies changed in 2009 and my previous application for skilled migration turned out to be delayed indefinitely. After the 2010 Shen Yun show in Melbourne I was on the edge of bankruptcy. After paying one month’s rent, I only had ten dollars in my bank account and a few coins in my pocket.

 

I worked on construction sites for one year. A lot of my co-workers were illegal immigrants. Until then, I still had the human attachment of conceit. At first, all of my tasks were dirty, tiring and dangerous. I had to wash tools in filthy brown water, then I fell from an old and broken ladder and couldn’t get up because of the pain. I had to polish walls in a dusty closed room and found a lot of white secretion in my nostrils and in the corners of my eyes the following morning. Once I climbed a big slope while pulling a piece of construction material weighing 160 kg. I heard my spine crack. Despite this, my foreman rebuked me for being lazy and I was not paid well. But I didn’t think it was so bad because on the one hand, I was so poor that I had no choice; and on the other hand, I wanted to save up some money so I would be available participate in Dafa projects in the future. Therefore, I held on until the work was finished. I had suddenly become one of the people at the bottom of society. This experience made me undergo a huge psychological tribulation that enabled me to cultivate solidly in the everyday people’s environment and assimilate myself gradually to Dafa. My attachment to vanity has also been eliminated bit by bit. At the same time, enormous amounts of karma were cleansed from my body. Thank you, Master!

 

Relinquishing the attachment to competitiveness through tribulations

 

Last November, a 24-hour cafe was opened diagonally opposite my house’s balcony. Even when it was still getting ready to open I had to go over there and complain about the loud music. After it was opened, it sometimes became very noisy and there were several times when a live band came and played loudly until after midnight. I complained to the City Hall and at the same time called the police, but the problem was not solved. Everyday when I got back home, I could hear the music, sometimes loud and sometimes quiet. I felt really annoyed. As time passed, I even started to have a grudge against the place and sometimes wanted to “throw a glass bottle towards it”.

 

Later, things got worse. Because I hadn’t abandoned the attachment to competitiveness for such a long time and I didn’t even realize it, my neighbor began to make noise as well. For two Saturday nights in a row, he played music at high volume all night long. The second time, I failed to maintain my xinxing. I smacked his door hard and rang the doorbell while yelling and complaining. Only after being sworn at did I come to my senses

 

One day, during Fa study, I realized that the noise had gone on for more than six months so it must be interference. Therefore, I started to send forth righteous thoughts for a long time. One hour later, the noise stopped. However, I felt that something was wrong.

 

My wife told me that she heard nothing most of the time. Obviously, everything happened because of my attachment. Confronted by the noise, I thought my rights were being violated and tried to solve the problem at first through ordinary people’s approaches, and then through cultivation, but only in a very superficial way. My motives were all about protecting my own interests and protecting myself from discomfort. They were all about selfishness. My sending forth righteous thoughts at that time was exactly like what Master said:

you pour out your grievances to me over the loss of your worldly interests” (Essentials for Further Advancement True Cultivation).

 

The noise was also like what Master told us in Zhuan Falun (chapter six):

Once this person falls asleep, someone will seek him out for a fight, and this makes his night restless. Actually, this is the time to remove his attachment to competitiveness. If this competitive mentality is not relinquished, he will always be this way. As time passes, he still cannot move beyond this level after several years.”

 

The consequence of the noise was not benevolent, but I cannot eliminate unkind factors with an unkind mentality. Dafa disciples cultivate Shan. It is compassionate mercy which can benevolently resolve everything, eliminate bad elements and rectify everything. Even when we clear out evil factors, we do it with Shan rather than so-called “confrontation” or “payback” as would ordinary people: not to mention “treat them the way they treat you”. All our supernatural power is based on Shan. We can only meet the requirements when we have completely cultivated Shan.

 

The longer I cultivate the more I feel that it is like I just obtained the Fa. I often sigh deeply at the thought of my various long-standing attachments. Our cultivation environment is the ordinary human society. As long as this environment still exists, we have to face the trivia of everyday life. All the people, events and things around cultivators, big or small, are to see if we can treat them with righteous thoughts. Every one of our thoughts is positioning us. As Master sees it:

“…your each and every thought, and your every single action, reveals to me what your heart is like.” (Fa Teaching Given at the 2010 New York Fa Conference)

As we reach the last leg of the journey, we are progressing according to our each and every thought which can reflect to what extent we cultivate well in a certain aspect and the height of our xinxing. To conclude, I’d like to share a paragraph of Master’s Fa with you to encourage all of us.

I can tell you that your fundamental being understands things even more clearly than I’m putting them. The reason is, Master is now using the language of human beings to speak, whereas your true selves are very much aware, only it’s that postnatal factors of the Three Realms as well as those bad things have given rise in you to notions, experiences, and accumulations of things, burying you like dirt would, and preventing your true thoughts from coming back to the surface. So you have to cultivate. You have to climb out, wipe away those contaminating things, and wash yourself clean. That is precisely what you do in the cultivation process, and at the same time, while amidst ordeals, you must save people.” (Dafa Disciples Must Study the Fa)