Huang 墨尔本 12/6/2012
Some understanding from my failed driving test
Today I want to share with fellow practitioners my experience during my driving test and what I have enlightened to.
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On my test day, I arrived on time to take my road test. I closely followed the examiner’s instructions and after 1 hour I completed the test without any trouble. I felt very good and my self assessment of this test is “PERFECT”. I thought there would be absolutely no problem in passing the test. So I sat there happily, waiting to pick up my driver's license. Contrary to my expectations, I was told that I had not passed. I was so shocked and could hardly believe my ears. What was wrong? I was so good and totally compliant with the road rules, so how come I did not pass? Has the examiner made a mistake, or was the examiner intentionally giving me a hard time?
Understanding my confusion and frustration, the examiner patiently explained several serious mistakes in my test, but I still felt upset. Then I met a Chinese instructor and I went up to him to complain. After talking with him, I found I did make several mistakes which are in serious violation of the road rules.
Soon I calmed down. I realized that this was not accidental. It must relate to my cultivation. I failed the test, it was certainly arranged by Master to help me improve. I must look inside to find out my own shortcomings.
· Regard Fa as the Teacher
After some reflection, I discovered a very important factor which resulted in my failure was that I was not familiar enough with Australian traffic rules. I usually drive based on my own instinct and thinking that’s good enough. I didn’t realize that I have always been driving in violation of traffic laws with potential safety hazards. As Master said in Zhuan Falun: "Without knowing the Fa at high levels, one cannot practice cultivation. Without cultivation one’s inner self and one’s xinxing, one cannot increase gong.” I enlightened that road rules are the norms and standards for driving, and if we fail to comply with those rules, we should not be able to drive. Dafa is our guideline and standard for cultivation. Without studying Fa, there is no standard and we would not be able to cultivate. We must learn the traffic rules before we drive. We cannot drive based on our own feelings. Practitioners must study Fa, we cannot cultivate according to our feelings. Dafa is serious, and we must always regard Fa as the teacher without any reservations. When we are driving, if the sign says to “give way”, we should wait patiently. If there is a speed limit, we should unreservedly obey that limit. Only when we are strict with ourselves during everyday matters, can we pass a test when it suddenly comes.
I enlightened that every time I drive, I should keep the road rules in mind and take safety as the No.1 priority, and then I can form good driving habits. In my cultivation, I should study Fa more and keep Dafa in my heart, making letting go of attachments my most important priority and always assessing my xinxing based on Dafa. I cannot wait until the final exam to find out my mistakes and shortcomings as it may be too late by then.
· Looking Inwards
When I was told that I had failed the test, my first thought was: “Isn’t the examiner making a mistake?” I realized that I was looking externally, finding someone to blame, and not looking inwards to find my own problems.
Thinking of my daily cultivation; when fellow practitioners remind me and make comments with good intentions, my first thought is often that they do not understand me, they are wrong, they do not see my positive side, they have attachments, they want to impose their ideas on me, etc. Anyway, it is their problem. I don’t have any problems, I am not wrong. Sometimes I quibbled that, you think I have this problem, why do other people not think that way? Isn’t it your own problem? You should look inward to find your own problems! Sometimes I have disputes and arguments with other practitioners on this issue. When I calm down and think about it, these words are, in fact, to defend and protect myself. It is a manifestation of vanity, and so-called self-esteem. Master said: "Without cultivating one’s inner self and one’s xinxing, one cannot increase gong.” (Zhuan Falun).Not admitting my mistakes, not recognising my own problems, not improving my xinxing means I am not cultivating. Everything we have encountered is part of our cultivation path and opportunities to improve ourselves arranged by Master. When we encounter problems and conflicts, our first thought should be to look inwards to find our own weakness, and our own attachments. Looking inward is the magic cultivation method given by Master.
Later on, I realized that it was entirely due to my own problems that I failed the driving test. It is because my xinxing had not reached the standard. I am not familiar with traffic rules and I did not drive in accordance with the traffic rules. The examiner was not wrong, she just strictly enforced traffic laws. I must correct my current driving habits, and improve my awareness of safety issues. After looking inward and finding my own problems, I felt very comfortable, and am really grateful for Master’s compassion. I also appreciated the examiner’s help. The examiner did not let me pass the test but it was for my own good. It means I can become more responsible for road safety. I feel very sorry that I sulked at that time, and did not say a polite “thank you” to the examiner.
· "Think about others first before doing anything”
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Master asks us to consider others before we do anything. When we drive, we should consider other people first. Traffic rules are an aspect of Fa at the level of everyday people. What we want is to be extraordinarily good people. Therefore, complying with traffic rules is the minimum requirement for practitioners. This driving test is actually a xinxing test. I failed the test, which means my xinxing did not meet the standard.
In addition, from this experience I realized that how important it is for practitioners to remind and help each other. If my usual driving mistakes had been pointed out earlier, I may have been able to correct them and pass the test at the first attempt. If we see any shortcomings, attachments and weakness in other practitioners, we should tell them so they can correct the mistakes. This is to be responsible for cultivation, for Dafa and for the Onebody. When Falun rotates clockwise, it offers self-salvation, when Falun rotates counter-clockwise it offers salvation to all sentient beings. Look inward to cultivate ourselves, and clarify the facts to save sentient beings. We clarify the facts to everyday people to save them, our fellow practitioners also have to clarify the facts to help each other and to improve together. To point out the real state of fellow practitioners is also an aspect of telling the truth. I realized that telling the truth to a fellow practitioner is not only a good cultivation process, but also very necessary to improve our group as a whole and form a cultivation environment in line with the following requirement: “compare study and compare cultivation”
Finally, I hope fellow practitioners will point out my deeply hidden human thoughts and attachments based on a high standard of Dafa. Each of your reminders and suggestions is of great help to my cultivation, and is my safeguard against failing future tests. Fellow practitioners who are going to try for a driver's license; please take my experience as a warning. Study Fa well and improve xinxing, and in this way can we pass all the tests.
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