My cultivation sharing in participating the NTDTV project
Greetings Master! Greetings fellow practitioners!
My name is Li Ying., Tthe topic of my sharing today is: “Ssentient beings come for the Fa, fulfilling one’s oath during solid cultivation -- experience of participating in the New Tang Dynasty Television project.
I was rescued to Australia at the end of 2003. From 2004 until now, I am very fortunate to have been able to continuously participate in the NTDTV project. During these seven years, I deeply appreciated that Master gave us one of the most effective methods forFa-implement in saving sentient beings. I also deeply understood that, as a Fa Rectification period Dafa disciple, how fortunate I am to be on this path of rectifying the Fa through NTDTV. Below, I shall report to Master and fellow practitioners some of my cultivation experiences during my participation in NTDTV.
Cultivation of Speech and cultivation of heart, cultivating mercy and tolerance
I am someone who makes very high demands for myself., I felt myself to be very just and frank. Since cultivating, I felt that to follow the principles of Truth, Compassion, Forbearance, I should say exactly what’s on my mind. When speaking to fellow practitioners, I did not take notice of the other person’s feelings, and was not careful about did not take care of my choice of words and tone. Especially as I believed that everyone was doing things for Fa Rectification, I thought there was no need to pay attention to modes and methods of exchange between each other. During my many years of cultivation in China, I had never met with any conflicts that arose from this aspect. Since coming to Australia, I continued as I did, but I offended many people, and even caused some fellow practitioners to feel resentful towards me. This produced in me a very strong confrontational mentality, I might not speak out but I would still grapple about things inside. During the past reshuffling of the liaising personnel at NTDTV, I made the same demands onfor those practitioners as I did of myself, I kept feeling they did not put their whole heart and soul into NTDTV and, they did not value NTDTV’s interests......, Ssometimes I even had negativeresistive feelings, I discussed their rights and wrongs behind their backs and, without noticing, created many divisions. My personal cultivation also, as part of the chain reaction, became passive and slothful. But deep in my heart I really was concerned for NTDTV, I hoped that NTDTV would only do better as we progressed, that it could bear the responsibility of saving more sentient beings. Master saw this saving grace in me, and gave me hints to cultivate “body, speech and mind”. In lecture eight of Zhuan Falun:,
“cultivation of body they spoke of meant that one would not commit bad deeds. Cultivation of speech meant that one would not talk. Cultivation of mind meant that one would not even think. In the past, there were strict requirements for these things in professional cultivation in temples. We should conduct ourselves according to a practitioner’s xinxing standard. It should be fine as long as one grasps what should or should not be said.”
Master requires that we conduct ourselves according to a practitioner’s xinxing standard, but I was demanding it of others. This is only the superficial impression., Wwhen I dug even deeper into why I did not cultivate “body, speech and mind”, I discovered many attachments and human hearts hidden behind it, including: competitive mentality, show-ing off mentality, zealotry mentality, jealousy mentality, discrimination ory mentality etc. I took a few days time to recall those conflicts that bothered me in the past few years and the blockages in the mind I could not glet pasts., Iit really agonised me to the heart and bone, but when I realised those attachments and resolved to let go, I could feel as though athe shells wrapped around my body was being shed layer by layer, and my whole being became lighter. I once again experienced that feeling of divine duty, the joy of being a sentient being whothat came for the Fa.
In the ensuing tasks, I achieved letting go of oneself, cooperating with fellow practitioners, undertaking duties others did not want, as well as doing some very time-consuming and mundane tasks. However, I still felt there was somewhere I could not break through. At this point, the headquarters once again reshuffled the executive committee in order to securely establish Australia NTDTV’s signal and sales operations, I assumed some liaising duties, which provided me with an even better cultivationng environment. NTDTV has a weekly half-hour program on a local Sydney TV channel TVS, called “Hello Australia”. Some time ago TVS held a poll asking their audience to vote for their favourite program. I sent an email to the NSW group, requesting everyone to vote for our program as their favourite. To my surprise, some practitioners believed I was being dishonest and that I was asking everyone to lie. I examined myself for why I gave other people this impression., Iis it only because my English was not good enough and I could only express myself using simple vocabulary that caused this misunderstanding? Or was there another reason? I looked over the email I sent out once more, and discovered that I was not clear enough in my explanation of this issue, and that when I sent out the email I did not think of this as a part of Fa-Rectification, which would allow more people to be saved through watching NTDTV and learning of the truth. I am very grateful to fellow practitioners who gave me feedback and allowed me to deepen my understanding;, that a cultivator’s every thought and actionevery regard should be according to the Fa., Wwe should not do things simply for the sake of doing things. Every opportunity Master gives us is there for us to save sentient beings. At the same time, fellow practitioners in the TV group quietly remedied the situationmended the gap, and allowed some practitioners who did not understand the significance of NTDTV programs to obtain more information, thereby turning something that did not appear to be good into a good thing. In the subsequent sharing with the TV group, a practitioner pointed out from a different angle that: this showed that NTDTV’s current direction is correct and, we must spend more effort on establishing and promotion as well as sales operations., Iif every one of our practitioners knew the situation about NTDTV’s local broadcasts, the practitioners could become live promotersional agents who can persuade more people to watch NTDTV, and strengthenlay down the foundation for our work in the futurehereafter.
I have an impatient disposition , and, while cooperating with other liaising people, I also expect other people to complete every task as quickly as possible like I do. Sometimes when I see that other people hadn’t yet begun, I would do it for them without asking. But they don’t feel at all grateful, and even complain to me that it was disrupting their work. In particular, there is one specific partner who has the so-called slow disposition. Sometimes work goes into his hands and all signs of its existence vanish, if you don’t badger him there would be no results, yet nagging too much sometimes meant getting grumbled at. It was very frustrating but I did not know how to move forward. At the same time, as well as liaising, I had to take on a lot of specific jobs, such as organising staff, drafting, video-editing, the pressure felt enormous. I thought, I held no showing- off or zealotry mentality while doing these jobs so, where was my opportunityat was it telling me to cultivate? One day, I came randomly upon a piece of sharing which described how athe liaising practitionererson expanded their breadth of mind in their job and cultivated forgiveness. I felt as though I received a “stick wake-up”., I asked myself , why is it was that even now I haven’t yet cultivated “grand mercy”? Why is it I could never reach that level? I finally found the barrier that stopped me from breaking through that level, which was the very fundamental problem -- studying the Fa into one’s heart and looking within.
For long periods, I felt that I did not become lax in studying the Fa, I tried my best to complete one Lecture per day. A while ago we even drew a lesson from another media group抯 experience and began an online Fa study group and urged everyone to join. But from a fundamental level, I did not achieve the effect of immersing my entire body and mind in studying the Fa into my heart., Oonly the human superficial layer was studying, so I could not cultivate the grand mercy that a cultivator of his level should have. I adjusted my Fa study time and state according to my own situation, I stopped forcing myself to study a certain amount each day, focusing instead on concentrating the mind on studying the Fa. During Fa study I maintained a double crossed leg position, and I could feel a very powerful energy field enveloping me, every phrase of Fa was striking into my heart. Sometimes I could study two lectures in one go and still yearn for more. At the same time, while taking my child to and from school, I resolved to recite the Fa. Even though I could only recite for about 30 minutes per day, I could already feel my heart’s抯 breadth increasing, and many tasks were becoming a lot more smoother. Before, writing an interview draft was very difficult to complete in less than a day, but now I could finish a 2000 word draft within 3-4 hours without feeling strained. Sometimes when the Fa study state was good, work no longer felt frustrating and draining, I felt open-minded. For many years, Australia’s NTDTV never had a full time staff member., Eevery participating practitioner held a job of their own, so it was very difficult toin prepare thearranging news and programs., Iin particular, in that for even one news item or one program, we need to secure a reporter, cameraman, editor and contact persons etc. Frequently it would take more than an hour and more than a dozen phone calls and we might still not be able to find the people to do it. At the same time some of the participating reporters are new to the job, and had to be taught the necessary skills hand-in-hand, such ashelping them writinge on-camera scripts and news scripts., sometimes having to finish the final program scripts etc. Now I no longer have thoughts of helplessness or wanting to give up., Oonce thoughts of complaints form in my mind begin I can realise that theyit does not belong to me, and use righteous thoughts to dispel these attachments that obstruct me and fellow practitioners. This is because, because I truly understand what “sentient beings come for the Fa” means for meto me, Itand that is, that producing NTDTV is my prehistoric oath., Iit is the oath I made to Master and, I must commit my full heart and energy into doing well in order to be worthy of Master’s mercy and gift of salvationsuffering to save.
Master wrote in the article Be More Diligent:
“all of the many amazing things that you are doing in the course of validating the Fa are being recorded in this chapter of the cosmos’s history, with nothing pertaining to even a single disciple being omitted. However, if you are focused on the superficial, ordinary human things, then you are attached and are using human thinking. Don’t give weight to such things. If you can manage to quietly complete what you notice is lacking, quietly do well what you should do, and quietly do something well when you find it to have been done less than ideally, then the multitude of gods will have tremendous admiration for you and exclaim that this person is simply extraordinary. Only doing things this way counts as what a Dafa disciple should do.”
For me, cultivation is a very simple task, and that is to listen to Master’s words and do as Master requires. Perhaps Master saw that my heart to make NTDTV do well is quite firm, so there were endless opportunities for me to raise my level. So I will quietly do well all that I should do, according to Master’s wishes. Fellow practitioners from my family around me occasionally sound the alarm for me, reminding me that I must solidly do the three things. In order to allow me to throw my whole body and mind into NTDTV they took over many domestic tasks for me., Ttheir encouragement and support made my confidence in making NTDTV do well even firmer.
Master said, everything now is to be left for the future. Being so fortunate to be Fa Rectification period Dafa disciples;, to be able to be here with feet firmly planted on the ground and fulfilling my oath -, this is my honour.
I hope to be a worthys fellow practitioners and not disappoint Master who gives the most noble encouragement and instruction. (NB. I found this sentence very hard to understand so I may have altered the meaning in the process of “polishing”):
“Iit wasn’t easy for the station to develop as it has in just a few short years. Whenever I see the programming broadcast by NTDTV, I have a feeling of admiration for Dafa disciples. Dafa disciples are truly extraordinary. You have gone from not knowing anything to running a station and doing it so well, with such colorful programs. Everyone would watch this TV station and find it just outstanding, a remarkable venture, if it weren’t for the fact that they were deceived by the evil early on. Though it is right before their eyes, many people can’t see how great the station is at this time as a result of interference and evil factors that are controlling them. That’s all right, though. Things are changing rapidly as the Fa-rectification forges ahead and as Dafa disciples? righteous thoughts grow stronger. The energy emitted by NTDTV is very strong, and the television sets tuned in to it receive powerful energy, which dismantles the evil factors. So from this perspective, the station doesn’t just need to be run well, but also be run in a more regular, standard manner. When you as Dafa disciples achieve Consummation, you will hand the station over to people from the period of Fa rectification of the human world, and it will become a part of the culture of the future mankind. So you need to do a good job with it.” (Fa Teaching Given at the NTDTV Meeting)
Thank you Master, thank you fellow practitioners. If there isare anything inappropriate, please mercifully correct me.