Believe in Master and Fa Is Key Factor to Pass Test of Sickness Karma
Hui Lian, Melb
Greetings, fellow practitioners!
I obtained the Fa in 1996. An annual physical examination in January this year showed that I had problem in my breast and I was required to have a special check. I received a letter advising me to do another breast check. At the time everyone was busy with Shen Yun promotion and I said to my family practitioners: “Please destroy the letter immediately. This is the interference from the old forces and interference with Shen Yun promotion. If we keep the letter, we might as well acknowledge the old force arrangement.”
One month had passed. In mid March after Shen Yun shows were finished, I felt the pain in my breast all of a sudden. The pain then became severe and spread to my back and armpit. I felt the pain when I was walking and carrying things. I felt the pain when I wore tight underwear. I felt the pain even if I didn’t do anything. I had difficulty in putting on or taking off clothes. It was hard for me to get up or go to bed. There was about half an hour walk from my home to the train station. I had to stop regularly because of the pain. I had low-degree fever at night. When practicing drumming, every movement of beating was painful. I started to face the problem seriously and asked myself: are you a genuine practitioner? I think I am. Then true cultivator has no illness.
Master said in Zhuan Falun:“We've taken out the root cause of your health problem, the root cause of your being unwell”Since it was not illness, then it must be karma that made me feel so painful.
师父讲“所以安排中当你们达到一般圆满标准时，在世间还会有各种常人的思想与业力” (《正法时期大法弟子》)。消业就痛苦，“让你承受那一点难，遭一点罪，你一点不承受这是不行的” (《转法轮》)。
Master said in “Fa-rectification Dafa Disciples” : “So, it was arranged that when you reach the standard for ordinary Consummation, you still have, in the human world, all kinds of ordinary human thoughts and karma.” When karma is being dissolved, one will feel the pain. Master said in Zhuan Falun: “and what remains is only this bit of black qi that will come out on its own to let you suffer some and have some pain. It is forbidden for you not to suffer even a little bit." (Zhuan Falun)
If I had to bear it, then I would bear it. But why did the pain become more and more severe even though the dissolving process had lasted for quite a few days? I must have omission somewhere. The old forces were taking advantage of my karma and attachments to interfere with me and persecute me.
So firstly I started to study the Fa more and then look inward. I found that I had a very hidden attachment of “fear”. I was afraid of hardships and of being pointed out my attachments. I had deep qing to my daughter.
Secondly I sent forth righteous thoughts a lot more. In the first five minutes while cleansing myself, I added this thought: “Completely dismantle factors and mechanism of old forces that persecuted me in my cultivation. I am a Dafa disciple. Master Li Hongzhi is my master. I will not acknowledge or accept arrangement of old forces. I only accept Master’s arrangement for my cultivation. My attachments and omissions will be rectified during my cultivation. The old forces are not worthy of interfering me or persecuting me.” On several occasions I was in such a severe pain that I had this thought: was everyday person’s cancer so painful? I wanted to find out if there was a lump in my breast. Eventually I gave up the thought. My hand didn’t touch the breast. I realized that this was human notion. The old forces would like me to have this notion. I sent forth righteous thought immediately to get rid of this thought and crushed it every time it appeared. I would not give any opportunities to old forces. So when practitioners asked me if there was a lump, I told them that I didn’t know and I didn’t want to know so as not to expand my attachment.
Thirdly I continued doing the three things as usual. I went to the scenic spots to clarify the truth. I went to distribute flyers. In the park when I felt really painful when holding the truth-clarifying placard, I asked Master for help in my heart.“When it’s impossible to do, you can do it”(from Zhuan Falun). I remember that when teaching the Fa to Australian disciples in 2007, Master mentioned that our mighty virtue was also dissolving our karma. Then when we have done the three things well to save sentient beings, we would have gained the strongest mighty virtue.
Lastly family practitioners also must face this test with righteous thoughts. At the start my husband was very upset when he saw I was in such a pain. He was nearly moved to tears. I said to him that this was not illness and do not behave like that. We are Dafa disciples. If your qing was too strong, the old forces would create more hardships for me in order to test you. You should not have everyday person’s notion which the old forces would take advantage of. Then my family practitioners handled the situation with righteous thoughts and from the Fa perspective. They didn’t fall into the trap set up by the old forces.
With Master’s compassionate protection, I successfully passed this test which had lasted for almost one month. Every minute it was test to see how deep I believed in Master and the Fa. In the process, the most difficult part was to practice exercises. Every time doing exercises I was in tears. However, I didn’t stop doing exercises for a single day. One day I suddenly realized the meaning of “Great Consummation” at my level. From the Fa we know that genuine practitioners will reach consummation even if they are persecuted to death by the old forces. But that is not great consummation. Then what is great consummation? Great consummation will be when Fa-rectification period comes to an end, Dafa disciples follow Master to return home by flying up in broad day light. That grand moment that shakes the whole human world and the cosmos is the moment of the Great Consummation. That moment will also be a time that those practitioners who have been slack in or given up cultivation, feel regret and blame themselves. I realized that there are only two ways in front of practitioners: one is arranged by old forces and the other arranged by Master. There is no any other way. So we should unconditionally believe in Master and the Fa, negate the old forces arrangements, unwaverly walk on the cultivation path Master has arranged for us. This way we are walking towards Great Consummation. We then are worthy of Master’s compassionate salvation and worthy of the title of Fa-rectification period Dafa disciples.
The above is my current understanding at my level. Please point out anything inappropriate.