Cultivating in looking inward and coordinating with others
Greetings, fellow practitioners!
I came to Australia from mainland China about more than 2 years ago. I personally felt that the cultivation environment outside of China is also very tough, without diligently cultivating, one would be interfered by the evil factors from the other dimensions, and the efforts in helping saving sentient beings will be minimized. As Dafa disciples, the true meaning of our existence today is to help saving more sentient beings, but not for personal cultivation. Our cultivation status have a direct impact on helping saving sentient beings, so the requirements in outside of China is as stringent as it is in mainland China.
While cultivating overseas, the environment on the surface appears to be very relaxing, also there appears to have no trail of evil persecution. But in the aspect of looking inward and coordinating as a whole, the requirements are even higher and more stringent. In overseas, as long as you want to cultivate, you can participate in any group activities no matter how much attachment you have not let go. However, if we do not look within in our cultivation, it will have the overall negative impact. This kind of damage and disturbance normally will not be noticed by ourselves. Quite contrary, the interference will be regarded as to be caused by other people, it seems to be the problems of the others. Because at the same time, we are still busy doing lots of activities diligently everyday. Therefore, Dafa practitioners who are living overseas must look inward and cultivate within ever more stringently. We need to look at other practitioners’ good sides, even more emphasising in letting go of ourselves and embracing each other as a whole.
Last year I participated in a project, but at the end there were lots of conflicts between fellow practitioners. We broke up in discord. At that time, everyone felt right about themselves. I had also taken this matter to heart, always felt it is because certain practitioners' fault that caused the problem. And I always felt that the truth is on my side, even had the ordinary people's mentality of helping the weeks. This wrong mentality went on for nearly six months. I even told other practitioners:" Now I have finally had the taste of the cultivation environment in Sydney. No wonder Master had to dedicate a lecture to practitioners in Australia." All I can see is someone else's shortcomings while holding myself aloof from the masses. I have virtually placed myself outside the whole. But the benevolent Master had been waiting patiently for me to come to realize the truth.
Sometimes when my mind quietened down, I was in agony. I vaguely felt that there must be problems within myself. However, because it was difficult for my mind to quieten down, therefore I could not truly find out my own problems. Instead, it was easy to look at someone else's faults. I felt like no matter how I looked at it, I always had good a reasoning that: the only reason I worried about this matter, is trying to maintain the Fa and not for my own personal gain or loss. Therefore, I want other practitioners to change. This kind of mentality had stopped me looking within. I have tried to communicate with the practitioner who I had conflict with. Before I spoke to him, I kept telling myself to calm down, and to have compassions towards him. But very quickly we ended up having a most disagreeable chat, which resulted in communication broke down completely.
Time has come again to call for papers for this year's Fa conference, fellow practitioners asked me for contribution. I told them that I had nothing to write about, because I was lacking a good state of mind, I know I had problems, but unable to pinpoint exactly where they are. `I let out of my frustrations to a fellow practitioner over the phone, this practitioner then shared her experiences with me, we then chatted for hours. As an outsider, she sees through my problems. She didn't seem to be interested in any specific incidents that had just happened around me, she only sees my own attachments, and she pointed them out one by one. And she said to me:" the only solution to solve your problems is to look inward; you should calm down and have face to face candid talks with this practitioner that you had conflict with.
Fellow practitioner's sharing touched me deeply, at the same time I was reciting Master's "Further Understanding" in the <<Essentials For Further Advancement>>, Master told me:" The tests for you to pass are in fact meant to remove your demon-nature. Nonetheless, from time to time you have used various excuses or Dafa itself to hide it, and failed to improve your xinxing while missing opportunities again and again." "Do you realize that as long as you’re a cultivator, in any environment or under any circumstances, I will use any troubles or unpleasant things you come across—even if they involve work for Dafa, or no matter how good or sacred you think they are—to eliminate your attachments and expose your demon-nature so that it can be eliminated, for your improvement is what’s most important." Compare myself to Master’s teachings, haven't I just used work for Dafa to cover up my own attachments? I have read Master's Lecture "Fa Teaching Given to the Australian Practitioners" in 2007 many times now, but only when my mind quietened down and after comparing myself to Master's Fa principles, I realized that there are things I have not yet fully understood. In his lecture, Master said we should only be feeling sad about things that have not yet achieved if other practitioners were lacking in achievement, at the same time truly sympathize with them, and truly support them. And we should not criticize them, and force people to accept our point of view. Compare my action to Master's requirements, I was totally wrong, really wrong, I did not understand the words of Master.
Looking back to that unpleasant experience sharing I had before, even though I kept reminding myself to calm down and to be benevolent. But in fact, I was trying to convince him. The reason for my benevolence is to make the other party accepting my point of view, it is not the true benevolence. Therefore, the other party can not feel my compassion. I could not see my own problems and could not look inward, and I did not treat my fellow practitioner as my bosom friend. I forgot Master's Fa principles when going through tests myself, I used Master's Fa principles to judge other practitioners, wanted them to cultivate according to it instead of asking that for myself.
I have also discovered that there is an impurity in my mind, that is, whenever I saw, even just the thought about the practitioners who I had conflict with, immediately there are very negative images about them in my mind. These negative thoughts continue to strengthen in my mind, I even vented my negative emotions upon fellow practitioners who were friendly to me. Therefore passing on these negative thoughts to them, and if they had passed on to other practitioners, the whole negative field will spread even further. If more people were to be just talking about the thoughts of dissatisfaction of certain matter or disagreement they had with other practitioners or coordinators, then how could the whole environment become positive, how can we ever going to have a break through in annual Shen Yun performance. I was a part of the reason for this negative environment. At the same time, I kept coming up with ‘plausible’ excuses that it is due to other practitioners' problems. I even said that I have finally had the taste of the problem in Australia. Master mentioned in "Fa Teaching Given to the Australian Practitioners" in 2007 that nowadays, as soon as two Chinese met together, they often closed their hearts straight away. This is exactly what happened to me. If there was a problem in Australia, then I should first ask myself why. Master said:" Nobody should blame others for it, as everyone has added fuel to the flame," <<Zhang Falun>> Master also said: "Every attachment for you to remove in your cultivation practice is a wall, standing there and blocking your path of cultivation practice." - "Environment" from the <<Essentials for further advancement>>
Gradually I can feel that the road ahead of me is opening up, because I can finally see my own problem. During our night time media group Fa study, the person that I had conflicts with was also there. So in front of everyone, I apologised to him. I admitted that it was because of my own fault, I did not act in accordance with Master's requirements. At the time, I felt my eyes were a little bit wet. Finally I was able to look inward, without fixing my eyes on other people’s faults. After I finished my speech, I went around to that practitioner's side and wanted to talk to him alone. I then realised that his eyes were also wet; he was truly touched by my sincerity. Finally our hearts can come together and became one.
I was finally able to start looking inward through this incident, but in regards to other issues in my daily cultivation, the impurities in my mind come up constantly. Sometimes I would still have resentments towards certain matters or certain fellow practitioners. If it happened again, I now then say to myself:" Ok, my heart has been disturbed again. Now it is my chance to cultivate, I should not let this opportunity go pass by. It only happened because there are certain attachments in me that have not yet been removed, and now they are exposed through this incident. It is my chance to seize this moment of impurity within my heart, and get rid of it once and for all.”
While I am here, I would also like to thank my fellow practitioner who had spent hours of her precious times to share her experiences with me, pointing out my faults with compassion, otherwise I might still not be able to get out of my own predicament. As practitioners in Australia, we ought to land each other a helping hand. Within us, there are always certain areas or understandings need improving. We might hurt other practitioners’ feelings without even realising it. In times like these, we really need someone come to our aid with compassion, so we can get rid of our own attachments. I sincerely hope that every Dafa disciples in Australia can meet the requirements of Master, to form an environment as a whole that enabling us to look inward. So that we can create a good environment and atmosphere for Fa validation period, just like what the Dafa practitioners had achieved in Canada, therefore truly satisfy our Master.
Thank you master! Thank you, fellow practitioners!