我要做真修弟子

曉偉

尊敬的師父好

各位同修好

 

我是一個九九年得法的老弟子,得法之初就身心受益.多年的腰疼不翼而飛.沈迷不能自拔的賭博隱好也徹底戒掉了.我感激師父,讓我脫胎換骨.知道了生命存在意義,決心在返本歸真的這條路上走到最後。

 

九九年七月二十日,中共邪黨開始鎮壓法輪功,我從沒有動搖過,因為我深深知道,師父最正,大法最好.為此我在九九年十二月中旬也去過北京護法.接著在八年多的揭露邪惡,講清真相中,各種活動都積極參預.然而，修煉時間長了,求安逸心帶動下,漸漸有些鬆懈了.從零六年底開始潛意識裏,好像是法我天天學,正念天天發,真相天天講,跟上正法就行了.等法正人間時都圓滿了,我也落不下,以一種完成任務敷衍了事的心和狀態在修煉.其實這已經偏離了法,還沒有意識到,有這樣大的漏邪惡當然鑽空子了,造成學法犯睏.發正念精神不集中.煉功不能保證。在虛榮心的帶動下,不願意和別人交流,怕別人說自己修的不好.星期五大學法交流時,我雖然在那靜靜坐著,但思想雜亂,對別人的發言,品頭論足.如對某協調人有看法或不順眼,他協調的事聽都不想聽,甚至唱反調.暗地裏流傳的小道消息,從不去制止.心想,又沒說我,從沒想到我們是一個整體,說任何人的留言蜚語,跟說自己一樣，忘記了謠言止於智者的為人哲理。由於學法不入心,經常突發奇想給別人一些建議,給項目協調人打電話,用自己執著的人心和對方交流,美其名曰,我這是維護法,已經給別人的修煉造成困擾，抵消著整體的力量，被魔利用了,還不清醒.有一次打坐中,我的天目裏,出現一幕景象,荒涼貧瘠的土地上,一眼望不到邊,有無數的人在望著灰色的天空哭嚎,每個人,我都好像見過很熟悉的感覺,我心想,是不是師父點化我,這難道是我的世界? 真的不敢往下想。

 

今年八月初,師父把澳洲弟子叫到美國紐約去.專為澳洲弟子講了一次法,我在下面恭聽師父慈悲開示,驚出一身冷汗,知道了我們澳洲弟子整體走到了危險邊緣.是師父不願放棄我們以宏大的慈悲.又給我們一次機會.我也明白了整體的重要性.原來一個爛蘋果不會因為里面有一部分是好的而留下來。師父的佛恩浩蕩.讓我再次清醒的認識到,一個修煉人,如逆水行舟,不進則退啊.稍一不慎,前功盡棄,千萬年的等待,萬古的機緣,毀在自己執著心下.

 

從美國回來,我的頭腦清醒了.是師父幫我把不好的東西拿掉了,我恨自己太不爭氣了,為什麼修了這麼多年還有這麼重的人心,想左手抓著常人的執著不放.右手又想扶著天梯修成佛,道,神,多麼肮髒的一顆心,它包括,自私,奸滑,忘想,貪婪,用這顆心去修,那就是水中撈月,鏡中取花,謂之假修。

 

"沙灘上的鵝卵石,洗淨了用鍋煮,開鍋就喫."

 

我要做真修弟子,我理解要真修,首先做到信師,信法,信到什麼程度法就給你顯現那一層次的內涵.有一個修煉故事,一個師傅領著一個傻徒弟在山裏修煉,傻徒弟非常聽師傅的話.有一天師傅要出去雲游,臨走時,傻徒弟問:"師傅走了,我喫什麼啊"師傅告訴他說:"沙灘上的鵝卵石,洗淨了用鍋煮,開鍋就喫."說完就走了.一年後,師傅回來了,沒進廟門心想我那傻徒弟信我的話到什麼程度,看他的造化了,可進去一看,傻徒弟紅光滿面的在那念經呢,師傅到廚房鍋裏一看,有半鍋鵝卵石冒著熱氣.師傅笑著說:"傻徒弟其實不傻".這個故事故事說明一個理,就是傻徒弟信師傅的話.已經達到身神合一的境界,所以就有神跡產生.喫鵝卵石和喫土豆沒什麼區別.因為他腦子裏沒有自己的觀念,衹有師傅的話。

 

做到信師信法,說起來容易,做起來挺難的,知道大法好,但常中人的一切都會讓人不知不覺產生不同程度的執著.要想破執著,各位同修都知道,那衹有多學法,但學法不入心,只看到表面的文字,看不到內涵.為什麼?我的體會是,要做到信師信法,先從敬師敬法做起,敬分內外,內就是內心對法敬重.在日常生活中,與同修之間,與親朋好友之間,與鄰里同事之間,為人處世,都用大法去衡量,不符合真,善,忍,法理的事不做,不說,不看,不聽,不想.外就是表面,對大法書籍,經文要愛護,不能隨處亂放,學法時先洗手,衣著要得體整潔,坐姿端正,這部法,就是我們回歸的天梯,比我們的生命都珍貴,衹有時時刻刻對法的敬重,才能看到法的內涵。

 

現在我明白了師父讓我們向內找向內修的法理內涵，任何是都要在心上下功夫。比如，矛盾發生時，別人沒有錯，是自己做的不足，念不正造成的不和諧。當自己心裏產生擰勁,彆扭不舒服時,就是要去這些壞東西了.有這麼個好機會,去掉這些本不屬於自己的壞東西,真的發自內心向對方說謝謝,這些法理師父在<轉法輪>裏都講過,為什麼一到事情發生時,就控制不住自己,說白了,就是沒修.師父讓我們做好三件事的同時要修好自己,沒修好,三件事也做不好,自己都危險了,助師正法的使命能完成嗎?

 

師父給澳洲弟子講法時,心情沈重的講這麼兩句話:師父恨鐵不成鋼,但也沒辦法."我理解,師父要是沒辦法了,對一個生命來講是多麼可怕的事啊,鐵為什麼成不了鋼,是經不起淬煉,對修煉而言,淬煉的過程就是去執著心的過程.

 

最後用師父的經文,<退休在煉>後三句話來結束我的發言,機緣衹有一次,放不下的夢幻一過,方知失去的是什麼.以上為個人修煉心得,有不當之處,請慈悲指正.

曉偉

 

I want to be a genuine disciple

 

Hello respected Master. Hello fellow practitioners.

I am a veteran disciple who obtained the Fa in 1999. When I obtained the Fa, I benefited in both mind and body. The many years of hip pain all flew away. My deep, uncontrollable gambling addiction was completely eliminated. Thank you Master for giving me a second life. I know the meaning of my life』s existence. I am determined to walk to the very end on this path of returning the origin.

 

On July 20, 1999, The evil Chinese Communist Party began to persecute Falun Gong. I never wavered. Because I deeply knew that Master is the most righteous, and Dafa is the greatest. Thus, in the middle 10 days of December, 1999, I went to Beijing to safeguard the Fa. Afterwards, for 8 years, I participated positively in different activities, exposing the evil and clarifying the facts. As I continued to cultivate, I gradually became lax under the pursuit of living comfortably. From the end of 2006, it seemed that I was studying Fa every day, sending righteous thoughts every day, clarifying the faces every day. Unconsciously I began to think that I was keeping up with the pace of Fa rectification so long as I did these things. I would consummate when the Fa rectified the human world. I wouldn』t be left behind. I was cultivating in the state of wanting to get things done. In fact this was already deviating from the Fa. Yet I did not realise it then. With such a big gap, the evil would of course take advantage. So when I studied the Fa, I felt sleepy. I could not focus when sending righteous thoughts. I couldn』t guarantee exercises. Because I was influenced by vanity, I was reluctant to share with other people; I was afraid people would say that I hadn』t cultivated well. During Friday big group Fa study, although I sat quietly, my thoughts were messy. I was very critical of other』s speeces. For example, I had opinions about certain co-ordinators, or they just didn』t agree with me. I did not want to listen to anything related to their co-ordination of things. I was even opposed to them. The messages of the small worldly ways passed down – I didn』t ever stop that. I thought tha ti had never thought about us as one body. I rumoured about others.  I forgot and rumoured…I did not take the Fa to heart as I studied, and always wanted to let others know what I thought about them, ringing up co-ordinators, I shared with other people using my human attachments. I thought I am safeguarding the Fa. I have already created difficulties for others』 cultivation. And undermined the power of one body. I was used by the evil. And yet I still wasn』t clearheaded. Once, while I was meditating, by my third eye, I saw a scene. I couldn』t see the boundaries. Many people were looking up to a…in the grey sky. For every person, I had this feeling that I was very familiar with these people. I thought, is this Master hinting at me. Could this by my world/paradise? I didn』t dare to think further.

 

This year at the beginning of August, Master asked Australian practitioners to go to New York. He gave a lecture on the Fa just for Australian disciples. I was listening to Master teach the Fa. I broke into a cold sweat. I knew that our Australian disciples had gotten into a dangerous zone. It is Master that does not want to give up on us – His great compassion. He gave us one more chance again. I also realized the importance of the one body. In fact, a rotten apple won』t be left behind just because it has a little bit that is good in it. Master』s immense mercy. Helping me once again clearly realize that a cultivator – it is like a boat flowing with the current – you wouldn』t turn back. Hundreds of millions of years of waiting. Predestined relationships eternal – all can be destroyed under the influence of attachments.

 

After I came back from America, my mind was clear. Master helped me get rid of bad things. I regret that I did not make every effort to succeed. Why did I have so many human notions after so many years of cultivating? Why did I grip on to human attachments with one hand, not let go, and on the other hand want to ascend on the ladder to heaven and succeed in cultivating Buddha, Dao, God. What a dirty human attachment. It includes selfishness, slyness, idealistic thinking, greediness, cultivating with these thoughts – that is fake cultivation.

 

I want to be a genuine disciple. I realise that in order to be a true cultivator, firstly I must believe in Master and believe in the Fa. However much you understand the Fa, that』s how much the Fa will manifest to you at that level. There is a cultivation story. A Master led his disciple to the mountains to cultivate. The disciple was very obedient to his Master. One day, his Master had to go into society to wander about. When he was leaving, his disciple asked: 「Master you are going, what will I eat?」 His Master told him:

 

After that, he went. A year later, his Master came back. Before he even walked through the temple doors, he thought to himself, how much does my foolish disciple believe my words? Let』s see how he has progressed. But as soon as he walked in, that foolish disciple was chanting scriptures with full strength.

 

His Master laughed and said: 「the foolish disciple isn』t actually foolish.」 This story talks of a principle. That is, the foolish disciple listens to his Master』s words. He already reached the realm of body and mind as one. So miracles would occur. His mind didn』t contain any of his own notions. Only Master』s words.

 

To be able to reach the point of believing in Master and the Fa, it is quite hard. Knowing that Dafa is Good. But everything of ordinary society unknowingly stirs up our attachments. To break through these attachments. Fellow practitioners all know, it is only through lots of Fa study. But if Fa study doesn』t get absorbed, if we only can see the words on the surface, then we can』t see the inner meaning. Why? My understanding is that to reach the point of believing in Master and the Fa, first we must start from respecting Master and respecting the Fa…In our hearts we must respect the Fa. In our dailiy lives, with other practitioners, with friends, with neighbours, we must be for others. And measure things with the Fa. Don』t do, don』t look at, don』t listen to, don』t think about anything that is not in line with Zhen, Shan, Ren Fa principles. Externally, we must look after and cherish the Dafa books and articles, don』t just leave them lying around anywhere, before Fa study we must first wash our hands, our clothes must be neat and tidy. Our posture must be upright. This Fa – it is our ladder to return. It is even mor precious than our own lives. Only if we respect the Fa at each and every moment, then we will see the inner meanings of the Fa.

 

I now understand what cultivation is. When the Dafa association informs us of decisions, I do not use human thinking and post-natally formed notions to analyse it and criticize it. Instead I harmonise with it, because the Dafa association is nominated by Master. It is a part of the Fa so we should follow it and don』t ask why. Form one body. When conflicts arise, other people will always be right, conflicts surface in our own hearts, when we don』t feel comfortable, that means we are getting rid of those bad things. With such a good opportunity, to get rid of those bad things that are not ourselves, truly from the depth of our hearts thank the other person. Master has talked about this Fa principle in Zhuan Falun before. Why is it that when things happen, we can』t control ourselves. Frankly speaking, we haven』t cultivated. Master wants us to cultivate ourselves well at the same time as doing the 3 things. If we haven』t done well, we won』t be able to do the 3 things well. It is dangerous for ourselves. Can we complete our grand task of saving sentient beings?

 

When Master taught the Fa to Australian disciples,

 

My understanding is that when Master doesn』t know what to do, for a living being, it is the most horrific thing. Tempering yourself in cultivation is a process of getting rid of attachments.

 

Finally, I want to refer to Master』s article

This is my own cultivation sharing, please kindly correct anything not appropriate.

 

Xiao Wei